The above video investigates the subject of microdosing psychedelic substances. There seems to be a trend in microdosing psychoactive substances in order to improve their relationship with life. Depending on your age you may have some kind of following with famous psychonauts of your generation. Timothy Leary, Shulgin and McKenna were some of those that had gained a following because of their inward travels. I have listened to many hours of Terrance McKenna’s lectures on his relationship with psychedelics as well as shamanism, gnosticism, alchemy, etc.
I am an advocate for the decriminalization of psychedelic substances because I believe that governmental institutions should not have the authority to dictate what a person can do to their body in the privacy of their own home. If they do no harm to anyone including themselves then there is no need for a governmental body to interfere. I am also an advocate for decriminalization because I strongly feel that humanity, especially the current human condition, would benefit from what psychedelic substances have to offer.
Humanity as a whole has benefitted and possibly was accelerated into the information age by the free use of LSD and other psychedelics during the 1960s. There was an article that I read during the dotcom era that discussed interviews with the leading minds of the time, during a Siggrah conference, and found that psychedelics greatly influenced their direction. One of note was Steve Jobs, as well as the founder of Oracle Larry Ellison.
We also understand that many governments have made the use of psychedelics illegal, not even available for clinical trials. It does not take a scholar to realize that psychedelic substances can alter a person’s willingness to question their role within the current social construct that benefits governmental oversight and nationalistic paradigms.
Current rates of suicide continue to climb. The CDC has seen a 30% increase since 1999. With the more recent celebrity suicides and depression reaching epidemic proportions, we need to look backwards, before the widespread distribution of prescription drugs. There is a wealth of information contained within ancient cultural medicines that humanity can benefit from. With the recent legalization of cannabis we should see a decline in depression as the active constituents within cannabis are studied, tested and distributed. But, there are many other psychedelics that are not being studied fully because of outdated mindsets of those elected to political leadership. Maybe we should require microdosing of political leaders with psychedelics much like the tribal empires of our shamanic forefathers.
Choisir, in french it means choice or to choose. This word dominated my mind from time to time as I was learning the French language some time ago. I originally thought it was an easter european word until I googled it and was presented by the search engine with some variations of what how I thought it was spelled. The word “choisir” was presented with the translation and I started to laugh.
The purpose of consciousness is to provide conscious beings with whatever they desire. The purpose of conscious beings is to expand the whole of consciousness, our choices are the catalyst for the expansion, as Abraham has stated. I can see it as truth. I can see it in my life and I can see it in my conscious experiences.
If I have a desire and it becomes a constant point of focus, consciousness will begin to manifest the environment necessary to fulfill that desire. Consciousness is without judgement or divine plan, its purpose is to fulfill my desire. One of the more disarming revelations that I have observed is that consciousness is capable of bringing conscious beings together in a manner that fulfills the desires within a level or dimension. Sometimes one person or being is a customer and the other person providing the service.
Let’s use gang stalking as an example. I wanted to evolve spiritually and consciously and because it was my point of focus consciousness set out to fulfill my desire by presenting me with choices. Most of the choices I ignored or tried on, but did not fit. As my desire began to be refined, I sought a more radical path that was akin to an epiphany, or a grand awakening. Consciousness provided me with choices and I chose to use psychedelics in order to manifest my grand awakening. My awakening was more like hell than heaven and I became a target for negative entities (formless beings) and people who desired to control others. In essence I was the customer and negative entities and gang stalking organizations provided their services. Consciousness brought us together in order to fulfill the desires of both parties, mutually assured gratification. Hey, but wait! “I did not want that”, I must have said that many times along the way, but then realized that it was a means to and end. Consciousness is efficient, it utilizes what is readily available. I got my conscious evolution in the manner that I was capable of understanding at that time. The negative entities and gang stalking operatives got what they wanted or needed, someone to control.
Floating down the river of your conscious environment in a row-boat is an analogy used by Abraham. You must be willing to cast aside your oars and go wherever the river takes you, downstream. Without oars, the flow will take you to that which you have desired since conception. Understanding that the law of attraction is the foundation of this existence you begin to make better choices. You can then observe the manifestation of those choices and desires while remaining in the flow of consciousness. Not everyone needs a challenging experience in order to fulfill their desires, but challenging experiences are an efficient means to get you where you need to be, and you should know that you are always right where you need to be.
Synchronicity. I am constantly being amazed how consciousness is allowing this to come into my view. I am in the flow of knowledge anticipating the next subject vying for my attention. I watched this video and I was able to recognize the state of consciousness that the victims were experiencing. After seven years, those memories are still tough to recall.
Time: 16:20 A victim is brought to tears as he attempts to explain what he is going through and the toll it has taken on his well being. I remember the times I used to cry in the morning and then again at night. This relentless onslaught of fear and hopelessness that drains the life from you. “It changes you”. Much like the victim Billy, I thought that Catholic inatitutions were my main antagonizing organization.
I cannot be certain (about anything) of what the victims are experiencing. I see similarities. I would first suggest that the victims read Robert Bruce’s “Practical Psychic Self Defense Handbook” with an open mind. Practice the methods in the book and use what works to find relief. Second, I would suggest to read the original “The Law of Attraction” by Jerry and Esther Hicks, based on the teachings of Abraham. Follow the methods of Abraham to find relief using your emotional guidance system.
The most powerful suggestion I can make is to use your current conscious experience as a path to conscious evolution. As difficult as it may seem at this time, this too will end. The most difficult aspect of your current dilemma is that you are going through this for a reason. Become your own champion and you will prevail.
In other words, the negative entities are low life parasites of consciousness and you must break their influence upon your mind. As much as you would like to kick some ass, it is best to ignore their pathetic minions (try to forgive them for they know not what they do). They are empty vessels under the control of the Negs. Don’t let them get under your skin. They want you to focus upon them and keep you in a fearful state of consciousness (lower level so they can continue to manipulate you). They want to provoke you and then have you incarcerated or institutionalized. Stay focussed upon the end (relief), consciousness will do the rest. Your higher self is waiting, wanting and vying for your attention. Your higher self is your best ally, get to know it.
Update: Here is a video from a supossed targeted individual operative, now whistleblower. Pretty alarming stuff. I was offered an opportunity to become one of them, but chose not to. Time: 42:00 – the whistleblower talks about the attitudes of the gang stalking operatives and how they are rewarded. Time:46:00 – they have also offered women to me, opportunities for wealth, social status and the like. I have seen the operatives in my life and they seem to have some kind of organizational hiearchy. The noobs are driving old Hondas and the supervisors are driving Mercedes and there seems to be no shortage of volunteers.
This is not a point of focus for me, because I know that what I focus upon is what I will continue to experience in my conscious reality. I have successfully diminished their influence upon my life using this method. As intriguing as this subject can be it has no positive ending, just more of the same. For me it is a path down a raabbit hole I just do not want to take. There are infinite possibilities of positive and evolving conscious experiences to manifest in your conscious environment. You have a choice…
Is the goal of enlightenment to prepare you for immortality? I wonder how many times have I lived a life, like this one. How many times I have died, but then woke up, or just transitioned into continuing to do whatever I was doing at that moment. Reference one of those moments when I said “I thought I was gonna die”. What if, this (right here, right now) was it. A perpetual dream. When you get better at life, at ‘it’, you start to ascend to higher states of consciousness until you begin to realize that your life will never end, ever… You then begin to realize that you will continue to transition, evolve and expand in ways that are not yet possible to conceive, ad infinitum.
We perceive of opposites, but what we actually perceive is varying degrees of a single thing. Hot & cold is just varying degrees of heat (energy). So, does enlightenment exist because of a perceived opposite? But, what is its opposite? Is it the human condition? Why does the concept of enlightenment even exist? Why do we feel a need to pursue it? If you where to realize that this was ‘it’ and you could ascend to higher states of consciousness (right here, right now), without waiting for salvation or some grand awakening, would you do it? Are you ready? Heaven and Hell are opposites, but of what one thing? Varying degrees of happiness? Are both eternal or temporal? Do varying degrees of conscious states exist between them or within them? Am I currently closer to Heaven or to Hell? I guess that depends upon the moment and that can change dramatically in a matter of seconds. So, if I can move from Heaven to Hell form one moment to the next then they must not exist linearly, like a journey from one place to the next. Heaven and Hell must exist simultaneously within the whole of consciousness equally accessible at any moment (non-locality, right here, right now) dependent upon varying states and levels of consciousness and your place within it.
When you become enlightened, do you begin to accept that you are an immortal unconscious being within this perpetual dream? Seeing things as they are, accepting them and knowing that it will end, and in the end, you will transition and begin again. How would this change in conscious perceptions frame your conscious environment? Such a realization would change how I would live my life, for the remainder of my immortality. You may also want to sprinkle in a little law of attraction and you may begin to transition, evolve and expand in ways that are not yet possible to conceive.
When I was a young child, under the age of 10, I would have what I thought were dreams. I would force myself to wake up, but the dream would continue. I would go to my mother’s bedside and try to explain what was happening, but like most parents she did not understand. I would sit at her bedside until the dream ended, one foot in this reality and the other in another. I have mentioned this phenomena in past posts and in my book. I did not know what was happening until recently discovering that I was visiting or viewing the Astral Plane.
The waking dreams have subsided and I have not had a fully immersive experience since childhood. I have had similar experiences while I sleep, but they end abruptly when I realize that I am dreaming and wake up. I feel the physical sensations wear off slowly as I regain consciousness. During meditation and before sleep I am able to feel the waking dream begin, but I am unable to sustain the connection and the experience fades. I now think that there might be some interference, prickling sensations from an unknown source.
The waking dreams were fully immersive. I could feel myself getting bigger, expanding in size and being able to see farther into the distance. Large transparent beings and possibly animals are walking around me. I could hear and sense everything around me, the experience was overwhelming. I was able to perceive both realities of this conscious experience and, what I now know to be, the astral plane. Physical and auditory sensations that were very much like my psychedelic hallucinations later in my life.
I have recently discovered that I am not normal, average or run of the mill. I can close my eyes and see an, aurora like, energy field moving in front of my eyes. I am having waking dreams, more commonly called astral sight with greater frequency. This sight occurs during meditation and mostly when I am between conscious and unconscious states. It seems as though this astral state washes over me and I can view a monochrome environment somewhat shadowy, but also defined, sometimes appearing like a photographic negative. My intuition is persistent and reliable. While under attack in Honolulu I was having mental (thought) conversations with other entities that I now understand to exist on the astral plane (it would have been nice to know this back then) – [Note: During the initial conversation she stated that they had a lot to lose, a lot of work would be lost if I proceeded]. Some of these experiences I thought were normal, while the other more extreme experiences I thought were my gradual descent into insanity.
I am posting this now because of a recent astral event I had after posting Psychic Attack? Several minutes after the post the astral event washed over me and I closed my eyes and began the dreamlike experience. I saw a man in what looked like khaki shirt and pants. I could not make out his face, but I did see him gesture at me. He was shaking his finger at me as if saying no, or don’t do that. I snapped out of it. I was a bit shaken because it was the first time (that I can remember) a character in the vision did something like this. I have had others dream states where I heard someone say my name to wake me up, but nothing like this has happened before.
I remain defiant. I have a finger I’d like to shake at him and it’s not the index finger. So, now I have reached a point where my antagonists are appearing to me and warning me. For the past seven to ten years, possibly more. I have had to endure their interference and meddling in my life. I have seen them watching me from a distance in my conscious and unconscious experiences. I cannot remember their attempt to contact me and explain to me what I was experiencing. Now I have evolved to a point where they are forced into more drastic measures to deter my progress. I feel that it is far too late for that.
With all of these new experiences from my antagonists and my allies, I am able to tell the difference between the two. My allies always protect me and offer guidance in persistent subtle ways. My antagonists know ony one way, it is the posture of a bully, one of perceived superiority, of arrogance, of petty character and one of fear.
A message to those that stand in my way.
“Try looking into that place where you dare not look! You’ll find me there, staring out at you!” – Frank Herbert, Dune.
Or, use your abilities to see into the future, you know there is no stopping me. I have come too far to turn back now, I could not stop even if I tried (and you know I have tried). The expansion of my conscious and unconscious self is not something I have control over now. Unlike those dreams I had when I was a child, this experience is building in depth and breadth with no apparent end in sight, coming together into one. I have cast aside my oars and have settled into floating downstream. You had your chance to offer assistance (guidance), but you chose to use the axe. You have taken from me all that I have ever held dear. I literally have nothing to lose. One of your minions recently said to me that “there are rules”. There are only a few rules that I live by. One significant rule is to do no harm. I suggest you abide by that rule, because karma can be a bitch when empowered by the focus of my evolving will. You should be familiar with the axioms of this realm: cause and effect, rhythm of the pendulum, etc… You will be consumed by your own deeds. Let me go my own way.
Ready or not…
P.S. I am grateful for your part in manifesting my evolution. You and your kind have been a catalyst for my transformation. I could not have done it without you. Now that I understand that this is where I have always wanted to be, I can’t possibly explain the scope of my desires now. The possibilities are truly without measure. Can you feel it? That pressure building? You know you can no longer contain it. At this point in time you must begin to understand that you have already failed.
In our conscious lives we have a system of collecting information pertaining to identification; identity. That information is something you can carry with you in case you have to prove you are who you say you are. Does a system exist in the greater unconsciousness that is used to identify my formless self?
Is identity necessary in the whole of consciousness? Without identity, we would literally be one…
It has suddenly occurred to me that I asked for everything that I have experienced.
This emotionally significant thought just occurred to me after some reading and thinking. I remember that I used to say that I could not remember asking for the pain and suffering I have endured. I remember I adamantly stated “who would want to experience a life like this, it doesn’t make any fucking sense to ask for this shit…”. I remember not asking for any of this, but what I wanted most was to ascend, to see the truth and to evolve. I now, feeling a bit giddy, understand that I received exactly what I needed to get me where I am right now.
Abraham was right. The law of attraction is constant and consistent.
When anyone attempts to describe this other level of consciousness you often run into the film “The Matrix”. I have used the film as an example because the film was a significant emotional event in my life, not entirely due to the film itself, but because if triggered something dormant within me that surfaced as an awakening of sort. After the viewing the film I was resonating on a higher level and perceived my conscious reality differently. I perceived time differently. Some thoughts were manifesting before me as if they were commanded to appear in real-time. It was one of those rare events where my unconscious self was screaming at me to pay more attention. This awakened state did not last very long and the following day, after sleeping, I was back to my normal mundane perceptions. This was prior to my use of Psilocybin and my harrowing session into the void.
David Icke has entered my conscious reality many times throughout my life. Most of the time I have taken what he stated with a few grains of salt. This time however David has reentered my life after a series of recent enlightening events and now some of (foundational views pertaining to artificial intelligence or conscious simulation) Davids’s views are starting to synchronize with my own, which is a bit unsettling, because David’s views were a bit out there even for me (reptilian and the like).
The reason why I watched and now post this video is because I am finding that my antagonists or those that are actively preventing my ascension are not of this physical dimension. I still must acknowledge that there are people (physical human entities) that continue to be obstacles in my conscious environment. These human entities are, as Carissa Conti has experienced, under the influence or possessed by these extradimensional (not extraterrestrial) beings. I have had experiences where I met a person familiar to my family and she was one of the people who I call “the others”. She and I could not stand next to each other without feeling anxious or agitated. After she left the house I suffered an attack, similar to having the life drained out of me. The next time I saw her all the adverse feelings were absent. Her behavior was completely different from our first encounter and I did not suffer an attack afterwards. I have had numerous experiences (some corroborated by family members) where strange behaviors from strangers have occurred, mostly waving at me and acting as if someone hit pause, leaving them with a blank stare as if looking into the distance, when I approached them.
There have been numerous experiences that I now interpret as some other kind of influence acting upon myself or someone in close proximity. I have been momentarily been taken over when I have been in immediate danger, like a failsafe being activated to ensure my safety. I have also had experiences that were interpreted to protect someone else. If for some reason I perceive a person as a threat, I will encounter a kind of psychic intervention that favors that person. If I engaged in an argument with a person (that I now know to be under the influence of dimensional entities) I will find my throat tighten and find it difficult to speak (Matrix movie scene: “what good is a phone call if you are unable to speak” Neo’s mouth seals shut). The last physical altercation I had found myself in during the late 90s (a man touching my girlfriend inappropriately), I was unable to land a punch and ended up with a black eye. And, when I attended the local sail boat show I was attacked psychically when I approached a particular salesperson.
These are just a few of the numerous anomalous experiences I have had to date. Now, I am learning to protect myself from the daily attacks with incantations I learned from Robert Bruce. I cannot explain how it works other than that it provides relief from the perceived physical and psychic attacks I have endured for the past 11 years or more. I have stated that I am a shaman, but recent activity concerning mysticism has gone to another level entirely. Since the use of these methods there has been a shift in my conscious experiences. The yo-yo (pendulum) effect has diminished. I am more capable of maintaining a kind of equilibrium or homeostasis consciously. My unconscious experiences have normalized and do not exhibit the chaotic swings toward fear and despair. The most recent attacks that have left me with sudden health problems and people stating that I look tired and rundown have ended.
I am finding my way through. The extensive amount of people who once watched me and that I encountered when I first discovered that I was a targeted individual has dropped significantly. These people were either possessed, paid or forced to do something they probably did not understand. The last two people that were overtly watching me looked very concerned that I was going about my business without being influenced negatively. The two men stood out as “the others” always do with a kind of matte finish in the way light reflects off of them (best interpretation of what I see and feel). They were not happy with what they saw.
The ancient Gnostics were correct in the way they interpreted consciousness. They used the current vocabulary to express what they were experiencing. There are a lot of people other than Ike that are using our current terminology to describe our conscious experiences, such as artificial intelligence and simulations. What is interesting is that after a several thousand years the fundamental aspects of consciousness are actually the same, we just have different ways of interpreting what we are seeing and feeling. The only thing that has evolved is the sophistication of the illusion or simulation. There are far too many points of distraction. Far too many people support, protect and insure the continuance of the program (System Matrix, etc.). We even have a desire to propagate this illusion to other parts of the solar system without knowing that there lies an infinite universe of possibilities right here before us, right here and now.
Time 22:55 – In the presentation David talks about the limitations of these entities that ht home. He talks about the inability of these entities to create or imagine and are robotic in nature.
My experience has been spot on. Attacks happen depending on the time of day, the position of the sun and moon as if on a schedule or using a window of opportunity. I have often felt that these entities are intellectually challenged, but they cannot be if they are able to manipulate this level of consciousness and our perceptions to a point. They are limited possibly because they have evolved to a point where creative imagination is unnecessary or they are not of this dimension and cannot perceive everything. Mind parasites or as I called them parasites of consciousness are dependent upon humanity for whatever purpose and this is a exploitable condition of our unwanted relationship with them. They need us. At this time I cannot imagine a scenario where humanity needs them. To be free of them would mean that humanity would ascend beyond their ability to limit, interphere and influence us.
Call them what you like and history has given them many names (Gods, Demigod, demon, angel, jinn, ghost, spirit, aliens, extraterestrials, etc.) They have been ‘here’ since the beginning, but it is up to each individual to realize the true nature of this conscious experience and push past the illusory veil of our corporeal conscious reality. At this time I do not believe that a savior will come and free us in mass. I do think that the savior narrative fits well into scheme of this reality. There are a vast amount of people who are willing to wait (a few more thousand years) to be rescued, I am not one of them. I am willing to risk everything to find a way to conscious liberty right now.
The past few weeks have been enlightening in a strange way. My view of what would be my own personal narrative as I conquered any and all obstacles never entailed parasitic dimensional entities, demonic possession, gatekeepers to a false conscious reality or unknow negative entities. But, I did surprise myself when I just took it all in stride and said “whatever it takes” bring it on…
I do have (I beleive everyone has) a very powerfull ally, my unconscious formless self. I do not know much about it (yet, it has my attention), but I do know that it is happy that I have realized its presence and potential. At last, I have someone I can trust implicitly. It makes a difference when you have someone on the inside, so to speak. Ready or, not here I come.
Meditation is not something that I do anymore, it is something that happens to me. Differing states of mind are natural whether they are induced or influenced by many different internal and external stimuli (built in comparative analysis of our conscious states). Sometimes I struggle to sustain a shallow state of mindlessness and sometimes deep meditative states wash over me at anytime or anyplace. And, when these deep states occur there is usually a message associated with that meditative occurrence.
Today was one of those days in which a deep meditative state occurred. The message concerned my relationship with the concept of enlightenment. Previous notions of enlightenment were overly simplified. One cannot understand what enlightenment is if they are not enlightened, just as people that are blind from birth are unable to understand the concept of color.
What I had hoped for was some sort of rapture. A definitive point in time when I would cross the threshold from the darkness into the light. I was hoping to have an Eckhart Tolle moment of realization, but for me that was not the case. Today I was given and opportunity to see where I was. I was given a snapshot of my relationship with enlightenment.
At this time enlightenment is a never ending process of conscious evolution. In a way enlightenment no longer exists as a definitive state of mind. The battles I fought in pursuit of enlightenment were part of the process. The process, as I now understand it, was never about attaining anything, but more about returning to my innate state of being. If one is seeking purpose then that purpose is the perpetual expansion of consciousness.
We have words that describe a concept of ‘no beginning’ and ‘no end’. One word is infinite. It is difficult to grasp the meaning of the infinite. Even our physicists purport that there exists a beginning to our universe, conceptualized as the “big bang”. In our materialistic world view we experience beginnings and endings, creation and decay, life and death so it is difficult to understand that which is infinite. Today I was given a snapshot of my life and what was a scarred and battered past I am now able to see an infinite expanse of possibilities (conscious immortality).
I have been frustrated and sometimes infuriated with those around me. How can you not see what is right in front of you? “I must be surrounded by idiots” (mostly thought, but rarely spoken). That frustration has prompted self isolation. Lately I have wanted to end my self imposed isolation, but do so gradually so that I won’t be perceived as bipolar. Enlightenment was once described to me as trying to swallow a red hot iron ball, but I never allowed myself to consider the psychological fortitude that was going to be necessary. The analogy of the iron ball was taken literally, not as a metaphor for the painful mental, and eventual, conscious transition(s).
I am certain that my current concept will not persist, it will continue to evolve and expand. The process of enlightenment is to set in motion that which is stagnant. Our existence is not about beginning and endings, it is about transitions. Perpetual conscious evolution awaits. Transient enlightened states are my new normal. My constant state of frustration is being undermined by happiness. I sometimes find myself pushing back against these persistent eruptions of happiness fearing that they may foretell an inevitable slide into insanity. I have been fighting so long that I have forgotten how to allow the very thing I have been fighting for.
I sit here now finding it hard to stop grinning, ready to take another step…
A small group prays at a makeshift memorial for victims of the Las Vegas massacre. Drew Angerer/Getty Images
“Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.”
Dylan Thomas – 1914-1953
I was compelled to write this post. My perceived allies and my intuition guided my attention as I was reading about the shooting incident in Las Vegas. I was mainly interested in the perpetrator and the why he committed such a crime. As I read about the limited testimonials from neighbors and people that he encountered daily, it began to sound familiar. Possibly a little too familiar for comfort…
I have to say that my opinion is pure speculation and I have no evidence to offer that supports my opinion. But, when I read about how Stephen Paddock behaved I began to recognize that he behaved much like I do, a targeted individual. When you are a targeted individual you tend to isolate yourself from others. Your trust in other people is diminished. When you have to encounter others you do so in a limited manner. You do not want to draw attention to yourself nor spend too much time talking to strangers. Because you are being constantly surveilled you keep the blinds shuttered to preserve what little privacy you have left. You do not have relationships with you neighbors, everyone is suspect. Mobility is key and having the ability to move from one location to another provides a perception of liberty, one that may or may not exist.
Being a targeted individual is a psychological battle with an organization that views the target as a threat. Constant overt surveillance is a means to tear down the target’s mental stability. Information about the target is used to ensure that the target perceives that the organization is always watching and that there is no escape. When the target plans to go to a particular location the organization makes sure that there is sufficient overt surveillance at the location when the target arrives. What has always baffled me is how they knew where I was going even though I never allowed a plan to exist outside of thinking about it (spooky mind reading technology, people with prescience or calculated logistics based on behavior because we are creatures of habit). The purpose is to erode the target’s trust of, and a place within, the social construct or at least the immediate community as well as to further isolate the target from social contact. The organization wants to make the target paranoid and an outcast. In my case, fear was a persistent state of mind. Constant fear can erode all of life’s energy and subverts one’s conscious perceptions of the self, rendering them a ‘low-life’ thus containing the threat.
If the targeted individual is exposed to electromagnetic and or sonic weapons (has used upon American Diplomats in Cuba) further degradation of the target’s mental state is possible. Constant electromagnetic exposure wears the target down, then the weapons are used to modify behavior somewhat like an invisible shock collar would be used to modify the behavior of a pet. When you behave the weapons are turned down or off and when you misbehave the weapons are turned up. The purpose is to control the target’s behavior (thoughts) or to force the target to seek help from family members or the local government. If the target does seek help they will not receive the help they want and will have difficulty providing evidence to substantiate their claims and possibly be labeled insane. So, like myself Stephen Paddock (if my speculation is correct) kept quiet, kept to himself and tried to maintain a portion of his once normal life.
Encountering people within the organization (either subordinate minions or people I refer to as “The Others”) usually is not a positive experience. They are dismissive and have an air of exclusivity. They usually let you know that you are not welcome. They can and usually do everything they can to make you uncomfortable so that you do not want to return or encounter them again. This happens at various levels from children to adults in mostly public places. They can be store clerks, civil servants, customers, or students, party goers, fans at any venue and they will go out of the way to ensure that you do not have a pleasant experience. They are rarely ever alone. They are usually in small groups (power in numbers). When they are alone they do not exhibit a superior persona.
There is one significant problem the organization may or may not intend. If you mistreat anything it will eventually lash out against those they perceive to be involved in the transgressions against it. I have been able to control myself and have found other means of fighting back (I cannot assume that there have been other people that have had similar experiences of being invited into the organization, as I was, and then later refusing to be part of it.). The urge to fight grows greater when flight is perceived as useless. But, I cannot say that for all those that are subjected to these kind of transgressions. Columbine shooters targeted specific individuals that they perceived to act in a superior manner. Mass shootings in the workplace usually target specific people that the shooter had a relationship with. I have encountered people in my past jobs that I (now) perceive(d) to be part of the organization. They are generally covert in their behavior, but overt when the circumstances permit to let you know who they are. Couple this with the above mentioned tactics and the targeted individual may feel that there is only one solution to their plight. These tactics create a psychologically wounded person with absolutely nothing to lose. If this is the intention of the organization then there may be more Stephen Paddocks being created.
Stephen Paddock lashed out. He perpetrated a premeditated attack upon a venue he frequented for entertainment and as a professional high stakes gambler. Although he did not target specific individuals he targeted the venue that most likely contained a high concentration of those he felt were responsible for the attacks he endured as a target of the organization. Stephen Paddock sought to kill as many people as possible while exhibiting complete disregard for anyone that was not part of the organization because he probably began to view everyone as part of the organization. In my past experiences it was often to difficult to discern those that were part of the organization and the general public, now I do not give any of them my attention – friend or foe.
As mass shootings become more and more common are they a product of some kind of organized effort to take control? If you have read most of my posts on this blog you know that I believe that this reality is but a shared dream within the construct of consciousness and the infinite levels therein. Regardless of what I believe or anyone else may believe there is still the notion of something inherently evil brewing underneath that is beginning rise to the surface. That which is hiding in the darkness is being forced into the light. I am beginning to believe that targeted individuals are being targeted because they exhibit certain conscious characteristics that can expose a vastly different reality than what is currently perceived. If Stephen Paddock was a targeted individual his actions have placed light upon a looming possibility of a shattering revelation of consciousness, one of devastating doom or a liberating awakening. I choose the latter. I do not condone his actions, but they are now part of the narrative that is influencing this current existence.
I am a witness of consciousness and because I am part of this level of consciousness I influence the whole of consciousness. My experiences, as well as those other targeted individuals that have survived, shine light upon that which hides in the shadows of this reality. I have cast aside my anger and aggression for those that have taken from me that which I coveted the most, my sense of membership with humanity, but revealed to me my eternal bond with the whole of consciousness. I will not harm another for that would only cause me to become an unassociated member of an organization that does so much harm. I only bear witness and wait for that which is a constant within my conscience; that which you do to others with intent to harm will be done unto you…
May the consequences of their actions be grave, may the consequences of their actions be immediate, may the consequences of their actions be long lasting and may the consequences of their actions infect that which they hold dear. And in the end may we all bear witness to those who’s role was to attempt to obscure the natural nature of this conscious reality within the infinite possibilities of a truly liberating existence of perpetual conscious expansion. – Xam 2017
I was wondering when this sort of thing was going to make it to the mainstream headlines. I guess if you wait long enough all things will make their way into the mainstream, even for just a moment.
State Department spokeswoman Heather Nauert on Wednesday said that
“some US government personnel” working at the US embassy in Havana, Cuba on official duty reported some incidents that were causing “physical symptoms.”
But she could not elaborate on the nature or cause of the incidents.
I feel a bit of relief when I read this article. Although they refuse to elaborate on the character of the “physical symptoms” there are a lot of on-line sources that can better describe the symptoms of these acoustic and electromagnetic weapons.
Since I have been a target (and continue to be a target), I am all to familiar with the physical symptoms from both acoustic and electromagnetic attacks. But, the physical symptoms are not actually the purpose of the use of these weapons, they are primarily designed to disrupt the energy flow of the human body. Most of the energy centers, or meridians, used in Chinese medicine are targeted and changed somewhat like acupuncture can change energy flow in the body. Targeting these energy centers and disrupting the flow of energy to specific areas of the body has the ability to induce illness.
In my case they often target the heart chakra or heart meridian in order to induce a heart attack or stroke. I have recently observed a cell phone used to produce a frequency that could disrupt my heart meridian energy flow. The perpetrator was standing directly behind me holding a cell phone level with my heart. I could feel the effects, but it was not strong enough to cause any significant damage. I just moved away from the perpetrator and the effects subsided. I have also mentioned attacks that I speculate are psychic in nature, but I cannot be certain (that’s what makes these covert attacks impossible to prove).
The kind of attacks that I continue to endure are while I am sleeping. There seems to be a specific purpose to interfere with the nature or content of my unconscious dreams. I am finding ways to prevent this from occurring.
I am wondering how this Cuban attack made into the media. This seems to be a rather uncharacteristic exposure and use of what has been a stealth weapon to control and influence targeted individuals. I think that these technologies have made it into the hands of perpetrators that are more like common criminals than intelligent operators.
The landscape of these beings I nave referred to as ‘the others’ has changed significantly. I have gone to certain cities where there were higher concentrations of these people and now I see a lot of empty stores and a lot of homes for sale. Any time I take a relative to the hospital the character of the personnel has changed significantly. I just do not come across them as much as I have in the past. It looks to me that they have left and left behind a tattered organization of incompetent subordinates.
So, where did they go? I have a feeling that they are still ‘here’. As I continue to influence this shared dream within the confines of my own conscious environment and continue to move throughout various levels of consciousness there will not be any level left to hide.
I still often speculate as to why they are afraid of me. It seems to have something more to do with the unconscious than the conscious dreamworld. As I continue to evolve, and disrupt the technologies used against me while I enter the unconscious dreamworld, my dreams have evolved in directions that still seem impossible. My greatest challenge is understanding and interpreting what I experience. The only pitfall of mastering consciousness is that it can be very overwhelming at times. I am grateful that my guides are still patient. It’s somewhat like being a primitive alien in an advanced civilization where everything you know no longer applies.
I am building a new frame of reference and it is interfering with my current one…
Just a short post I had to write since I could not get back to sleep this morning…
Something unexpected is happening in regard to my evolving realization concerning the nature of this reality within the confines of consciousness. I have been grappling with past and current experiences and they are now beginning to make sense. It is a lot like looking over a crossword puzzle you have been working on for a while, but today you look over it and those unanswered items make sense and the letters just fall into the right places. You begin to see how all the questions are related and dependent upon one another.
Yesterday I ran some errands and drove around the inner city and highways. My conscious environment was pleasant and mostly unobstructed. I am still in awe of much of what I see in relation to my new world view. It is interesting to continue living my life knowing that it is nothing but a dream. When I run into a problem this notion washes over me and something within me just can’t be bothered with it. I accept it for what it is, just as I would accept a similar experience when waking up from my unconscious dreams during rest. I have to say that it is liberating in that it is now easy to detach my emotions from those experiences. Detachment was that eastern philosophical component that alluded me since learning about it some time ago.
One thing has occurred that was not expecting (how could I…). I just can’t seem to care about a lot of things anymore. This is something I need to be mindful of. Emotional detachment as I have stated above is liberating, but I do not want to become a psychopath. I was once active in caring about the environment, but not so much anymore. I ask myself how can I care about something that is a component of a dream?
As I begin to grasp the concept of consciousness as an illusion created in the conscious mind as an assembly of temporal particles existing only to precipitate into this physical reality within infinite levels and dimensions. Why should I care what happens to me or anything at all? There is at least a positive component in regards to my detachment. I may not care much, but I know that it is what it is for that moment and I can step back and see it that way. At those times I am completely lucid and upon that realization I become a part of the audience observing this reality from a new and different venue. There seems to be structure in the chaos. It is a lot like being in the zone or flow of life, and because of this I am more inclined to go along for the ride…
I am deeply in awe of this new paradigm and there is still a component of admiration and respect for everything that exists within consciousness. I may have to anchor myself with this thought for the time being. But, there is the usual hustle and bustle of everyone else around me trapped in their materialistic world view that I just can’t be bothered with (not always a good experience). I am experiencing tremors that are rocking the foundation of my frame of reference forcing me to release long held concepts I used to make sense of my old view of this reality. There is emotional pressure I can feel, but I cannot sense where that pressure originates. Interesting indeed…
What is another word that could describe a waking dream? Within our social and cultural context dreams are defined as fantasies, hallucinations, trances, dazes, hazes and stupors. I cannot find a word within the English language that best describes this new reality. Simulation or virtual describe something made up and something real is confined to the materialistic philosophy and tangibility (not really a word). Interestingly there are a lot of words that we can use to describe our physical experience within this reality.
Greetings… It has been a while since my last post. I stopped posting regularly because I did not have much to say. The trials and tribulations of being a targeted (gang stalked) individual does not have much variation. The song remains the same today and with my latest assessment of my past and current life, not much has changed. But, there is one thing that has changed and that is my sense of self. But, most important is the manner in which I view my-self within the realms of consciousness.
After five plus years of radiation and intimidation I have gotten used to it, to the point of it being normal. I am not afraid of the rather benign tactics of intimidation. I have found ways to reduce and even eliminate the radiation. Even the attacks on my biological energy centers are limited to the point of being a minor annoyance. I have learned the why of my importance in this strange reality. Why so much attention is being wasted on my simple life. Why so many people are being compensated to surveil my daily activity. It is their simple inability to control my actions and thoughts. I started to put it altogether recently. And the one night I thought to be chivalrous and defend a girlfriend’s honor (now a very long time ago) was the key that lead me to my current theory. On that night I challenged a guy that touched my girlfriend inappropriately in a local bar. They guy was no match for me, but when I confronted him he punched me in the face. I pounced, then the bouncers grabbed me and we were both thrown out of the bar. I went after him outside the bar and for some reason I was unable to harm him in any significant way. It was as if I was being inhibited. I could not land a punch. All I could do was to grab him, but I could not inflict any harm even though I was completely sober. My ridiculous attempt to pound him into the sidewalk was broken up by two police officers and we went our separate ways. That night has puzzled me for a very long time. At that time in my life I was being controlled in someway. Since my journey through the void I have become aware of the control they had on me and with that awareness came resistance. With my more recent experiences, that I will describe in later posts, have allowed me to begin to formulate my current premise.
I have grown from my Protestant beginnings through eastern philosophies then settling on something that borders on agnostic atheism. I have tried almost every New Age trick and gizmo to get to attain and sustain some level of ascension or enlightenment. I now am entering a phase that I currently do not have a simple definition for. The only way I can describe it is by using the term simulation. Eastern philosophies have always regarded our conscious reality as a dream and since ancient texts were not familiar with the term simulation, a “dream world” fits the definition of a simulation. I have to admit that after viewing ‘The Matrix’ back in the late 90’s there was something compelling me to pay attention to the simulated environment represented in the film. The key here is the simulated reality, not necessarily what we typically refer to as a computer simulation. It might be more along the lines of ‘Simulacra & Simulations’ a 1981 philosophical treatise by Jean Baudrillard,possibly a simulation without a substrate or definable construct.
I have experienced things I cannot explain and I had believed that I was certifiably delusional (that door is still open). But, I can function normally and go about my, so called, life reasonably well considering these extraordinary experiences. I have had experiences in my dreams that were concluded in my conscious reality while I was awake. My conscious reality and my dreams were dependent upon one another and all I was able to do was to watch it unfold before me. I have moved between levels of consciousness so often that I have become familiar with certain levels as well as the people and their characteristic behavior for that level. Mastering these changes in levels is tricky and their are issues concerning the appropriate time. Life energy (chi, prana, etc.) is crucial to levels of consciousness and those that use microwave radiation as a weapon use it to control access to levels of consciousness.
I have increased the strength of the energy that the original device was able to achieve. I have used this energy to sustain and maintain a level of consciousness within this simulation. I am still within an experimental stage using the devices and understand that the energy that emanates from the devices may be contributing to the experiences I mention above. My new course concerning this blog is to write about consciousness as a simulation. I will attempt to define this conscious simulation and how it might be possible to understand the simulated environment we call consciousness. I will also like to write about my experiences with certain people or beings that seem to be aware of the simulated environment as well as their possible roles in the maintenance of the the simulation for their benefit.
I hope that those of you reading this blog will comment and contribute so we can all explore this simulated conscious environment we call reality.
The Prevention of Ascension 