Journal: Repetition

Moon waning crescent 23.0 days, Libra – Air. Time 01:07, planet hours: Mars.

I notice that the same stories are told over and over again. The actors may change, but the story is repeated many times. It is as if there little creativity left in the stories we tell today, for me. But someone younger may not realize this just yet. Before that realization happens everything is new and exciting until you begin to realize that everything is ruled by repetition.

Is the repetitive nature of this reality an obstruction of the expansion of consciousness? Is it artificially forced into stagnation by some conscious or unconscious entity? Does the cyclic nature of our conscious environment pose limitations upon us or are those perceived limitations something that must be overcome? There is far more than what we think we see. The Universe forever was and forever will be. There was no beginning and there is no end. This existence is just a place for us to gather the courage to leave the nest.

Without Time

I recently received a comment from a WordPress user Lander7 on a previous post: The Mandela Effect. I may or may not have replied to the comment in the same vein at which it was given, but it did trigger an interesting train of thought that I never considered before. I want to introduce it in this post and will elaborate on it in later posts as I continue to try and incorporate it into my current experiences and my evolving state of mind.

What if, what some of us are experiencing as premonitions, mis-remembered events or, parallel realities, are slices of a reality without time, or at least a concept of nonlinear time. Something so radical and inconceivable would be difficult to understand and possible bring into question their state of mind. Without linear time how would we be able to function within our current construct and concept of reality? What would happen if we perceived the past, present and future as the same thing? If it were to happen quickly we would lose our current frame of reference and cease to function. But, a gradual change would bring about a significant paradigm shift that we can adapt to.

For someone like myself I have learned to adjust to a changing frame of reference. If you have been following this blog you may know that I struggled with my experiences. I have since embraced that which has brought me so much grief, and because of it I have an evolving relationship with my conscious and unconscious realities that is still difficult for me to explain. For me, a nonlinear time based consciousness begins to make perfect sense right now. More to come…

Journal: Appreciation

Moon waxing crescent 1.9 days, Libra – Air. Time 8:52, planet hours: Venus.

What  has become an emerging point of focus for me is something that the consciousness of Abraham has stated through Esther Hicks, “the leading edge of thought”. I have become appreciative of what it means to be on the leading edge of thought and consciousness. I catch myself watching, waiting and anticipating the evolution of consciousness. Being fully rooted in the now (the moment) and experiencing the constant progression through this conscious evolutionary expedition. I find myself transfixed on that edge in great appreciation for whatever is to come. It is when I am committed to being on that edge that I can receive those bits and bytes of what is to come. I am appreciative that I am a witness to the extraordinary events that takes place within every millisecond of every moment given to this existence.

Journal: Follow Me

Moon waning crescent 25.7  days, Cancer – Water. Time 23:35, planet hours: Venus.

I ran some errands and crossed paths with a group of young men that were following me on foot. It is fortunate that people have difficulty hiding their emotions. The face and eyes will usually betray a person when they encounter something unexpected.

What made this interesting was that they were trying to hide their faces, at least the ones behind the person leading the expedition. Shifty looking character, which makes them easier to remember. Something is a little different now. They looked like they may have been able to handle themselves.

So what was their purpose? Are they trying to provoke me or intimidate me? I have been here before, there is little that intimidates me anymore. They looked like they were the ones that were intimidated. What could they possibly be afraid of?

I beleive that they are afraid that I will realize what I am, or will become. To be completely honest, I share their fear. My unconscious still won’t show me what I want to see. Maybe they can help me awaken that dormant part of me. The pace begins to quicken.

Spooky action at a distance.

Journal: What Matters?

Moon waxing gibbous 13.7 days, Sagittarius – Fire. Time 21:45, planet hours: Jupiter.

From  the perspective of conscious immortality, there are pitfalls. I know that I am an immortal conscious being, but in my current physical state there are perceived limitations prior to mastering consciousness. Time is not on my side within this conscious simulation. During the waxing and waning of the moon I cycle through similar emotional states.

I can see the infinite within the finite. There are no limits within the confines of consciousness. Abraham was right, there is so much in abundance and it is fitting because the unbridled expansion of consciousness requires it. My role is defined and as every bit in constant flux. It is all a fascinating bit of theater. Everything singing its own song, all in the same key, not always in my prefered pitch.

Acceptance is a wedge that pries at my attachments and well honed habits. I struggle to care. If it is all a dream then why should I care at all? Everything is temporary. It always has been and forever will be. The chaos is just a facade of what we are unable to understand, all while never knowing we sing the same song

What matters? Everything and nothing, soon to be replaced by some other thing even though they all now seem to be the same thing. Consciousness wastes nothing.

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Psychedelics

Moon waning crescent 26.2 days, Taurus – Earth. Time 18:43, planet hours: Luna.

The above video investigates the subject of microdosing psychedelic substances. There seems to be a trend in microdosing psychoactive substances in order to improve their relationship with life. Depending on your age you may have some kind of following with famous psychonauts of your generation. Timothy Leary, Shulgin and McKenna were some of those that had gained a following because of their inward travels. I have listened to many hours of Terrance McKenna’s lectures on his relationship with psychedelics as well as shamanism, gnosticism, alchemy, etc.

I am an advocate for the decriminalization of psychedelic substances because I believe that governmental institutions should not have the authority to dictate what a person can do to their body in the privacy of their own home. If they do no harm to anyone including themselves then there is no need for a governmental body to interfere. I am also an advocate for decriminalization because I strongly feel that humanity, especially the current human condition, would benefit from what psychedelic substances have to offer.

Humanity as a whole has benefitted and possibly was accelerated into the information age by the free use of LSD and other psychedelics during the 1960s. There was an article that I read during the dotcom era that discussed interviews with the leading minds of the time, during a Siggrah conference, and found that psychedelics greatly influenced their direction. One of note was Steve Jobs, as well as the founder of Oracle Larry Ellison.

We also understand that many governments have made the use of psychedelics illegal, not even available for clinical trials. It does not take a scholar to realize that psychedelic substances can alter a person’s willingness to question their role within the current social construct that benefits governmental oversight and nationalistic paradigms.

Current rates of suicide continue to climb. The CDC has seen a 30% increase since 1999. With the more recent celebrity suicides and depression reaching epidemic proportions, we need to look backwards, before the widespread distribution of prescription drugs. There is a wealth of information contained within ancient cultural medicines that humanity can benefit from. With the recent legalization of cannabis we should see a decline in depression as the active constituents within cannabis are studied, tested and distributed. But, there are many other psychedelics that are not being studied fully because of outdated mindsets of those elected to political leadership. Maybe we should require microdosing of political leaders with psychedelics much like the tribal empires of our shamanic forefathers.

Journal: Acceptance

Is the goal of enlightenment to prepare you for immortality? I wonder how many times have I lived a life, like this one. How many times I have died, but then woke up, or just transitioned into continuing to do whatever I was doing at that moment. Reference one of those moments when I said “I thought I was gonna die”. What if, this (right here, right now) was it. A perpetual dream. When you get better at life, at ‘it’, you start to ascend to higher states of consciousness until you begin to realize that your life will never end, ever… You then begin to realize that you will continue to transition, evolve and expand in ways that are not yet possible to conceive, ad infinitum.

We perceive of opposites, but what we actually perceive is varying degrees of a single thing. Hot & cold is just varying degrees of heat (energy). So, does enlightenment exist because of a perceived opposite? But, what is its opposite? Is it the human condition? Why does the concept of enlightenment even exist? Why do we feel a need to pursue it? If you where to realize that this was ‘it’ and you could ascend to higher states of consciousness (right here, right now), without waiting for salvation or some grand awakening, would you do it? Are you ready? Heaven and Hell are opposites, but of what one thing? Varying degrees of happiness? Are both eternal or temporal? Do varying degrees of conscious states exist between them or within them? Am I currently closer to Heaven or to Hell? I guess that depends upon the moment and that can change dramatically in a matter of seconds. So, if I can move from Heaven to Hell form one moment to the next then they must not exist linearly, like a journey from one place to the next. Heaven and Hell must exist simultaneously within the whole of  consciousness equally accessible at any moment (non-locality, right here, right now) dependent upon varying states and levels of consciousness and your place within it.

When you become enlightened, do you begin to accept that you are an immortal unconscious being within this perpetual dream? Seeing things as they are, accepting them and knowing that it will end, and in the end, you will transition and begin again. How would this change in conscious perceptions frame your conscious environment? Such a realization would change how I would live my life, for the remainder of my immortality. You may also want to sprinkle in a little law of attraction and you may begin to transition, evolve and expand in ways that are not yet possible to conceive.