Category: consciousness

Journal: Follow Me

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Moon waning crescent 25.7  days, Cancer – Water. Time 23:35, planet hours: Venus.

I ran some errands and crossed paths with a group of young men that were following me on foot. It is fortunate that people have difficulty hiding their emotions. The face and eyes will usually betray a person when they encounter something unexpected.

What made this interesting was that they were trying to hide their faces, at least the ones behind the person leading the expedition. Shifty looking character, which makes them easier to remember. Something is a little different now. They looked like they may have been able to handle themselves.

So what was their purpose? Are they trying to provoke me or intimidate me? I have been here before, there is little that intimidates me anymore. They looked like they were the ones that were intimidated. What could they possibly be afraid of?

I beleive that they are afraid that I will realize what I am, or will become. To be completely honest, I share their fear. My unconscious still won’t show me what I want to see. Maybe they can help me awaken that dormant part of me. The pace begins to quicken.

Spooky action at a distance.

Journal: Shift – 08.05.2018

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Moon waning crescent 23.3  days, Taurus – Earth. Time 18:15, planet hours: Luna.

In trying to understand my conscious environment and the shifts in consciousness that I am able to detect, this day is one that needs to be noted. The shift is in a negative direction with bizzare (even for me) activity of those around me. This day follows the last quarter of the current lunar cycle.

Journal: Without Doubt

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Moon waning gibbous 20.2  days, Aries – Fire. Time 16:15, planet hours: Mars.

Through the process of elimination I have proven to myself what I stated in the post Journal: Mental. I opened myself up to attacks and my antagonists took advantage. I then experimented with varying methods to counter those attacks. The most effective method(s) was able to disrupt both electronic and psychic interference. The method was one that utilizes resonance, vibration or frequency (whatever term you prefer). I can no longer doubt the effectiveness of these devices.

I have been experimenting with devices that allow me to produce the desired effect, but similar devices can be found online that utilize various Rodin coil windings and its permutations. These devices are crutches that are capable of interfering with a variety natural and unnatural phenomena, but are not a permanent solution (a voice in a vivid dream once called the devices Tom-Foolery). The ultimate solution lies within my unconscious.

Something interesting occurred when a device was used to interfere with a psychic attack I was defending against. As the attack was countered, there was a distinct odor detected in the room. Robert Bruce stated that he has also experienced certain odors associated with attacks that he has endured. The room was closed, no vents or windows were open and I could smell the odor for a few seconds as if someone walked by me. I have detected the odor in the middle of a bike ride in the mountains with no one in sight and several times inside my home. The odor is associated with a specific entity or shaman practicing dark arts. Friend or foe I do not know.

I have encountered shaman or entities in the past. I have stared back at them from a distance defiantly. Most of the minor shaman I have encountered were surprised I was unaffected by their efforts. But, this specific shaman is now identifiable regardless of the realm of its existence.

My conscious reality has become a sci-fi novel…

Journal: Spiral

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Moon waning gibbous 19.4  days, Aries – Fire. Time 19:40, planet hours: Mars.

I have been under attack for the past couple of days. I saw it coming. It is a lot like knowing that a storm is coming and that you prepare for it and ride it out. I do have some means of mediating relief of the attack, but it just hovers over you like a dark cloud. These events present an opportunity to test your resolve and endurance. Focus your attention back at it and see what you can find (twins).

I can remember when I was not aware of the source. It had a profound affect on my state of mind. That overbearing hopelessness and self-doubt can incapacitate you, like an anxiety attack that lasts for days. I feel for those that must endure these attacks without knowledge of its source. It is easy to succumb to that downward spiral when you are unable to see it any other way.

I will say again that I am supremely fascinated by it. Just knowing that some entity has a means to induce this feeling in another has captivated my attention on a completely different level this time. A parasite of consciousness of the lowest level consumed by its own negativity. I have to admit, it’s a pretty good trick.

I am split by the negative emotions while my unconscious quietly takes on the part of the observer. That unconscious component keeps me tethered and patient until it passes. I kind of get used to it, but when I do, it subsides. I surmise that parasites give up when you allow yourself to ignore them. I recite the “litany against fear” (Frank Herbert’s Dune) and chuckle when done.

litany

What brought this on? I am fighting back in more ways than before. It feels right to do more, now…

Thank you.

Journal: Mental

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Moon waning gibbous 18.5  days, Pisces – Water. Time 21:06, planet hours: Mercury.

I have been reading and watching material regarding mental health from leading psychologists. I am starting to believe that they may have a grasp of the conscious state of mind, but are unable, or unwilling, to grasp the vast remaining unconscious. This actually benefits their profession since it is rooted in our conscious reality, but it does very little for those that straddle this reality and the unconscious.

I am now comfortable with differing states of mind and the un/conscious states of reality whether they are artificial or otherwise. The key is resonance. It is more fitting to call them states of resonance than states of mind. We know this to be true from brainwave (binaural) entrainment. We know this to be true because a thought and a word can change your state of mind. It is all right there waiting to be accessed and applied.

The difficulty, for me, is control. I am aware of it. Control may be too difficult, too much flow. It is better to guide than to control. We are biological vibrational detectors. Consciousness is a state of vibration that we interpret through sight, sound, emotion, cognition, touch and taste. We influence consciousness whether we realize it or not. Constantly resonating and feeding back upon itself. We know this is true from the use of psychedelics. For those that realize this, they will find true freedom.

Journal: Emergence

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Full Moon 14.9 days, Aquarius – Air. Time 13:06, planet hours: Mars.

Clarissa Conti had noted that she and her partner have had anomalous scratches and injuries that they were unable determine the source. At the time the post was written she believed that the injuries were caused by extraterrestrial activity. Her assessment might have changed since then and subsequently my ability to believe her assessment has changed also.

I am starting to have similar experiences where I am unable to explain certain injuries and irregular health related issues. The latest being a blemish on my face that was growing in size. I was able to remove a small particle that resembled a very small grain of rice from within the blemish. The particle was almost cartilage like in texture. After the particle was removed the blemish healed.

My assessment is not related to an extraterrestrial implant, but more in line with what most refer to as activity from dimensional entities and my own unconscious activities manifesting in my conscious reality.

If you think that this is some crazy shit, I absolutely agree with you. But, when I was shaving earlier today I noticed a lighter streak of skin on my face that looks like a scar from many years ago. I never had a laceration on my face in that area. I have scars from other cuts and bruises from my activities in the great outdoors, but there are memories associated with those scars. I accept that I could be remembering things wrong – Mandela Effect…

I am inclined to believe that my conscious and unconscious are merging and this may be causing an emergence of something new or a return to the source. I really cannot determine what may be happening, if anything notable is happening at all.

How does anyone go about navigating a new environment or multiple conscious realities? What wit or will is available? Simply, trust your unconscious higher self.

Tool – Fortysix and two

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Popular belief dictates that the song title references an idea first conceived by Carl Jung and later expounded upon by Drunvalo Melchizedek concerning the possibility of reaching a state of evolution at which the body would have two more than the normal 46 total chromosomes and leave a currently disharmonious state. The premise is that humans would deviate from the current state of human DNA which contains 44 autosomes and 2 sex chromosomes. The next step of evolution would likely result in human DNA being reorganized into 46 autosomes and 2 sex chromosomes, according to Melchizedek.

Furthermore, it is believed the song references a wish to experience change through the “shadow”; an idea which represents the parts of one’s identity that one hates, fears, and represses, this exists as a recurring theme in the work of Carl Jung.

– Straight out of Wikipedia

Join in my… join in my child
And listen… digging through my old numb shadow

My shadow’s… shedding skin
I’ve been picking… scabs again
I’m down, digging through
My old muscles, looking for a clue

I’ve been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could’ve been
I’ve been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I wanna feel the changes coming down
I wanna know what I’ve been hiding

In my shadow
My shadow
Change is coming through
My shadow
My shadow’s
Shedding skin
I’ve been picking
My scabs again

Join in my… join in my child
Shadow’s… closer to meaning

I’ve been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could’ve been
I’ve been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions
I wanna feel the change consume me
Feel the outside turning in
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I’ve endured within

My shadow
My shadow
Change is coming
Now is my time
Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I’ve been clinging to
Forty-six and two ahead of me

I… choose to live and to
Grow… take and give and to
Move… learn and love and to
Cry… kill and die and to
Be… paranoid and to
Lie… hate and fear and to
Do… what it takes to move through
I… choose to live and to
Lie… kill and give and to
Die… learn and love and to
Do… what it takes to step through

See my shadow changing
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way by
Stepping through my shadow
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty six and two are just ahead of me

Journal: Location…

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Moon waning crescent 23.9 days, Taurus – Earth. Time 23:03, planet hours: Jupiter.

I was engaged in a self talk session a few moments ago. It occurred to me that I susceptible to the thoughts and feelings of others in an indirect manner. I believe it people who have this ability are called empaths, but I do not consider myself one. I am probably sensitive to the emotional energy of people in my immediate conscious environment. An overload of background noise…

This helps to explain why I enjoy isolated places. Afternoon bike rides to the top of a mountain during the middle of the week were always worth the struggle to get there so I can take in the silence. When I rode with someone it wasn’t as rewarding and I never understood why until now. The silence and possibly the absence of thoughts (emotional energy) was what drove me to isolated areas.

The feeling of a kind of emotional relief or the absence of emotional energy, other than my own, is very satisfying and uplifting. I cannot find that satisfaction in populated areas. This has never been more evident in my life than at this moment. Meditation offers some relief, but it never compares to complete isolation.

Location, location, location…

Journal: Intentive Action

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Moon waning gibbous 17.2 days, Aquarius – Air. Time 16:35, planet hours: Mars.

Changes in your conscious and unconscious realities can be similar to a change in the weather, those subtle shifts in the wind, that chill in the air, high crystalline clouds, etc. Shifts in the activity levels (resonance) of the un/conscious environment may be an increase or decrease in energetic influences that speak to your intuition. These signs are dependant on your own unique relationship with consciousness, your higher self, and how they are interpreted by your current conscious state of mind.

Our natural world is the physical manifestation of consciousness and if there was one element that could represent consciousness in its physical form it would be Hydrogen (thought to be the most abundant element in the known universe) and its related compound water (H2O). Water may very well be the medium to which consciousness propagates. Changes in the weather of consciousness are constant and influenced by the positions of the moon, and there is no greater body that has a unique influence upon water than the moon. Because we are 70% (brain is 73% water) water, we are well equipped to sense those changes and also able to influence them.

water

Thoughts can influence water, as demonstrated by Dr. Masaru Emoto. And, thoughts are the means by which we influence the law of attraction,
a fundamental law of consciousness. Thoughts act upon the fluid environment of consciousness. In our current conscious reality, thoughts are not considered an act itself even though all acts are preceded by thoughts. This serves the laws that govern our social construct because we do not associate thoughts as criminal unless it is accompanied by an unlawful action. But, thoughts act upon the whole of consciousness ultimately influencing all that reside within consciousness or a specific realm within consciousness. Each thought sends a ripple throughout the pool of consciousness.

It is by will alone that I set my mind in motion…

All things begin as thoughts and are manifested within consciousness with the specific intention of will for the purpose of expanding the whole of consciousness. If what I have expressed is valid then all thoughts are “intentive actions” that act upon consciousness directly. Our conscious lives are relegated to this physical construct, but our will resides upon a higher plane of consciousness and acts upon this physical reality.

Something unexpected is happening. My state of mind is changing. I am losing interest in most things and distraction is losing its audience to an ever growing spate of ??clarity?? (something I am unable to fully describe yet). It feels familiar like my higher self and somewhat unrecognizable or new.

I have been confused on many instances when a thought manifests in my conscious reality. Sometimes, I am unable to determine if the thought caused the manifestation or if a coming conscious event (intuitively) triggered the thought, this dilemma has become more evident. My current focus is to sustain this state of mind and to approach my thought process with greater respect and responsibility, while keeping track of the lunar cycles and the evolving climate of consciousness. Attention is critical. Thoughts are things…

Journal: Losing Interest

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Moon waning gibbous 13.7 days, Capricorn – Earth. Time 20:35, planet hours: Luna.

Things that I used to find interesting are no longer so. My attention span for most things is diminishing also. I attribute these changes to my evolving relationship with consciousness.

This is kind of surprising, I thought that I would become more Zen-like, more like the peaceful caring monk I read about in the many philosophical books of my not so distant past. But, I have become impatient and disinterested with the mundane. What I am beginning to suspect is that my conscious reality has always been overly saturated with distractive elements and now I am no longer able to give those distractions my attention.

Journal: What Matters?

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Moon waxing gibbous 13.7 days, Sagittarius – Fire. Time 21:45, planet hours: Jupiter.

From  the perspective of conscious immortality, there are pitfalls. I know that I am an immortal conscious being, but in my current physical state there are perceived limitations prior to mastering consciousness. Time is not on my side within this conscious simulation. During the waxing and waning of the moon I cycle through similar emotional states.

I can see the infinite within the finite. There are no limits within the confines of consciousness. Abraham was right, there is so much in abundance and it is fitting because the unbridled expansion of consciousness requires it. My role is defined and as every bit in constant flux. It is all a fascinating bit of theater. Everything singing its own song, all in the same key, not always in my prefered pitch.

Acceptance is a wedge that pries at my attachments and well honed habits. I struggle to care. If it is all a dream then why should I care at all? Everything is temporary. It always has been and forever will be. The chaos is just a facade of what we are unable to understand, all while never knowing we sing the same song

What matters? Everything and nothing, soon to be replaced by some other thing even though they all now seem to be the same thing. Consciousness wastes nothing.

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Journal: Trials

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Moon waxing crescent 3.8 days, Taurus – Earth. Time 00:16, planet hours: Mars.

It is difficult to interpret and understand the conscious universe. The depth and breadth of consciousness is infinite, manifesting before our eyes, never the same, existing within the moment, then to sublimate into something else.

I am left feeling that I missed an opportunity to learn something new. Was today a trial run towards acceptance? I bore witness to a level of consciousness that I have tried to avoid in the past. I can sense it before it comes, but I cannot avoid it or change it. How does one accept something that is undesirable?

Psychedelics

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Moon waning crescent 26.2 days, Taurus – Earth. Time 18:43, planet hours: Luna.

The above video investigates the subject of microdosing psychedelic substances. There seems to be a trend in microdosing psychoactive substances in order to improve their relationship with life. Depending on your age you may have some kind of following with famous psychonauts of your generation. Timothy Leary, Shulgin and McKenna were some of those that had gained a following because of their inward travels. I have listened to many hours of Terrance McKenna’s lectures on his relationship with psychedelics as well as shamanism, gnosticism, alchemy, etc.

I am an advocate for the decriminalization of psychedelic substances because I believe that governmental institutions should not have the authority to dictate what a person can do to their body in the privacy of their own home. If they do no harm to anyone including themselves then there is no need for a governmental body to interfere. I am also an advocate for decriminalization because I strongly feel that humanity, especially the current human condition, would benefit from what psychedelic substances have to offer.

Humanity as a whole has benefitted and possibly was accelerated into the information age by the free use of LSD and other psychedelics during the 1960s. There was an article that I read during the dotcom era that discussed interviews with the leading minds of the time, during a Siggrah conference, and found that psychedelics greatly influenced their direction. One of note was Steve Jobs, as well as the founder of Oracle Larry Ellison.

We also understand that many governments have made the use of psychedelics illegal, not even available for clinical trials. It does not take a scholar to realize that psychedelic substances can alter a person’s willingness to question their role within the current social construct that benefits governmental oversight and nationalistic paradigms.

Current rates of suicide continue to climb. The CDC has seen a 30% increase since 1999. With the more recent celebrity suicides and depression reaching epidemic proportions, we need to look backwards, before the widespread distribution of prescription drugs. There is a wealth of information contained within ancient cultural medicines that humanity can benefit from. With the recent legalization of cannabis we should see a decline in depression as the active constituents within cannabis are studied, tested and distributed. But, there are many other psychedelics that are not being studied fully because of outdated mindsets of those elected to political leadership. Maybe we should require microdosing of political leaders with psychedelics much like the tribal empires of our shamanic forefathers.