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Journal: Public Theater

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Last Quarter 21.8 days, Aquarius – Air. Time 10:30, planet hours: Saturn

I am the center of my conscious universe and now it seems I have an audience. One particular experience with Salvia Divinorum, I had some time ago, hinted that I was being watched by some entities during a psychedelic session. I came out of the salvia realm and did something that was not appreciated by the entities that were present. I knew this because I distinctly heard (in my head, akin to audible hallucinations) a chorus of “Ewww” from what sounded like young female voices. That experience gave me the notion that I was being observed from an unseen level of consciousness. Because the experience did not happen too frequently I soon forgot about it.

Experiences of being observed from the unseen became more frequent during my time in Hawaii. Actually hearing the voices or thoughts of others, replying through psychic means, then receiving a response was unnerving; to the point of me questioning my sanity. The first significant attacks happened shortly after I replied, speaking the words, “I can hear you”, while in my apartment. There also was a young woman that worked at a sporting goods store in Honolulu. We were attracted to each other always acted pleasant toward each other and when I would come into the store she would seem to come out of the back and relieve the cashier. The last time I saw her was when she was helping me buy something and I had noticed that her breasts were small and I thought the words “no tits” (please excuse the vulgarity). Right after I thought those words she went cold, she would not look me in the eyes and she was curt in her goodbye. I almost thought I may have said the words out loud. I have had many other experiences since then that have changed my frame of reference enough to accept these experiences as my new para-normal.

After the gray jacket entity sashay’d passed the doorway. It has affected a profound change in the manner in which I frame my reality. Now, it seems that because I have become more aware of the unseen conscious realms and those that inhabit those realms my interactions are more frequent. It make senses that this is now happening. Imagine that you can enter a realm where the inhabitants are unaware of your presence. You try to interact with them but they do not respond. You might become surprised when they do respond and even increase your interaction to develop a relationship. It is possible that they now, also, believe that I am ready to accept their existence in my conscious reality, or…

For whatever reason that this is happening now, it feels like the next step in my evolution of acceptance. It has had some major changes in how I relate to the concept of privacy and, more importantly, how much influence these entities have on my conscious reality. I am currently attempting to establish trust and excusing my rather daft responses. I also seem to question my sanity more often than in the past, I hope to continue to do so.

I am starting to track the para-normal activity within the lunar cycles that influence so much in this physical realm; so far the new to full portion is most active. I see them in the periphery of my visual field. I dismiss most of what I see unless there is some kind of electrical (energetic – goose bump) response. I know when they are present, I seemingly robotic, walk towards them in the house. The electrical reaction increases as I get close. As unnerving as this may seem to some, it has taken a very long time to get here. I still wonder about what is still to come. What will I be able to experience then? Will I be ready?

I have to admit I’m feeling ‘a bit like Alice, tumbling down the rabbit hole’. There is no turning back once you have gone this far down. Unlike Alice, Dorothy found her way back to Kansas from Oz, for me their is no more Kansas, just an eternity of infinite possibilities. And, a lot of new friends, so to speak.

I am what I am. And, I thank the Gods that I am…

 

Journal: Spatial Awareness

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Moon waning crescent 27.8 days, Pisces – Water. Time 07:00, planet hours: Mercury.

Gravity provides us with a baseline, so to speak, that allows us to orient ourselves in space. Gravity allows an up and down to exist in our vocabulary the above and the below, heaven and earth. I sometimes try to imagine a conscious reality where gravity does not exist. Vast bodies of water floating through the air or rain that does not fall. In this conscious reality gravity is a fundamental physical law of this physical construct, a necessity in many ways.

My relationship and understanding of gravity is a detriment in the construct of the unconscious because it limits how I am able to orient myself in the spaces I travel within. It also carries with it a habit in the manner of how I project myself in the unconscious. I project a likeness that is appropriate for existing in this current conscious reality, but it is not necessary during my other worldly unconscious travel, as well as, projecting on the astral plane.

It is interesting to watch a sci-fi film and watch how two space ships meeting in outer space always seem to orient themselves as if they are on some artificial plane. All the battles in the Star Wars episodes are all fought in alignment with this artificial orientation. Everything lines up nicely for the scene and helps the viewer to orient themselves in the scene, but I would imagine that it would be a lot more chaotic in absence of the artificial orientation.

The spirits and sprites that are becoming a frequent experience in my conscious reality do not seem to be hindered, by the need to be spatially aware within this physical construct. I see them as balls of light and deep black smoky shadows, probably because I have no visual reference in order to see them as they may actually exist. They move at speeds that are difficult to measure and through objects as if they were mere projections. Or, see objects for what they are, projections of my conscious mind.

People that have used dissociative drugs like Ketamine and Salvia Divinorum become disconnected to their body, but their visual orientation remains oriented to the realms they visit. Why is that so? Why isn’t it upside down or backward as if reflected in a mirror? Salvia Divinorum allows the user to enter into a two-dimensional realm, but why does the orientation have an up and down? In the realm of Salvia you can see what is in front of you, limited side views and not what is behind you.

Why isn’t the Salvia realm an orientation where you can only look up? It may be boring and uneventful, but why is it an orientation that provides the user with a spatial awareness that the user can recognize? What governs our concepts of spacial awareness in other worldly realms?

Are we only allowed to travel to realm we are capable of understanding based on our cognitive or un/conscious limitations? Ketamine presents an out-of-body experience that is void of visuals and any kind of sensory orientation. Why is that so? Is it an called ‘out of body experience’, because we are incapable of understanding and perceiving the realm we have entered?

Journal: Detachment

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I am a traveler. This is the best explanation for what I perceive to be happening. My unconscious travels are often difficult to remember, but they are responsible for how my conscious reality currently manifests itself. The best way to describe this is to use the word residue. I carry residual memories or cognitive resonance with me no matter what my current state of mind experiences (conscious or unconscious). This did not exist prior to my use of psychedelic substances.

Throughout my life I learned to attach my identity to my conscious experiences. I identified with my inherited and evolving frame of reference, but it was typical in relation to my limited perceptions. After the use of psychedelic substances I began to question my reality and (slowly) loosen my attachment to that which was the foundation of my identity.

Where I once was tethered to a particular realm, I have become detached to wander into new and often foreign realms within the unconscious. The residual effects of this new freedom manifests itself in the whole of my consciousness. I can see it in both my dreams and my waking conscious reality. I dream when I am awake and I dream when I am asleep and those dreams are becoming very similar. I have a distinct feeling that they will become the same over time, possibly a combination of the two or a completely new realm of existence.

About Time, Again

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After the post Without Time, I spent a lot of time thinking about time and a seemingly abrupt transition, or shift, in my current paradigm concerning time. The shift started while thinking about artificial and natural systems and then abruptly changed after a comment from a reader. Since they are related it might be prudent to include it here.

– SYSTEMS –

Systems are important because they can provide order. In order to get something done it usually requires some kind of system to accomplish the task. Systems can also work together to create a complex hierarchy much like what we call The Internet and or Capitalism.

There are two kinds of systems in particular that I will focus upon and they are natural systems and artificial systems. To be brief, I describe artificial systems as human made and a natural system is one that is not dependent upon the presence or participation of humankind. An example of an artificial system would be social or cultural, as well as finance, politics, religion, etc. A natural system would be one where humanity did not have a role in the creation of the system much like our solar system, as well as natural systems found in plant and animal kingdoms on planet earth (as we now understand them). An artificial system can collapse without affecting the entire environment as a whole, while the collapse of a natural system could cause an extinction level event much like we now face concerning climate change. I use climate change specifically because I wanted to show how artificial systems and natural systems are connected, as our behavior in one system has an effect upon the other.

– CONSCIOUS LINEAR TIME –

Our solar system provides one thing in particular that provides us with a rather rigid concept of consciousness, and that thing is time. This physical reality is part of an instrument of time. The planet rotates on its axis in a period of 24 hours (providing a period of darkness and light called a day) and orbits a star in 365.25 days providing us a period of a year. I once thought that time was an artificial system. But, if I follow my now evolving description of time, as we currently understand it (seconds, days, years), would continue without us.

Time is a natural system. Humankind developed a system of measuring time that confines the physical processes that we witness everyday in our conscious physical reality. The problem with this is that we have become too reliant upon the clockwork of our solar system. We have forgotten that there exists an aspect of consciousness that is without time. I have found that there are two distinct aspects of consciousness. One relates to the physical realm that we experience when we are awake (conscious), the other relates to the nonphysical realm when we are asleep, incapacitated, or dead (unconscious).

Our conscious experiences are dependent upon time, but not in the way we have become accustomed to regarding day-to-day activities. We rely upon time to provide order. Time is that which enables us to exist in this constantly evolving conscious reality and without it there would be chaos regarding our time dependent psychological process that define our reality.

Currently we perceive time as linear. We know this because we are unable to experience the future in the same way as we experience the now; this precious present moment. I accept that time is linear. I feel that the only thing that exists in this conscious physical reality is the now simply because the past exists in memory and the future does not yet exist. But, if time is rigidly linear then how can I get a glimpse of the future? How does my intuition warn me of coming events? In an environment of linear time the future does not, and can not exist, because of its dependency upon the correct time to exist. So how does this happen?

– UNCONSCIOUS NONLINEAR TIME – 

The unconscious is the realm of non linear time. The unconscious may even be void of time. The only reason time may exist in the unconscious is because we carry it into the unconscious from our time based physical conscious reality. We know that the unconscious dream is void of time because our concept of time is skewed during sleep. Psychedelic drugs that enhance the unconscious while still being conscious will disrupt how we perceive time while under the influence of the drug. Jumping from one location in a dream to another, as well as reliving past and experiencing future events, are acts that are only capable if time did not exist.

My relationship with the unconscious is evolving. This evolution has diminished the gap between my conscious reality and my unconscious dream world. Prescience originates from the timeless unconscious. Subtle reminders of the intuitive mind are sourced from the unconscious. My means of extracting, or remembering, coming events is the process of existing between the two states of consciousness. This is what happens during meditation. Meditation is the act to which the active conscious mind is quieted enough to begin to perceive the unconscious. As I have stated in past posts, meditation is not something I do, it is something that comes over me. This has been increasing recently because the tools used by my adversaries no longer interfere with my brain wave states in the same way. I dream, I remember my dreams and the dreamer remembers my current conscious frame of mind. And, as this continues to evolve my conscious reality changes. Like climate change may be a result of one system influencing the other indirectly, the conscious and unconscious realities can affect one another indirectly in the beginning.

I seem to have been living half a life when I disregarded my unconscious experiences. In working to counter those negative energies and entities, I have opened a door to ways that I have long forgotten. I say this because it no longer feels new, it now feels to familiar to be new. In the past primitive humans that were able to prepare for the seasonal changes by utilizing the positions of the sun and moon survived. Those that were able to utilize the timeless nature of the unconscious within the construct of our conscious reality dominated, then and now. Some of them, I believe, are actively delaying my ascension.

– MEMORY –

Memories are snapshots of time. What would we call a recollection that is void of time? I remember that I lost the concept of time, and seemingly everything else, during my trip through the void when I had lost consciousness. When I regained consciousness I struggled to think and even form words. But, perhaps through regaining my time dependent conscious reality I remembered who I once was. And now, I am struggling with memories that I am unable to validate in any meaningful way. I cannot be sure whether some memories were formed in the conscious or unconscious. I even experience levels of consciousness that I have difficulty understanding because of how I now remember them.

Why is it so difficult to remember the experiences I have when I am unconscious? Why do I not remember my conscious experiences when I am unconscious? I am willing to say at this time that we do not remember because we don’t practice remembering. We have no training from our parents or from our educational systems. Memory is the true sign of intelligence. What wealth of information would we have if we could memorize all our unconscious experiences?

– FUTURE –

Existing in two dissimilar realities is a very unique experience. Just what was it that I came here to learn? What am I witnessing? Am I seeing what is to come? Convergence of conscious and unconscious realities or just how it has always been and forever will be?

I will continue to explore linear time within the multi-leveled conscious physical realm. It makes sense that linear time would be necessary to stitch together experiences on similar levels and, if possible, even travel within time. I see how linear time helps with how consciousness flows through this conscious reality but, what role does the unconscious play in all of this? If we are able to reside between the two known realms of consciousness then will we be able to see what is to come? I’m not sure how to feel about knowing the future. Most of my premonitions were presented to me without a time to which they would occur. I always remember the dream after witnessing the conscious event, which now calls into question the source and time of my recollection? Sometimes in order to evolve you must be willing to forget what you now know. How do I forget what I currently know about time?

One more question: Of the two conscious and unconscious realms, which one is the artificial system?

 

Journal: Mental

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Moon waning gibbous 18.5  days, Pisces – Water. Time 21:06, planet hours: Mercury.

I have been reading and watching material regarding mental health from leading psychologists. I am starting to believe that they may have a grasp of the conscious state of mind, but are unable, or unwilling, to grasp the vast remaining unconscious. This actually benefits their profession since it is rooted in our conscious reality, but it does very little for those that straddle this reality and the unconscious.

I am now comfortable with differing states of mind and the un/conscious states of reality whether they are artificial or otherwise. The key is resonance. It is more fitting to call them states of resonance than states of mind. We know this to be true from brainwave (binaural) entrainment. We know this to be true because a thought and a word can change your state of mind. It is all right there waiting to be accessed and applied.

The difficulty, for me, is control. I am aware of it. Control may be too difficult, too much flow. It is better to guide than to control. We are biological vibrational detectors. Consciousness is a state of vibration that we interpret through sight, sound, emotion, cognition, touch and taste. We influence consciousness whether we realize it or not. Constantly resonating and feeding back upon itself. We know this is true from the use of psychedelics. For those that realize this, they will find true freedom.

Psychedelics

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Moon waning crescent 26.2 days, Taurus – Earth. Time 18:43, planet hours: Luna.

The above video investigates the subject of microdosing psychedelic substances. There seems to be a trend in microdosing psychoactive substances in order to improve their relationship with life. Depending on your age you may have some kind of following with famous psychonauts of your generation. Timothy Leary, Shulgin and McKenna were some of those that had gained a following because of their inward travels. I have listened to many hours of Terrance McKenna’s lectures on his relationship with psychedelics as well as shamanism, gnosticism, alchemy, etc.

I am an advocate for the decriminalization of psychedelic substances because I believe that governmental institutions should not have the authority to dictate what a person can do to their body in the privacy of their own home. If they do no harm to anyone including themselves then there is no need for a governmental body to interfere. I am also an advocate for decriminalization because I strongly feel that humanity, especially the current human condition, would benefit from what psychedelic substances have to offer.

Humanity as a whole has benefitted and possibly was accelerated into the information age by the free use of LSD and other psychedelics during the 1960s. There was an article that I read during the dotcom era that discussed interviews with the leading minds of the time, during a Siggrah conference, and found that psychedelics greatly influenced their direction. One of note was Steve Jobs, as well as the founder of Oracle Larry Ellison.

We also understand that many governments have made the use of psychedelics illegal, not even available for clinical trials. It does not take a scholar to realize that psychedelic substances can alter a person’s willingness to question their role within the current social construct that benefits governmental oversight and nationalistic paradigms.

Current rates of suicide continue to climb. The CDC has seen a 30% increase since 1999. With the more recent celebrity suicides and depression reaching epidemic proportions, we need to look backwards, before the widespread distribution of prescription drugs. There is a wealth of information contained within ancient cultural medicines that humanity can benefit from. With the recent legalization of cannabis we should see a decline in depression as the active constituents within cannabis are studied, tested and distributed. But, there are many other psychedelics that are not being studied fully because of outdated mindsets of those elected to political leadership. Maybe we should require microdosing of political leaders with psychedelics much like the tribal empires of our shamanic forefathers.