Tag: Alchemy

Journal: Acceptance

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Is the goal of enlightenment to prepare you for immortality? I wonder how many times have I lived a life, like this one. How many times I have died, but then woke up, or just transitioned into continuing to do whatever I was doing at that moment. Reference one of those moments when I said “I thought I was gonna die”. What if, this (right here, right now) was it. A perpetual dream. When you get better at life, at ‘it’, you start to ascend to higher states of consciousness until you begin to realize that your life will never end, ever… You then begin to realize that you will continue to transition, evolve and expand in ways that are not yet possible to conceive, ad infinitum.

We perceive of opposites, but what we actually perceive is varying degrees of a single thing. Hot & cold is just varying degrees of heat (energy). So, does enlightenment exist because of a perceived opposite? But, what is its opposite? Is it the human condition? Why does the concept of enlightenment even exist? Why do we feel a need to pursue it? If you where to realize that this was ‘it’ and you could ascend to higher states of consciousness (right here, right now), without waiting for salvation or some grand awakening, would you do it? Are you ready? Heaven and Hell are opposites, but of what one thing? Varying degrees of happiness? Are both eternal or temporal? Do varying degrees of conscious states exist between them or within them? Am I currently closer to Heaven or to Hell? I guess that depends upon the moment and that can change dramatically in a matter of seconds. So, if I can move from Heaven to Hell form one moment to the next then they must not exist linearly, like a journey from one place to the next. Heaven and Hell must exist simultaneously within the whole of  consciousness equally accessible at any moment (non-locality, right here, right now) dependent upon varying states and levels of consciousness and your place within it.

When you become enlightened, do you begin to accept that you are an immortal unconscious being within this perpetual dream? Seeing things as they are, accepting them and knowing that it will end, and in the end, you will transition and begin again. How would this change in conscious perceptions frame your conscious environment? Such a realization would change how I would live my life, for the remainder of my immortality. You may also want to sprinkle in a little law of attraction and you may begin to transition, evolve and expand in ways that are not yet possible to conceive.

Journal: Astral Plane

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When I was a young child, under the age of 10, I would have what I thought were dreams. I would force myself to wake up, but the dream would continue. I would go to my mother’s bedside and try to explain what was happening, but like most parents she did not understand. I would sit at her bedside until the dream ended, one foot in this reality and the other in another. I have mentioned this phenomena in past posts and in my book. I did not know what was happening until recently discovering that I was visiting or viewing the Astral Plane.

The waking dreams have subsided and I have not had a fully immersive experience since childhood. I have had similar experiences while I sleep, but they end abruptly when I realize that I am dreaming and wake up. I feel the physical sensations wear off slowly as I regain consciousness. During meditation and before sleep I am able to feel the waking dream begin, but I am unable to sustain the connection and the experience fades. I now think that there might be some interference, prickling sensations from an unknown source.

The waking dreams were fully immersive. I could feel myself getting bigger, expanding in size and being able to see farther into the distance. Large transparent beings and possibly animals are walking around me. I could hear and sense everything around me, the experience was overwhelming. I was able to perceive both realities of this conscious experience and, what I now know to be, the astral plane. Physical and auditory sensations that were very much like my psychedelic hallucinations later in my life.

I have recently discovered that I am not normal, average or run of the mill. I can close my eyes and see an, aurora like, energy field moving in front of my eyes. I am having waking dreams, more commonly called astral sight with greater frequency. This sight occurs during meditation and mostly when I am between conscious and unconscious states. It seems as though this astral state washes over me and I can view a monochrome environment somewhat shadowy, but also defined, sometimes appearing like a photographic negative. My intuition is persistent and reliable. While under attack in Honolulu I was having mental (thought) conversations with other entities that I now understand to exist on the astral plane (it would have been nice to know this back then) – [Note: During the initial conversation she stated that they had a lot to lose, a lot of work would be lost if I proceeded]. Some of these experiences I thought were normal, while the other more extreme experiences I thought were my gradual descent into insanity.

I am posting this now because of a recent astral event I had after posting Psychic Attack? Several minutes after the post the astral event washed over me and I closed my eyes and began the dreamlike experience. I saw a man in what looked like khaki shirt and pants. I could not make out his face, but I did see him gesture at me. He was shaking his finger at me as if saying no, or don’t do that. I snapped out of it. I was a bit shaken because it was the first time (that I can remember) a character in the vision did something like this. I have had others dream states where I heard someone say my name to wake me up, but nothing like this has happened before.

I remain defiant. I have a finger I’d like to shake at him and it’s not the index finger. So, now I have reached a point where my antagonists are appearing to me and warning me. For the past seven to ten years, possibly more. I have had to endure their interference and meddling in my life. I have seen them watching me from a distance in my conscious and unconscious experiences. I cannot remember their attempt to contact me and explain to me what I was experiencing. Now I have evolved to a point where they are forced into more drastic measures to deter my progress. I feel that it is far too late for that.

With all of these new experiences from my antagonists and my allies, I am able to tell the difference between the two. My allies always protect me and offer guidance in persistent subtle ways. My antagonists know ony one way, it is the posture of a bully, one of perceived superiority, of arrogance, of petty character and one of fear.

A message to those that stand in my way.

“Try looking into that place where you dare not look! You’ll find me there, staring out at you!” – Frank Herbert, Dune.

Or, use your abilities to see into the future, you know there is no stopping me. I have come too far to turn back now, I could not stop even if I tried (and you know I have tried). The expansion of my conscious and unconscious self is not something I have control over now. Unlike those dreams I had when I was a child, this experience is building in depth and breadth with no apparent end in sight, coming together into one. I have cast aside my oars and have settled into floating downstream. You had your chance to offer assistance (guidance), but you chose to use the axe. You have taken from me all that I have ever held dear. I literally have nothing to lose. One of your minions recently said to me that “there are rules”. There are only a few rules that I live by. One significant rule is to do no harm. I suggest you abide by that rule, because karma can be a bitch when empowered by the focus of my evolving will. You should be familiar with the axioms of this realm: cause and effect, rhythm of the pendulum, etc… You will be consumed by your own deeds. Let me go my own way.

Ready or not…

P.S. I am grateful for your part in manifesting my evolution. You and your kind have been a catalyst for my transformation. I could not have done it without you. Now that I understand that this is where I have always wanted to be, I can’t possibly explain the scope of my desires now. The possibilities are truly without measure. Can you feel it? That pressure building? You know you can no longer contain it. At this point in time you must begin to understand that you have already failed.

Journal: How Do I know I Am Me?

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In our conscious lives we have a system of collecting information pertaining to identification; identity. That information is something you can carry with you in case you have to prove you are who you say you are. Does a system exist in the greater unconsciousness that is used to identify my formless self?

Is identity necessary in the whole of consciousness? Without identity, we would literally be one…

As it is above, so it is below.

Psychic Attack?

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Image: Washington Post

Robert Bruce has been mentioned on this site many times because his book Practical Psychic Self Defense Handbook has helped me to defend against the dark arts and negative entities. Unless you have suffered from these kinds of attacks it is difficult to imagine that they can exist. Upon discovering that most of the attacks I have endured were (are) from dark arts and/or negative entities and applying his methods and receiving relief it drastically changes your perspective.

Since this surprising revelation I have gained relief from temporary pain in the heart, liver and pancreas. I have found relief from oral infections that would occur during the waxing phase of the moon. I have found relief from sharp pains in the temple region of the brain, sudden feelings of fear, loss, hopelessness and sorrow. And the most significant being releived of spikes of anger for no reason at all. Placebo? Maybe, since I cannot prove that the psychic dark art attacks actually exist. Delusional? I cannot rule out the possibility of delusion since I regard this reality as an illusion, that in itself is a paradox.

So why are we here? An article published in the Washington Post titled: At night she suffered through searing pain, by morning it mysteriously vanished. What caught my attention is that the pain the woman in the article was experiencing happened only at night. Bruce reports that most negative entities attack at night. My initial attacks in Honolulu started at 17:30 every night and would not let up until sunrise.

As part of the quick start guide from Bruce’s book he recommends to repeat core affirmation, turn on all overhead lights, take a long shower (“The running water of a shower is your primary EMF (electromagnetic-force) defense against direct attack. Notice that you feel more peaceful under the shower” – The woman in the article was able to find relief with showers), apply Tiger Balm or essential oil to affected area, use of incense, play uplifting music loudly, sliced garlic cloves placed in room, sleep electrically grounded, get as much sunlight during the day as possible…

My use of incantations brought sudden relief from the attacks I have endured for seven straight years or more. I cannot express what a releif that is. I am grateful that my physical suffering was not as severe as the suffering endured by the subject in the article. My experience was more psychological in nature prompting a kind of spiritual renaissance – aided by my higher unconscious self.

The woman in the article later had a tumor removed from her spine. The tumor was easy to remove and encapsulated. She found relief after two years of suffering. Her mother had a schwannoma (a tumor of the tissue that covers nerves – also cited in Robert Bruce’s book as negative entity attacks that can cross generations within a family – she also lost a sister to breast cancer). Interesting coincidence? Unfortunately the woman was not able try some of the methods described by Bruce before the tumor was removed, so we’re lost in the land of speculative what-ifs… Bruce states that prolonged attacks can cause detrimental physical illness that must be attended to by health practitioners – please follow this advice.

We are relegated to the ranks of speculation in these matters without out scientific evidence. Not much chance that the A.M.A. will open up a department to investigate illnesses caused by possible psychic dark art attacks considering they were\are a driving force against shamanic healing, witch craft and natural healing methods in general.

Further down the rabbit hole.

The Banach–Tarski Paradox

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Interesting video on a mathematical paradox. Give it a chance and try to understand what Michael Stevens – Vsauce is presenting. Videos (information) like this are a kind of mental exercise. Where concepts are thrown at your brain and the act of following and incorporating new information stimulates existing synapse and possibly creating new ones. The ’cause’ will present an unimaginable ‘effect’ some time in the not so distant future. Like planting a seed of unknown origin and waiting to see what will start to grow.

Consciousness is infinite. It forever was and it forever will be… If you want to grasp the concept of consciousness you may want to try to understand the infinite. And the above paradox may aid in that understanding. I think it is a healthy practice to poke a stick at the edges of your current understanding of this reality. Start by gently prodding before the first initial jab, works best.

Time: 20:41 – Our physical reality and our physical bodies (conscious selves) are finite. Our reality is subject to constant change, transformation and evolution. Our unconscious selves are just as infinite as the whole of consciousness. I agree with Michael in that the only weirdness is our current existence within our conscious universe. The gnostics would agree that our place here is unnatural. It helps us to understand why we feel separate from our (un)conscious reality and from one another. No worries, when it comes to the end of our finite existence we will once again be able to grasp the infinite.

That separation makes this reality seem like being locked in a cage (prison) sometimes. I remember how that used to feel.

Despite all my rage, I’m still just a rat in a cage.

Now it seems, it was a prison (cage) of my own making…

Journal: Glamor

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I often stray away from political overtures because they are just as false as the reality we are all experiencing. I have been rereading Robert Bruce’s “The Practical Psychic Self Defense Handbook” and the following paragraph provided an explanation concerning the persona of a current notorious American politician.

Negs have the ability to shield their true energies and identities. This masking is like a glamor. Glamor is a field of intention energy that hides the truth. Glamor around a living human changes how they are perceived by others. Glamor can make an old and unattractive person look young and desirable. It can also cause nice, young, attractive persons to appear as being old and unattractive, or repulsive. Negs use glamor extensively to fool human psychics. A Neg spirit will often, for example, present itself as a sweet lost child. Psychics and clairvoyants will perceive the Neg as such and feel sympathetic towards the spirit. Negs are notorious deceivers and liars. People overshadowed or possessed by Negs will also often have a glamor around them. Negs also punish and isolate people by projecting around them a field of glamor that irritates and repels other people.

I often wonder how a person with such a uniquely despicable character have a following. I watch how people fall into a kind of trance once they spend time with them. I watch as people that were once critical suddenly change their mind and become an ally. The above paragraph provides an explanation to what I observe with this particular person especially the aspect of being “notorious deceivers and liars”. This politician behaves as if he has made a ‘deal’ with a negative entity.

What Negs can do to a person is limited by the level of permission they have obtained. Permission and agreements relate to the free will of individuals. The higher self will sometimes adjust a person’s natural shields and defenses to allow a Neg influence or invasion, if this has been requested by that person or is required by that person’s higher self.

The first quoted paragraph also explains what I have posted in the past. I refer to them as “the others” because I can sense them from a bout 300 feet, more or less, and they have an overtly attractive air about them even though they have average to below average physical characteristics.

Incubus/Succubus

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When you a reading and learning about a particular subject your attention can attract more information from your conscious environment. I am engaged in learning about the occult, paranormal and dimensional entities since my recent discovery that these entities have an interest in my conscious experience. I have been ignoring this video for the past week and as it continued to appear before me frequently I decided to watched it. The first thought that came to me was that subject of the video was being influenced by an entity.

If you do a minimal search on the subject of sex demons you will find the terms incubus (male) and sucubus (female), Most literature classifies this subject as mythology, where myth is a cultural belief and normally regarded as false. The incubus or sucubus usually engages in sex with a sleeping victim. But, because of my own experiences with negative entities, they do not seem to be limited to the conscious (awake) or unconscious (sleep) state of the victim. The attacks I experience can happen at any time with the intensity varying on the time of day or lunar cycle.

With this new understanding I am beginning to ask if the influence of negative entities upon humanity are more prevalent than we allow ourselves to believe. Stories (mythology) about negative entities are abundant in our distant history, I cannot beleive that they just disappeared when we evolved from the agrarian age through the industrial and information ages. The most recent restaurant shooting in Oklahoma has interested me because of a video the shooter posted. The shooter stated that he was losing his mind because he did not have anyone to talk to. His state of mind made him an easy target for negative entities. Are mass murderers (particularly school shooters) being influenced by negative dimensional entities?

The influence upon humanity by negative entities cannot be scientifically measured. We may or may not be able to measure the presence of negative entities, but we do have one institution that can help understand the recent increase in reported cases of demonic possession, the Vatican. The Guardian released an article (Vatican to hold exorcist training course after ‘rise in possessions’) on March 30 2018 on the increase in reported cases of demonic possession and the need for the Vatican to hold a training course for exorcism. Understanding that exorcism is a exploitable subject and difficult to define, there has been a three-fold increase in Italy to 500,000 and cases have “risen exponentially” in Ireland.

Note: I am undergoing a psychic or negative entity attack at this moment (05.26.2018 – 15:15:23) while I write this post.

It is a slippery slope to categorize all mental health issues as demonic or negative entity possession, but I cannot rule out that paranormal, demonic, negative entities no longer exist in our modern conscious environment. What else could be happening regarding the current dilemma facing our seemingly deteriorating human condition? I believe that continuing to disregard the possibility of paranormal and dimensional influences increases vulnerability. I also beleive that running to the protection of religion has its own perils.

Still far to many questions than answers…

Journal: The Tick

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After yesterday’s post I have been under a relatively constant attack. There is a moderate dull ache on the left side just below my rib cage. It varies in intensity and a bit of a casual annoyance. (This attack is not as intense as the attack I endured when I was reading a 2009 article about a UK policeman observing Tall White Aliens inspecting a crop circleI. The article kind of jumped out at me as these things usually do. I have been a fan of crop circles, I love the geometry and they make great mandalas for meditation.) I am familiar with these kinds of attacks because they are part of their attempt to condition or control my behavior. This method is no longer that effective since I now know where the attacks originate from and they have been happening for some time now.

Since this attack was constant I was able to experiment with some various methods to protect myself. The methods are mostly from Robert Bruce’s book Practical Psychic Self Defense and work very well, but I was also able experiment with some of my own alchemical methods from the energy devices I have developed over time. The most effective method has a lot to do with symbols of alchemy created in 3D form. I receive an immediate releif and then the ache will build back over time. I cannot disclose the specifics at this time because I do not want to completely disclose my hand, so to speak.

The attack is similar to a leach attaching to a part of the body, but let’s say that the leach did not deploy an anestetic so you can feel it feeding on your body. Or, similar to a tick bite or some other blood sucking vermin. As I and Robert Bruce concur they are parasitic in nature, but I am not sure if or what they are feeding on.

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Scanned image from Rober Bruce’s book Practical Psychic Self Defense used as a visual representation of witches, negative entities and the like.

Robert Bruce states that an entity can create a psychic link to the victim. That link is like a thread (or proboscis) used to inflict pain or damage. One discovery I made was that the link between the entity and my body is a two way link. I can use the link to move energy back to the source. If the link is one of the dark art use of an effigy of the victim, then the attack can be reflected back upon the source.

I have to admit that I have become a bit of a nerd when it comes to these attacks. Instead of worrying about the attack I now jump at the opportunity to use the attack to test and strengthen my knowledge. Attitude and will are very important factors in the defense of these attacks. I beleive the attacks are designed to degrade well being and incite fear. The maintenance of a positive attitude becomes easier when you have the right kind of knowledge (shinning light upon the dark arts).

Interestingly, I have not yet figured out why the attacks subside when I am writing a post for this blog, or how the entity knows I posted on the blog at all. Possibly a quirk in the whole of consciousness I have yet to discover.

Thank you, may I have another…