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Powerball

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I have a secret that I have been avoiding to post. When I first arrived back in California I had an urge to test the law of attraction, or manifesting my thoughts and desires in my reality through conscious intent. When I would go to purchase a ticket the Nameless were not to far behind. I assumed that they did not want a person like me playing the lottery in California because if I won they would have a problem controlling me. I have plans to travel and stay mobile to make it difficult for them to try to control and influence me.

The interesting part of this observation is that as soon as I purchased a ticket one of their minions would enter the store after I left. I did not go back into the store to see what they were doing, but it was too consistent. They started to intimidate me by waiting outside the store staring at me. I eventually lost interest in playing the lottery because I was unable to win anything and I had a feeling it was somehow being fixed by them. 
As large a presence the Nameless have in this reality I could see that they would use something like the state lottery to enrich their organization. If you are new to this blog and have not read the past posts, those I refer to as the Nameless have the ability to hear the thoughts of others as well as prescience. It would not be too difficult if the winners were their many minions giving the prize money to the organization or purchasing goods and services from their extensive network of business. 
Powerball

When Powerball came to California something interesting happened. I played one time using the kiosks or vending machines instead of going to a store and purchasing the ticket from a cashier. As I purchased a ticket there was someone behind me, slightly off to one side as if the were looking at the numbers I was selecting. 
I purchased some tickets at a later date, and suspecting that someone will be standing behind me, I selected numbers randomly as fast as I could, my own version of the quick pick, without knowing what numbers I was selecting. I finished with the first ticket I turned to see a woman standing behind me as the other person did the first time. She had a confused look on her face as if  she was having difficulty keeping up. I repeated the process a couple of other times as fast as I could and took my tickets and turned to walk away. A cast a glance in her direction and she looked down at the floor. 
Powerball is a multistage lottery and the Nameless might not have the ability to control the prizes even if they might have a high success rate using prescience (they might not have 100% accuracy using prescience) there are far too many players to secure sole winning tickets. 
If I win any sum of money I will post it here. Imagine if the Nameless with their abilities of prescience have been winning the lottery for some time. Talk about easy money. 
Etheric Energy Device

One of the warnings I received pertaining to the device I use is that it has the capacity to enhance the ability to manifest thoughts in reality. The warning came from the person that created the device after using several devices at the junction points of a tetrahedron he constructed. The tone of that warning was somewhat ominous. 
The device I am using has aided me in the ability to manifest my thoughts in this reality (enhancing the abilities I had acquired from the void and from the use of white powdered gold) but, this ability has been limited by the Nameless when they use their own electromagnetic devices on me in the past on many occasions.
NOTE: I had written this post as a draft at first and did not post immediately. The Nameless came out of the woodwork last night and did their best to keep me occupied. Their attacks lasted until after the Powerball numbers were made available and then all of a sudden the attacks stopped. I guess they were trying to prevent me from trying to manifest a winning ticket. I did not try, I still haven’t looked at the numbers of my last ticket purchase, maybe I should. 
I will edit and update this post at a later time, I just wanted to get this out as fast as possible. The Nameless do not seem to be happy about my lottery activity. This needs more attention. 
More to come.

The Following Day

The day of the Powerball draw was interesting. My neighbors were home, not usual, and they were keeping tabs on me, even the neighbors that just moved in. There was a lot of foot traffic in front of the house as I was working on some projects. The entire day was a bit odd to say the least.

Today the neighbors are all away from home and it is pretty quiet, normal. The electromagnetic activity is lower, but still persistent. I am looking forward to the next draw to see if it will all happen again. The minions of the Nameless are pretty consistent in their behavior. They either can’t resist or they aren’t capable of realizing how obvious they are. This makes me wonder if they are a bunch of mindless zombies playing some sort of game.

More Fear

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The long dark emptiness of the void
LITANY AGAINST FEAR

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.

The “Litany Against Fear” is from the novel by Frank Herbert’s Dune series. Still one of the most important works of science fiction to date.

On the morning of my journey through the void, my very own spiritual resurrection. The fear was so overwhelming it occupied all of my senses. I was consumed by it. I ran from that fear. The violence that I thought I had perpetrated made me want to run. Hundreds and thousands of beings chasing me. Sirens were blaring as I ran fighting through a level of confusion I had never ever faced in my life (I cannot remember correctly, but I believe I heard them shouting ‘there he is’). I ran under an overpass and turned to face the pack that was chasing me, but there was nothing there. Silence, peace and the unsettling emptiness of the void. 

I found myself at a familiar street corner S.O.F.A. South First Street Area in downtown San Jose ( S. First and E. San Salvador). There were beings, several of them, pushing me and calling me names. They were referencing my racial heritage they used every possible innuendo. I felt their hatred, it was the most hatred I had ever felt at one time. As I stood there in the middle of the intersection they where shouting and pushing me. They surrounded me. I felt their hands as they shoved me toward each other. I did nothing. I focused on nothing. I did not fight back and then it stopped. I was standing in my apartment covered in sweat, exhausted, but relieve the fear had passed through me. 

I now know the perpetrators of the horrors I faced that morning. The Nameless where there forcing that fear upon me. They were the ones pushing me. I can almost feel who they were now. I can almost recognize them. I can do this now because they are at it again. I can feel them focusing their fear upon me. It is distinct in that it comes from outside of my self. I can almost sense it’s direction and source. It is not like a panic attack where the source comes from the mind generated by thoughts of known fears, this fear is without substance. Raw fear that allows you to fill in the blanks. 

I recite the litany against fear and focus upon the moment and the fear subsides. I recognize and focus upon the source. I look back at the perpetrator and the are forced to look away. I tell them that karmic retribution is at their door, it comes for them. I apologize, but note that it is not my doing, I am only the witness. 

The past few days, have been heavy with this fear. The Nameless know that I am able to manifest my thoughts in my conscious reality (as you do also). They know that if they can induce fear in me I will manifest my own monsters. Fascinating tactic, they plant the seed and I nurture the beast. 

They do most of their evil deeds when I sleep (radiation, inception). I am most vulnerable at that time, we are all vulnerable at that time. We wake up and the notion of fear creeps into our daily life. We look for it and then we find what we are looking or focused upon. 

They are persistent. Many, many sources. The minions are out in force staring at me from a distance dong their part. Poor soulless souls, slaves to empty promises. The pendulum now swings in the opposite direction. The age of fear is subsiding. I fear they will be lost forever, clinging to the bushes and grasses of this place for several eternities. 

Fear And Loathing in Hawaii

In Hawaii there was one rather large man of Samoan/Hawaiian descent. They would call him to follow me when I left my apartment. It was during the time I was writing me ebook. The fear they induced in me became real when I saw him. As this tactic continued I began to question what I was feeling and I would leave my apartment and then return quickly to an elevated parking garage at the apartment building. I saw him walking towards the apartment talking on the phone and looking for someone. I watched him standing beneath my observation post in the garage. He was waiting for me so he could play his part. The last time I saw him we walked toward each other. As we approached each other I looked him in the eyes and he looked away. He continued walking, nothing happened.

In the recent past they have sent strangers to my door. They just walk up when I am in the garage and try to act friendly in a menacing way. This stopped during my recent year of inactivity and has resumed again. I suspect that they will take it up a notch. I will post those instances here.

Fear As A Method of Control

We hear in America live in a perpetual state of fear. Constantly bombarded by news segments of impending harm, death and debt. We are not safe and there are those that offer resolutions, safety and sanctuary. Noam Chomsky stated that they create the problem then offer their solution. The solution often requires that you give something up in return (civil rights, liberty). The Nameless offer that they will stop this fear mongering if I stop posting on this blog. I can go back to a life free from fear if I give up my right to live my life in any way I choose to. I can not accept their meager offer. I tried to ignore them, but my life stalled in a perpetual loop indicating I had to act. I refuse to live that way.

I have created another phrase by witch I refer to the Nameless. I have called them parasites of consciousness, but it seems the are also bullies of consciousness as well. The offspring (little demons) of their minions are bullies as well, practicing their craft at a young age to be applied in adulthood. Generations of bullies for their cause. Let’s see if I can draw them out from behind the darkness and safety of their anonymity and coax them out into the light for all to see. That’s what this is all about. They were revealed to me some 14 years ago and now I can no longer ignore them.

Fear prevents any significant movement to higher levels of consciousness. Fear interrupts the flow of energy from the heart (heart chakra) to the brain (crown chakra). Fear is the electric fence that defines the prison of this existence. Fear occupies the place where positive emotions can flourish. The evil of the Nameless is based upon fear. Subdue the fear and disarm the Nameless. Often the threat of harm is far more powerful than the harm itself.

Why Do I Persist?

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Update

The high amount of radiation that I reported while posting the previous entry did in fact effect me negatively. I still had a high level of energy, but some abilities that I was acquiring, again, were taken from me again.

I was starting to notice that I was starting to effect my conscious environment with my intent and witnessing immediate results. It is kind of like being in the zone all the time. I would pitch a balled up piece of paper into the trash and it would go in as I intended. I began to pitch and look away and it would fall right in.

I through some garden shears behind me and walked away knowing that they landed with the blades stuck in the ground. I would return to see that it was so. This was starting to effect my confidence level as this knowing was beginning to effect everything I was doing. Intent was starting to become natural, but then they took it away from me with a heavy dose of electromagnetic radiation.

This sort of thing is being shown on YouTube. Seemingly impossible trick shots performed by normal everyday people. One thing I know about the Nameless is that they love to show off. Arrogance is one of their characteristics and probably their undoing…

This is actually a good thing. I am learning. I know that my devices are working to reestablish my energy and my natural abilities. And I have also found that the sun is the source of this energy and with that energy flowing though my body I can replenish it with direct exposure to the sun. As I have stated in prior posts, the Nameless are actually helping me.

Why Do I Persist?

Why do I persist? Why do I continue this seemingly futile attempt to ascend?  

I’ve come to the most difinitive answer to date. I want my life back. I want the intimate relationship with consciousness that I gained after exiting the void. I want to reconnect with the greater conscious collective. I want to continue my evolution and ascension. I do not want to remain a prisoner of this existence, I want my emancipation.

After exiting the void and ignoring what the nameless were offering, the Nameless began to take away my energy. Like vampires the began to suck the life out of me. This vital energy is essential for ascension, it is essential for well being and physical health, it is essential to continue my journey and my purpose.

When I am content they do what they can to take that away from me. When I am in the flow of creative consciousness they take that away also. I am fight for a life of contentment, creative expression and to make a life for myself that is free from their influence and control. 
I am a warrior of consciousness and I refuse to give into the will of those within this existence that prey upon others. The Nameless are true parasites of consciousness and serve no other purpose than their own. They have been influencing humanity for ages and are responsible for our suffering and this futile human condition.

Take a look at the world today. There is much suffering and imbalance. We are entering a time of perpetual war under their control and influence. I defy them because I cannot live in a world of their making. I fight because I know that there is a life waiting for myself and others trying to do whatever is necessary to pursue and establish a world of peace and prosperity for everyone. I am not alone in this fight, they know that also…

Preparation

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I have noticed for some time that much preparation is being disseminated via the news and entertainment outlets here in America. They are preparing for us for something that will include China.

I am not referring to war. I am referring to China’s role in our future. When I exited the void and returned to this existence the very first people I saw, save for the security guard, we’re Chinese tourists. I referred to these tourists as time travelers, but more accurately they should be called tourists of consciousness.

While living in Hawaii the two ethnicities that at the forefront of my subjugation were Caucasian and Chinese. They are also the most dominant ethnicities on the planet. Dominant not in the militaristic sense, not the financial, but dominant within the higher levels of consciousness itself. I can only speculate as to why this is so because I do not have the necessary evidence to backup my assumptions yet. The nature of consciousness is very subjective because our conscious perceptions are dependent upon our level of accession, energy and our inherited cultural beliefs. The nature of consciousness is too personal to be explained succinctly.

China has a long history of understanding the human body’s energy pathways (chi, meridians), consciousness, the role of the moon (full moons are auspicious for the Nameless), divination (I Ching), folklore (supernatural powers of Kung Fu and Tai Chi). I believe that the Chinese may have mastered consciousness itself. How they are using this knowledge is not known to me at this time, but they are trying to keep me from this realization as with others like them.

One thing I have noticed is that China seems to be pillaging the earth. Are they doing so because those in control have found an exit?

Ley Lines and the Nameless

Ley lines are the natural paths of energy flow on our planet. They are near places of ancient temples pyramids and ancient cities. The lines could be considered to be an electrical grid, but most importantly it is the places where the lines intersect that provide intense power (bioelectric energy). Pyramids have been reported to have been discovered in China. It has been reported that these structures have been painstakingly hidden from view. There is a lot of censorship in China, just what are they hiding from the world?

While living in Hawaii I spent most of my free time in the ocean. I surfed in the morning and would alternate swimming and cycling, along the coast, in the early evening. One thing I began to notice was the way I felt after surfing. The more time I spent in the waves the more energy I began to accumulate and when the ocean was flat and I did not surf this energy would diminish. It was not until I returned to the mainland that I would discover why this happened. I received a hint through my intuitive channels and it pointed to the ley lines particularly the intersection or vortex near the Hawaiian islands (must not forget the land vortex of Kiluea – ref. Nassim Haramein).

I have been trying to define the Nameless ethnically in the past, but it has been difficult to do so. But when I started to understand the relation between ley lines and the energy vortex positions it started to become a little more clear. The island of Maui has the greatest Nameless population density that I have ever experienced, but there were a lot of bicultural (mixed racial heritage) in the people that I saw. Vietnam is near a ley line vortex and I have seen many Vietnamese Americans in San Jose that have the attributes I ascribe to the Nameless, people from the country of India, Mexico, Europeans as well with each having powerful ley line vortices within their geography. There seems to be a connection between powerful ley line vortices and ethnicity or nationality within the group I call the Nameless.

The Nameless are using the relationship between these energy vortices and consciousness. I believe that this energy has the ability to aid in ascension. I believe that this energy has the ability to cause conscious metamorphosis (awakening). Although I have been unable to attain the energy levels I once had in Hawaii, I believe that I can if I visit these places where the energy is most abundant (not necessarily a ley line or vortex). As I mentioned in my ebook Yosemite’s Half Dome is one of those places, it is the first place I noticed a change in my own level of energy. There are many and one in particular that I visit regularly, that is occupied by the Nameless, is James Lick Observatory on Mt. Hamilton (I now remember that there were high concentrations of the Nameless in the Bear Mountain area near San Bernardino CA. also).

Nature

In nature the other species that inhabit this planet are well aware of the benefits of this energy, where it accumulates and how to use this energy. The most obvious place is the ocean’s waves. The image above is of a brown pelican. If you spend time on a beach where ocean birds are present you will notice the birds surfing the waves. It looks like they are surfing the air being pushed by the wave, but I believe they are recharging or feeding off the energy (bioelectric) of the wave itself. Dolphins, seals, sharks and other large fish do this also. There is something contained within the wave that is vital to life itself. I believe that this energy originates at the ley vortices within our oceans and is carried to our shores by the waves. The levels of ozone in the air along our coasts may have something to do with electrical nature of this natural energy.

If anyone has spent time in nature they notice there is a difference, but they may not know why. Our lives in cities are filled with artificial radio waves and artificial structures that disrupt the natural energy of the earth. In cities we are disconnected, stressed and depressed because were are not receiving this vital energy. Surfers that are unable to surf become depressed and agitated because they are unable to recharge or bathe in the natural energy of the earth transported by the waves not because of the activity itself.

There is nothing like the feeling of being propelled by a wave. I miss the times when I was swimming at Ala Moana beach park during high surf. The motion of the waves lifting my body as I swam through the water was the most relaxing and energizing feeling I have ever felt. You cannot get the same experience swimming in a lake, it’s just not the same.

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I am aware that most of this is speculative and based upon my observations and experiences. But they do coincide with observations others have made public. This blog is not a definitive assessment of all of consciousness. It is a journal of my experiences that I hope will be a guide to others like myself that are seeking answers to the nagging questions concerning their own journey through consciousness. Believe it or not we are all in this together, all tied together. There is much, much more to this existence than we are capable of understanding. Don’t allow anyone to deny your right to experience the limitless expanse that consciousness has to offer.

Interestingly Nassim Haramein and Marko Rodin live on the Hawaiian Islands. My ominous adventures and discoveries climaxed while living in Honolulu. Something is happening in Hawaii.

NOTE: As I was preparing to update this post there was a very strong electromagnetic wave of radiation that came over me 05/09/13 12:53 PST. It was the strongest I have felt in quite some time, since the attacks in Honolulu. It just stopped and I do not feel drained or adversely effected by it. What it tells me is that they do not want this information to be disseminated and I am evolving beyond their technology.

Changes

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The only heaven and hell that exists is the one that you create for yourself. There is no salvation waiting for the moral and noble, nor is there purgatory waiting for those that choose a life that harms others as well as themselves. You don’t have to wait for the end of this existence in order to reap the rewards or punishment for your actions, you are reaping them right now. Some of you might be satisfied with all that you have accomplished. Satisfaction breeds mediocrity and complacency. That by which you surround yourself with, the accomplishments of your actions, shrouds yourself from much more. Satisfied or dissatisfied, it is mostly up to you and your actions.
What I am discovering is that the Nameless are just as limited as the rest of us. Take a look at the existence that is seemingly controlled by this group of people (beings), they are as faulty as the rest of us. They have difficulty in reigning in those that are lucid in the dreamworld of this reality. They control by fear and desires of their own making. The most difficult part of understanding this level of existence are the habits that keep you here. Your actions no matter how insignificant have a role in the amount of vibrational energy you possess at any given time. The more vibrational energy that you are able to maintain protects you from the influence and actions of the Nameless. I have discovered that by quitting some habits, that I have known to be an inhibiting influence in my life, I am making progress in ways that were not expected.

Lead Me Not Into Temptation
I cannot be sure of what I am experiencing at all (not necessarily a bad thing). I still struggle with understanding everything that occurs an how much influence I have on the creation or manifestation of everything within my experience. I do see that I am constantly being tempted, but I cannot discern between my thoughts and possibly the influence of others. As I gain energy (vibrate at different frequencies) my conscious cloud changes. It becomes less dense and expands to allow me to see more. This also increases the amount level of temptation. In the past I would succumb to those inhibiting habits and fall back to that stagnant existence of my reality. I am more in command at this time.
The temptations are signs of progress and are no longer desirable. My desires are focussed upon emancipation.
There is something to the many monks that have given up on the temptations this existence has to offer. It is beginning to make more sense to me as I sort out my own path through the maze I have found myself within. There are as many levels of temptation as there are levels of ascension. I am now using abstention as a means to ascension. Higher (or different) levels of vibration attract similar levels of tempting experiences. To indulge (a form of attachment) causes a kind of “wait state” until you are able to free yourself from it. It is an ever evolving process of creation, manifestation and the resulting reaction that again recreates and re-manifests. Think of a fractal image that is collapsing or expanding upon itself with subtle vibrations altering the image as it moves through time. Desirable elements of the fractal image can carry you with it, thereby taking your attention from the constant evolution. This is my best and current explanation for what I am able to discern from my experiences. Temptations are distractions and this existence is full of distractions. It is as if we have entered into a level where we have given into the distractions for such a long time that we can no longer escape it. This existence is the island of the Lotus Eaters. Are the Nameless are providing these distractions or are they exploiting our apathy towards our true purpose?
I have gotten to a point where I can witness how my conscious experiences are effected by others in my life. I am able to see how their vibrational energy effects their own conscious experiences, predominant thoughts and desires when they are near me. I am not sure if my vibrational energy is amplifying their thoughts or if I am just able to witness them create their life in real time. I am able to see how people come into their conscious cloud in order to facilitate a desire (thoughts, intentions, both positive and negative in nature). I can observe a person move past me and see the interaction of their conscious reality unfolding before them. I can see this because I am still transitioning from one paradigm of thought to the next. It is a difficult task to stay focussed on the creation of my existence all the time. There are far too many bad habits as well as the many years that have allowed those habits to find a sense of permanence. I am aware, so I am able to make corrections and adjustments in attitude to continue.
Paying For Attention
I am reluctant to post this information here because of how it effects my conscious experiences. This is also a forum that the Nameless have used in the past in order to understand my current level of vibrational energy. I have posted some experiences in the past that have proven to be helpful to the Nameless in their endeavors to inhibit my progress. The Nameless are doing their best to get close enough to me to know what I am up to, but they are again standing out in the crowd. The higher level of energy I am able to maintain the more difficult it is for them to monitor me with their minions, they have to do it themselves. When they come out to observe me I sense them. It is as if they were transmitting a signal that lets me know where they are. I am doing what I can to continue toward my path of ascension, but I cannot reveal all that I am doing at this time. When I post my experiences here I have to give them a certain amount of attention. The attention I give them brings our conscious clouds together, it gives them the opportunity to interact with me. The more time I spend giving my attention to ascension and emancipation the farther I move away from them. I look forward to the moment when I no longer grant them a thought.
Correctional Institution
The days when I used psilocybin regularly, prior to my journey into the void, I used to see my existence as a mental institution. Living spaces (track homes, dorms, barracks, apartments, quarters, communities) looked too confining. Living spaces and work places confined and defined everyone. Good behavior is rewarded and grants someone a opportunity to move up the ranks (gain special privileges). Before discovering (or entering this state of consciousness) the Nameless, I noticed that there were people in my life that seemed to be attempting to influence me. Now that I am aware of the Nameless I have these minor epiphanies concerning the role of the Nameless in my past experiences. Join us! Be more like us! I belong to this congregation! I am a member of this organization! I work for this corporation! Most of them were all steering me into a role of servitude, serving the group. It is funny the only thing I ever really wanted was something they could not give me, my emancipation from this existence.
This existence, reality, is a prison. I try to stay away from quotes from popular films, but a quote from The Matrix cannot be ignore. This reality is a prison for the mind. There cannot be a better description than that. Heaven and hell can be found here if you choose to follow the well worn paths that are made available to you. The work you do is for them. The national pride you have is for them. The cultural boundaries are to keep you segregated. The limitations that you may or may not perceive are methods of control. What you do not know is that there are many other alternatives. Most of you will fail at finding an alternate path. It is not because you are physically or mentally weak, it is because you have too much invested in this reality to abandon it (family, friends, property, cultural and social accomplishments). If you are like myself and you are capable of risking it all to find what you are looking for, you will find it.
Risking Everything
What can you give a person that wants nothing?
I am kicking down the limitations of my (un)conscious experience. That by which defines my reality is breaking under the relentless stress of my will. I no longer feel that I might be delusional. That affliction was just a phase necessary to rationalize my experiences. What I experience is as with any dream, both real and unreal. As I continue to understand this I am better able to exist. Chipping away at the boundaries of this prison is revealing a lot of cracks. Each one of those cracks presents opportunities and further incentive to continue.
I’m gett’n ready to rock my world… I have never been so focussed. As things change I gain more focus and gain greater desire to see this through to the end (if there is an end to this infinite journey). I am actively conducting my conscious interaction with the greater consciousness. A strange part about all of this is that I should be amazed, but it seems all too familiar. I cannot be sure (of anything), but I might have done this before. How long have I been here? How many times have I gone through this? I wonder if I am close or just stuck in a loop. It is important that you never allow your mind to get caught in a routine (a downward spiral).

Awakening

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She held a gun against my head. I had a feeling that this was going to be it. I just closed my eyes and surrendered to what was going to happen. I waited, the gun went off. I felt a blow to my head and felt the blood running down my neck. I fell over on my face and everything began to go black. But, then I became aware that this was just a dream. I grabbed for the gun and took it away from her. I grabbed her by the throat and began to drag her as I got up and walked away. I had no harsh feelings for her, she was just a character, a prop in this unconscious experience. The awareness of the dream became stronger and I woke up. My body was shaking, but my mind was calm. I thought it was odd that my body shook almost uncontrollably, but my mind was still and observant. I lay there and began to smile as I thought about what had happened and observing my calm and content emotional state. I was unmoved and unconcerned. My body became relaxed and I fell back asleep unconcerned about the dream I just experienced. I woke up a few hours later remembering the dream and its significance.
With some of the things that I am doing within the reality of my existence, I am again seeing the edges of this reality. The amount of control I have in the creation of my daily activities is fascinating, and also very humbling. The moment I acknowledge my part in the manifestation of events in my reality I am reassuring myself of the possibility of it. I am like a child beginning to walk and move about. I am no longer confined to the crib of my benightedness. My new awareness is changing me (whoever I am). The habits that have kept me here (wherever here is) can no longer be tolerated. Whatever that inhibits my ascension is becoming detestable; a part of me that I no longer know. I am again dancing on the edge of this level of consciousness. I see people that I don’t normally see. The attractive ones that stand out. The ones that I feel or sense as they enter my conscious cloud.
The spooks (nameless minions sent to scare me) are making themselves seen, but they don’t bother me. I know who they are and the purpose they serve, but they are unable to override my feeling of content and my overall sense of well-being. They come by and present themselves, but I have little fear or worry. The awareness of dreaming that I had experienced in the dream I mentioned above is similar. There is a part of me that takes over and I realize that there is nothing to be afraid of. This is all just an unconscious dreamworld, I can no longer deny this. I refer to our waking reality as an unconscious experience, because it fits. This reality is so far from being conscious that we no longer know what it is to be conscious.
Eternal
I have recurring thoughts that I might have died on my way through the void. There are other events in my life that I might not have survived, but consciousness continued as if nothing had happened. The vibrational string of my life continues. The many permutations of my creation expanding as the universe of my consciousness expands. One thread ends, another begins and I never know it happens. But, I can now see the truth in it. I can see that there is no end. There is an end to this delusion though and it begins with the realization that there is no end. 
We are eternal. Aging and death are just ways that consciousness gives us another chance to get it right. We spend too much time trying to get ahead when we should be trying to go beyond this reality.
 Perseverance
I am starting to put it all together. One action causes a reaction within my conscious cloud and I am better able to interpret the meaning. I am learning what I need to do from consciousness itself. As I continue to tear down the veil of this delusion I see the flaws. What I have been perceiving as real is falling apart and the flaws can no longer be set aside. It is as if the once perfect performance (theatrical) of this reality can not longer stand up to the scrutiny of my new awareness. I am driven by my dissatisfaction of this existence. I occasionally find myself fighting off a desire for retribution, to find those that have worked so hard to keep me here in this deprived state for so long and release my discontent upon them. I hope that those feelings will continue to fade.
I am diligently trying to hack this reality. It is as if I am manipulating my conscious awareness, knowingly altering my state of being, ultimately altering my state of vibrational existence. I have taken the blue pill and I am entering a state where everything (everything) is possible and nothing is real. 
More still to come…

Something’s In The Air

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<!– @page { margin: 0.79in } P { margin-bottom: 0.0TTTTTTTT The last post seemed to bring a lot of attention on many levels. It is always good to get some feedback and I appreciate it. Some of the feedback has not been so good, but appreciated. The Nameless have stepped up their use of electromagnetic or RF (radio frequency) radiation on me. It has a been a little different from the constant exposure I originally received while in Hawaii. There seems to be a given protocol that is followed when it comes to suppressing someone like myself regardless of the geographical differences. I thought I would try to explain what I have been experiencing. You might find that you may be experiencing similar symptoms to the exposure.

I remember taking my HAM radio license test and receiving interesting amount of attention from the members of the local HAM radio club that was hosting the exam. The majority of the members in the club as well as the majority of people taking the exam were, on some level, part of the organization I refer to as the Nameless. They spent a good deal of time scrutinizing me from the moment I arrived to the time I departed. My knowledge concerning RF radiation is limited, but I know a little bit about what electro magnetic radiation is capable of, concerning the human body. It makes sense that the Nameless would be keep their members informed and licensed about the use of radio frequency if it was being used for other purposes other than communication.
I am not going to go into depth concerning the radio frequencies, because there are plenty of online sources that could do a better job explaining what they are, how they are generated, as well as the many different types. What I would like to say is that our environment is saturated with them. The sun and other stars produce radio waves. The radio active materials in our environment produce radio waves. Power lines, the electrical current in your home, the wireless router, your mobile device, the monitor you are using to view this post, any electronic device can produce levels of radiation. Most of the devices are subject to FCC regulations, and they are all supposed to be safe for limited amounts of exposure. We live in a sea of electromagnetic radiation and as the use of mobile technology increases the level of saturation must also increase. The thicker the levels of electromagnetic radiation the easier it is to hide something within them (sub-bands, sidebands, phase modulation, polarization modulation).
So you might ask, what’s the problem? The problem is that the human body is an electrical system. Electricity flows through the body and is necessary in order to live and function. Too much  electricity (direct contact) is harmful or fatal depending on the level of current, particularly amperes. Tasers uses high voltage to incapacitate you, defibrillators use high voltages to restart your heart while your home’s electrical current can kill you with low voltage and a mere quarter amp. We are electrical beings and too much electromagnetic radiation in our environment produces interference. But, what is the threshold? What level is low enough to go unnoticed, but high enough to make you feel despondent, lethargic, hyperactive, confused, depressed, angry, aggressive or indifferent? There is also the aspect of more subtle electrical transmissions from the brain that are being interfered with by this sea of radio waves that permeate our environment. The radiation is not natural and should be considered a kind of unseen environmental pollutant that not only affects the physical body, but also spiritual consciousness.

Radio On The Brain
That song that popped into your brain while you were walking to the car and then the same song plays on the radio after starting the car… I cannot claim that the brain is capable of receiving radio station on the FM band, but it does happen enough to make you wonder. The brain is an electrical system that can be manipulated with magnetic fields. Fairly strong magnets can be placed on the skull of a person and the person can feel the disturbance that is being created in the brain. Science has been able to manipulate magnetic impulses to manipulate the mood of an animal and human subject, information on this has been around for a very long time. You can purchase CES (cranial electric stimulation) equipment to help you with depression or addiction. The brain is susceptible to direct and indirect electromagnetic stimulation. There are numerous nonlethal weapons that utilize electromagnetic principals to control people. It would be naïve to think that similar, more subtle, technology would not also be available.
I know that I am not just imagining the warnings (in the form of radiation) that I receive from the Nameless. I have felt many different levels of electromagnetic radiation from their technology since they began to overtly prohibit my ascension. The more recent levels of radiation are just enough to disrupt my state of well being. I find that when I am trying to improve myself in any way I can feel the radiation start to build. N-back training, increasing my career’s skill set, meditation all seem to be interrupted by the sensations of the radiation followed later by the symptoms of exposure. The last couple of weeks were interesting, in that I have been using their persistent and habitual need to control me, against them. I have devised some means to counter act the radiation that attempts to distort my more positive vibrational states of my energy levels, my will, and my connection to source consciousness. Interestingly enough, it centers on my ability to shield myself from the sea of electromagnetic radiation, particularly their ability to focus this energy at my current location.
Reducing Exposure
I had discovered that cycling in wilderness areas often presented me with elevated levels of energy, but since I did not live in a wilderness area it was only a temporary respite. One particular method of shielding anything is to encase it in a metallic jacket, as with most communication wires and cables. I began to construct a faraday cage large enough to enclose my body and test out it’s effectiveness. It worked better than I expected, but it also brought about a change in consciousness. I was able to shut off the buzz that was interfering with my electrical bio-body and I noticed that there was a definite jump in my attitude and overall outlook. I found that I was better able to concentrate, sleep and feel better in general. This physical change began to open up a even deeper connection to source consciousness. I started to notice a direct change in my conscious surroundings. As I began to elevate my energy levels (change my conscious vibrational state), I started to see more of the people I call the Nameless, not their minions but the more ascended ones. The frequency to which our paths would cross increased significantly, and they weren’t too happy. The Nameless turned up the heat so to speak to try and alter my level of vibration, offsetting the time I spent protected within the faraday cage. They were effective in disrupting my feeling of well being and I used that time to try to discover some other countermeasures.
When the intensity of the EM radiation increases I can sense an electrical prickling feeling over my skin. As it continues I can feel it in my head as the pressure begins to build. This is often followed by difficulty in thinking and focusing (as I am writing this post they are doing their part). They have been trying to keep me from posting on this blog for some time, but they have increased their activity since my more recent experiments. Interestingly enough they have been able to produce feelings of lethargy and an overall mediocre mood. I can alter (counteract) that mood when I am able to get into the faraday cage of get out into the wilderness (local wildlife preserve away from the urban settings). I am able to turn it off (shield myself) and monitor the change in my emotions (positive vibrational conscious state) and then allow myself to be exposed to their radiation and observe myself slide back into a mediocre mood. I am witnessing this in real time as they alter my vibrational state with radio waves. I have to say that this is fascinating shit!
The faraday cage is a very important tool, and when it is coupled with the energy device it has the ability to shield harmful radiation while concentrating, filtering or enhancing beneficial etheric energy inside the cage (interesting effects on water and food). This is one of a few methods that I have used, the others I will keep to myself until a later time (I can’t reveal everything yet), the basics are in the faraday cage and the etheric energy device. IF you decide to use those two tools together and experiment on your own you must go slowly. Altering your vibrational state in this manner has some temporary side effects. Proceed with caution and in time you will begin to discover other uses.
I almost forgot to mention that if this electromagnetic interference is effecting everyone then it explains a lot about our current human condition on this plane of existence.

Our Limited Reality

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Two people are standing on the same street corner at the exact same time of day, both are distracted and focused upon something else. There is a commotion at a coffee shop across the street, and a man runs from the coffee shop and into traffic. A car slams on its brakes and swerves towards the two people standing on the street corner. The car hits a fire hydrant, and the entire street corner is engulfed in a spray of water. The two people run for cover in a nearby market and look up and recognize one another. One says to the other where have you been, I have been waiting for you for the past 15 minutes. The other says almost the same thing. They both go over to the coffee shop for their preplanned meeting and talk about what just happened. They get most of their story right about what they witnessed, but they can’t agree on everything. A person is sitting next to them in the coffee shop. He hears what they are talking about and smiles because he thinks they are both wrong about what happened. 

We are constantly interpreting the reality we see, but we can only interpret what we have already seen. In other words we can only interpret something that has already happened and not what is actually happening. In order to interpret what is actually happening our mind would have to be capable of prescience. That is to see it before it happens, interpret the information and react as it actually happens. The lag between seeing something and responding is called reaction time. It is within the reaction time that details get discarded, or filtered out. The filter is not a standard instinctual built in filter that we all share, it is based upon accumulated personal experiences called your frame of reference. You see it, interpret and filter the information and then you react. We are all actually living in the past. The only time we do not live in the past is when we are meditating. No thought, no interpretation, no time, just the moment, for as long as you can make it last.

We have all experienced a series of events and tried to recall everything that happened. Some of us get it right, but most of us miss key elements within the events. This is partially because we are distracted, preoccupied with other thoughts, or multitasking, but rarely in the moment. We are also limited by our natural abilities and senses. Our eyes are capable of seeing a limited portion of the known visible spectrum. We see by reflected light and have limited night vision. Our ears are severely limited and our sense of smell is one of the most retarded of most mammals. We know this because we have created tools that can see, smell and hear the things we cannot. We also know that our tools are limited in reading and interpreting everything contained within our reality. We know this and we accept it without questioning.

We realize that our mind is limited, well, most of us realize this. Many of us believe that what we are seeing is real and not a series of electrical impulses interpreted by our brain (hardware). The mind (software) then attempts to make sense out of what we are seeing. If we are having difficulty understanding what we see, or we are inundated with too much information in a short amount of time, we become confused. Within confusion is a storm of activity where some interesting things are happening. We begin ease our confusion with information we are comfortable with. Our frame of reference steps in to calm the firestorm of confusing synaptic activity and filters the information leaving out the more confusing aspects by substituting them with familiar images and information. We know this and accept it without questioning.

We know that the mind is severely limited by the accumulated images and information that is contained within it (memory). It is very difficult if not impossible for the human mind to create something that does not resemble something that already exists. Even if we were to encounter something that we do not have a point of reference to, it may not be possible to see it at all. If the mind does not have anything closely related to what it is attempting to interpret it might just make something up, something that is the best possible mockup of what it is attempting to interpret.

One of the tools we use to navigate our reality is that we do so by making comparisons. If there is a need to describe something then a common aspect must be established. If that common aspect cannot be established communication, interpretation, visualization, etc… stops. We know this because it is impossible to describe the color red to a person that has been blind since birth. People that have been blind since birth lack the visual information necessary to understand what you are talking about. Blind people have the ability to feel and hear their surrounding environment. Is impossible to describe the color red as a tactile sensation or audio vibration? It is also interesting to note that people who have been blind since birth dream in what can be loosely described as cloud like shadows. The emotional content of their dreams are still present, because they have the necessary information from their waking experiences. Emotions and sensations occur without the visual imagery because the brain lacks the visual data. The brain/mind cannot create something that it has no reference to. If the brain/mind was capable of creating something without any reference, then people that have been blind since birth would dream as sighted people dream.

There are some people that have extra sensory perceptions. The ability to see future events. The ability to know what others are thinking. The ability to see apparitions; dead people. We have seen these people in action on television and even carnival side shows. On the other hand there are also people that are able to turn off sensations and emotions in order to endure a painful event. As well as, super human feats of strength during times of crisis. We know this and accept it without questioning, but can these abilities be turned on and off at will? The limitations of the brain and mind might be due to the manner in which we use it. Could there be a means of controlling and activating the known and unknown (dormant) abilities of our brain and mind? I don’t know of any instructions on how this can be accomplished, but that does not keep me from trying.

Psychedelics

The mind is a terrible thing. It filters out much of your everyday sensory information. If the mind tried to interpret everything within the so-called reality then it would probably melt down (aka nervous breakdown). The mind filters a very large portion of the various external stimuli from the environment and also turns off sensations that cause too much of a distraction. It does so without your conscious input. Attention to these sensations are deemed unnecessary through environmental and social conditioning. The imagination is stunted at a very early age. A child that is able to see things that their parents cannot see is scolded or sent to a psychiatrist. We are all conditioned to disregard the strange and unusual that exists in our everyday conscious experiences. Our once open mind has been shackled and confined to one mundane point of focus. If you think I am wrong then you might consider turning on the external stimuli that are shut off. If you are like most people you’re not going to be able to do it. It is not because it is impossible, it is because you do not know how. Do not fear, there are chemicals abound to help you temporarily turn on those sensations one by one or all at once.

Natural plant substances that exist in our reality that are capable of turning on parts of the brain exist for a reason. Primitive cultures accidentally stumbled upon these substances while they were gathering food. Various mushrooms, roots, bark, plant leaves, flowers, cacti, minerals, elements are capable of partially, or permanently, freeing the soul (consciousness) from the body. Altered states of consciousness expanded their understanding of consciousness. Imagine what occurred in the mind of the first person to experience Amanita muscaria (the famous bright red mushroom with white spots), psilocybin, or peyote. To not have a reference to an altered state of consciousness and to then slide into a completely foreign plane of existence is nothing less than extraordinary. What is more interesting is how that experience changed their conscious reality. Not to mention the frequent use of psilocybin having a side effect of increasing visual acuity of primitive cultures as an aid in surviving their natural environment. I am not going to continue on about the relationship between plants and humankind because there is plenty of information on the subject of ethnobotany by Terrence McKenna and others.

I am not convinced that 2012 is anything to worry about, but it may be something to be consciously prepared for. Dec 21st may not end in a big bang, it may just be the beginning of conscious evolution. I do want to mention that we as a society have outlawed and banned the personal use of psychedelics and have suffered because of this. We live in a spiritually stagnant evolutionary period because we are not comfortable with altering the conscious experiences of this reality. I believe this is being done on purpose to funnel our conscious experiences, or reality, through only one of many possible avenues.

With all the limitations of our senses how can we really know what is real? It is easy to trick the mind and senses in believing something contrary to what actually exists. Knowing all the limitations of our senses and mind how can we consciously accept our reality as being absolute. We do so because we have to conform to this pre-conceived (more in the sense of being created or formed prior to our arrival) social construct in order to survive it. Take note as to what I am saying: We have to believe in something that might be a delusion, accept it and participate in it because we fear that non-participation may lead to difficulty or an premature end to the delusion, otherwise know as death. For some reason , it resembles a snake eating its own tail. We still accept this even though we agree that life is difficult. We do not want it to be any more difficult so we participate. The current social construct makes sure of this, participate and conform or perish. The recollection of the act of repeating this delusional cycle is sometimes celebrated. People talk about past lives as if it were some kind of accomplishment. Are they? I believe that this cycle can be broken, making the achievement of immortality more of an accomplishment worth noting.

The constraints of our social construct serves only the social construct and not the individual. We have well established acceptable behaviors on all levels of social conduct (and ethnic, cultural, national, juvenile, criminal levels). It is possible to be too “out there” (crazy) for most people to understand. There have been far too many visionaries that were labeled insane or demonized, most of them being women. We proudly protect our conscious reality by medicating, institutionalizing, and killing any one that is a threat to its validity. We even search for predispositions of divergent traits in children to shut them down with medications before they have a chance to manifest.

When someone sees something that others cannot see, or they see it in a completely different way, it is tagged an abnormality. Because the majority cannot see it then they must be abnormal or insane, even though, as I have mentioned above, people are unable to see everything due to the physical and mental limitations of our organs and senses. As a whole we have not evolved in a direction that would appreciate thoughts that diverge from the general consensus of this reality, mostly due to fear.

Seeing

When I describe what I see, I know what has to happen in order for this to occur. I know that illusions, as well as delusions can exist in my mind while I attempt to interpret my conscious experiences. As this is happening, I know that I am only seeing a small portion of what may be vying for my attention. I also know that I may not be seeing everything that is happening nor am I able to interpret everything; not at this time anyway…

These people I call the Nameless are real enough for me to have worked with them and for them. I have stood behind them in lines and provoked them to become uncomfortable just by taunting them with my thoughts. I have been mistaken for them by their minions and treated as if I were important or a celebrity. I was invited to their parties as they attempted to indoctrinate me into their exclusive group (At these parties their women would stand by my side as if they were presenting themselves to me as a gift). They have presented me with opportunities to work among them, a “privilege”, I rejected. I have sat in their offices and listened to their medical diagnoses. I have attended and visited their educational institutions and even dated their daughters. Many years prior to my journey through the void, one of my best friends was/is one of them. They are more than just a delusional artifact of my conscious experiences. And, yes I have considered that I might actually be one of them that had lost his way. In any event, I have been called a mutation by one of them, but I prefer to be referred to called an anomaly.

I see this reality differently. I agree. As I started to notice the differences I could have disregarded them. After my exit from the void, it would have bee a lot easier for me to just ignored or to have submitted to them when they attacked me in Hawaii. But, I was given a glimpse into something that I cannot forget. Believe me I tried to forget, to try to be normal and participate in this grand delusion as if it were real. Because of this glimpse into an entirely different conscious reality I cannot – I will not – pretend it never happened.

Am I deluded? I do not know for certain, but I am on my way to finding out what it is I am actually experiencing or unable to experience. I have chosen a path that leads me away from the cycle of birth and death. I take nothing for granted and everything is suspect. But I now have a lifeline that tethers me to something substantial, something familiar. No matter what this reality throws my way I have something to keep me connected to source consciousness.

So what keeps you grounded? I hope it isn’t this reality, even the ground (earth) we stand upon might be just a manifestation of consciousness and nothing more. But, that might be enough for you. For myself, I want something more. If what I search for does not exist then I will find a means to create it.

Note: I have used the word manifest as a means to describe the act of creating something or to provoke it into existence, but it does not mean the same thing. Manifest and create are not completely interchangeable. Manifestation connotes the sublime, while creation is etherial.

Rules for Ascension?

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We live in a society that has many rules (requirements, guidelines, directions). There are rules that govern just about everything we do. There are even rules that govern spirituality, a.k.a religion. Most of the rules concerning any mention of ascension primarily concerns the life lived prior to death, with death being the gateway to ascension and the life lived prior to death that determines if you ascend to some state of heaven, nirvana, etc…  In other words, the life you live determines if you will ascend (be rewarded) after death.

What I am looking for are the rules to ascend prior to death. I am asking anyone to show me where this knowledge exists. I have asked this before and I am still trying to find out if there are general rules that are well known, understood and practiced. Please feel free to provide the answer to this question in the comments section.

Just to be clear, I am not looking for rules that define ascension after death in the text of the Koran, Bible, Torah, Rigveda, The Diamond Sutra, Kangyur, Tao Te Ching, Bagavad Gita, etc… I am looking for rules that would allow anyone to ascend while they are alive. We have all heard that love is the true path to enlightenment, but does it also apply to ascension? If there aren’t any rules or instructions to ascend, then why? It seems as if ascending to higher states of consciousness has been left out of our social dialog. Why is this the case? Shouldn’t we all be trying to ascend and/or transcend our current state of being?

Let me be clear what I mean by ascension. Ascension is to rise to a higher state of consciousness where virtually anything is possible. To be able to be in harmony with consciousness in a manner that allows you to consciously create your reality in a more direct manner. To be connected to consciousness where all knowledge is available to you. It is a state where you no longer use your mind to think because you exist in a state of knowing. Because you are completely connected to consciousness, it is also a state of immortality.

Impossible? I beg to differ. My experiences have given me a glimpse of what is possible. My more recent experiences have revealed to me that there is a group of people or beings that are limiting any attempt to ascend past a certain level. Are they ascended beings? Most of them do not have character traits that I would associate with ascended  state of being. They are traits of people anyone would refer to as normal negative human characteristics. These people have a means to limit the ascension of others and deciding who may do so. In doing so, what are the rules and regulations that they use to make this decision? Are you eligible? Do you meet their requirements?

Why Do We Settle For Our Current State of Consciousness?

I believe that we do so because we know no better. We accept the rules that govern our current state of consciousness as law. The social construct constantly reminds us that there is no other state of being. New age and esoteric systems of belief are limited by our current state of consciousness. Even the laws of attraction mostly concern material possessions. I do not want material possessions. I want to ascend past this realm, the realm of the Nameless.

I have seen what the Nameless have to offer. It is more of the same of what I now experience. It is an easier life, but it still involves work. It resembles a state of servitude. But, to whom are we indentured to? If what I have seen is correct and it is realm of indentured servitude, then who made this contract on our behalf? We are born, indoctrinated by the educational system, work, retire and die. If we follow the rules we are rewarded. Even after death we are rewarded with heaven, but there is no guarantee. Even within the ranks of the Nameless there is a definite hierarchy of status, somewhat like the military. There are even traces of this within our mythology; mankind, demigods, angels, lower gods, and the God. What level of status do you occupy? Are you even part of the ranks?

I am seeing our current way of life with much more clarity. What are we trying to ultimately achieve? Moments of joy between extended periods of strife and stress. Hoping for a better tomorrow. Even the rich hope for more power and wealth. What about the Nameless? I believe they hope to maintain this paradigm to keep us in the darkness and serve their needs; whatever those needs are…

I am making my way past the realm of the Nameless. My connection to consciousness grows deeper everyday, but I still feel the persistent tug of the Nameless. The initial pull was from a once ferocious beast, but now it is not so fierce. In time they will not exist. It is the knowing that I am part of something grand that quells the fear the Nameless wield. I have seen past their promises and know that there are no rules that govern what can be attained by anyone within the realm of consciousness. One thing that I am certain of, when you step up, consciousness will make room. Everyday you get another chance to step up. Ultimately the only thing that can stand in your way is you.

Follow Your Heart

What is the vibrational state of an ascended being? Can you ascend to a state that you have no reference to? In order to change from one vibrational state to the next you have to know what the next vibrational state feels like. I have experimented with many different vibrational states. My frame of reference might be broader than most. I have been trying on different, or altered, states of consciousness because I never really felt comfortable in my current state. I always felt (knew) that there was something wrong. I now am focused upon my connection to consciousness. It is the first time that I feel close to what can only be described as home.

My connection to consciousness is steady. I feel it as a low rumbling that seems to emanate from the region below my heart. It is similar to the sound of Om, but not quite like anything I have ever heard or felt before. When I focus on it, I feel contentment; fearless. It is always present and probably has always been present. I don’t think that anything harmful has been manifested when it originates from the heart. It is my guide, let it be your one and only guide. If there are any rules to ascend then these may be the best ones; Rule #1. Follow your heart. Rule #2. See rule #1.

I am looking forward to the next moment while being present within the current moment. I can’t contain the excitement of all that I have yet to experience. I am in awe of consciousness and all that is contained therein, and yet this is just the beginning.

For Every Action, There is a Reaction

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My last post must have been more accurate than I thought. I can always count on the Nameless to react to my actions that threaten the paradigm they depend on to maintain this grand delusion. Now that I am inspired by, and connected to, source consciousness my journey is taking me away from anything that might be an obstacle to my ascension in its many forms.

A Mental and Physical Workout

The day was a good day, just as I intended. I have been humming along guided by an undercurrent of well-being. It is becoming easier to connect to it. A couple days ago I was overcome with the fact that I am truly fearless. It was a new aspect of my new state of well-being. Everything I did had an air of confidence. I did not concern myself with worry about anything. I found myself living in the moment and within the moment everything was beautiful.

The day was beautiful. A bright sun and crystal clear skies were joined by a windy chill. I could not wait for a chance to go for a bike ride. Late in the day I gathered my gear and set off my ride and a chance to capture some pictures of the setting sun. I exited the house and rolled down the street. I saw the one of the Nameless minions (half-bred hybrids of the Nameless and their brood) that lives at the corner walking out with his cell phone in hand. I did not care, I just hummed along my way.

I am aware that all I see is there for me, nothing is a coincidence. This is my dream unfolding before me, co-creation with source consciousness. I pay attention and make adjustments, nothing is taken for granted. I  connected to the hum of source consciousness, set my sights on a wonderful ride and put the minion out of my mind.

I rode along the back roads I had not been on in a while. I saw the new homes and neighborhoods that have been built where there used to be nothing but pasture and open space. I was enjoying the ride and the accompanying feeling of well-being. I had traveled about 10 miles, I could have gone further, I wanted to,  but the sun was about to set. I turned around to head back home and started to look for high ground to take in the setting sun.

I turned into one of the new neighborhoods and climbed to the top of a hill. I watched the sun set and took pictures at different intervals. Soon after the sun set I rode down the hill and headed back home. I started to notice that I was starting to worry. One thought lead to another and soon my mood went into a downward spiral toward fear and frustration. It felt as if something was dragging me from my connection to source consciousness, kicking and screaming. I fought back and began to focus on the moment and more positive emotions. I was locked in a battle to rid myself of the negativity that suddenly came on with my own style of mental kung fu.

The sun continued to drop behind the mountain and the bright orange yellow sky was being consumed by darkness. I was still battling the negativity, punching and kicking them back and replacing them with a sense of accomplishment and joy. and suddenly it stopped. It was like a light switch being turned on eliminating the darkness within me. I suddenly remembered that I had this experience before. When I was locked in a daily battle with the Nameless while living in Hawaii, the time during sunset was particularly difficult. I was always overcome with negativity during that time of day. I began to realize that the negativity was coming from someplace outside of me. Once I realized this, I was able to fight it off. Living in an apartment surrounded by the Nameless made me an easy target. Now it is more difficult for them. Now they have to hit a moving target.

A big grin filled my face and washed over the rest of my body and spirit. The feeling of well-being was back. I was grateful and I noticed how much I missed feeling it for those 20-30 minutes of negativity. That auspicious time during the change from light to darkness was being used again to try and separate me from my growing connection to source consciousness. Wow, I won that battle. The fearlessness of the moment returned to me. I could feel the hum of source consciousness again. Did they accomplish what they set out to do? Did they occupy my thoughts so that I could not focus on well-being during that auspicious slice of time?

I rode past the corner house where the minion lives and I looked toward the front door. There he was, standing on the front step shrouded in darkness. I could see his pudgy silhouette detailed with the same clothes he had when I left on my ride. I smiled and thought to myself “nice try”.

I remember that a car rode past me with the window down a few days ago. The passenger had an iPhone in his hands. I could see he was looking at an image. He then started to close the window as they drove past. I wondered if he took a picture of me as many people seem to do from time to time. I wonder if the Nameless use those images to help them focus their negative thoughts on me. This technique is often used to aid in meditating when someone is attempting to help heal another. I never thought it could be used to harm another person. I guess there may be something to the psychic soldiers as portrayed in the movie “The Men Who Stare at Goats“. I now know they can reach me from any distance so it is important for me to pay close attention to my emotions at all times.

The Litany Against Fear

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.

Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.

I will face my fear.

I will permit it to pass over me and through me.

And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.

Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.

Only I will remain.
Bene Gesserit – Dune by Frank Herbert

I still don’t hate them for what they do. Hatred has no place in my life. I know it is the nature of the beast, they just can’t help themselves.

I am grateful for all those known and unknown allies that have helped me to gain my current level of being. I can finally begin to see my life unfold in a grand new direction. I am unable to express my appreciation for your help, but if you look within me you will know how I feel. Even though I am having to take this journey, I have a greater appreciation for what I have accomplished.

Vibrational Coherence

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Birds of a feather flock together. Because we exist in the same space we must be vibrating at the same frequency. We can only experience things of similar frequency, but what about things of the same frequency that are slightly out of phase? Is it possible to be slightly out of phase and not see something or someone that is occupying the same space?

Phase difference is the difference, expressed in electrical degrees or time, between two waves having the same frequency and referenced to the same point in time.[1] Two oscillators that have the same frequency and different phases have a phase difference, and the oscillators are said to be out of phase with each other. The amount by which such oscillators are out of step with each other can be expressed in degrees from 0° to 360°, or in radians from 0 to 2π. If the phase difference is 180 degrees (π radians), then the two oscillators are said to be in antiphase. If two interacting waves meet at a point where they are in antiphase, then destructive interference will occur. It is common for waves of electromagnetic (light, RF), acoustic (sound) or other energy to become superposed in their transmission medium. When that happens, the phase difference determines whether they reinforce or weaken each other. Complete cancellation is possible for waves with equal amplitudes.

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phase_%28waves%29

This page has been broadcasted over a satellite network and out into space. This page and the information contained within it existed in a variety of digital forms and frequencies. Is it possible that this web page can exist on many different dimensions of time and space to be seen by beings of different vibrational frequencies? Crop circles might come to mind whenever I think about how this might be possible.

Phasers?

During the time when the Nameless were using their technology to drain my life force from me, the following day I went out to the market. I noticed that the neighborhood I lived in was different. There were sketchy people standing on the corners as if they were dealing in stolen goods. Most of the people I saw looked as if they were suffering from some kind of substance abuse. Everything looked as if it were run down. The vibrational level of my immediate environment was the lowest I had ever experienced. Just a few days before everything seemed normal, comfortable and pleasing.

The following days I was able to regain my energy and return to my normal state of being. I also saw an improvement in my immediate environment. The people I saw were healthier and the sketchy dealers were nowhere to be seen. The neighborhood was cleaner and clearer. I had always noticed the changes in my environment were a direct response to my thoughts and actions. These were the clues or breadcrumbs that sustained my curiosity and ultimately lead my psychedelic trip through the void and the resulting revelations.

Where the Nameless able to alter my vibrational frequency enough to change my conscious experience or put me out of phase with my perceived normal conscious reality? (Normal conscious reality? Is there such a thing?).

Altering States of Consciousness

My use of the energy device that I have found along the way, as well as alchemical, meditation and pranayama techniques has allowed me to move through varying vibrational states. My weekly trips into natural spaces also helps to positively alter my vibrational state. The type of people I meet depends upon the level of vibrational energy I am able to sustain. Each vibrational energy level is occupied by corresponding types of people.

Vibrational coherence is the ruling paradigm of consciousness, or at least my own consciousness. There is one puzzling aspect of what I am able to experience, the terrain remains the same. If I see that my energy level is low and I go into an area that I know is usually occupied by people of higher states of energy, I notice that they are not present. I often wondered why this is so. In my ebook I attempted to explain this by stating that we all exist in a cloud (or bubble) and these clouds of consciousness allow us only to experience people of like vibrational energy. Dissimilar energy vibrational states would repelled each other, but all existing on the same plane of existence or dimension. I am having second thoughts about my initial hypothesis.

I am now leaning toward the possibility that everything is occurring in the same space and time. The size of the space is irrelevant, because consciousness accommodates and provides enough space to allow for the environment no matter what it is; ie a street corner, a city, a planet, galaxy or universe and also existing in infinite levels (layers or dimensions) of frequencies. Time is irrelevant because it is more of a conscious manifestation of humankind. 

Strings

Science is using string theory to describe the universe or multiverse. In string theory thin membranes separate one dimension from the next. It is the vibrational frequency of a dimension that is the container of the universe of like vibration. I am wondering if the vibrational frequency of an object or being in its home dimension, that gets out of phase, is able to shift into another dimension. The possibility of existing in two or more dimensions at the same time would begin to explain what I am experiencing as well as various paranormal phenomena.

What I am beginning to believe, is that there are infinite levels of vibrational states within consciousness (layers of consciousness). We are shifting through these vibrational states unknowingly. In order to shift from one dimension to another, it is necessary to change your vibrational state. There are many things that can do this. Psychedelics, meditation, addiction, well-being, illness, thoughts, nature, electromagnetic interference (cell phone towers, HAARP), etc. can alter your vibrational state in either direction. Vibrational coherence of consciousness moves you into the appropriate dimensional space for your current vibrational state.

What I am also beginning to believe is that it is possible to consciously change your vibrational state and move into other dimensional layers of consciousness. Meditation proves that this is possible on a small scale, but what limits us is that we are only aware of one dimension or layer. It would be difficult to move into a another layer or dimension if you do not know it existed, unless you did it by accident.

If you want to experience a completely different dimension you could use a very powerful psychedelic called salvia divinorum. Salvia experiences can shift the user into a two dimensional space time experience. It is an uncomfortable experience, but it serves the purpose of expanding consciousness. Other psychedelics can expand consciousness by giving users not only an altered state, but also an alternative to their current state within consciousness.

Consciously moving from one level to the next would be easier in a natural environment. Shaman used caves as sacred places to commune with other states of consciousness. Were they unknowingly shielding themselves from some kind of interference? Or where they knowingly isolating a particular vibrational frequency appropriate to initiate a conscious phase shift?

Where is Here?

When I exited the void and returned to this current state or realm of consciousness, here. I noticed people observing me. I called these people time traveling tourists. I still see them now and again from time to time, but not on the scale immediately after that eventful morning. Stories of beings moving from one dimension to the next defying our perceived physical laws is nothing new. I know that there is a lot more happening than we allow ourselves to see. It is a scary notion, so its easier to bury our minds in the comfort of our limited conscious experiences.

There is also a possibility that I did not return to my home dimension. I feel that I am out of phase and this could be a valid explanation for what I am experiencing. But, there is on thing that is constant, and that is consciousness. I am finding that there is only one vibrational state that matters and that is to be in tune with the source frequency or phase of consciousness.

Pay attention to the vibrational state you are currently in. Also understand that what you are currently experiencing is just one of an infinite assortment of vibrational states, dimensions and universes contained within consciousness. When you venture off to discover new realms always follow that positive guiding emotion of contentment and well-being. It is the only concept of “here” that is relevant.

This post was much longer than I intended. Believe it or not, I never intend to write so much, but it inevitably flows out on its own. Consider this a short version…

Consciousness – Ver. 1

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Anyone that had ever taken the time to define consciousness, was for the most part, wrong. They were also right and somewhere in the middle. Consciousness cannot not be defined universally. I mean to say that it there is not one single answer (I realize that I am trying to explain, and ultimately define, consciousness – the perplexing fuzzy nature of consciousness). All answers are right, and wrong.

Religion is a means to describe and understand consciousness. Most religions define consciousness as God or Gods. There are so many different religious beliefs and manifestations of those beliefs that have come and gone probably far too many to know or be able to record. The many faces of mythology are proof that consciousness is multi infinitely faceted. Not all religions agree, but anyone can see a single thread that weaves them all together. What is consciousness? What if it was up to you to decide.

If I would say that you are the center of the universe, this would be an understatement on a very grand scale. It does not matter if you are sitting in your room, standing on a mountain or at the center of a galaxy, you are at the center of consciousness. It can be no other way. You view everything from a single point in consciousness, your consciousness (your very own private Idaho). This is true for you and everyone else. Nothing new here concerning the self centered philosophies of old. This is one of my personal facets of what consciousness means to me. I am sure it will change over time or become irrelevant.

There have been many times when I have attempted to define consciousness. Pages of words that regurgitate the words of those that have come before me. When I read the drafts, journals and notes of my own attempts I see that they are very different form each other. I do not see a single thread that weaves them all together. Some of them no longer connect with me. I am beginning to see why.

Consciousness is a moving target. Consciousness is a metaphor, an apparition of the past present and future states of being existing in the moment. As I sit here again trying to put my feelings into words, I have a image in my mind of a child being tended to by its parents. I am a child of consciousness? I now get an image of cells dividing, expanding and again dividing. Anything is possible and everything is a valid representation of consciousness.

Before I posted this I was struck by the thought that any attempt to define consciousness also limits consciousness. A label or container that confines a concept. I can see why many people have used the terms infinite and formless as a means to describe consciousness.  They still do not do it justice.

I posted this against my better judgement. I want to see how these words effect my consciousness and how they manifest themselves within my conscious experiences…

I Am Making Progress

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My goal is and has always been to ascend to a higher state of consciousness. When I discover how to transcend this plane of existence I will. I don’t have anything to prove to anyone. I guess if I would have been successful I would not be maintaining this blog, I’d be connected to the source again and creating a new realm for me to exist in. Since that is not the case and I have run into a few sangs along the way, I continue my journey. With everything I have experienced, how do I know I am making progress? I pay attention to my conscious surroundings.

Everything that you experience is there for you. The moment when you change your world view to this paradigm is the moment when your life will change. There is nothing that happens in your life that is meaningless. Just as everything in a dream has purpose so does everything within your waking dream. The mind really does not distinguish a dream from your so called waking reality. When you sleep and dream you believe everything is real. You believe the same for the waking dream world, but you will not fully realize this until there is something else to compare it to.

I pay attention to what I experience during the day and just like my sleeping dreams my attention will be directed toward a significant character or event. When my life is stagnant or caught in a loop my life is uneventful concerning significant events. Sometimes I like it that way, considering my more recent experiences. The important thing to do is to pay attention to as many things a possible. To do this you need to be present in the moment. You will then notice the things that are trying to get your attention.

When I am paying attention I am connected to the source and in the flow of well-being. Things that need my attention get my attention and I am navigating the dream that is my life. When the activity of those trying to prevent my ascension is high I know that I am doing the right things. When their activity is low I know that I need to try harder. (There are other things I use as indicators that I am not going to mention at this time. There are some things I need to keep well withing the confines of my personal conscious realm.) They will always let me know when I am going in the right direction for me, and the wrong direction for them.

A couple days ago after basking in the glow of well-being, and posting about it, I felt the familiar sensation of having the life drained out of me. Whatever technology of ability that was used was identical to what I have experienced and endured in Hawaii and Los Angeles. What used to prompt fear in me know only excites me. As I felt the life being drained from me, I just smiled. I said in a low voice to them “c’mon you can do it” “send me back to the source”. This was the first time that I had felt that sensation since moving back to California. It seems the Nameless in California haven’t yet realized that I do not have a problem going back to the source. I will do the same thing I had done when I entered the void. I will recreate this life as I did before. This time, I will not be confused. The abilities and level of ascension I will attain will not be wasted the next time.

Soon after I acknowledged that I was ready and that I was not afraid, the sensation stopped. I cannot be sure if there was another intervention of some kind, if there was I am grateful nonetheless. After the effects of the experience faded I realized some things. I am ready to transcend by any means no matter what happens. The will is the strongest and important tool I have and with it I can do anything. And, when they do those things to me I know I am making progress.

They Can’t Help Themselves

Today I went on a bike ride. Due to the weather I had not made a decision on my route. I came to a point in my ride where I needed to make a decision and so I stopped and checked out the direction of the clouds and waited for the right emotion to point the way. The Long flat route through the area or climb in the foothills. Foothills felt better than a flat ride because I also wanted to get away from the electromagnetic radio interference in the suburban sprawl, so I started up the hill. As I started to leave the more populated areas I suddenly felt that continuing up the hill would not be a good thing. I started to feel strongly about it and then I decided to turn back. As soon as I completed the u-turn, my attention was drawn to my left. I saw a Chinese couple, in their forties or fifties, staring at me. They were standing near the parking lot of a condo/apartment complex staring at me. One of them was smiling at me or smiling because of my action. I rolled down a few more feet and then realized what had happened. I turned back around and I peddled back up toward the hills and when I came back to the place where the couple was standing, they were gone. All this happened within a minute or less.

The Jedi mind tricks of the Nameless were in force, again. I am able to discern when they do this to me more now than before. There is a reason why I like to go to natural places that are free of the electromagnetic interference. I can regain and maintain a level of energy, or chi and I am able to make a deeper connection with the source energy (greater consciousness, life force, or God – take your pick). They know this and keeping me away from the natural places helps them keep me in check. They were there to influence me to ride within the confines of the suburban sprawl. It almost worked, but I am getting better at maintaining my attention and also realizing that my own gut feeling feels different than their Jedi mind tricks.

In the past here were many times when I felt a need to leave or suddenly change my mind. I believed that it was my gut, or intuition, that was directing me. I no longer believe this to be the case. The Nameless are capable to influencing you. Most of the time they do this to keep you out of an area they are occupying. Sometimes you may even encounter a person that will get right in front of you and stare at you. A blank stare with an intention to scare you off. They are effective in using your fear to do what they want. If this happens to you don’t confront them, ignore them.

I do not need the Nameless. They serve me no purpose. I realize that there will come a time when I can stop writing about my encounters with the Nameless and write about my experiences as I continue ascending and transcending. They have my attention now, but I know that won’t always be the case. Whatever they are and whatever they are attempting to do, they just can’t help themselves.

The only thing standing in my way is me. I am more powerful than I realize. When I realize my own power within my own dream, nothing will be able stop me. Not even me.

I am the peaceful warrior…