Journal: Repetition

Moon waning crescent 23.0 days, Libra – Air. Time 01:07, planet hours: Mars.

I notice that the same stories are told over and over again. The actors may change, but the story is repeated many times. It is as if there little creativity left in the stories we tell today, for me. But someone younger may not realize this just yet. Before that realization happens everything is new and exciting until you begin to realize that everything is ruled by repetition.

Is the repetitive nature of this reality an obstruction of the expansion of consciousness? Is it artificially forced into stagnation by some conscious or unconscious entity? Does the cyclic nature of our conscious environment pose limitations upon us or are those perceived limitations something that must be overcome? There is far more than what we think we see. The Universe forever was and forever will be. There was no beginning and there is no end. This existence is just a place for us to gather the courage to leave the nest.

Without Time

I recently received a comment from a WordPress user Lander7 on a previous post: The Mandela Effect. I may or may not have replied to the comment in the same vein at which it was given, but it did trigger an interesting train of thought that I never considered before. I want to introduce it in this post and will elaborate on it in later posts as I continue to try and incorporate it into my current experiences and my evolving state of mind.

What if, what some of us are experiencing as premonitions, mis-remembered events or, parallel realities, are slices of a reality without time, or at least a concept of nonlinear time. Something so radical and inconceivable would be difficult to understand and possible bring into question their state of mind. Without linear time how would we be able to function within our current construct and concept of reality? What would happen if we perceived the past, present and future as the same thing? If it were to happen quickly we would lose our current frame of reference and cease to function. But, a gradual change would bring about a significant paradigm shift that we can adapt to.

For someone like myself I have learned to adjust to a changing frame of reference. If you have been following this blog you may know that I struggled with my experiences. I have since embraced that which has brought me so much grief, and because of it I have an evolving relationship with my conscious and unconscious realities that is still difficult for me to explain. For me, a nonlinear time based consciousness begins to make perfect sense right now. More to come…

Journal: Appreciation

Moon waxing crescent 1.9 days, Libra – Air. Time 8:52, planet hours: Venus.

What  has become an emerging point of focus for me is something that the consciousness of Abraham has stated through Esther Hicks, “the leading edge of thought”. I have become appreciative of what it means to be on the leading edge of thought and consciousness. I catch myself watching, waiting and anticipating the evolution of consciousness. Being fully rooted in the now (the moment) and experiencing the constant progression through this conscious evolutionary expedition. I find myself transfixed on that edge in great appreciation for whatever is to come. It is when I am committed to being on that edge that I can receive those bits and bytes of what is to come. I am appreciative that I am a witness to the extraordinary events that takes place within every millisecond of every moment given to this existence.

Journal: Follow Me

Moon waning crescent 25.7  days, Cancer – Water. Time 23:35, planet hours: Venus.

I ran some errands and crossed paths with a group of young men that were following me on foot. It is fortunate that people have difficulty hiding their emotions. The face and eyes will usually betray a person when they encounter something unexpected.

What made this interesting was that they were trying to hide their faces, at least the ones behind the person leading the expedition. Shifty looking character, which makes them easier to remember. Something is a little different now. They looked like they may have been able to handle themselves.

So what was their purpose? Are they trying to provoke me or intimidate me? I have been here before, there is little that intimidates me anymore. They looked like they were the ones that were intimidated. What could they possibly be afraid of?

I beleive that they are afraid that I will realize what I am, or will become. To be completely honest, I share their fear. My unconscious still won’t show me what I want to see. Maybe they can help me awaken that dormant part of me. The pace begins to quicken.

Spooky action at a distance.

Journal: What Matters?

Moon waxing gibbous 13.7 days, Sagittarius – Fire. Time 21:45, planet hours: Jupiter.

From  the perspective of conscious immortality, there are pitfalls. I know that I am an immortal conscious being, but in my current physical state there are perceived limitations prior to mastering consciousness. Time is not on my side within this conscious simulation. During the waxing and waning of the moon I cycle through similar emotional states.

I can see the infinite within the finite. There are no limits within the confines of consciousness. Abraham was right, there is so much in abundance and it is fitting because the unbridled expansion of consciousness requires it. My role is defined and as every bit in constant flux. It is all a fascinating bit of theater. Everything singing its own song, all in the same key, not always in my prefered pitch.

Acceptance is a wedge that pries at my attachments and well honed habits. I struggle to care. If it is all a dream then why should I care at all? Everything is temporary. It always has been and forever will be. The chaos is just a facade of what we are unable to understand, all while never knowing we sing the same song

What matters? Everything and nothing, soon to be replaced by some other thing even though they all now seem to be the same thing. Consciousness wastes nothing.

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Psychedelics

Moon waning crescent 26.2 days, Taurus – Earth. Time 18:43, planet hours: Luna.

The above video investigates the subject of microdosing psychedelic substances. There seems to be a trend in microdosing psychoactive substances in order to improve their relationship with life. Depending on your age you may have some kind of following with famous psychonauts of your generation. Timothy Leary, Shulgin and McKenna were some of those that had gained a following because of their inward travels. I have listened to many hours of Terrance McKenna’s lectures on his relationship with psychedelics as well as shamanism, gnosticism, alchemy, etc.

I am an advocate for the decriminalization of psychedelic substances because I believe that governmental institutions should not have the authority to dictate what a person can do to their body in the privacy of their own home. If they do no harm to anyone including themselves then there is no need for a governmental body to interfere. I am also an advocate for decriminalization because I strongly feel that humanity, especially the current human condition, would benefit from what psychedelic substances have to offer.

Humanity as a whole has benefitted and possibly was accelerated into the information age by the free use of LSD and other psychedelics during the 1960s. There was an article that I read during the dotcom era that discussed interviews with the leading minds of the time, during a Siggrah conference, and found that psychedelics greatly influenced their direction. One of note was Steve Jobs, as well as the founder of Oracle Larry Ellison.

We also understand that many governments have made the use of psychedelics illegal, not even available for clinical trials. It does not take a scholar to realize that psychedelic substances can alter a person’s willingness to question their role within the current social construct that benefits governmental oversight and nationalistic paradigms.

Current rates of suicide continue to climb. The CDC has seen a 30% increase since 1999. With the more recent celebrity suicides and depression reaching epidemic proportions, we need to look backwards, before the widespread distribution of prescription drugs. There is a wealth of information contained within ancient cultural medicines that humanity can benefit from. With the recent legalization of cannabis we should see a decline in depression as the active constituents within cannabis are studied, tested and distributed. But, there are many other psychedelics that are not being studied fully because of outdated mindsets of those elected to political leadership. Maybe we should require microdosing of political leaders with psychedelics much like the tribal empires of our shamanic forefathers.

Journal: Acceptance

Is the goal of enlightenment to prepare you for immortality? I wonder how many times have I lived a life, like this one. How many times I have died, but then woke up, or just transitioned into continuing to do whatever I was doing at that moment. Reference one of those moments when I said “I thought I was gonna die”. What if, this (right here, right now) was it. A perpetual dream. When you get better at life, at ‘it’, you start to ascend to higher states of consciousness until you begin to realize that your life will never end, ever… You then begin to realize that you will continue to transition, evolve and expand in ways that are not yet possible to conceive, ad infinitum.

We perceive of opposites, but what we actually perceive is varying degrees of a single thing. Hot & cold is just varying degrees of heat (energy). So, does enlightenment exist because of a perceived opposite? But, what is its opposite? Is it the human condition? Why does the concept of enlightenment even exist? Why do we feel a need to pursue it? If you where to realize that this was ‘it’ and you could ascend to higher states of consciousness (right here, right now), without waiting for salvation or some grand awakening, would you do it? Are you ready? Heaven and Hell are opposites, but of what one thing? Varying degrees of happiness? Are both eternal or temporal? Do varying degrees of conscious states exist between them or within them? Am I currently closer to Heaven or to Hell? I guess that depends upon the moment and that can change dramatically in a matter of seconds. So, if I can move from Heaven to Hell form one moment to the next then they must not exist linearly, like a journey from one place to the next. Heaven and Hell must exist simultaneously within the whole of  consciousness equally accessible at any moment (non-locality, right here, right now) dependent upon varying states and levels of consciousness and your place within it.

When you become enlightened, do you begin to accept that you are an immortal unconscious being within this perpetual dream? Seeing things as they are, accepting them and knowing that it will end, and in the end, you will transition and begin again. How would this change in conscious perceptions frame your conscious environment? Such a realization would change how I would live my life, for the remainder of my immortality. You may also want to sprinkle in a little law of attraction and you may begin to transition, evolve and expand in ways that are not yet possible to conceive.

Journal: Astral Plane

When I was a young child, under the age of 10, I would have what I thought were dreams. I would force myself to wake up, but the dream would continue. I would go to my mother’s bedside and try to explain what was happening, but like most parents she did not understand. I would sit at her bedside until the dream ended, one foot in this reality and the other in another. I have mentioned this phenomena in past posts and in my book. I did not know what was happening until recently discovering that I was visiting or viewing the Astral Plane.

The waking dreams have subsided and I have not had a fully immersive experience since childhood. I have had similar experiences while I sleep, but they end abruptly when I realize that I am dreaming and wake up. I feel the physical sensations wear off slowly as I regain consciousness. During meditation and before sleep I am able to feel the waking dream begin, but I am unable to sustain the connection and the experience fades. I now think that there might be some interference, prickling sensations from an unknown source.

The waking dreams were fully immersive. I could feel myself getting bigger, expanding in size and being able to see farther into the distance. Large transparent beings and possibly animals are walking around me. I could hear and sense everything around me, the experience was overwhelming. I was able to perceive both realities of this conscious experience and, what I now know to be, the astral plane. Physical and auditory sensations that were very much like my psychedelic hallucinations later in my life.

I have recently discovered that I am not normal, average or run of the mill. I can close my eyes and see an, aurora like, energy field moving in front of my eyes. I am having waking dreams, more commonly called astral sight with greater frequency. This sight occurs during meditation and mostly when I am between conscious and unconscious states. It seems as though this astral state washes over me and I can view a monochrome environment somewhat shadowy, but also defined, sometimes appearing like a photographic negative. My intuition is persistent and reliable. While under attack in Honolulu I was having mental (thought) conversations with other entities that I now understand to exist on the astral plane (it would have been nice to know this back then) – [Note: During the initial conversation she stated that they had a lot to lose, a lot of work would be lost if I proceeded]. Some of these experiences I thought were normal, while the other more extreme experiences I thought were my gradual descent into insanity.

I am posting this now because of a recent astral event I had after posting Psychic Attack? Several minutes after the post the astral event washed over me and I closed my eyes and began the dreamlike experience. I saw a man in what looked like khaki shirt and pants. I could not make out his face, but I did see him gesture at me. He was shaking his finger at me as if saying no, or don’t do that. I snapped out of it. I was a bit shaken because it was the first time (that I can remember) a character in the vision did something like this. I have had others dream states where I heard someone say my name to wake me up, but nothing like this has happened before.

I remain defiant. I have a finger I’d like to shake at him and it’s not the index finger. So, now I have reached a point where my antagonists are appearing to me and warning me. For the past seven to ten years, possibly more. I have had to endure their interference and meddling in my life. I have seen them watching me from a distance in my conscious and unconscious experiences. I cannot remember their attempt to contact me and explain to me what I was experiencing. Now I have evolved to a point where they are forced into more drastic measures to deter my progress. I feel that it is far too late for that.

With all of these new experiences from my antagonists and my allies, I am able to tell the difference between the two. My allies always protect me and offer guidance in persistent subtle ways. My antagonists know ony one way, it is the posture of a bully, one of perceived superiority, of arrogance, of petty character and one of fear.

A message to those that stand in my way.

“Try looking into that place where you dare not look! You’ll find me there, staring out at you!” – Frank Herbert, Dune.

Or, use your abilities to see into the future, you know there is no stopping me. I have come too far to turn back now, I could not stop even if I tried (and you know I have tried). The expansion of my conscious and unconscious self is not something I have control over now. Unlike those dreams I had when I was a child, this experience is building in depth and breadth with no apparent end in sight, coming together into one. I have cast aside my oars and have settled into floating downstream. You had your chance to offer assistance (guidance), but you chose to use the axe. You have taken from me all that I have ever held dear. I literally have nothing to lose. One of your minions recently said to me that “there are rules”. There are only a few rules that I live by. One significant rule is to do no harm. I suggest you abide by that rule, because karma can be a bitch when empowered by the focus of my evolving will. You should be familiar with the axioms of this realm: cause and effect, rhythm of the pendulum, etc… You will be consumed by your own deeds. Let me go my own way.

Ready or not…

P.S. I am grateful for your part in manifesting my evolution. You and your kind have been a catalyst for my transformation. I could not have done it without you. Now that I understand that this is where I have always wanted to be, I can’t possibly explain the scope of my desires now. The possibilities are truly without measure. Can you feel it? That pressure building? You know you can no longer contain it. At this point in time you must begin to understand that you have already failed.

The Banach–Tarski Paradox

Interesting video on a mathematical paradox. Give it a chance and try to understand what Michael Stevens – Vsauce is presenting. Videos (information) like this are a kind of mental exercise. Where concepts are thrown at your brain and the act of following and incorporating new information stimulates existing synapse and possibly creating new ones. The ’cause’ will present an unimaginable ‘effect’ some time in the not so distant future. Like planting a seed of unknown origin and waiting to see what will start to grow.

Consciousness is infinite. It forever was and it forever will be… If you want to grasp the concept of consciousness you may want to try to understand the infinite. And the above paradox may aid in that understanding. I think it is a healthy practice to poke a stick at the edges of your current understanding of this reality. Start by gently prodding before the first initial jab, works best.

Time: 20:41 – Our physical reality and our physical bodies (conscious selves) are finite. Our reality is subject to constant change, transformation and evolution. Our unconscious selves are just as infinite as the whole of consciousness. I agree with Michael in that the only weirdness is our current existence within our conscious universe. The gnostics would agree that our place here is unnatural. It helps us to understand why we feel separate from our (un)conscious reality and from one another. No worries, when it comes to the end of our finite existence we will once again be able to grasp the infinite.

That separation makes this reality seem like being locked in a cage (prison) sometimes. I remember how that used to feel.

Despite all my rage, I’m still just a rat in a cage.

Now it seems, it was a prison (cage) of my own making…

Incubus/Succubus

When you a reading and learning about a particular subject your attention can attract more information from your conscious environment. I am engaged in learning about the occult, paranormal and dimensional entities since my recent discovery that these entities have an interest in my conscious experience. I have been ignoring this video for the past week and as it continued to appear before me frequently I decided to watched it. The first thought that came to me was that subject of the video was being influenced by an entity.

If you do a minimal search on the subject of sex demons you will find the terms incubus (male) and sucubus (female), Most literature classifies this subject as mythology, where myth is a cultural belief and normally regarded as false. The incubus or sucubus usually engages in sex with a sleeping victim. But, because of my own experiences with negative entities, they do not seem to be limited to the conscious (awake) or unconscious (sleep) state of the victim. The attacks I experience can happen at any time with the intensity varying on the time of day or lunar cycle.

With this new understanding I am beginning to ask if the influence of negative entities upon humanity are more prevalent than we allow ourselves to believe. Stories (mythology) about negative entities are abundant in our distant history, I cannot beleive that they just disappeared when we evolved from the agrarian age through the industrial and information ages. The most recent restaurant shooting in Oklahoma has interested me because of a video the shooter posted. The shooter stated that he was losing his mind because he did not have anyone to talk to. His state of mind made him an easy target for negative entities. Are mass murderers (particularly school shooters) being influenced by negative dimensional entities?

The influence upon humanity by negative entities cannot be scientifically measured. We may or may not be able to measure the presence of negative entities, but we do have one institution that can help understand the recent increase in reported cases of demonic possession, the Vatican. The Guardian released an article (Vatican to hold exorcist training course after ‘rise in possessions’) on March 30 2018 on the increase in reported cases of demonic possession and the need for the Vatican to hold a training course for exorcism. Understanding that exorcism is a exploitable subject and difficult to define, there has been a three-fold increase in Italy to 500,000 and cases have “risen exponentially” in Ireland.

Note: I am undergoing a psychic or negative entity attack at this moment (05.26.2018 – 15:15:23) while I write this post.

It is a slippery slope to categorize all mental health issues as demonic or negative entity possession, but I cannot rule out that paranormal, demonic, negative entities no longer exist in our modern conscious environment. What else could be happening regarding the current dilemma facing our seemingly deteriorating human condition? I believe that continuing to disregard the possibility of paranormal and dimensional influences increases vulnerability. I also beleive that running to the protection of religion has its own perils.

Still far to many questions than answers…