Journal: Gray Jacket

New Moon 0.5 days, Aries – Fire. Time 05:15, planet hours: Moon.

At 05:15 p.m., as I was preparing dinner I saw a Jinn, spirit, or entity standing in, or moving by, the doorway of the kitchen. I saw him out of the periphery of my vision. What struck me about this incident is that there was a lingering image of the entity still in my memory. I saw a distinct medium gray jacket and what looked like gold piping or a zipper. I could only see the right side of his body, pants color was faint, but I could not see his face.

What accompanied the incident was a hair raising level of energy. My skin felt like is was crackling. When I encounter these entities I usually get goosebumps, but this was another level of tactile excitement.

I still can still see the image in my memory. This was an unconscious dream level experience. I have this strange feeling that I have seen him before, maybe in one of my unconscious travels. I was definitely shaken by this event.


Update: 04.06.19 – I am still trying to interpret the encounter with the entity. What I find interesting, in that it seems difficult to understand, why was the gray jacket a significant remnant of the experience? Was the encounter accidental (did I catch him passing through) or intentional (he wanted me to see him)? Past experiences were mostly associated with orbs of light or something that resembles deep black smoke. and or a dark transparent object seemingly crawling (scampering) across the floor.

Although the incident was not negative, I did have some discomfort and fatigue later while cooking. The symptoms were familiar, but I never associated the symptoms with entities or thought they were associated with my antagonists.

Later that evening I did feel some hair raising sensations as I walked into one particular room. As I moved through the room the sensations increased and as I pressed toward the area of increased sensations, I asked them who they were and what they wanted? No response.

What was it? Why was it wearing modern clothing? Did I catch some kind of entity surveilling me? If yes then this would explain how my antagonist seem to have advanced knowledge of my plans when I go about my life.

Journal: Under Attack

Moon waxing crescent 7.7 days, Cancer – Water. Time 13:35, planet hours: Jupiter.

I am currently under a significant Dark Arts attack. I am having difficulty thinking and some motor functions are effected. I am allowing this to happen and not doing any attempt to protect myself. In fact I am getting ready to run an errand to completely expose myself to anything my antagonists can do to end this (me).

The energy is dark right now during the first quarter of the lunar cycle (March 14 12:25-13:21 March 15). This is the opportune time for them to attack. They usually do so during this window, but this is attack is fairly significant.

This is in response to some significant steps I have taken to restore my energy levels (life force). Before the attacks started, I never felt better and feel similar to when the attacks began in Hawaii in 2011. I have been defiant and provoking them since earlier in the day and yet I am still here. I am ready to test my beliefs and hoping that they will facilitate my transition.

Check back later for updates to this post to see if I survive this…

Spoiler Alert: Due to the inept abilities of my antagonists (Jinn), I am probably not going anywhere… 


Update: Nothing happened. The usual feckless suspects (minions) were out about keeping track of my coming and going, but nothing significant. I must admit I am a little disappointed.

Let me provide some info that has occurred in the past couple of days. I have been experimenting with a device that I revisited from some years ago. I did so after my intuition (subconscious or higher self) reminded me of something I did with a coil and sound files. I started to use the device and found that they were helpful. I began to use the device on my energy centers (meridians) and was able to improve the flow of energy within my body. With further work I found that my antagonists were causing a disruption in the flow of energy while I was unconscious (vulnerable), something that I have written about here in the past. I was able to use the device to counter the attacks while I was unconscious over the past couple of days using newly discovered frequencies.

As I was experimenting I discovered that my dreams were unobstructed and I was able to remember them the next morning. I was feeling better waking upon sunrise and I noticed that my antagonists were beginning to increase their attacks as I continued to gain energy. Yesterday, Wednesday, I woke up feeling as if I had a low energy partied all night kind of hangover. I was drained (part of their attempt to keep me from rising with the sun), but I was able to counter the effects with my device. Last night I deployed a set of frequencies (chord) to the device and used it throughout the night and morning. I had fun and enlightening dreams and when I woke up I was happy and energetic still in the glow of the dreams I experienced. It felt like I was on fire, so to speak, in a very good way. I used the frequencies on my energy meridians and the flow of energy increased. It felt like I unclogged a drain pipe. Later this morning, I was dancing for no reason (something they used to punish me for when I was in Hawaii).

Then the attacks began and they were of the type that feel like my life force was being drained. I recognized that feeling from when I was attacked in Southern California and then again in Hawaii. So, I decided to use the opportunity to see how far they would go, and began to provoke them to try harder. They did, but in the end it was ineffective. This is the second time I dared them to take my life and they backed off. I wanted them to facilitate my transition to another level of consciousness other than this one, and that did not happen. So, I am still here (wherever that is).

These parasites of consciousness are inept bullies. Once you figure out their modes of operation they are nothing but a pesky annoyance, constantly meddling in your life. I am preparing to present my latest experiences with the entities I now call Jinn and their feckless minions in the next post. I have a feeling they are enjoying this almost as much as I am.

Vibrational frequency is everything…

Time to level up.

Para Consciousness

Nothing exists (that is known) in isolation. Everything in existence either feeds upon something or something feeds upon it. In our physical reality it can be witnessed in our daily lives and actions. We refer to this as the circle of life, but there is much more afoot than we allow ourselves to realize. At the macro level we are at the top of the food chain and we are dependent upon plants and animals for our sustenance. We farm, hunt and process our food to be sold and distributed in order to sustain our life. It is the natural physical reality that offers evidence that we are able to witness how the natural world sustains itself and ourselves.

So if nothing exists in isolation, then what feeds upon us? At the micro level , thanks to technological advancements in microscopes, we know of the existence of bacteria and microscopic life that are important, if not, critical to our physical world. We are dependent upon bacteria living in our gastrointestinal tract to consume food that we consume. The bacteria consume soluble fiber, sugars and other substances then excrete chemicals that are essential to our biological processes. This symbiotic relationship exists in many forms throughout this physical existence.

We are also aware of detrimental biological processes that occur due to the existence of microorganisms that can bring about illness and death. I read an article in Wired magazine back in the late 90s where a microbiologist went into detail describing the war that we are waging against detrimental microorganisms. He stated that humanity has been engaged in this war throughout history and we dance along the very fine line of being overtaken by the microscopic creatures. In the eyes of a microbiologist bacteria are the dominant species of life in our physical reality. Microorganisms outnumber humans on an enormous scale as each human is host to billions of bacteria living on the exterior and interior of our bodies and even in our blood and lymphatic system.

In my life experience there has been one particular point of focus. I did not realize the importance of this conscious and unconscious focus until recently. Throughout my life the image of parasitic worms seemed to demand my attention and occurred often enough for me to maintain a subconscious attention that continues to help understand my conscious relationship with consciousness. There was a time when I thought that I might have some kind of infestation, but that never materialized. I was often puzzled why it continued to garner my attention, but I could not make the connection to why the imagery was important. Until I applied the physical paradigm of the conscious reality to the unconscious reality of our nonphysical existence.

As it is above so it is below, and as it is below so it is above. This axiom can be applied to heaven and earth, conscious and unconscious as well as the infinite levels in between; at any level of consciousness there is always a higher level and a lower level. We know people who are capable of feeding upon another person’s energy. There is a name that is given to those that are capable of doing this, some call them vampires. These people are capable of sucking the life out of another person whether it is intentional of otherwise. There are also people that are capable of providing energy to others in order to bring about a sense of well-being. The presence of certain individuals can manifest a higher level of existence to others in their orbit. We often refer to these people as spiritual or holy.

Where are we in the circle of the unconscious life and existence?  Physically we feed upon the material vibrational energy of plants and animals, but do we feed upon the nonphysical vibrational energy of entities that exist in our unseen orbit? Although I cannot provide any evidence of this yet, I would venture to say that this is so. I do know that nonphysical entities are capable of feeding upon my physical and nonphysical vibrational energies. The battle I wage on a daily basis is to keep these nonphysical, and possibly dimensional parasites from doing intentional, or possibly, unintentional harm. As with physical parasites there are natural and synthetic antibiotics and in the nonphysical realm there are means to provide protection from these creatures and entities of the nonphysical varieties as well.

– Environment –

All things exist in an environment. The bacteria in your gut exist and proliferate because of an environment that is conducive to their life. If the environment is hostile and the organism is capable of altering the environment, its activity will bring about an environment that is favorable to sustain its life or the life of its offspring. This can be both beneficial and detrimental to the host. We see this in parasitic organisms that alter the behavior of hosts in order to transfer the colony to, or infect, other potential hosts. We see this in the behavior of humans that change the environment to be conducive to their particular lifestyle and or culture. Historically we can find evidence that the activity of humanity has not always been beneficial for humanity itself or the host we inhabit called earth or Gia.

At the foundation of all environmental conditions we can point to its vibrational component. Rudimentary studies of plants and their environments have shown that particular types of music can affect plant growth. The vibrational signature of water can affect plants, animals and possibly other aspects of the unseen environment. There is even the orbit of planets and natural satellites that can affect the vibrational environment of this earth and its inhabitants; gravity as a vibration (research theory of Bumblebee using its wings to create a anti-gravitational vibration to manifest flight).

Our brain is an electrical instrument that is capable of detecting vibrations within and environment. We know this because we can interpret vibrational characteristics of an environment with our emotions. Walk into an ancient cathedral and you can feel, emotionally, the vibrational component of the architecture. Color vibration can alter the behavior of animals due to its vibrational component regardless of the ability to see colors. And, we know this because of how color is used, by plants and animals as a means of attraction and protection. Symbols are vibrational images, and constructs, that can transmit meaning; semiotics is the study of symbols. Words are symbols for sound. And, sound is a physical vibrational component that has far-reaching aspects that are often overlooked or remain undiscovered; such as Om..

As a targeted individual I have been subject to electromagnetic vibrations that have altered my state of well-being. I have survived these attacks by using counteractive electromagnetic vibrations and or using various shielding methods. I have endured psychic attacks and have employed various dark art defensive tactics that use sound and physical symbols and gestures as well as meditation. The most effective means of protection is in the creation of a vibrational environment that is beneficial for myself and detrimental to non-beneficial vibrations and entities. What I have recently discovered is when I leave my protected environment I am abruptly confronted with the vibrational environment of our suburbs and cities, and their detrimental affects on my well being.

What I am beginning to see is that our environment is being altered in a manner that seems to support characteristics that are a detriment not only physically (climate change), but possibly creating an opening for nonphysical entities that could be a detriment to the well-being of us all. If you would like to test this for yourself, go to an isolated natural environment, take off your shoes and stand barefoot on the earth or on the banks of a free-flowing river. You will begin to experience sympathetic resonance to the natural environment and you will recognize your natural state of being. Surfers are aware of the withdrawals they suffer when the surf is flat and they are unable to recharge , so to speak. It is not the act of surfing itself, it is the environmental vibrational component that they crave. It is why dolphins surf and why pelicans fly in front of a breaking wave. It is the vibrational energy that is being released and effecting all things within that environment.

Our cities and suburbs are unnatural environments. These man-made environments consist of a combination of beneficial and detrimental vibrational components. Electromagnetic vibrations from computer technology, electrical grids, wireless communications as well as the poorly devised infrastructure contribute to the detriment to our current human condition.

– Para Consciousness –

We must begin to realize that we are not only an inhabitant of this physical reality, but we also inhabit consciousness as a whole. As science begins to entertain the nature of our multidimensional universe, as the catch up to eastern philosophical interpretations of the infinite possible constructs of the whole of consciousness we will begin to see a connection between this physical reality and the nonphysical entities and realities that occupy the same space.

We have plenty of religious text that claim historical records of actual events regarding Gods, demigods, demons/angels and other spiritual entities that exist. And, while 80-90 percent of the world’s population believes in a God or Gods it is difficult to refute that these spiritual beings exist at all. Spiritual beings are so pervasive in our history that without them there would probably be very little need for our spiritual mythology.

As I continue down the rabbit hole of consciousness, I am finding that there exists a physical and nonphysical reality that exists beyond the periphery of our capable vision. I have seen people vanish around a corner without a doorway or exit in sight. I have seen the black smoke type apparitions associated with the demons or Jinn. I was tormented by a black shadowy figure with a hat in my dreams. I am in communication with entities on a daily basis and warned of particular detrimental choices. I have seen orbs and have received information or actual items presented to me in times of need. But, I have also discovered that the vibration of your current physical and nonphysical form can be manipulated to control your existence on a particular level of reality. What I have often referred to as a yo-yo affect of changing level of consciousness regards my attempt to ascend and the existence of other nonphysical entities to keep me from my quest for ascension.

My interpretation of what I experience begins to verify that there exist a para-conscious reality that exists between the conscious and unconscious realities that we inhabit. It may very well be that these entities are very much like us, but they have mastered their conscious and unconscious existence and have the ability to influence and control this existence and all those that inhabit it. What is at the crux of their control and influence is our sympathetic frequency that we share with them.

This reality is rife with depression, violence, conflict, and general dissatisfaction and it has been designed this way to continue the and increase the influence and control. I know this because that I am capable of elevating my vibrational signature and when I do so I experience a very different, somewhat peaceful, alternate conscious reality until that vibrational signature is countered. I have also recently determined that most of my aches and maladies are caused by unconscious entities from the para-conscious, and can be relieved by a thought or changing the vibrational frequency of the ailing part of my physical and nonphysical self with plant extracts via vaporization (smoke), direct application and ingestion.

I am confident in my methods that when I routinely experience these attempts at influence and control I can counter the effects and go about my life without worry. What is concerning is that my view is not shared with the majority of people who are part of my conscious experience. I see when people are under the influence of unseen entities. I can see when I am being influenced and when this happens the best defense is the realization that my actions are not my own. Once I turn my inner eye towards the source and focus my attention on the influence it will always subside. In a world full of unnecessary distractions remaining attentive to you thoughts and emotions is difficult and for some impossible.

This (our) reality is far more mysterious than we allow ourselves to experience and even when we experience something para-normal we dismiss it altogether, but when we experience a holy para-normal event people will travel vast distances to witness the mystery. There is so much happening right in front of us and when you allow yourself to acknowledge these para-normal events they will begin to become more abundant and very normal day-to-day events. And, as witness these para-conscious events and focus out attention on them benevolent events will increase and negative detrimental events will subside. I think I read a passage that said to have been written by Jesus (cannot find it now) where he stated that being attentive to you thoughts and actions was important in ones spiritual endeavors. That would be a great place to start in order to combat any influence and control from our unseen environment of the unconscious.

 

Possessions

puppetWe are all familiar with demonic possession because of our entertainment culture. One of the most famous films was ‘The Exorcist’ and there have been many others since, with most of them being based on actual events. Demonic possession has also been a part of the social construct of may different societies. But, the ‘demonic’ aspect does not exist in all cases and possession does not always occur for long periods of time and may only play a part to influence an individual’s decisions for only a moment in time. So what does it mean to be possessed? Being that there is a popular phrase that ‘the devil made me do it’ in western culture, how do you know that you are, or are not possessed, or influenced, by an other worldly entity?

Someone once commented on this blog that many of the people that participate in ‘gang stalking’ or targeting individuals may be under the possession/influence of entities as ‘biological portals‘.  It was difficult for me to accept this at first, but over time it is becoming more apparent that this or something of a parallel notion is actually happening. This notion first induced a level of fear in me, but now I have become fascinated by it. I am only fearful that my fascination with it will bring more into my life, but also concerned that ignoring this information may be more of a detriment.

My conscious evolution continues and I must pay attention to all that this evolution is revealing. Carissa Conti’s assessment is fairly accurate. The influence of entities and their biological portals in my conscious and unconscious experiences is increasing. My assessment of these changes is that I must be doing the right things. I have to admit that someone more sane than I would retreat, but it motivates me to continue. There is also one singular, very powerful, and pervasive feeling that permeates my conscious experience, it is that I am under the protection of an even more powerful and influential force that I am unable to describe. And, because of my experiences, I have to wonder if it is a possession of another kind.

In my most recent experiences, I have been conducting experiments in the presence of other people and some of those people have responded in ways that would indicate that they are mostly under the influence of some kind of unseen entity. In the distant past I was warned by my allies that the people in question were contributing to my negative conscious experiences. I have now been able to verify the warning. In past posts I have referred to myself as shaman, partially enlightened or empathic, but it seems to me that I am just able to see things as they are; after all I was just responding to my inner thoughts that always told me that this reality is not what it seems to be.

I can now see why religion is a concrete paradigm in this existence, but unfortunately as pervasive as religion may be it offers little to counter all that there is to overcome. I have met priests that I would deem to be possessed. Holy people, it seems, are no more free than any other person. I have known people that were devout in their religious beliefs and were no more free that someone who was not. So where would anyone go to find protection? I do not know at this time. I once knew a North American indigenous man that called himself a shaman. He kept out of the cities and moved his family to an isolated parcel of land in the mountains. At the time he stated that he did so because of the changes he saw coming, first told to him by his elders. I now know what he was referring to.

Has the influence of unseen entities become so common that it has become the standard? Could it be that the influence persists because we allow it, or do not know any other way. The wrath of illness that plagued human kind in the past was due to unseen entities. tI was not until the development of a tool that allowed us to see these microscopic organisms that we were able to develop a means of defense. Knowledge of the existence of microbiological organisms has helped us to survive, as will the knowledge of the existence of unseen entities of a grander scale. If not, humanity will be no more than the possessions of the unseen entities in this existence, without will and without freedom (even more than what you now know as a false freedom).

– OTHER WORLD –

As there are and will always be questions, there is one that still persists. Why am I a threat to those that are hiding in plain sight? There are many that watch me everywhere I go. Why? What is it about me that requires so much attention? Those ‘Others’ that I see are now a rarity, but when I do see them what happens to them? My accidental encounters change something. I think it may have something to do with possession. Those attractive ones that demand my attention may be possessed by an entity of a different kind. My guess is that they are possessed at birth. My guess is that I am bearing witness to their existence in this realm. Am I accidentally revealing something about them to my allies within the whole of consciousness? I once ventured into an affluent area in the city of Santa Clara and the next day one of those that watch me (minion) commented on how brave I was to have gone into that area.

In the past I have played games with those minions and have lost them in Hawaii and then at least five people were seen searching for me. When I would go through affluent areas there are several cars involved in surveilling me. Why?

Now, when I enter these affluent areas I can feel that I am suffering from a minor psychic attack. I can walk into a crowded store or mall and half the people will head for the exit. What is it about me that they fear? In the Stanford Mall in Palo Alto CA. there are several clerks that will go into the back office until I leave and in affluent areas of San Francisco and Sausalito my presence can literally empty the streets. Why? What role should I play in this?

Note: On one trip to San Francisco while stuck in traffic in the Presidio area an attractive young woman kept walking by my car curiously looking at me as she passed, the same I have done to those I call the ‘Others’ – why?

Journal: Without Doubt

Moon waning gibbous 20.2  days, Aries – Fire. Time 16:15, planet hours: Mars.

Through the process of elimination I have proven to myself what I stated in the post Journal: Mental. I opened myself up to attacks and my antagonists took advantage. I then experimented with varying methods to counter those attacks. The most effective method(s) was able to disrupt both electronic and psychic interference. The method was one that utilizes resonance, vibration or frequency (whatever term you prefer). I can no longer doubt the effectiveness of these devices.

I have been experimenting with devices that allow me to produce the desired effect, but similar devices can be found online that utilize various Rodin coil windings and its permutations. These devices are crutches that are capable of interfering with a variety natural and unnatural phenomena, but are not a permanent solution (a voice in a vivid dream once called the devices Tom-Foolery). The ultimate solution lies within my unconscious.

Something interesting occurred when a device was used to interfere with a psychic attack I was defending against. As the attack was countered, there was a distinct odor detected in the room. Robert Bruce stated that he has also experienced certain odors associated with attacks that he has endured. The room was closed, no vents or windows were open and I could smell the odor for a few seconds as if someone walked by me. I have detected the odor in the middle of a bike ride in the mountains with no one in sight and several times inside my home. The odor is associated with a specific entity or shaman practicing dark arts. Friend or foe I do not know.

I have encountered shaman or entities in the past. I have stared back at them from a distance defiantly. Most of the minor shaman I have encountered were surprised I was unaffected by their efforts. But, this specific shaman is now identifiable regardless of the realm of its existence.

My conscious reality has become a sci-fi novel…

Journal: Spiral

Moon waning gibbous 19.4  days, Aries – Fire. Time 19:40, planet hours: Mars.

I have been under attack for the past couple of days. I saw it coming. It is a lot like knowing that a storm is coming and that you prepare for it and ride it out. I do have some means of mediating relief of the attack, but it just hovers over you like a dark cloud. These events present an opportunity to test your resolve and endurance. Focus your attention back at it and see what you can find (twins).

I can remember when I was not aware of the source. It had a profound affect on my state of mind. That overbearing hopelessness and self-doubt can incapacitate you, like an anxiety attack that lasts for days. I feel for those that must endure these attacks without knowledge of its source. It is easy to succumb to that downward spiral when you are unable to see it any other way.

I will say again that I am supremely fascinated by it. Just knowing that some entity has a means to induce this feeling in another has captivated my attention on a completely different level this time. A parasite of consciousness of the lowest level consumed by its own negativity. I have to admit, it’s a pretty good trick.

I am split by the negative emotions while my unconscious quietly takes on the part of the observer. That unconscious component keeps me tethered and patient until it passes. I kind of get used to it, but when I do, it subsides. I surmise that parasites give up when you allow yourself to ignore them. I recite the “litany against fear” (Frank Herbert’s Dune) and chuckle when done.

litany

What brought this on? I am fighting back in more ways than before. It feels right to do more, now…

Thank you.

Vice: Gang Stalking

Synchronicity. I am constantly being amazed how consciousness is allowing this to come into my view. I am in the flow of knowledge anticipating the next subject vying for my attention. I watched this video and I was able to recognize the state of consciousness that the victims were experiencing. After seven years, those memories are still tough to recall.

Time: 16:20 A victim is brought to tears as he attempts to explain what he is going through and the toll it has taken on his well being. I remember the times I used to cry in the morning and then again at night. This relentless onslaught of fear and hopelessness that drains the life from you. “It changes you”. Much like the victim Billy, I thought that Catholic inatitutions were my main antagonizing organization.

I cannot be certain (about anything) of what the victims are experiencing. I see similarities. I would first suggest that the victims read Robert Bruce’s “Practical Psychic Self Defense Handbook” with an open mind. Practice the methods in the book and use what works to find relief. Second, I would suggest to read the original “The Law of Attraction” by Jerry and Esther Hicks, based on the teachings of Abraham. Follow the methods of Abraham to find relief using your emotional guidance system.

The most powerful suggestion I can make is to use your current conscious experience as a path to conscious evolution. As difficult as it may seem at this time, this too will end. The most difficult aspect of your current dilemma is that you are going through this for a reason. Become your own champion and you will prevail.

In other words, the negative entities are low life parasites of consciousness and you must break their influence upon your mind. As much as you would like to kick some ass, it is best to ignore their pathetic minions (try to forgive them for they know not what they do). They are empty vessels under the control of the Negs. Don’t let them get under your skin. They want you to focus upon them and keep you in a fearful state of consciousness (lower level so they can continue to manipulate you). They want to provoke you and then have you incarcerated or institutionalized. Stay focussed upon the end (relief), consciousness will do the rest. Your higher self is waiting, wanting and vying for your attention. Your higher self is your best ally, get to know it.

Update: Here is a video from a supossed targeted individual operative, now whistleblower. Pretty alarming stuff. I was offered an opportunity to become one of them, but chose not to. Time: 42:00 – the whistleblower talks about the attitudes of the gang stalking operatives and how they are rewarded. Time:46:00 – they have also offered women to me, opportunities for wealth, social status and the like. I have seen the operatives in my life and they seem to have some kind of organizational hiearchy. The noobs are driving old Hondas and the supervisors are driving Mercedes and there seems to be no shortage of volunteers.

This is not a point of focus for me, because I know that what I focus upon is what I will continue to experience in my conscious reality. I have successfully diminished their influence upon my life using this method. As intriguing as this subject can be it has no positive ending, just more of the same. For me it is a path down a raabbit hole I just do not want to take. There are infinite possibilities of positive and evolving conscious experiences to manifest in your conscious environment. You have a choice…

Psychic Attack?

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Image: Washington Post

Robert Bruce has been mentioned on this site many times because his book Practical Psychic Self Defense Handbook has helped me to defend against the dark arts and negative entities. Unless you have suffered from these kinds of attacks it is difficult to imagine that they can exist. Upon discovering that most of the attacks I have endured were (are) from dark arts and/or negative entities and applying his methods and receiving relief it drastically changes your perspective.

Since this surprising revelation I have gained relief from temporary pain in the heart, liver and pancreas. I have found relief from oral infections that would occur during the waxing phase of the moon. I have found relief from sharp pains in the temple region of the brain, sudden feelings of fear, loss, hopelessness and sorrow. And the most significant being releived of spikes of anger for no reason at all. Placebo? Maybe, since I cannot prove that the psychic dark art attacks actually exist. Delusional? I cannot rule out the possibility of delusion since I regard this reality as an illusion, that in itself is a paradox.

So why are we here? An article published in the Washington Post titled: At night she suffered through searing pain, by morning it mysteriously vanished. What caught my attention is that the pain the woman in the article was experiencing happened only at night. Bruce reports that most negative entities attack at night. My initial attacks in Honolulu started at 17:30 every night and would not let up until sunrise.

As part of the quick start guide from Bruce’s book he recommends to repeat core affirmation, turn on all overhead lights, take a long shower (“The running water of a shower is your primary EMF (electromagnetic-force) defense against direct attack. Notice that you feel more peaceful under the shower” – The woman in the article was able to find relief with showers), apply Tiger Balm or essential oil to affected area, use of incense, play uplifting music loudly, sliced garlic cloves placed in room, sleep electrically grounded, get as much sunlight during the day as possible…

My use of incantations brought sudden relief from the attacks I have endured for seven straight years or more. I cannot express what a releif that is. I am grateful that my physical suffering was not as severe as the suffering endured by the subject in the article. My experience was more psychological in nature prompting a kind of spiritual renaissance – aided by my higher unconscious self.

The woman in the article later had a tumor removed from her spine. The tumor was easy to remove and encapsulated. She found relief after two years of suffering. Her mother had a schwannoma (a tumor of the tissue that covers nerves – also cited in Robert Bruce’s book as negative entity attacks that can cross generations within a family – she also lost a sister to breast cancer). Interesting coincidence? Unfortunately the woman was not able try some of the methods described by Bruce before the tumor was removed, so we’re lost in the land of speculative what-ifs… Bruce states that prolonged attacks can cause detrimental physical illness that must be attended to by health practitioners – please follow this advice.

We are relegated to the ranks of speculation in these matters without out scientific evidence. Not much chance that the A.M.A. will open up a department to investigate illnesses caused by possible psychic dark art attacks considering they were\are a driving force against shamanic healing, witch craft and natural healing methods in general.

Further down the rabbit hole.

Journal: Glamor

I often stray away from political overtures because they are just as false as the reality we are all experiencing. I have been rereading Robert Bruce’s “The Practical Psychic Self Defense Handbook” and the following paragraph provided an explanation concerning the persona of a current notorious American politician.

Negs have the ability to shield their true energies and identities. This masking is like a glamor. Glamor is a field of intention energy that hides the truth. Glamor around a living human changes how they are perceived by others. Glamor can make an old and unattractive person look young and desirable. It can also cause nice, young, attractive persons to appear as being old and unattractive, or repulsive. Negs use glamor extensively to fool human psychics. A Neg spirit will often, for example, present itself as a sweet lost child. Psychics and clairvoyants will perceive the Neg as such and feel sympathetic towards the spirit. Negs are notorious deceivers and liars. People overshadowed or possessed by Negs will also often have a glamor around them. Negs also punish and isolate people by projecting around them a field of glamor that irritates and repels other people.

I often wonder how a person with such a uniquely despicable character have a following. I watch how people fall into a kind of trance once they spend time with them. I watch as people that were once critical suddenly change their mind and become an ally. The above paragraph provides an explanation to what I observe with this particular person especially the aspect of being “notorious deceivers and liars”. This politician behaves as if he has made a ‘deal’ with a negative entity.

What Negs can do to a person is limited by the level of permission they have obtained. Permission and agreements relate to the free will of individuals. The higher self will sometimes adjust a person’s natural shields and defenses to allow a Neg influence or invasion, if this has been requested by that person or is required by that person’s higher self.

The first quoted paragraph also explains what I have posted in the past. I refer to them as “the others” because I can sense them from a bout 300 feet, more or less, and they have an overtly attractive air about them even though they have average to below average physical characteristics.

Incubus/Succubus

When you a reading and learning about a particular subject your attention can attract more information from your conscious environment. I am engaged in learning about the occult, paranormal and dimensional entities since my recent discovery that these entities have an interest in my conscious experience. I have been ignoring this video for the past week and as it continued to appear before me frequently I decided to watched it. The first thought that came to me was that subject of the video was being influenced by an entity.

If you do a minimal search on the subject of sex demons you will find the terms incubus (male) and sucubus (female), Most literature classifies this subject as mythology, where myth is a cultural belief and normally regarded as false. The incubus or sucubus usually engages in sex with a sleeping victim. But, because of my own experiences with negative entities, they do not seem to be limited to the conscious (awake) or unconscious (sleep) state of the victim. The attacks I experience can happen at any time with the intensity varying on the time of day or lunar cycle.

With this new understanding I am beginning to ask if the influence of negative entities upon humanity are more prevalent than we allow ourselves to believe. Stories (mythology) about negative entities are abundant in our distant history, I cannot beleive that they just disappeared when we evolved from the agrarian age through the industrial and information ages. The most recent restaurant shooting in Oklahoma has interested me because of a video the shooter posted. The shooter stated that he was losing his mind because he did not have anyone to talk to. His state of mind made him an easy target for negative entities. Are mass murderers (particularly school shooters) being influenced by negative dimensional entities?

The influence upon humanity by negative entities cannot be scientifically measured. We may or may not be able to measure the presence of negative entities, but we do have one institution that can help understand the recent increase in reported cases of demonic possession, the Vatican. The Guardian released an article (Vatican to hold exorcist training course after ‘rise in possessions’) on March 30 2018 on the increase in reported cases of demonic possession and the need for the Vatican to hold a training course for exorcism. Understanding that exorcism is a exploitable subject and difficult to define, there has been a three-fold increase in Italy to 500,000 and cases have “risen exponentially” in Ireland.

Note: I am undergoing a psychic or negative entity attack at this moment (05.26.2018 – 15:15:23) while I write this post.

It is a slippery slope to categorize all mental health issues as demonic or negative entity possession, but I cannot rule out that paranormal, demonic, negative entities no longer exist in our modern conscious environment. What else could be happening regarding the current dilemma facing our seemingly deteriorating human condition? I believe that continuing to disregard the possibility of paranormal and dimensional influences increases vulnerability. I also beleive that running to the protection of religion has its own perils.

Still far to many questions than answers…

Journal: The Tick

After yesterday’s post I have been under a relatively constant attack. There is a moderate dull ache on the left side just below my rib cage. It varies in intensity and a bit of a casual annoyance. (This attack is not as intense as the attack I endured when I was reading a 2009 article about a UK policeman observing Tall White Aliens inspecting a crop circleI. The article kind of jumped out at me as these things usually do. I have been a fan of crop circles, I love the geometry and they make great mandalas for meditation.) I am familiar with these kinds of attacks because they are part of their attempt to condition or control my behavior. This method is no longer that effective since I now know where the attacks originate from and they have been happening for some time now.

Since this attack was constant I was able to experiment with some various methods to protect myself. The methods are mostly from Robert Bruce’s book Practical Psychic Self Defense and work very well, but I was also able experiment with some of my own alchemical methods from the energy devices I have developed over time. The most effective method has a lot to do with symbols of alchemy created in 3D form. I receive an immediate releif and then the ache will build back over time. I cannot disclose the specifics at this time because I do not want to completely disclose my hand, so to speak.

The attack is similar to a leach attaching to a part of the body, but let’s say that the leach did not deploy an anestetic so you can feel it feeding on your body. Or, similar to a tick bite or some other blood sucking vermin. As I and Robert Bruce concur they are parasitic in nature, but I am not sure if or what they are feeding on.

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Scanned image from Rober Bruce’s book Practical Psychic Self Defense used as a visual representation of witches, negative entities and the like.

Robert Bruce states that an entity can create a psychic link to the victim. That link is like a thread (or proboscis) used to inflict pain or damage. One discovery I made was that the link between the entity and my body is a two way link. I can use the link to move energy back to the source. If the link is one of the dark art use of an effigy of the victim, then the attack can be reflected back upon the source.

I have to admit that I have become a bit of a nerd when it comes to these attacks. Instead of worrying about the attack I now jump at the opportunity to use the attack to test and strengthen my knowledge. Attitude and will are very important factors in the defense of these attacks. I beleive the attacks are designed to degrade well being and incite fear. The maintenance of a positive attitude becomes easier when you have the right kind of knowledge (shinning light upon the dark arts).

Interestingly, I have not yet figured out why the attacks subside when I am writing a post for this blog, or how the entity knows I posted on the blog at all. Possibly a quirk in the whole of consciousness I have yet to discover.

Thank you, may I have another…

Journal: Unconscious Reality

The differences between the reality of my unconscious dreams and my conscious reality are limited. One aspect that has become increasingly evident is that I am much happier in my unconscious realm.

There are instances where I may be challenged, but I often realize that I am unconscious and start laughing as I wake up. These occurrences are rare and often remind me that I need to apply the same reaction in my conscious reality.

I am convinced that the unconscious and conscious realms are one in the same. Events that occur in one realm affect the other. They are more closely intertwined than we allow ourselves to believe. The importance of remembering the events in the unconscious reality cannot be denied.

Characters within the unconscious reality exist either in a formless conscious state or in a corporeal existence within another level of consciousness where they are able to exist together in an unconscious dream state and also in the conscious waking state as apparitions and or extraordinary anomalous events.

What has become an interesting artifact of my unconscious reality is that verbal communication with other entities rarely occurs. I have had similar experiences within my conscious experiences. I do not always hear words, it is more like intercepting or receiving thoughts. It is similar to how thoughts present themselves coming from an external source; like a kind of divine intervention. The majority of these experiences are proximal. I sometimes have to walk around to find the source as if I was moving my cell phone around to be a better signal.

Recent experiences have caused me to question how I perceive my conscious reality. My attention is focused upon which thoughts are my own and which thoughts are due to crosstalk, interference and possible intentional psychic suggestion (not always positive).

I am reminded of my higher unconscious self that I encountered while under the influence of psilocybin in late 1999. I drew this picture after the session ended.

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My higher unconscious self is my protector, my big brother, my intuition, my sensei, guru and anything similar. What has become increasingly notable is that my unconscious self, being greater than my physical self, has evolved to a point where I (it) can reach back into my current conscious experience and influence and interfere when necessary. The ‘guardian angel’ may very well be a person’s higher unconscious self. I am now better able to differentiate between external (outside of the self) thoughts (thought forms) and those that occur from my greater unconscious self. One particular element is the emotional component of the thought form, coming from the greater unconscious, just feels better.

There are many views and beliefs regarding targeted individuals, mind control and alien agendas and the like. I have no physical evidence that may prove any theory regarding what I experience in my daily life. I can only try to explain the experiences themselves and what I have discovered to combat or understand these experiences. Recently I have been using ancient techniques to alleviate psychic attacks (I thought they were technologically derived). These counter techniques work very well to my surprise. I must admit that I am a bit dismayed. It seems that the topics of myth and folklore (temporal possession, demonic influence) may have a substantial foothold in this realm of consciousness. My past unexplainable experiences are now better understood with my new-found knowledge. My frame of reference has expanded and has given me greater insight into my daily conscious reality. This conscious reality is extraordinarily phenomenal. I wish I could show people how I see this reality.

Still far too many questions, but far less than a few weeks ago.

Event: I saw a Chinese woman standing next to two friends at a local market yesterday. She stood out from all the other customers. As I walked toward her I felt that familiar connection increase. I saw the expression on her face, she was experiencing the same thing I was and looked at me as if she was caught somewhere she should not be. As I walked past her she looked down. As I turned the corner I looked back at her, she was talking to her friends and her friends were looking at me. They then immediately left the store. I am still trying to understand what is happening during those events (clueless).

"Forgive them for they do not know what they do"

http://iamxam.blogspot.com/2012/01/030111-transfered-from-original-blog.html

The Prevention of Ascension – www.i-am-xam.com

Daily Journal

This is might be a valid reason for all that I am experiencing. I will have to take a look at what Carissa Conti has to say about my experiences and possibly be prepared for what might still be coming.

I have asked for guidance and it seems to have arrived. I did not expect it in this form and noting the date of Herr A’s comment it was presented to me almost a year ago. Obviously, I was not ready to hear nor heed its message. I will do some reading and research to see if this is what I am experiencing.

What lead to this has been noted in my Daily Journal. The strange and menacing behavior may be explained by the above comment. The character of these people are animated similar to a cartoon charter. Possession? I don’t know if I am now influenced by the comment, but it kind of makes sense.

More on this on the next post…