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Journal: Radiate

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Radiation from their energy weapons are at an above average high right now. I have been experimenting today with an updated version of the device. It gave me some surprising results, very positive. The level of the radiation from my antagonists must be an indication of the current updates’ effectiveness.

There are some things I can always count on. One thing is that when I progress in developing the device’s strength there is always an equivalent response from them. Where would I be without their constant input? What else can they do? They are damned if they do and damned if they don’t. This gives me comfort in a strange way.

I want to thank the little bird for whispering this latest development in my ear…

Journal: Cycli-skizm

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I am experiencing moments where I have the distinct feeling that I have been here before. The manner in which people behave. The manner in which I behave and respond to these seemingly repetitive experiences. The observer caught out in the open suddenly realizing it is exposed. This has happened before and so I have to ask how many times before?

On the days where this is a point of focus there are many moments. I vaguely remember writing this some time ago, so it seems appropriate that I do so again.

What causes this cycli-skizm? I used to believe that I am repeating these moments because I have not made the right choices or I have not noticed something important. It is a lot like experiencing the same unconscious dream, like knowing the college assignment that was not completed as I am walking to class. Is this the case this time around? If so, then what do need to do or learn?

Is this one of those moments when I am deep within an unconscious dream and begin to realize that I am dreaming? Most of the times during these lucid periods I wake up. Where do I end up when I awaken in this shared conscious dream?

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I feel a need to post more often when I am in a particular mindset. Since this blog is more of an extension of my virtual self and identity then why not put thoughts out there even though they may or may not be complete or significant at the moment. These posts will always have the heading of “Journal”.

One Time…

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I was riding my bicycle on a mountain road on a beautiful morning shortly before this post. I was in awe of the beauty of this dream as my reality. I was hit by a thought from my past just after I passed through the void that I had written about in my book. I remembered that I referred to the people I saw looking at me, as if I was an exhibit at a museum, as time traveling tourists. “That’s it!” I said. It suddenly became apparent that Nonlocality was the answer to how it was possible.

I struggled with the concept of time travel for a long time. I even concluded that time travel was not possible. I believed that I was correct. In a physical or materialist worldview time travel is impossible. To go back in time the traveler would need to calculate where the earth was at a specific point in time. Where was the earth on August 15 2001? Where was the solar system? Where was the galaxy or this region of the universe for that matter? Nonlocality or idealism renders those questions mute. One point that past, present and future exist simultaneously within consciousness. I never truly understood what was meant by enlightened people when they said that everything is one. Now I think I can begin to conceive of what that actually means.

When I dream, while sleeping, I can move from one place to another in a blink of an eye. One morning I went from being stuck to the back of a SUV in China to my backyard as the dream changed locations. I spent hours talking with people I knew working, laughing and playing watching the locations and people morph and change before my mind’s eye. My childhood memories come alive and then I see myself as I am, as well as, versions of what I could become played out before me in a matter of, what seem like, seconds or hours.

When I am awake, dreaming this reality, there are the mundane aspects of this linear reality that occupies the majority of my attention. But, I can begin to understand my past experiences that have been so puzzling to me. How did those time traveling tourist know I where I was going to be? How did some of my antagonists know what I had said at one time in my life or were aware of my personal secrets? What was once a mystery can be solved by the nonlocality of idealism. The illusion of past, present and future governed by the construct of our linear perception of time has confined and confounded me. Those that are capable of mastering consciousness move through this dreamworld without the constraints of time and space. How much of my life have they seen or influenced? Do I struggle because of their influence or because I ignore what my subconscious is trying to tell me?

What If…

Let’s take a different perspective on this shared reality and view your life as a dream. Take a look at everything in this reality as if it were only existing in your mind. This may b difficult to do, but considering what we do know about the mind and how it processes information it is not too far from the truth. When you sit in a room the only thing that exists is the room and whatever else you can sense. When you watch television the program only exists for you. Everything that happens during the program is there for you and because of you. You set off to go to work or to buy groceries. The notion you set in play causes consciousness to manifest the environment in order for you to facilitate the task you want to accomplish. No matter what you do consciousness is there manifesting everything within your immediate environment. No matter where you focus your visual sensors the mind communicates that sense data to consciousness and the dream coalesces before you.

When you dream while resting the dream serves you and the interplay of the conscious mind with the subconscious and unconscious creates a reality that seems somewhat distorted at times. It seems that if a dream lacks volition it seems wildly chaotic and frightening. When there is direction and purpose the dream conforms to an acceptable or comfortable narrative. Because we have accepted the notion that conscious dreams (awake) and unconscious dreams (sleep) are different (one real and the other not real) we do not try to impose our will on our unconscious dreams as we do in our conscious dream world. I have found that once you begin to accept that all states of dreaming are the same then your unconscious dreams take on a completely different direction, purpose and or dimension.

Note: I am trying to find the best way to discern resting dreams and awake dreams. The problem I am having is that conscious, subconscious and unconscious are difficult terms to use since I believe that we are only in one constant state of consciousness. I am not yet able to realize and manifest that concept in my mind; essentially waking up from all dreams by uniting all three states of the mind.

What differs in the conscious and unconscious dreamworld is that one is mostly private and the other is shared. Initially that is the case but as you restructure your frames of reference regarding dreams you notice that there are more similar aspects. The most significant change is that your unconscious dreams are not really private. My evolving experiences are proving to me that there is no privacy within the totality of consciousness. Differing dream states are illusions.

The time traveling tourists I cited in my book were people (entities, beings) that knew (learned) about my adventure through the void and came to visit my conscious dream in order to share and experience my dream world. How they did this goes under the speculative heading of “mastering consciousness”. What was once fascinating and mysterious is now only fascinating because I cannot do it myself, yet. When we dismiss the false philosophical concepts of materialism and embrace idealism time becomes coordinates similar to GPS data that point to events within a dream or dimension (level, layer, etc.). This data must be accessible to the whole of consciousness that is essentially the foundation of the shared reality.

People, beings and entities travel through this conscious reality as if it were a tourist destination. I have seen and interacted with many different kinds of people. Those that I called ‘others’, tourists,  those that I claim that were trying to harm or kill me, as well as those that have came to help me realize the truth of my existence. I have caused people to run from me and have somehow become some kind of witness that reveals the presence of beings or entities hiding in this level of reality to the whole of consciousness (yeah, that’s even hard for me to swallow…). There are beings capable of altering your emotional mindset or the shared conscious environment directly. The most effective tool for most of these people is our ignorance of the true nature of consciousness. That ignorance is being exploited in many ways.

So “The Secret” (a.k.a. the law of attraction) has not helped you to materialize and manifest your desires completely yet. Well, there are many reasons why this is the case. One of the most important aspects of this shared dream is that consciousness is manifesting the dreams for everyone within this shared reality simultaneously. Since we are manifesting false concepts of materialism we have established a rigid foundational mindset or paradigm that facilitates the nature of the construct. We believe that this reality is solid, tangible, material and physical, that was built by those that came before us and must be maintained, supported and protected. Cultural paradigms are enforced by social, national, political and religious doctrine.

There are enforcers that exist within my conscious and unconscious dreams that are there to limit the expansion of my conscious environment. What once were terrifying experiences have become benign reminders of this current level of consciousness. I used to look for a physical way out, another location to distance myself from those enforcers, nonlocality has changed that. I now believe that there is no such thing as the physical here. I have a sign on my wall that simply says “There Is No Spoon” (from the film “The Matrix) to remind me that ‘life is but a dream’ and all I need to do is wake up to that simple fact.

I can easily get in over my head with the seemingly limitless possible concepts of this conscious dream world. That is one of the most fascinating aspects of consciousness, anything is possible. It is frightening and yet truly humbling. What I am able to hold onto is my expanding appreciation for consciousness. I believe that as I re-frame my past experienced base references I can find what I have been looking for my entire adult life. I used to call it enlightenment, but now I think it is more along the lines of conscious emancipation.

So. I’ll end this my current prattle here for now. Comments are active and unmoderated. If you do comment it will be posted immediately. I have received some messages on my Twitter account that some readers comments were lost. I do not delete comments unless they are automatically deleted by the spam filter (limit links in comments when possible). I assume that comments on this blog are being censored without my knowledge, email as well, oh well… I’ll keep posting anyway. I can’t really fight the system using the system itself, but I’ll do what I can until I have mastered consciousness.

Next time I’ll continue to explore this fascinating shared dream and talk a little about how consciousness may possibly be two dimensional rather than the three dimensional reality we have all come to know and love…

My Technicolored Multifaceted Reality

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As I spend far too much time thinking about this it seems that instead of thinking that this reality is simulated why not think that this reality is what it is. We can state that we are living in a simulation or simply state that our reality is similar to a computer simulation.

In most computer simulations there are rules and these rules allow the entities within the simulation to function in a predetermined manner. In order for the computer simulation to allow the entities to do something different the rules in the simulation need to change or be altered by whomever controls the simulation. Within our reality, that behaves much like our perceived concepts of a simulated or virtual reality, we are actively involved in how the reality behaves. It is as if every moment our conscious reality is manifesting a reality based upon our thoughts, expectations and actions.

So is this new notion of a simulation is just another step in our evolution. Are we capable of seeing our reality as virtual now because of our current technology much like how the telescope changed the way in which we viewed our solar system? We have been taking baby steps throughout our evolution simply because we adhere to concepts that prevent us from creating a better reality. If we believe we are not creators then we must believe that someone or something is creating it for us. So we must then wait for someone or something to change the rules, save us, or whatever. How much longer should we wait?

We are actively determining how we shape our reality. So why are we not all getting what we want? We are in a way? And in some other ways we are not. Why? How do we make the shift to create a reality that is without suffering?

I’m not waiting for someone to come save me. I have wanted out for a very long time and I think I have tried a lot of things to get me where I want to be. In my reality I have run into some obstacles. These nefarious individuals and organizations that I mention in this blog are preventing me from realizing the true nature of this reality, or just my current reality. Why? Still no answer. But, as I continue to push myself to view my reality in terms of idealistic view rather than a materialistic view I am starting to see changes occur at a level that was not possible before. The most interesting aspect of shifting your perceptions is that consciousness finds a way to accommodate.

Note: What started out to be a single post has spawned far too many sections to be posted at once.
So I have broken the original post into individual sections and will post them when they are ready. Hopefully I can convey my thoughts and ideas in a comprehensive manner in as few words as possible…

Idealism vs. Materialism

The debate concerning the nature of our reality has been well documented in Greek philosophy and possibly beyond the recorded history of the west. Greeks noted that the world was made up of atoms (An Atom, now understood as, roughly 10-8 cm in diameter, consists of a tiny, dense, positively charged nucleus made of neutrons and protons, surrounded by a cloud of negatively charged electrons.) and used this idea to help describe our physical natural world. An opposing view noted that our physical world was not comprised of atoms but comprised of thoughts or abstract approximations of the mind.

Materialism (Democritus) supports the notion that our reality is based upon solid matter composed of atoms, a tangible physical reality that can be experienced by our limited human senses that happen in the human brain. Idealism (Plato) supports that there is no physical tangible world outside of our conscious perceptions that are occurring in the human conscious mind; abstract mental perceptions determine an object’s perceived properties.

Plato noted that ideas, abstract mental perceptions, are the basis for our reality and that those ideas are products of consciousness. Everything begins with the whole of consciousness and the human conscious mind is what is allowing us to experience our perceived physical reality. Dreaming is a similar experience where the mind creates a physical experience during sleep where creation and perception are happening almost simultaneously. This helps to support my ideal that the conscious mind is an interface allowing us to connect to the whole of consciousness or our shared conscious reality.

Mind gives rise to matter or matter gives rise to mind. Modern physics has carried on this debate with prominent physicists like Albert Einstein supporting materialism and Niels Bohr supporting idealism (Quantum Theory); (simplified naming of physicists engaging in the debate noted). Materialism is most widely supported in modern science today and is the foundation of modern science. While both men were unable to prove scientifically their theories in their lifetimes, Albert Einstein may have struggled to a greater degree since his materialistic views supported the better accepted view of materialism that he could not prove completely (unified field theory). Although humanity seems rooted in the materialism world view with some still supporting idealism it must be stated that both cannot exist; it’s either one or the other.

Note: Some of my earlier posts concern some new directions presented by Physicist Nassim Haramein and I have not revisited much of what I have written to date and will try and do so in the future. Haramein’s work allowed me to look in new directions and influenced me in this linear progression to my present perceptions.

Double Slit Experiment

Although this reality is rooted in the concept of materialism, there is one specific scientific experiment that has kept the philosophy of Idealism alive and kicking for some time. This experiment delivered results scientists were not able to explain scientifically. Since the 1800s (Young’s Experiment) to present the double slit experiment caused problems in the classical materialist view of physical science. Is light a particle or wave? Below are some very good videos from the Youtube community that can better explain some of the quantum carzyness that is giving rise to support idealism’s simulations, virtual realities and dream worlds…

It is a wave.

It is a particle.

Enter the “Delayed Choice Quantum Eraser Experiment”

So conscious observation is influencing the results of the experiment. When you are looking they are particles when not looking they are waves. Simply deciding whether the experiment will be observed or not determines the prior state of the electrons even before the experiment is run. The results of the experiments are being determined ahead of time depending on the choice of the observer prior to running the experiment (WTF? moment).

Waves are potential states within reality until we are engaged into the act of conscious observation and then they snap into a physical (particular) form. This would indicate that all things exist as waves of potentiality that have snapped or coalesced in a particular form with specific properties. What else does this? The tricky part is that we are able to see (create an image of external stimulus using the frame of reference of images in our memory) by reflected light. If protons are able to change from a wave to a particle then what are we actually seeing? The actual particle or the perception of what the particle represents in our mind?

These properties exist in a catalogue in our mind based upon learned experiences. Where did all this information within the catalogue come from? Who created the world as we know it? Did you, or did I? I cannot remember wanting to create a world with so much suffering. I cannot remember conceiving a world with such a level of complexity. So who did?

Clearly we have all undergone some sort of indoctrination based upon acceptable social and cultural beliefs. There is a system that exists and we all understand what is needed to participate and understand the purpose of the system. So what is the purpose of our existence? Birth, school, work, death is the current paradigm rooted in materialism, but it is far from the purpose that would exist if we adopt the concept of idealism.

As I sat in my apartment in Hawaii while under the constant attack from energy weapons, I would have these conversations with other people or beings (???). I remember one conversation where a woman stated that there were people that had a lot to lose if I continued my fight. Those people have let me know their displeasure with my current direction. There is far more to life than we are being allowed to experience. Expansion of the mind via psychedelics have been outlawed. We are living in the land of the lotus eaters inundated by thoughts and actions that push us to continue the materialistic worldview.  

Belief systems confine us to a single version or reality. The waves of possibilities are hidden from our infinitely possible potential states of existence. If we were given the opportunity, or responsibility, to create our reality would we choose to recreate our current human condition? It is apparent that we not satisfied with the current human condition and we yearn for change, for a better world. Paradigm shifts occur all the time and yet we always end up “here”? We are shifting through minor levels of conscious states all the time. Time to shatter the illusion of materialism. Time to shift the current paradigm a lot further.

Next time, I’ll take a look a nonlocality.

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Simulation May Not Bee The Right Word

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As I struggle to understand consciousness and or conscious reality the word ‘simularion’ might not be the best term to describe our reality.

Simulation connotes something that is similar like a copy, replica or possibly a fake, or something that is counterfeit.
Until I can come up with an appropriate alternative for simulation or better define and understand my relationship with consciousness simulation may be a good place to start, but it fails to adequately describe our shared conscious reality.
Simulation regarding consciousness is not meant to represent a copy. The term virtual reality may be more appropriate, but it connotes replication of a a real or imagined environment via a computer program much like the film ‘The Matrx’. 
I want to use familiar terms and popular cultural terminology, but I must admit they fail to represent what I am attempting to convey. As I proceed I must concede that none of the above clearly represents my view and relationship with consciousness. Unfortunately the word ‘dream’ is a better way of defining consciousness, but it also suggests fantasy and possibly illusion. 
Consciousness may be some kind of simulated virtual dream, but conscious experience is also very tangible and real, for lack of a better term, while also being so much more.
In the past we have heard that we only use 10 percent of our conscious mind’s capacity (in relation to the subconscious an unconscious). It might be better stated that we use less than 10 percent of consciousness. If I am correct in the notion that the human brain is just a memory based interface to the whole of consciousness, then we may just need to expand the amount of bandwidth between the interface and the whole consciousness. Once this happens then we would have access to the infinite possibilities within the whole consciousness itself. A grand awakening indeed…

Daily Journal

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I have placed my online journal on Google Docs. The journal can be viewed here for anyone interested in following my madness a bit more intimately.
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I am getting into the habit of updating my journal via my iPhone during the day. Most of the thoughts are the inspiration for a blog post here. I do this mainly to track my progress or my mental decline. We’ll see how this goes.

The Others

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a21db-img_7483.jpgThere has been some activity from those I call The Others. I have no idea what their agenda may be. I started to see them in the places I usually go since I started to resume posting on this blog. They are friendly and usually reach out to me in some way. I am unable to discern them from the Nameless on most occasions since I am in a constant state of mistrust.

I encountered one of them in a Mall (another prior to this event in a local hardware store), but perceived them as one of the Nameless. I was in an altered state of mind that day. I felt a little light headed and agitated. This feeling subsided once I returned home. I cannot be sure if the Nameless were responsible for this feeling, but it did serve to alter my perception of the ‘Other’ person that was sitting nearby (the details of my encounter is intentionally vague to protect  the identity of the person I saw – not understanding their relationship with the Nameless).

They look as if they took certain positive physical characteristics from other people and manifested those physical characteristics in their own body. Or, I am unable to view them as they really are, due to my mind’s limited frame of reference. It is difficult to explain what I see and interpret. There is something distinct about their appearance that is difficult to to understand.

I had noticed them in Hawaii before I moved to California, but I was in a state of survival and fear at that time. I could not welcome anyone into my life after recently experiencing the onslaught from the Nameless thugs. I can still see their faces and what they were wearing on that day near the health food store near S. King and University Ave. I could see the compassion in their eyes. Intention and emotion conveyed by the eyes cannot be faked. I am sorry I missed that opportunity.

I do not know if they are trying to help me or if they are being entertained, by my actions or delusional state of mind. I thought that it might be necessary to post this encounter just in case they are reading this blog (I feel insane, right now, completely insane…). I need to convey to them that I am aware of their efforts, but require a level of assurance of their intentions.

NOTE: This post was published mysteriously. I had not intention of publishing this post yet. For those of you that visit this blog regularly (thank you), you noticed that this initially was a partial draft.

Life is But A Dream

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Seven pointed star that jumped out at me while channel surfing – Game of Thrones
A sacred symbol in Wicca and Alchemy – Sacred Geometry

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Daily Journal

I am shifting between levels of consciousness. I have mentioned this before, but these shifts are no longer subtle or easy to dismiss. I witness events and then the following day(s) I am unable to verify that they actually happened. I ask a person involved in the event about an event and they stated that they did’t know what I am talking about. Or, I have an experience I cannot physically verify the following days. This could be a sign of my increased insanity, my life would be easier if I was, but the fact that I am aware of this and attentive to these experiences is a good sign. My interest is how I may be able to use or integrate this quantum weirdness and its meaning? I am experimenting with my life consciously, some may say recklessly, since I believe that I have nothing to lose. After all, sanity is actually an agreed upon acceptable level of behavior set by a society that is far from sane.

Dreams have taken on a realistic character and I wonder if I am dreaming these instances where and I am unable to verify them when I am awake. This could possibly be the merging of my conscious and subconscious mind. Sleep seems to be some kind of interrupt between levels of consciousness or the conscious and subconscious. Waking up day to day is no longer the same mundane experience, each day is different, as if I have more choices (increased ability to manifest and create my reality). If I fall asleep during the day (nap) I can sense that something has changed after I wake up. It is not always clear to me what has changed, but I notice a change in what I focus upon. This has increased as I devote more tim and consistency to meditation. My meditation sessions have changed with greater focus, purpose and ease.
I seem to be entering a change in my life. It is very similar to dreaming. I am observing my waking life as if I am dreaming. The best way to describe this is to say I am detached from it as if I was part of the audience. I am caught between simultaneously participating and observing in this dream of my life. It is a strange feeling, but also comfortable in that it feels right, almost normal.

Nature responds to me. I sit in a parking lot waiting for an appointment and I am overcome with contentment. I feel compelled to look at a nearby tree and as I focus my gaze upon the tree I notice that it is shimmering in the sun light. It feels like I am picking up the vibration and resonating with it. The contentment grows and I thank the tree (nature) for the experience.

There is a large hill that I pass by on a certain road while cycling. The hill has a certain vibration or energy about it. I stop and take time to soak up this energy. As I focus my gaze upon the hillside I feel the contentment that I feel while in nature, something I have experienced in the past while living near the Santa Cruz mountain range. There is a strange feeling that a doorway or portal is opening, as if I was being invited. I don’t know if it is a feeling or just a desire, my desire to escape this reality.

I am starting to believe that nature is the physical manifestation of consciousness. This is difficult to explain. When we dream while sleeping we create a construct in order for us to interact with the dream. There are the basic characteristics in order for us to function, ground, light, tactile senses, sound, etc. While we are awake, nature is the same thing. Nature is the physical aspect of the dream, but it is conscious and interactive  when presented with the correct state of mind.

The Nameless seem to be aware of this change and have been active in suppressing this change with their electromagnetic radiation. One thing I did notice is that I am recovering faster. The latest volley of radiation was at the levels of when I lived in Hawaii. Just recently the satellite TV signal dropped at the onset of the attack. I was almost incapacitated, but never an ounce of fear entered my mind. I just entered my faraday cage and fell asleep. The following day I usually feel fatigued, but I rode to Grant Ranch taking Quimby Rd. back home, not an easy task. 
Skipping

There are days when the Nameless do not interfere with my life. They are not present. Their slaves are not overt in their activities. My life is normal (whatever that means). There are also days when I feel I have ascended to a higher state of consciousness, life is crisp, clean, smooth and flowing. I see some of the Nameless (we are attracted to one another). I interact with them and then they notice something about me that is different. Fear and surprise is usually the response I get and they watch me closely until either party leaves. The following day I notice a change (as noted above – shifting levels of consciousness) and the level of radiation is higher as if I was a flame that they were trying to extinguish. I then notice that I am back at a familiar level one that is full of their slaves and absent of those with higher levels of consciousness, dark and dreary. I feel like a stone skipping across a lake. Sometimes I can sustain the skip, sometimes I sink.
Lucid

My current experiments concern my vulnerability when I am asleep. They have been successful in influencing me while I sleep. Since I have been making changes in where I sleep I have been waking up refreshed without a depressed state of mind. I seem to be able to protect myself from most of their effort to influence my waking dream state. Consciousness seems to be more malleable than I thought possible. Once you begin an awakened relationship with consciousness, consciousness responds. Being attentive and patient during my waking state is necessary to witness all that consciousness is conveying. Things pop out and others fade into the background. Consciousness communicates directly in this manner once it has your attention it will stream a series of events together. I am not too adept in interpretation at this time, but I am learning.

Images, stories, articles, people, locations jump out at me. I can search for  something online and be lead to a specific site with a subject that is too compelling to ignore. If I do ignore it, I find myself back at the site. The little television I watch I end up catching the same movie at the same scene until I acknowledge the message (or what I believe to be the message). It’s actually pretty annoying until I figure out the message. I have recently come to understand that people who are clairvoyant have these experiences. I don’t consider myself to be clairvoyant.

https://youtube.googleapis.com/v/LcbCafpvIT0&source=uds

NOTE: One of the things that popped out was a video on extraterrestrial disclosure. I have no evidence that extraterrestrials exist and I have never seen one. I perceive The Nameless to be human with a higher state of consciousness. Many of their malevolence and petty characteristics are evidence of their humanity. I have not seen any evidence that they are highly evolved, if so they would not be malevolent.

When malevolence is part of the social construct of a society you get this reality (poverty, war, suffering). When benevolence is the only paradigm within a social construct the possibilities are endless. The conscious trajectories of each social construct completely differ in speed (evolution) and direction (purpose) that they may never cross paths in the infinite space within the whole of consciousness. 

I am skeptical all of UFO’s (this will persist until I see one myself), although I did claim in my ebook that the initial attacks were from some kind of aerial vehicle. Other beings on other planets and levels of consciousness is something that I believe, but have no evidence to support this, yet.
What is the message in this video? I don’t know yet. I’ll try and post these pop out messages from my conscious experiences here so you can help me interpret what might be happening.

Chess Match

The game I am playing with the Nameless gets a little to intense at times. I get caught up (distracted) with them and lose sight of what I intend to accomplish (ascend beyond their kind). The previous post was an indication of this. I was provoking them and they were responding. As things escalated I needed to take a step back and assess how my thoughts and actions were effecting my reality (my attention to them retains them within my conscious reality). I am back at it again (posting and provoking), so the Nameless need to call their spook to gas up that motorcycle and follow me on my bike rides up the mountain again. It is interesting how they are able to introduce characters into my waking dreamworld and effect my actions and thoughts, fascinating to say the least…

Hacked

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Been working on reestablishing some accounts associated with my sites. It looks like my Facebook site as well as the site I use for http://www.i-am-xam.com’s email has been infiltrated. No known damage, but I could have lost some email from the past few weeks, after I started posting again. This is the second time this has happened, that I know of. I must be doing something right.

If you attempted to contact me and received a reply send it again, it might not have been me. If you did not get a reply from a previous email, send it again also.

Powerball

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I have a secret that I have been avoiding to post. When I first arrived back in California I had an urge to test the law of attraction, or manifesting my thoughts and desires in my reality through conscious intent. When I would go to purchase a ticket the Nameless were not to far behind. I assumed that they did not want a person like me playing the lottery in California because if I won they would have a problem controlling me. I have plans to travel and stay mobile to make it difficult for them to try to control and influence me.

The interesting part of this observation is that as soon as I purchased a ticket one of their minions would enter the store after I left. I did not go back into the store to see what they were doing, but it was too consistent. They started to intimidate me by waiting outside the store staring at me. I eventually lost interest in playing the lottery because I was unable to win anything and I had a feeling it was somehow being fixed by them. 
As large a presence the Nameless have in this reality I could see that they would use something like the state lottery to enrich their organization. If you are new to this blog and have not read the past posts, those I refer to as the Nameless have the ability to hear the thoughts of others as well as prescience. It would not be too difficult if the winners were their many minions giving the prize money to the organization or purchasing goods and services from their extensive network of business. 
Powerball

When Powerball came to California something interesting happened. I played one time using the kiosks or vending machines instead of going to a store and purchasing the ticket from a cashier. As I purchased a ticket there was someone behind me, slightly off to one side as if the were looking at the numbers I was selecting. 
I purchased some tickets at a later date, and suspecting that someone will be standing behind me, I selected numbers randomly as fast as I could, my own version of the quick pick, without knowing what numbers I was selecting. I finished with the first ticket I turned to see a woman standing behind me as the other person did the first time. She had a confused look on her face as if  she was having difficulty keeping up. I repeated the process a couple of other times as fast as I could and took my tickets and turned to walk away. A cast a glance in her direction and she looked down at the floor. 
Powerball is a multistage lottery and the Nameless might not have the ability to control the prizes even if they might have a high success rate using prescience (they might not have 100% accuracy using prescience) there are far too many players to secure sole winning tickets. 
If I win any sum of money I will post it here. Imagine if the Nameless with their abilities of prescience have been winning the lottery for some time. Talk about easy money. 
Etheric Energy Device

One of the warnings I received pertaining to the device I use is that it has the capacity to enhance the ability to manifest thoughts in reality. The warning came from the person that created the device after using several devices at the junction points of a tetrahedron he constructed. The tone of that warning was somewhat ominous. 
The device I am using has aided me in the ability to manifest my thoughts in this reality (enhancing the abilities I had acquired from the void and from the use of white powdered gold) but, this ability has been limited by the Nameless when they use their own electromagnetic devices on me in the past on many occasions.
NOTE: I had written this post as a draft at first and did not post immediately. The Nameless came out of the woodwork last night and did their best to keep me occupied. Their attacks lasted until after the Powerball numbers were made available and then all of a sudden the attacks stopped. I guess they were trying to prevent me from trying to manifest a winning ticket. I did not try, I still haven’t looked at the numbers of my last ticket purchase, maybe I should. 
I will edit and update this post at a later time, I just wanted to get this out as fast as possible. The Nameless do not seem to be happy about my lottery activity. This needs more attention. 
More to come.

The Following Day

The day of the Powerball draw was interesting. My neighbors were home, not usual, and they were keeping tabs on me, even the neighbors that just moved in. There was a lot of foot traffic in front of the house as I was working on some projects. The entire day was a bit odd to say the least.

Today the neighbors are all away from home and it is pretty quiet, normal. The electromagnetic activity is lower, but still persistent. I am looking forward to the next draw to see if it will all happen again. The minions of the Nameless are pretty consistent in their behavior. They either can’t resist or they aren’t capable of realizing how obvious they are. This makes me wonder if they are a bunch of mindless zombies playing some sort of game.

More Fear

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The long dark emptiness of the void
LITANY AGAINST FEAR

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.

The “Litany Against Fear” is from the novel by Frank Herbert’s Dune series. Still one of the most important works of science fiction to date.

On the morning of my journey through the void, my very own spiritual resurrection. The fear was so overwhelming it occupied all of my senses. I was consumed by it. I ran from that fear. The violence that I thought I had perpetrated made me want to run. Hundreds and thousands of beings chasing me. Sirens were blaring as I ran fighting through a level of confusion I had never ever faced in my life (I cannot remember correctly, but I believe I heard them shouting ‘there he is’). I ran under an overpass and turned to face the pack that was chasing me, but there was nothing there. Silence, peace and the unsettling emptiness of the void. 

I found myself at a familiar street corner S.O.F.A. South First Street Area in downtown San Jose ( S. First and E. San Salvador). There were beings, several of them, pushing me and calling me names. They were referencing my racial heritage they used every possible innuendo. I felt their hatred, it was the most hatred I had ever felt at one time. As I stood there in the middle of the intersection they where shouting and pushing me. They surrounded me. I felt their hands as they shoved me toward each other. I did nothing. I focused on nothing. I did not fight back and then it stopped. I was standing in my apartment covered in sweat, exhausted, but relieve the fear had passed through me. 

I now know the perpetrators of the horrors I faced that morning. The Nameless where there forcing that fear upon me. They were the ones pushing me. I can almost feel who they were now. I can almost recognize them. I can do this now because they are at it again. I can feel them focusing their fear upon me. It is distinct in that it comes from outside of my self. I can almost sense it’s direction and source. It is not like a panic attack where the source comes from the mind generated by thoughts of known fears, this fear is without substance. Raw fear that allows you to fill in the blanks. 

I recite the litany against fear and focus upon the moment and the fear subsides. I recognize and focus upon the source. I look back at the perpetrator and the are forced to look away. I tell them that karmic retribution is at their door, it comes for them. I apologize, but note that it is not my doing, I am only the witness. 

The past few days, have been heavy with this fear. The Nameless know that I am able to manifest my thoughts in my conscious reality (as you do also). They know that if they can induce fear in me I will manifest my own monsters. Fascinating tactic, they plant the seed and I nurture the beast. 

They do most of their evil deeds when I sleep (radiation, inception). I am most vulnerable at that time, we are all vulnerable at that time. We wake up and the notion of fear creeps into our daily life. We look for it and then we find what we are looking or focused upon. 

They are persistent. Many, many sources. The minions are out in force staring at me from a distance dong their part. Poor soulless souls, slaves to empty promises. The pendulum now swings in the opposite direction. The age of fear is subsiding. I fear they will be lost forever, clinging to the bushes and grasses of this place for several eternities. 

Fear And Loathing in Hawaii

In Hawaii there was one rather large man of Samoan/Hawaiian descent. They would call him to follow me when I left my apartment. It was during the time I was writing me ebook. The fear they induced in me became real when I saw him. As this tactic continued I began to question what I was feeling and I would leave my apartment and then return quickly to an elevated parking garage at the apartment building. I saw him walking towards the apartment talking on the phone and looking for someone. I watched him standing beneath my observation post in the garage. He was waiting for me so he could play his part. The last time I saw him we walked toward each other. As we approached each other I looked him in the eyes and he looked away. He continued walking, nothing happened.

In the recent past they have sent strangers to my door. They just walk up when I am in the garage and try to act friendly in a menacing way. This stopped during my recent year of inactivity and has resumed again. I suspect that they will take it up a notch. I will post those instances here.

Fear As A Method of Control

We hear in America live in a perpetual state of fear. Constantly bombarded by news segments of impending harm, death and debt. We are not safe and there are those that offer resolutions, safety and sanctuary. Noam Chomsky stated that they create the problem then offer their solution. The solution often requires that you give something up in return (civil rights, liberty). The Nameless offer that they will stop this fear mongering if I stop posting on this blog. I can go back to a life free from fear if I give up my right to live my life in any way I choose to. I can not accept their meager offer. I tried to ignore them, but my life stalled in a perpetual loop indicating I had to act. I refuse to live that way.

I have created another phrase by witch I refer to the Nameless. I have called them parasites of consciousness, but it seems the are also bullies of consciousness as well. The offspring (little demons) of their minions are bullies as well, practicing their craft at a young age to be applied in adulthood. Generations of bullies for their cause. Let’s see if I can draw them out from behind the darkness and safety of their anonymity and coax them out into the light for all to see. That’s what this is all about. They were revealed to me some 14 years ago and now I can no longer ignore them.

Fear prevents any significant movement to higher levels of consciousness. Fear interrupts the flow of energy from the heart (heart chakra) to the brain (crown chakra). Fear is the electric fence that defines the prison of this existence. Fear occupies the place where positive emotions can flourish. The evil of the Nameless is based upon fear. Subdue the fear and disarm the Nameless. Often the threat of harm is far more powerful than the harm itself.

Why Do I Persist?

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Update

The high amount of radiation that I reported while posting the previous entry did in fact effect me negatively. I still had a high level of energy, but some abilities that I was acquiring, again, were taken from me again.

I was starting to notice that I was starting to effect my conscious environment with my intent and witnessing immediate results. It is kind of like being in the zone all the time. I would pitch a balled up piece of paper into the trash and it would go in as I intended. I began to pitch and look away and it would fall right in.

I through some garden shears behind me and walked away knowing that they landed with the blades stuck in the ground. I would return to see that it was so. This was starting to effect my confidence level as this knowing was beginning to effect everything I was doing. Intent was starting to become natural, but then they took it away from me with a heavy dose of electromagnetic radiation.

This sort of thing is being shown on YouTube. Seemingly impossible trick shots performed by normal everyday people. One thing I know about the Nameless is that they love to show off. Arrogance is one of their characteristics and probably their undoing…

This is actually a good thing. I am learning. I know that my devices are working to reestablish my energy and my natural abilities. And I have also found that the sun is the source of this energy and with that energy flowing though my body I can replenish it with direct exposure to the sun. As I have stated in prior posts, the Nameless are actually helping me.

Why Do I Persist?

Why do I persist? Why do I continue this seemingly futile attempt to ascend?  

I’ve come to the most difinitive answer to date. I want my life back. I want the intimate relationship with consciousness that I gained after exiting the void. I want to reconnect with the greater conscious collective. I want to continue my evolution and ascension. I do not want to remain a prisoner of this existence, I want my emancipation.

After exiting the void and ignoring what the nameless were offering, the Nameless began to take away my energy. Like vampires the began to suck the life out of me. This vital energy is essential for ascension, it is essential for well being and physical health, it is essential to continue my journey and my purpose.

When I am content they do what they can to take that away from me. When I am in the flow of creative consciousness they take that away also. I am fight for a life of contentment, creative expression and to make a life for myself that is free from their influence and control. 
I am a warrior of consciousness and I refuse to give into the will of those within this existence that prey upon others. The Nameless are true parasites of consciousness and serve no other purpose than their own. They have been influencing humanity for ages and are responsible for our suffering and this futile human condition.

Take a look at the world today. There is much suffering and imbalance. We are entering a time of perpetual war under their control and influence. I defy them because I cannot live in a world of their making. I fight because I know that there is a life waiting for myself and others trying to do whatever is necessary to pursue and establish a world of peace and prosperity for everyone. I am not alone in this fight, they know that also…

Preparation

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I have noticed for some time that much preparation is being disseminated via the news and entertainment outlets here in America. They are preparing for us for something that will include China.

I am not referring to war. I am referring to China’s role in our future. When I exited the void and returned to this existence the very first people I saw, save for the security guard, we’re Chinese tourists. I referred to these tourists as time travelers, but more accurately they should be called tourists of consciousness.

While living in Hawaii the two ethnicities that at the forefront of my subjugation were Caucasian and Chinese. They are also the most dominant ethnicities on the planet. Dominant not in the militaristic sense, not the financial, but dominant within the higher levels of consciousness itself. I can only speculate as to why this is so because I do not have the necessary evidence to backup my assumptions yet. The nature of consciousness is very subjective because our conscious perceptions are dependent upon our level of accession, energy and our inherited cultural beliefs. The nature of consciousness is too personal to be explained succinctly.

China has a long history of understanding the human body’s energy pathways (chi, meridians), consciousness, the role of the moon (full moons are auspicious for the Nameless), divination (I Ching), folklore (supernatural powers of Kung Fu and Tai Chi). I believe that the Chinese may have mastered consciousness itself. How they are using this knowledge is not known to me at this time, but they are trying to keep me from this realization as with others like them.

One thing I have noticed is that China seems to be pillaging the earth. Are they doing so because those in control have found an exit?

Ley Lines and the Nameless

Ley lines are the natural paths of energy flow on our planet. They are near places of ancient temples pyramids and ancient cities. The lines could be considered to be an electrical grid, but most importantly it is the places where the lines intersect that provide intense power (bioelectric energy). Pyramids have been reported to have been discovered in China. It has been reported that these structures have been painstakingly hidden from view. There is a lot of censorship in China, just what are they hiding from the world?

While living in Hawaii I spent most of my free time in the ocean. I surfed in the morning and would alternate swimming and cycling, along the coast, in the early evening. One thing I began to notice was the way I felt after surfing. The more time I spent in the waves the more energy I began to accumulate and when the ocean was flat and I did not surf this energy would diminish. It was not until I returned to the mainland that I would discover why this happened. I received a hint through my intuitive channels and it pointed to the ley lines particularly the intersection or vortex near the Hawaiian islands (must not forget the land vortex of Kiluea – ref. Nassim Haramein).

I have been trying to define the Nameless ethnically in the past, but it has been difficult to do so. But when I started to understand the relation between ley lines and the energy vortex positions it started to become a little more clear. The island of Maui has the greatest Nameless population density that I have ever experienced, but there were a lot of bicultural (mixed racial heritage) in the people that I saw. Vietnam is near a ley line vortex and I have seen many Vietnamese Americans in San Jose that have the attributes I ascribe to the Nameless, people from the country of India, Mexico, Europeans as well with each having powerful ley line vortices within their geography. There seems to be a connection between powerful ley line vortices and ethnicity or nationality within the group I call the Nameless.

The Nameless are using the relationship between these energy vortices and consciousness. I believe that this energy has the ability to aid in ascension. I believe that this energy has the ability to cause conscious metamorphosis (awakening). Although I have been unable to attain the energy levels I once had in Hawaii, I believe that I can if I visit these places where the energy is most abundant (not necessarily a ley line or vortex). As I mentioned in my ebook Yosemite’s Half Dome is one of those places, it is the first place I noticed a change in my own level of energy. There are many and one in particular that I visit regularly, that is occupied by the Nameless, is James Lick Observatory on Mt. Hamilton (I now remember that there were high concentrations of the Nameless in the Bear Mountain area near San Bernardino CA. also).

Nature

In nature the other species that inhabit this planet are well aware of the benefits of this energy, where it accumulates and how to use this energy. The most obvious place is the ocean’s waves. The image above is of a brown pelican. If you spend time on a beach where ocean birds are present you will notice the birds surfing the waves. It looks like they are surfing the air being pushed by the wave, but I believe they are recharging or feeding off the energy (bioelectric) of the wave itself. Dolphins, seals, sharks and other large fish do this also. There is something contained within the wave that is vital to life itself. I believe that this energy originates at the ley vortices within our oceans and is carried to our shores by the waves. The levels of ozone in the air along our coasts may have something to do with electrical nature of this natural energy.

If anyone has spent time in nature they notice there is a difference, but they may not know why. Our lives in cities are filled with artificial radio waves and artificial structures that disrupt the natural energy of the earth. In cities we are disconnected, stressed and depressed because were are not receiving this vital energy. Surfers that are unable to surf become depressed and agitated because they are unable to recharge or bathe in the natural energy of the earth transported by the waves not because of the activity itself.

There is nothing like the feeling of being propelled by a wave. I miss the times when I was swimming at Ala Moana beach park during high surf. The motion of the waves lifting my body as I swam through the water was the most relaxing and energizing feeling I have ever felt. You cannot get the same experience swimming in a lake, it’s just not the same.

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I am aware that most of this is speculative and based upon my observations and experiences. But they do coincide with observations others have made public. This blog is not a definitive assessment of all of consciousness. It is a journal of my experiences that I hope will be a guide to others like myself that are seeking answers to the nagging questions concerning their own journey through consciousness. Believe it or not we are all in this together, all tied together. There is much, much more to this existence than we are capable of understanding. Don’t allow anyone to deny your right to experience the limitless expanse that consciousness has to offer.

Interestingly Nassim Haramein and Marko Rodin live on the Hawaiian Islands. My ominous adventures and discoveries climaxed while living in Honolulu. Something is happening in Hawaii.

NOTE: As I was preparing to update this post there was a very strong electromagnetic wave of radiation that came over me 05/09/13 12:53 PST. It was the strongest I have felt in quite some time, since the attacks in Honolulu. It just stopped and I do not feel drained or adversely effected by it. What it tells me is that they do not want this information to be disseminated and I am evolving beyond their technology.