Journal: Gray Jacket

New Moon 0.5 days, Aries – Fire. Time 05:15, planet hours: Moon.

At 05:15 p.m., as I was preparing dinner I saw a Jinn, spirit, or entity standing in, or moving by, the doorway of the kitchen. I saw him out of the periphery of my vision. What struck me about this incident is that there was a lingering image of the entity still in my memory. I saw a distinct medium gray jacket and what looked like gold piping or a zipper. I could only see the right side of his body, pants color was faint, but I could not see his face.

What accompanied the incident was a hair raising level of energy. My skin felt like is was crackling. When I encounter these entities I usually get goosebumps, but this was another level of tactile excitement.

I still can still see the image in my memory. This was an unconscious dream level experience. I have this strange feeling that I have seen him before, maybe in one of my unconscious travels. I was definitely shaken by this event.


Update: 04.06.19 – I am still trying to interpret the encounter with the entity. What I find interesting, in that it seems difficult to understand, why was the gray jacket a significant remnant of the experience? Was the encounter accidental (did I catch him passing through) or intentional (he wanted me to see him)? Past experiences were mostly associated with orbs of light or something that resembles deep black smoke. and or a dark transparent object seemingly crawling (scampering) across the floor.

Although the incident was not negative, I did have some discomfort and fatigue later while cooking. The symptoms were familiar, but I never associated the symptoms with entities or thought they were associated with my antagonists.

Later that evening I did feel some hair raising sensations as I walked into one particular room. As I moved through the room the sensations increased and as I pressed toward the area of increased sensations, I asked them who they were and what they wanted? No response.

What was it? Why was it wearing modern clothing? Did I catch some kind of entity surveilling me? If yes then this would explain how my antagonist seem to have advanced knowledge of my plans when I go about my life.

Journal: Not Again

Moon waning crescent 29.2 days, Aries – Fire. Time 08:07, planet hours: Moon.

At 08:07 p.m. I had a deja vu experience, but interestingly it felt as if I had experienced this the deja vu before, not the activity itself. It felt like waking up from a dream within a dream. For a few minutes I was amazed and a bit saddened that I may have to start over again, from here.

Being that I have been having some difficulty making some important choices and decisions, based upon my current conscious perceptions, I am eager to see what will happen in the next few days.

What is interesting is that a few minutes before the experience I made a decision concerning my current conscious perceptions, and the emotion that accompanied the decision felt good (utilizing my emotional guidance system).

I actually checked this blog, because I had a feeling that I made a blog entry concerning the previous deja vu, but no record of the post was found.

While medical science has some possible reasons for a deja vu experience, like epilepsy, sleep deprivation, dominant eye, etc., it seems to be normal as long as the deja vu is not a frequent occurance or a long lasting episode.

At this time I am inclined to feel that the experience was a way of guiding me or at least confirming that I made the right choice.

I will be sure to try and post the next deja vu here.

Orgone

I guess this post will be the place where this subject will be expanded. I have not decided how I will disseminate my experiences with this concept yet, this is just a start. I have been interested with William Reich’s discovery since the beginning of my interests in life force energy and the like. As of late, there still seems to be something there for me.


03.27.19 (approx.) – I had a conscious waking dream about constructing a orgone accumulator. The following day I began to follow the dreams instructions. I found the accumulator to be a very effective repository of orgone.


04.03.19 – I was under psychic attack that was very persistent in manifesting fear. The fear seemed to be concentrated in the region of my heart chakra (meridian). To occupy my mind with something other than the attack, I picked up the orgone accumulator. Simply touching the accumulator stopped the attack and the resulting fear almost immediately. That was surprising. What level of sorcery is this? It actually makes sense. My antagonists have always focused their negative energy (psychic or otherwise) to specific areas of my body and at times I am able to deflect the energy or ground myself. The accumulator seems to be very effective at this time, but why?

When I put the accumulator down and after a few minutes the feeling of fear began to manifest again, so I picked up the accumulator and the fear subsided…

People on the web post their experiences with orgone devices and place them in their homes to combat negative harmful energy. Do they also deter and repel negative entities? Is the negative energy they speak about the same as the attacks I experience?


 

Journal: Spatial Awareness

Moon waning crescent 27.8 days, Pisces – Water. Time 07:00, planet hours: Mercury.

Gravity provides us with a baseline, so to speak, that allows us to orient ourselves in space. Gravity allows an up and down to exist in our vocabulary the above and the below, heaven and earth. I sometimes try to imagine a conscious reality where gravity does not exist. Vast bodies of water floating through the air or rain that does not fall. In this conscious reality gravity is a fundamental physical law of this physical construct, a necessity in many ways.

My relationship and understanding of gravity is a detriment in the construct of the unconscious because it limits how I am able to orient myself in the spaces I travel within. It also carries with it a habit in the manner of how I project myself in the unconscious. I project a likeness that is appropriate for existing in this current conscious reality, but it is not necessary during my other worldly unconscious travel, as well as, projecting on the astral plane.

It is interesting to watch a sci-fi film and watch how two space ships meeting in outer space always seem to orient themselves as if they are on some artificial plane. All the battles in the Star Wars episodes are all fought in alignment with this artificial orientation. Everything lines up nicely for the scene and helps the viewer to orient themselves in the scene, but I would imagine that it would be a lot more chaotic in absence of the artificial orientation.

The spirits and sprites that are becoming a frequent experience in my conscious reality do not seem to be hindered, by the need to be spatially aware within this physical construct. I see them as balls of light and deep black smoky shadows, probably because I have no visual reference in order to see them as they may actually exist. They move at speeds that are difficult to measure and through objects as if they were mere projections. Or, see objects for what they are, projections of my conscious mind.

People that have used dissociative drugs like Ketamine and Salvia Divinorum become disconnected to their body, but their visual orientation remains oriented to the realms they visit. Why is that so? Why isn’t it upside down or backward as if reflected in a mirror? Salvia Divinorum allows the user to enter into a two-dimensional realm, but why does the orientation have an up and down? In the realm of Salvia you can see what is in front of you, limited side views and not what is behind you.

Why isn’t the Salvia realm an orientation where you can only look up? It may be boring and uneventful, but why is it an orientation that provides the user with a spatial awareness that the user can recognize? What governs our concepts of spacial awareness in other worldly realms?

Are we only allowed to travel to realm we are capable of understanding based on our cognitive or un/conscious limitations? Ketamine presents an out-of-body experience that is void of visuals and any kind of sensory orientation. Why is that so? Is it an called ‘out of body experience’, because we are incapable of understanding and perceiving the realm we have entered?

Journal: Asleep

Moon waning crescent 25.9 days, Aquarius – Air. Time 07:00, planet hours: Luna.

I have noticed that I enter into bouts of being unable to stay awake. While I am in my office, I find myself waking up, not remembering that I was dozing off. I have been paying attention to this phenomenon for a few weeks. When it occurs I am unable to stay awake, but each time it occurs I find myself waking up surprised that I could not remember when or how I dozed off again. If I get up and go to another room I am fully awake and stop dozing, but when I return to my office the dozing will continue even with espresso strength caffeine in my system. I have now discovered the reason why this is starting to happen on a more regular basis.

I have gotten past a very long period of being unable to get out of bed upon sunrise consistently. I have struggled with this for a very long time and even suffered some significant attacks when I was able to wake up and stay a awake for a few weeks. This simple task is essential for maintaining a particular level of consciousness. Since I have now established a long-term habit of waking before the sun rises, it appears my antagonists have found another way of influencing me (possibly evidence of a self-perpetuating delusion).

Acknowledging that vibrational energy determines a particular state of mind or state of consciousness, interfering, influencing or disrupting the vibrational energy of a target is key to controlling the target. There are certain times of the day when influence is easier to manifest it usually starts after the sun rises and gradually increasing toward 11:00 a.m., reaching a peak then diminishing toward 03:00 p.m., and later entering an interesting collective state of consciousness, what I call the “stupid time”, about 1-2 hours before sunset (there is a definite relationship between conscious vibrational states and the transit of the sun and its increasing and decreasing spectrum frequency of light; or during the night, the amount of light reflected by the lunar surface). Now that I am awake during the time of day, I am able to remain attentive to my thoughts and actions in the creation of my day, or my conscious experience.

I have mentioned in older posts that my antagonists (organized group of people, Jinn, aliens, gods or my higher self, take your pick…) have been infiltrating my unconscious. Since I have become aware of this, and coupled with my consistent habit of rising before the sun, I have become better able to combat the influence of others on my un/conscious experiences. My unconscious, dream world, is a place where I am still vulnerable (still evolving). As I have mentioned in other posts, I am realizing I am always in a state of dreaming, it may be better described as visual thoughts, or potential states of conscious existence. It seem as if my conscious and unconscious are rubbing up against each other in ways I do not yet understand.

My antagonists seem to have developed a way of forcing me to into an unconscious state. I am now seeing a pattern, and that after my dozing, I notice that I have fallen into a lower conscious vibrational state. I have a means of countering this effect, but timing seems to be everything, ultimately affecting my ability to maintain a particular emotional image (a visualization of an emotional state). I know that once I fall asleep things can change in drastic and subtle ways. Yes, its sounds a lot like a Freddy Kruger movie, but it is more about misdirection than anything else.

I now recognize, and can differentiate between, these particular conscious vibrational states. These states have a unique character to them, much like changing a channel on the television. Or, getting on a train and then ending up in a different, although familiar, destination when the ride has ended. This is fascinating, I am now consciously attempting to map and navigate shifting conscious vibrational states at will. My conscious experiences may very well be just as the Hindu describe Vishnu sustaining the universe, dreams within dreams. What I might be starting to see is that my conscious experience is a plane of existence where other beings come to when they are unconsciously asleep.

I see you…

Note: In a computer program, the code is a representation of an object (text file, image, etc.),ultimately a series of ones and zeros. In this conscious reality, vibrational frequency is the code that can best be described as sound or a series of tones (notes) like a song. We are actually musical instruments capable of creation.

Journal: Limits Of Language

Moon waning crescent 22.4 days, Capricorn – Earth. Time 08:14, planet hours: Mars.

As the infinite continues to influence my perceptions of my conscious experience, I am facing a kind of paradox. A direct opposition emerges between this finite reality and that of the infinite.

The language we use is base in chronology, a time based syntax (past tense, present tense, etc.) that confines us to this conscious reality. It is our language that limits our perceptions. Beginning, middle and end are illusions. Evolution is an illusion. “Moving forward in my life” is an illusory cliche.

As I am writing this, I am struck by something I once heard. A mantra, “I have everything I need”. When thought of in a time based mindset, it connotes a finite notion of being complete, “I have all I need, I do not need anything else”. In the construct of the infinite, it connotes all infinite possibilities are accessible. Within that sentences lies the paradox. Can I access all infinite possibilities from the confines of the finite conscious reality of this existence?

Where is here? Why am I still here? My conscious (time based) reality is stagnant. Yet my unconscious (timeless) reality is fluid. My unconscious travels are without limit. That which I cannot remember is due to the limited confines of my conscious mind. I cannot remember that which I am unable to define or describe. I am here (place and time) because it is safe. I am here out of fear. Fear is a word based in a language of chronology. Fear does not have meaning in a language of immortality.

Shifting levels of consciousness and dimensional shifts prepare for the infinite. They are perceived as shifts in time, but they may actually be quantum shifts within the infinite. There is fallacy in every reality. Pointless participation, a necessity of emancipation.

A thought experiment: I believe that infinite versions of myself exist simultaneously within the infinite of consciousness. Every possible desire already exists on parallel/similar and intersecting planes/points of existence. I am entangled with every version of myself and influence, as well as, being influenced by those versions. Some of those versions of myself are intimately aware of the other versions. 

Journal: Pointless Participation

Moon waning gibbous 15.2 days, Libra – Air. Time 09:20, planet hours: Sol.

I felt compelled to mark this point in my conscious experience as absurd, and pointless (contradiction noted).

I admit that I am too stupid to break free of the perpetual cycles I find myself in. Maybe it is the pointless nature of this existence that may ultimately be the point itself.

I am grateful, yet I cannot pinpoint that to which I am grateful for…

My delusions persist.

Point of concept: When incorporating the infinite, everything within this conscious construct, eventually, becomes pointless.