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“no such thing as objective reality”

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I look for proof that I may not be as insane as I sometimes believe. It becomes difficult to explain my experiences and even more difficult to find some sort of corroborating evidence, or at least some credible source that may also have similar experiences. What this article attempts to explain is that our shared reality is more of an individual experience and that not all of the characteristics of that experience can be experienced by others in a similar (possibly factual) manner.

There are the subjective filters of our frame of reference that plays a part in how we experience this so-called shared reality, but those filters are often difficult to discern. Ask 12 witnesses what they experienced during a particular shared event and they will describe the experience from 12 different perspectives. Video evidence often refutes what they claim and we often rely on some kind of technological method as empirical evidence. This new quantum experiment may begin to cast doubt on the veracity of technological records in the future.

The observer’s interpretation may very well be a key component to how the event is manifested. In other words, if the 12 witnesses that I mentioned above were not present and another twelve witnesses experienced the event instead, because the observers have changed (everything else remains the same) I would predict that there would be a different outcome regarding the event itself.

We exist on the leading edge of creation, and as observers, our presence (not merely observance) determines the outcome whether we are aware of it or not. The subjective nature of reality begins to bolster the notion that our reality is more of a dream than we care to believe.

 

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A quantum experiment suggests there’s no such thing as objective reality

Physicists have long suspected that quantum mechanics allows two observers to experience different, conflicting realities. Now they’ve performed the first experiment that proves it.

Back in 1961, the Nobel Prize–winning physicist Eugene Wigner outlined a thought experiment that demonstrated one of the lesser-known paradoxes of quantum mechanics. The experiment shows how the strange nature of the universe allows two observers—say, Wigner and Wigner’s friend—to experience different realities.

Since then, physicists have used the “Wigner’s Friend” thought experiment to explore the nature of measurement and to argue over whether objective facts can exist. That’s important because scientists carry out experiments to establish objective facts. But if they experience different realities, the argument goes, how can they agree on what these facts might be?

That’s provided some entertaining fodder for after-dinner conversation, but Wigner’s thought experiment has never been more than that—just a thought experiment.

Last year, however, physicists noticed that recent advances in quantum technologies have made it possible to reproduce the Wigner’s Friend test in a real experiment. In other words, it ought to be possible to create different realities and compare them in the lab to find out whether they can be reconciled.

And today, Massimiliano Proietti at Heriot-Watt University in Edinburgh and a few colleagues say they have performed this experiment for the first time: they have created different realities and compared them. Their conclusion is that Wigner was correct—these realities can be made irreconcilable so that it is impossible to agree on objective facts about an experiment.

Wigner’s original thought experiment is straightforward in principle. It begins with a single polarized photon that, when measured, can have either a horizontal polarization or a vertical polarization. But before the measurement, according to the laws of quantum mechanics, the photon exists in both polarization states at the same time—a so-called superposition.

Wigner imagined a friend in a different lab measuring the state of this photon and storing the result, while Wigner observed from afar. Wigner has no information about his friend’s measurement and so is forced to assume that the photon and the measurement of it are in a superposition of all possible outcomes of the experiment.

Wigner can even perform an experiment to determine whether this superposition exists or not. This is a kind of interference experiment showing that the photon and the measurement are indeed in a superposition.

From Wigner’s point of view, this is a “fact”—the superposition exists. And this fact suggests that a measurement cannot have taken place.

But this is in stark contrast to the point of view of the friend, who has indeed measured the photon’s polarization and recorded it. The friend can even call Wigner and say the measurement has been done (provided the outcome is not revealed).

So the two realities are at odds with each other. “This calls into question the objective status of the facts established by the two observers,” say Proietti and co.

That’s the theory, but last year Caslav Brukner, at the University of Vienna in Austria, came up with a way to re-create the Wigner’s Friend experiment in the lab by means of techniques involving the entanglement of many particles at the same time.

The breakthrough that Proietti and co have made is to carry this out. “In a state-of-the-art 6-photon experiment, we realize this extended Wigner’s friend scenario,” they say.

They use these six entangled photons to create two alternate realities—one representing Wigner and one representing Wigner’s friend. Wigner’s friend measures the polarization of a photon and stores the result. Wigner then performs an interference measurement to determine if the measurement and the photon are in a superposition.

The experiment produces an unambiguous result. It turns out that both realities can coexist even though they produce irreconcilable outcomes, just as Wigner predicted.

That raises some fascinating questions that are forcing physicists to reconsider the nature of reality.

The idea that observers can ultimately reconcile their measurements of some kind of fundamental reality is based on several assumptions. The first is that universal facts actually exist and that observers can agree on them.

But there are other assumptions too. One is that observers have the freedom to make whatever observations they want. And another is that the choices one observer makes do not influence the choices other observers make—an assumption that physicists call locality.

If there is an objective reality that everyone can agree on, then these assumptions all hold.

But Proietti and co’s result suggests that objective reality does not exist. In other words, the experiment suggests that one or more of the assumptions—the idea that there is a reality we can agree on, the idea that we have freedom of choice, or the idea of locality—must be wrong.

Of course, there is another way out for those hanging on to the conventional view of reality. This is that there is some other loophole that the experimenters have overlooked. Indeed, physicists have tried to close loopholes in similar experiments for years, although they concede that it may never be possible to close them all.

Nevertheless, the work has important implications for the work of scientists. “The scientific method relies on facts, established through repeated measurements and agreed upon universally, independently of who observed them,” say Proietti and co. And yet in the same paper, they undermine this idea, perhaps fatally.

The next step is to go further: to construct experiments creating increasingly bizarre alternate realities that cannot be reconciled. Where this will take us is anybody’s guess. But Wigner, and his friend, would surely not be surprised.

Ref: arxiv.org/abs/1902.05080 : Experimental Rejection of Observer-Independence in the Quantum World

Para Consciousness

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Nothing exists (that is known) in isolation. Everything in existence either feeds upon something or something feeds upon it. In our physical reality it can be witnessed in our daily lives and actions. We refer to this as the circle of life, but there is much more afoot than we allow ourselves to realize. At the macro level we are at the top of the food chain and we are dependent upon plants and animals for our sustenance. We farm, hunt and process our food to be sold and distributed in order to sustain our life. It is the natural physical reality that offers evidence that we are able to witness how the natural world sustains itself and ourselves.

So if nothing exists in isolation, then what feeds upon us? At the micro level , thanks to technological advancements in microscopes, we know of the existence of bacteria and microscopic life that are important, if not, critical to our physical world. We are dependent upon bacteria living in our gastrointestinal tract to consume food that we consume. The bacteria consume soluble fiber, sugars and other substances then excrete chemicals that are essential to our biological processes. This symbiotic relationship exists in many forms throughout this physical existence.

We are also aware of detrimental biological processes that occur due to the existence of microorganisms that can bring about illness and death. I read an article in Wired magazine back in the late 90s where a microbiologist went into detail describing the war that we are waging against detrimental microorganisms. He stated that humanity has been engaged in this war throughout history and we dance along the very fine line of being overtaken by the microscopic creatures. In the eyes of a microbiologist bacteria are the dominant species of life in our physical reality. Microorganisms outnumber humans on an enormous scale as each human is host to billions of bacteria living on the exterior and interior of our bodies and even in our blood and lymphatic system.

In my life experience there has been one particular point of focus. I did not realize the importance of this conscious and unconscious focus until recently. Throughout my life the image of parasitic worms seemed to demand my attention and occurred often enough for me to maintain a subconscious attention that continues to help understand my conscious relationship with consciousness. There was a time when I thought that I might have some kind of infestation, but that never materialized. I was often puzzled why it continued to garner my attention, but I could not make the connection to why the imagery was important. Until I applied the physical paradigm of the conscious reality to the unconscious reality of our nonphysical existence.

As it is above so it is below, and as it is below so it is above. This axiom can be applied to heaven and earth, conscious and unconscious as well as the infinite levels in between; at any level of consciousness there is always a higher level and a lower level. We know people who are capable of feeding upon another person’s energy. There is a name that is given to those that are capable of doing this, some call them vampires. These people are capable of sucking the life out of another person whether it is intentional of otherwise. There are also people that are capable of providing energy to others in order to bring about a sense of well-being. The presence of certain individuals can manifest a higher level of existence to others in their orbit. We often refer to these people as spiritual or holy.

Where are we in the circle of the unconscious life and existence?  Physically we feed upon the material vibrational energy of plants and animals, but do we feed upon the nonphysical vibrational energy of entities that exist in our unseen orbit? Although I cannot provide any evidence of this yet, I would venture to say that this is so. I do know that nonphysical entities are capable of feeding upon my physical and nonphysical vibrational energies. The battle I wage on a daily basis is to keep these nonphysical, and possibly dimensional parasites from doing intentional, or possibly, unintentional harm. As with physical parasites there are natural and synthetic antibiotics and in the nonphysical realm there are means to provide protection from these creatures and entities of the nonphysical varieties as well.

– Environment –

All things exist in an environment. The bacteria in your gut exist and proliferate because of an environment that is conducive to their life. If the environment is hostile and the organism is capable of altering the environment, its activity will bring about an environment that is favorable to sustain its life or the life of its offspring. This can be both beneficial and detrimental to the host. We see this in parasitic organisms that alter the behavior of hosts in order to transfer the colony to, or infect, other potential hosts. We see this in the behavior of humans that change the environment to be conducive to their particular lifestyle and or culture. Historically we can find evidence that the activity of humanity has not always been beneficial for humanity itself or the host we inhabit called earth or Gia.

At the foundation of all environmental conditions we can point to its vibrational component. Rudimentary studies of plants and their environments have shown that particular types of music can affect plant growth. The vibrational signature of water can affect plants, animals and possibly other aspects of the unseen environment. There is even the orbit of planets and natural satellites that can affect the vibrational environment of this earth and its inhabitants; gravity as a vibration (research theory of Bumblebee using its wings to create a anti-gravitational vibration to manifest flight).

Our brain is an electrical instrument that is capable of detecting vibrations within and environment. We know this because we can interpret vibrational characteristics of an environment with our emotions. Walk into an ancient cathedral and you can feel, emotionally, the vibrational component of the architecture. Color vibration can alter the behavior of animals due to its vibrational component regardless of the ability to see colors. And, we know this because of how color is used, by plants and animals as a means of attraction and protection. Symbols are vibrational images, and constructs, that can transmit meaning; semiotics is the study of symbols. Words are symbols for sound. And, sound is a physical vibrational component that has far-reaching aspects that are often overlooked or remain undiscovered; such as Om..

As a targeted individual I have been subject to electromagnetic vibrations that have altered my state of well-being. I have survived these attacks by using counteractive electromagnetic vibrations and or using various shielding methods. I have endured psychic attacks and have employed various dark art defensive tactics that use sound and physical symbols and gestures as well as meditation. The most effective means of protection is in the creation of a vibrational environment that is beneficial for myself and detrimental to non-beneficial vibrations and entities. What I have recently discovered is when I leave my protected environment I am abruptly confronted with the vibrational environment of our suburbs and cities, and their detrimental affects on my well being.

What I am beginning to see is that our environment is being altered in a manner that seems to support characteristics that are a detriment not only physically (climate change), but possibly creating an opening for nonphysical entities that could be a detriment to the well-being of us all. If you would like to test this for yourself, go to an isolated natural environment, take off your shoes and stand barefoot on the earth or on the banks of a free-flowing river. You will begin to experience sympathetic resonance to the natural environment and you will recognize your natural state of being. Surfers are aware of the withdrawals they suffer when the surf is flat and they are unable to recharge , so to speak. It is not the act of surfing itself, it is the environmental vibrational component that they crave. It is why dolphins surf and why pelicans fly in front of a breaking wave. It is the vibrational energy that is being released and effecting all things within that environment.

Our cities and suburbs are unnatural environments. These man-made environments consist of a combination of beneficial and detrimental vibrational components. Electromagnetic vibrations from computer technology, electrical grids, wireless communications as well as the poorly devised infrastructure contribute to the detriment to our current human condition.

– Para Consciousness –

We must begin to realize that we are not only an inhabitant of this physical reality, but we also inhabit consciousness as a whole. As science begins to entertain the nature of our multidimensional universe, as the catch up to eastern philosophical interpretations of the infinite possible constructs of the whole of consciousness we will begin to see a connection between this physical reality and the nonphysical entities and realities that occupy the same space.

We have plenty of religious text that claim historical records of actual events regarding Gods, demigods, demons/angels and other spiritual entities that exist. And, while 80-90 percent of the world’s population believes in a God or Gods it is difficult to refute that these spiritual beings exist at all. Spiritual beings are so pervasive in our history that without them there would probably be very little need for our spiritual mythology.

As I continue down the rabbit hole of consciousness, I am finding that there exists a physical and nonphysical reality that exists beyond the periphery of our capable vision. I have seen people vanish around a corner without a doorway or exit in sight. I have seen the black smoke type apparitions associated with the demons or Jinn. I was tormented by a black shadowy figure with a hat in my dreams. I am in communication with entities on a daily basis and warned of particular detrimental choices. I have seen orbs and have received information or actual items presented to me in times of need. But, I have also discovered that the vibration of your current physical and nonphysical form can be manipulated to control your existence on a particular level of reality. What I have often referred to as a yo-yo affect of changing level of consciousness regards my attempt to ascend and the existence of other nonphysical entities to keep me from my quest for ascension.

My interpretation of what I experience begins to verify that there exist a para-conscious reality that exists between the conscious and unconscious realities that we inhabit. It may very well be that these entities are very much like us, but they have mastered their conscious and unconscious existence and have the ability to influence and control this existence and all those that inhabit it. What is at the crux of their control and influence is our sympathetic frequency that we share with them.

This reality is rife with depression, violence, conflict, and general dissatisfaction and it has been designed this way to continue the and increase the influence and control. I know this because that I am capable of elevating my vibrational signature and when I do so I experience a very different, somewhat peaceful, alternate conscious reality until that vibrational signature is countered. I have also recently determined that most of my aches and maladies are caused by unconscious entities from the para-conscious, and can be relieved by a thought or changing the vibrational frequency of the ailing part of my physical and nonphysical self with plant extracts via vaporization (smoke), direct application and ingestion.

I am confident in my methods that when I routinely experience these attempts at influence and control I can counter the effects and go about my life without worry. What is concerning is that my view is not shared with the majority of people who are part of my conscious experience. I see when people are under the influence of unseen entities. I can see when I am being influenced and when this happens the best defense is the realization that my actions are not my own. Once I turn my inner eye towards the source and focus my attention on the influence it will always subside. In a world full of unnecessary distractions remaining attentive to you thoughts and emotions is difficult and for some impossible.

This (our) reality is far more mysterious than we allow ourselves to experience and even when we experience something para-normal we dismiss it altogether, but when we experience a holy para-normal event people will travel vast distances to witness the mystery. There is so much happening right in front of us and when you allow yourself to acknowledge these para-normal events they will begin to become more abundant and very normal day-to-day events. And, as witness these para-conscious events and focus out attention on them benevolent events will increase and negative detrimental events will subside. I think I read a passage that said to have been written by Jesus (cannot find it now) where he stated that being attentive to you thoughts and actions was important in ones spiritual endeavors. That would be a great place to start in order to combat any influence and control from our unseen environment of the unconscious.

 

Without Time

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I recently received a comment from a WordPress user Lander7 on a previous post: The Mandela Effect. I may or may not have replied to the comment in the same vein at which it was given, but it did trigger an interesting train of thought that I never considered before. I want to introduce it in this post and will elaborate on it in later posts as I continue to try and incorporate it into my current experiences and my evolving state of mind.

What if, what some of us are experiencing as premonitions, mis-remembered events or, parallel realities, are slices of a reality without time, or at least a concept of nonlinear time. Something so radical and inconceivable would be difficult to understand and possible bring into question their state of mind. Without linear time how would we be able to function within our current construct and concept of reality? What would happen if we perceived the past, present and future as the same thing? If it were to happen quickly we would lose our current frame of reference and cease to function. But, a gradual change would bring about a significant paradigm shift that we can adapt to.

For someone like myself I have learned to adjust to a changing frame of reference. If you have been following this blog you may know that I struggled with my experiences. I have since embraced that which has brought me so much grief, and because of it I have an evolving relationship with my conscious and unconscious realities that is still difficult for me to explain. For me, a nonlinear time based consciousness begins to make perfect sense right now. More to come…

Journal: Intentive Action

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Moon waning gibbous 17.2 days, Aquarius – Air. Time 16:35, planet hours: Mars.

Changes in your conscious and unconscious realities can be similar to a change in the weather, those subtle shifts in the wind, that chill in the air, high crystalline clouds, etc. Shifts in the activity levels (resonance) of the un/conscious environment may be an increase or decrease in energetic influences that speak to your intuition. These signs are dependant on your own unique relationship with consciousness, your higher self, and how they are interpreted by your current conscious state of mind.

Our natural world is the physical manifestation of consciousness and if there was one element that could represent consciousness in its physical form it would be Hydrogen (thought to be the most abundant element in the known universe) and its related compound water (H2O). Water may very well be the medium to which consciousness propagates. Changes in the weather of consciousness are constant and influenced by the positions of the moon, and there is no greater body that has a unique influence upon water than the moon. Because we are 70% (brain is 73% water) water, we are well equipped to sense those changes and also able to influence them.

water

Thoughts can influence water, as demonstrated by Dr. Masaru Emoto. And, thoughts are the means by which we influence the law of attraction,
a fundamental law of consciousness. Thoughts act upon the fluid environment of consciousness. In our current conscious reality, thoughts are not considered an act itself even though all acts are preceded by thoughts. This serves the laws that govern our social construct because we do not associate thoughts as criminal unless it is accompanied by an unlawful action. But, thoughts act upon the whole of consciousness ultimately influencing all that reside within consciousness or a specific realm within consciousness. Each thought sends a ripple throughout the pool of consciousness.

It is by will alone that I set my mind in motion…

All things begin as thoughts and are manifested within consciousness with the specific intention of will for the purpose of expanding the whole of consciousness. If what I have expressed is valid then all thoughts are “intentive actions” that act upon consciousness directly. Our conscious lives are relegated to this physical construct, but our will resides upon a higher plane of consciousness and acts upon this physical reality.

Something unexpected is happening. My state of mind is changing. I am losing interest in most things and distraction is losing its audience to an ever growing spate of ??clarity?? (something I am unable to fully describe yet). It feels familiar like my higher self and somewhat unrecognizable or new.

I have been confused on many instances when a thought manifests in my conscious reality. Sometimes, I am unable to determine if the thought caused the manifestation or if a coming conscious event (intuitively) triggered the thought, this dilemma has become more evident. My current focus is to sustain this state of mind and to approach my thought process with greater respect and responsibility, while keeping track of the lunar cycles and the evolving climate of consciousness. Attention is critical. Thoughts are things…

The Mandela Effect

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The above video resonated with something within me. I have had many instances where I talked to a member of my family about an event that I thought happened and they stated that they could not remember anything related to my recollection.

I have stated here that I often wonder whether most of what I remember could be a memory from one of my unconscious dreams. Or, has the memory evolved in a way that is not recognizable to others involved, a possibility presented in the video. Robert Bruce states that false mental imagery can be implanted by negative entities, he refers to them as “core images”. There was a time in my life, about 2011, when I started to second guess my memories as well as my conscious experiences related to those memories. I wondered if I was beyond insane.

There is also a theory that the recollection is of an event that actually happened, but did not happen in this current reality, dimension, or parallel reality, but in another. Now this aspect is interesting to me because of my delusional relationship with this reality and my ongoing experiences that indicate that I may not belong here (wherever that may be).

Are we starting to see the true nature of this reality because of the internet (evolving library of shared conscious experiences). Or, are we evolving toward an understanding that multiple levels of consciousness exist (possibly parallel in nature) and that we readily shift into alternate states of consciousness and experience these states as the same one?

Infinite possible states of conscious experiences require that the observer remains unattached to any one reality. Is it our attachment to any aspect of our reality that confines our ability to venture beyond it? The only reality is the one you experience at the current moment. Memories define and confine one’s relationship with the self. It is an interesting notion that your memories may not be about you and your place within this reality, but more about your travels through changing states of consciousness within the whole of consciousness.

Journal: Astral Plane

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When I was a young child, under the age of 10, I would have what I thought were dreams. I would force myself to wake up, but the dream would continue. I would go to my mother’s bedside and try to explain what was happening, but like most parents she did not understand. I would sit at her bedside until the dream ended, one foot in this reality and the other in another. I have mentioned this phenomena in past posts and in my book. I did not know what was happening until recently discovering that I was visiting or viewing the Astral Plane.

The waking dreams have subsided and I have not had a fully immersive experience since childhood. I have had similar experiences while I sleep, but they end abruptly when I realize that I am dreaming and wake up. I feel the physical sensations wear off slowly as I regain consciousness. During meditation and before sleep I am able to feel the waking dream begin, but I am unable to sustain the connection and the experience fades. I now think that there might be some interference, prickling sensations from an unknown source.

The waking dreams were fully immersive. I could feel myself getting bigger, expanding in size and being able to see farther into the distance. Large transparent beings and possibly animals are walking around me. I could hear and sense everything around me, the experience was overwhelming. I was able to perceive both realities of this conscious experience and, what I now know to be, the astral plane. Physical and auditory sensations that were very much like my psychedelic hallucinations later in my life.

I have recently discovered that I am not normal, average or run of the mill. I can close my eyes and see an, aurora like, energy field moving in front of my eyes. I am having waking dreams, more commonly called astral sight with greater frequency. This sight occurs during meditation and mostly when I am between conscious and unconscious states. It seems as though this astral state washes over me and I can view a monochrome environment somewhat shadowy, but also defined, sometimes appearing like a photographic negative. My intuition is persistent and reliable. While under attack in Honolulu I was having mental (thought) conversations with other entities that I now understand to exist on the astral plane (it would have been nice to know this back then) – [Note: During the initial conversation she stated that they had a lot to lose, a lot of work would be lost if I proceeded]. Some of these experiences I thought were normal, while the other more extreme experiences I thought were my gradual descent into insanity.

I am posting this now because of a recent astral event I had after posting Psychic Attack? Several minutes after the post the astral event washed over me and I closed my eyes and began the dreamlike experience. I saw a man in what looked like khaki shirt and pants. I could not make out his face, but I did see him gesture at me. He was shaking his finger at me as if saying no, or don’t do that. I snapped out of it. I was a bit shaken because it was the first time (that I can remember) a character in the vision did something like this. I have had others dream states where I heard someone say my name to wake me up, but nothing like this has happened before.

I remain defiant. I have a finger I’d like to shake at him and it’s not the index finger. So, now I have reached a point where my antagonists are appearing to me and warning me. For the past seven to ten years, possibly more. I have had to endure their interference and meddling in my life. I have seen them watching me from a distance in my conscious and unconscious experiences. I cannot remember their attempt to contact me and explain to me what I was experiencing. Now I have evolved to a point where they are forced into more drastic measures to deter my progress. I feel that it is far too late for that.

With all of these new experiences from my antagonists and my allies, I am able to tell the difference between the two. My allies always protect me and offer guidance in persistent subtle ways. My antagonists know ony one way, it is the posture of a bully, one of perceived superiority, of arrogance, of petty character and one of fear.

A message to those that stand in my way.

“Try looking into that place where you dare not look! You’ll find me there, staring out at you!” – Frank Herbert, Dune.

Or, use your abilities to see into the future, you know there is no stopping me. I have come too far to turn back now, I could not stop even if I tried (and you know I have tried). The expansion of my conscious and unconscious self is not something I have control over now. Unlike those dreams I had when I was a child, this experience is building in depth and breadth with no apparent end in sight, coming together into one. I have cast aside my oars and have settled into floating downstream. You had your chance to offer assistance (guidance), but you chose to use the axe. You have taken from me all that I have ever held dear. I literally have nothing to lose. One of your minions recently said to me that “there are rules”. There are only a few rules that I live by. One significant rule is to do no harm. I suggest you abide by that rule, because karma can be a bitch when empowered by the focus of my evolving will. You should be familiar with the axioms of this realm: cause and effect, rhythm of the pendulum, etc… You will be consumed by your own deeds. Let me go my own way.

Ready or not…

P.S. I am grateful for your part in manifesting my evolution. You and your kind have been a catalyst for my transformation. I could not have done it without you. Now that I understand that this is where I have always wanted to be, I can’t possibly explain the scope of my desires now. The possibilities are truly without measure. Can you feel it? That pressure building? You know you can no longer contain it. At this point in time you must begin to understand that you have already failed.

Journal: Unconscious Reality

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The differences between the reality of my unconscious dreams and my conscious reality are limited. One aspect that has become increasingly evident is that I am much happier in my unconscious realm.

There are instances where I may be challenged, but I often realize that I am unconscious and start laughing as I wake up. These occurrences are rare and often remind me that I need to apply the same reaction in my conscious reality.

I am convinced that the unconscious and conscious realms are one in the same. Events that occur in one realm affect the other. They are more closely intertwined than we allow ourselves to believe. The importance of remembering the events in the unconscious reality cannot be denied.

Characters within the unconscious reality exist either in a formless conscious state or in a corporeal existence within another level of consciousness where they are able to exist together in an unconscious dream state and also in the conscious waking state as apparitions and or extraordinary anomalous events.

What has become an interesting artifact of my unconscious reality is that verbal communication with other entities rarely occurs. I have had similar experiences within my conscious experiences. I do not always hear words, it is more like intercepting or receiving thoughts. It is similar to how thoughts present themselves coming from an external source; like a kind of divine intervention. The majority of these experiences are proximal. I sometimes have to walk around to find the source as if I was moving my cell phone around to be a better signal.

Recent experiences have caused me to question how I perceive my conscious reality. My attention is focused upon which thoughts are my own and which thoughts are due to crosstalk, interference and possible intentional psychic suggestion (not always positive).

I am reminded of my higher unconscious self that I encountered while under the influence of psilocybin in late 1999. I drew this picture after the session ended.

bigbro

My higher unconscious self is my protector, my big brother, my intuition, my sensei, guru and anything similar. What has become increasingly notable is that my unconscious self, being greater than my physical self, has evolved to a point where I (it) can reach back into my current conscious experience and influence and interfere when necessary. The ‘guardian angel’ may very well be a person’s higher unconscious self. I am now better able to differentiate between external (outside of the self) thoughts (thought forms) and those that occur from my greater unconscious self. One particular element is the emotional component of the thought form, coming from the greater unconscious, just feels better.

There are many views and beliefs regarding targeted individuals, mind control and alien agendas and the like. I have no physical evidence that may prove any theory regarding what I experience in my daily life. I can only try to explain the experiences themselves and what I have discovered to combat or understand these experiences. Recently I have been using ancient techniques to alleviate psychic attacks (I thought they were technologically derived). These counter techniques work very well to my surprise. I must admit that I am a bit dismayed. It seems that the topics of myth and folklore (temporal possession, demonic influence) may have a substantial foothold in this realm of consciousness. My past unexplainable experiences are now better understood with my new-found knowledge. My frame of reference has expanded and has given me greater insight into my daily conscious reality. This conscious reality is extraordinarily phenomenal. I wish I could show people how I see this reality.

Still far too many questions, but far less than a few weeks ago.

Event: I saw a Chinese woman standing next to two friends at a local market yesterday. She stood out from all the other customers. As I walked toward her I felt that familiar connection increase. I saw the expression on her face, she was experiencing the same thing I was and looked at me as if she was caught somewhere she should not be. As I walked past her she looked down. As I turned the corner I looked back at her, she was talking to her friends and her friends were looking at me. They then immediately left the store. I am still trying to understand what is happening during those events (clueless).

Journal: On The Edge

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awakeI am now realizing that consciousness is unfolding before me. Everything is happening on the edge of conscious thought. With each step I take conscious expansion accommodates my actions. My interaction is directly related to the choices provided by my conscious experience.

I now see that my current environment was manifested from previous and current thoughts. I can begin to interpret my conscious environment,and those characters within. If there is any question why something has happened, I can reference a particular previous thought or action responsible for that experience.

That which I focus upon is at the edge of my experiences. I am witnessing the whole of consciousness accommodating my thoughts and manifesting them in real time.

I am not good at directing my thoughts to obtain a certain outcome. I have a habit of focusing on undesirable outcomes. That is changing. Once you are able to observe this reality on the edge of thought everything begins to fall into place.

What has caught my attention, again, is the manner in which consciousness is able to accommodate everyone within my conscious reality. I am noticing how a family member can alter my conscious reality; in a way infecting it with their temperament, thoughts and perceptions.  It is overtly fascinating.

Journal: Just Two

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I have always read that there were three key aspects to the human experience. They were often referred to as mind, body and spirit. The ‘mind’ together with consciousness, the physical ‘body’ and environment and lastly the ‘spiritual’ connection to everything we experience that we cannot yet understand.

I have whittled it down to two. There is consciousness within the mind and then then the physical body. This is something I have a direct connection with. Consciousness is the stage and I am a physical character upon the stage. There is a definite separation between the two. My current concept struggles with the physical environment as a projection of consciousness, but that is changing.

I find myself leaning more toward an all encompassing concept of consciousness, leaving only one (conscious dreamworld), but until that becomes my dominant mindset, I’ll have to wait. I am perceiving that there is something cast within the shadows and silence of my physical realm that my conscious mind cannot yet grasp. “Like a splinter in your mind”…

The reality that unfolds before me each day is as dynamic and unpredictable as the realities that I encounter while in an unconscious dream during sleep. There is a raw feeling of detachment from both the conscious (waking) and unconscious (sleeping) stages. I find that I am allowing the observer within me to dominate my perceptions more each cycle.

I am more interested in what I cannot see or experience at the moment. Everything else is a relentless constant distraction.

Journal: Underwhelmed

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What is it I see? Too much of everything has become unimportant. Overwhelming exposure to so much that offers nothing in return. Where have those things that provide consciousness with sustenance gone to?

I see the motion driven by the system, but I struggle to find the purpose. Progress without purpose, with ever increasing complexity there is very little left to salvage.

I am underwhelmed by the chaos. I have pushed the noise of that which has little meaning, of this existence, deep into the overtly abundant cracks and recesses. And I now face something else entirely.

I now see something different in everything I see. It lies just beyond what my conscious mind can interpret, just beyond my reach. And, as this thought forms in my mind, I cannot tell if I am chasing it or it is chasing me.

Journal: Challenge

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The most difficult challenge that I face is not focusing my attention upon all that I am able to experience.

Difficulty lies in focussing my attention upon that which I am not yet able to experience.

Every moment the dream narrative that is my life unfolds before me as my reactive mind chases yet another distraction. Where do I need to focus my attention as the magicians perform the trick that is this shared dream?

When I struggle with the challenges of this existence I often hear someone laughing in the distance. Laughter from a source drenched in self satisfaction with a healthy dose of overconfidence.

I garner a bit of my own satisfaction from the sense that I am enough of a point of interest (pain in the ass) for them to find it necessary to laugh at all.

When I explore this level of this shared dream I am always reminded of what I do not want. My excursions into this realm are fewer than what existed in the past. What am I trying to experience that I missed on prior journeys here?

All challenges are accompanied by their own resolutions.

2D Or Not 2D

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Three dimensional perception is actually an illusion of a two dimensional reality or information and data perceived by the mind. Holographic principle supports idealism in that our three dimensional reality is an illusion (being that everything is created by the mind using a frame of reference, or memory based database, everything is an illusion of consciousness). There is a fine line between delusion and illusion. We refer to delusions (such as this one) when we are unable to experience what another person is perceiving. If a person states that they can see pink elephants of ghosts that we cannot see then we label them delusional. As I try and understand the nature of our shared conscious dream it would irresponsible to dismiss another person’s perceptions just because they do not fit the reality we all seem to share. So when someone states that they can see aliens, then I say, COOL!

Information can be interpreted differently based upon the criteria or algorithm (rules) by the interpreter (ultimately you). Data in its raw form is 2 dimensional. Zeros and ones are raw informational elements of a computer operating system. The data has no mass and, for the sake of this post, lacks form. When you fill up your hard drive or memory card on your computer does the device weight more? Does the device grow in size? As we age and collect memories of our experiences does our physical self gain weight? Does our brain grow larger and our skull expand? I think for now we can answer those questions with, no.

The conscious universe is a two dimensional plane with many other dimensions stacked one upon the other. Sting theory states that there are eleven dimensions, but I will agree with ancient eastern philosophy and state that there are infinite dimensions. 2D makes sense regarding the non-local nature of this dream reality although it is very difficult to wrap your mind around what a 2D environment would feel and look like. If you would like to experience a two dimensional existence then this could be achieved with a psychedelic substance called Salvia Divinorum A. Salvia allows all psychonauts to experience similar two dimensional experiences under its influence. Salvia is a potent psychedelic that needs to be respected and used under a the supervision of a experience user (sitter) under the proper set and setting.

My experience with salvia allowed me to perceive a two dimensional reality in that I could only see what was in front of me and to some degree peripherally, but if I tried to look to the left, right or behind me I could not. I was limited to two dimensions. Not only is there the visual entrapment of two dimensions, but there is also the physical restrictions as well. You actually feel physically sandwiched limiting your ability to turn your body. During one particular experience I felt as if I stuck to a fence (or the fence itself). I could feel my body, I could not rotate my view by turning my body. My experience was short lived and soon found myself back on my bed. Many other people have had longer (timeless) experiences in the 2D reality that you can read about online.

The holographic principal infers that our three dimensional reality is an illusion created by our conscious mind. And what we now are beginning to understand about our mind is that it does not always show us (interpret) what is actually in our visual field. The mind uses memory based upon experiences (frame of reference) to concoct/create our reality. Visual information/data is processed then interpreted and displayed. Your eyes actually see the world upside down due to the curved lens and your brain corrects the image so that you see/perceive it correctly. So what else is the brain doing that we are not aware of? Probably much more than you are aware of.

Gett’n All New Agey n’ Shit

If you survived the New Age philosophical ideas of the 70s through the 90s then you have heard all about the light or luminous body, auras, chi and meridians. Well maybe there is something to what they were saying back then because a lot of it is still hanging around. If we are waves of particles that have snapped into being to construct our physical self then we are indeed beings of light or energy and nothing else. People that claim to see auras might actually be seeing something, or at least perceiving energy as information in the confines of their conscious mind.

In new age circles we have always heard that we create our reality with our thoughts and intentions. In a dream we create and perceive our experience in the same manner. Our dreams may have been trying to tell us something and it may not have anything to do with the experiences or the characters therein. Those characters and symbols are trying to get your attention.

Hey! Look at what you are doing right now. You are creating and perceiving something that exists wholly in your own mind. Nobody is experiencing this dream but you. Look what you are capable of. This is no different than what goes on when you are awake. Remember this when you wake up. Hey! are you listening to me? Pay attention!

Most of the time we wake up accept our lives and expect our lives to be nothing more that what they currently are. We are not completely awake, but rather living in an inherited dream world. Memory serves a purpose so that we feel comfort to wake up in a familiar environment of this shared reality. Memory also confines us to this shared reality because it manifests a belief that this reality is the only one.

After my exit from the void into this reality I now inhabit I was able to change things within my conscious reality, but still had difficulty understanding what I was doing. Realizing of what I was perceiving and not being prepared to handle my perceptions was difficult. I struggled with accepting what I was experiencing and thought that I was delusional. I slowly pushed myself back into the well accepted idea of materialism. Even though I tried to find comfort within this reality there were too many things that did not make sense. Thanks to those that watch and try to control the creation and perception of my reality, I cannot allow myself to accept this false concept of reality based upon the philosophy of materialism. Whatever reason they use to condone their actions, those actions have brought about changes in my life that I may have never encountered.

I am changed because I can see that this reality is a dream. My unconscious dreams reflect my current belief. I do not run from that I do not understand. Many times a part of me stands still when being threatened in a dream. The observer within me show me how my thoughts and reactions determine the course of the narrative. The dynamic nature of dreams are consistent in both the unconscious and conscious realms.

Much of what I have written (a couple of months ago) in this post prior to the final edit no longer seems to fit my current mindset. Yes, I have been angry and frustrated. My mind was filled with resentment and vengeance. Funny when you shift your dominant paradigm concerning your perceptions of this conscious construct conscious evolution is no longer inhibited.

Journal: Mindlessness

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Mindless consciousness, is it conceivable? I can meditate or fall prey to a trance without thoughts. I can surrender to contentment and bliss and allow myself to be enveloped by a state of mindlessness, so it seems. But, this state of mindlessness is still conscious. Consciousness facilitates mindlessness.

I may not fully understand mindlessness as much as I am beginning to understand consciousness. I guess I am making the transition from achieving mindlessness to engaging mindfulness. I can understand that until mindlessness is achieved mindfulness is difficult to understand.

The human mind is a terrible thing when in the hands of the uninformed and untrained.

It is not so important to know everything as the importance of understanding what you do not know.

I exist in the midst of the infinite unable to receive its abundance.

I have heard that we should live life as if it were your last day. I think a better approach would be to live this life as if you were already dead. 

Enough mindless prattle. I will resume my posts on idealism soon. I have been busy with the usual…