Journal: The Water Within

I once stated that water is the substrate of consciousness. It is in all things on this physical plane. There is more of it than anything else. It consists of two very powerful elements, one of which can power a star.

While meditating I began to see the sand and shore of a beach I once visited. I could see the water in front of me and I opened my palms to face the water and I could feel an energetic rise in my relaxed state of mind as the water of consciousness began to expand through me. It had been a while since I was able to go to the beach, but then a thought entered my mind reminding me that I did not have to travel to the beach in order to receive what the oceans have to offer me. The water of the oceans flows within me wherever I am, and within it there is the whole of consciousness flowing to me.

Today is a day to which I can mark a point of departure and change. I have seen it coming for a few cycles and now it has arrived.  The day before I left Hawaii, I stood on the shore and already missed being able to go to the beach every day. Even though Hawaii had been a place of my own personal hell, it was also a point of departure and change. These milestones are infinite, even though I am unable to recall the many that have come before, but they are all still special nonetheless. And now, it seems, I am ready to create some more.

Thank you, Rose…

Journal: Today

I am defying the advice of my allies today. My forays into this virtual conscious collective may create ripples that may be detrimental to my ascension.

My antagonists, who I now refer to as Jinn, have been very active in my conscious and unconscious affairs (they are now, and may have always been, for-ever present). This physical conscious reality is nothing but a dream within a dream existing between the infinite layers of our collective conscious projections. I find myself poking at the collective conscious fabric of this physical reality and then wait for the reaction to manifest, much like I did soon after my excursion into the void, much of it now having predictable outcomes.

I spent the last eight years running away from them, trying to avoid that which is quickly becoming my fate, so it seems. I am still tying to surmise the role they play(ed) in my evolving conscious environment, friend or foe. I can see the direction they are pushing me toward. Back toward those I encountered after the void.

Over time I have lost my trust in everything and now it seems I can’t even trust myself. I may have to move toward that which I fear the most. Defiance eventually succumbs to acquiescence; after all it is the essence of conscious evolution.

At least for today it seems that way…

Journal: Birds Of A Feather…

Republicans, Democrats, Nationalists, Christians, Buddhists, Muslims, Furries, Emos, Hip Hop, Death Metal, Artists, Fashion Designers, Soccer Mom’s, sport fans, etc. those that resonate together flock together. It has occurred to me again that a thought or mindset is a signal to the whole of consciousness about what a person craves, desires, and wants to become. We emulate and morph into the image we hold in our minds. We wear the uniforms, speak the language, congregate, and our conscious efforts are reciprocated by the whole of consciousness; it can be no other way. Look around and prove that it is not so.

Emotions are images we hold in our minds as well. Each emotion has a specific resonance. Everyone has experienced sympathetic resonance of another person’s emotions during a scuffle, a mob scene, a funeral, or a joyous event. It is a conscious effort by the subconscious to synchronize with the resonating frequency in order to interpret the emotional content (unfortunately this can also be exploited and used as a means of control). If we are aware we can counter the emotion, or increase the distance between ourselves and the origin of the resonant emotion. Sympathetic resonance is a property of our physical conscious environment due to the vibrational nature of our physical reality. Resonant frequency is a foundational component of this multidimensional physical experience. It is not a law, per se, it is an method of manipulation and a fundamental characteristic of consciousness.

The emotional images we hold in our minds are that which we shall behold in our reality, consciousness cannot function by any other means. Each moment we shape the vibrational nature of our reality with the emotional images within. Undivided attention to your emotional resonance and sustaining a desirable emotional image regardless of the emotional environment is the first step in the mastery of consciousness.

The pendulum swings as a condition of the orbital cycles of our physical environment. Our physical reality is governed by periods of expansion and contraction, a rise and fall of vibrational energy. It is a consistent and quantifiable aspect of this conscious reality that requires our constant attention. Timing is, indeed, everything.

Journal: Detachment

I am a traveler. This is the best explanation for what I perceive to be happening. My unconscious travels are often difficult to remember, but they are responsible for how my conscious reality currently manifests itself. The best way to describe this is to use the word residue. I carry residual memories or cognitive resonance with me no matter what my current state of mind experiences (conscious or unconscious). This did not exist prior to my use of psychedelic substances.

Throughout my life I learned to attach my identity to my conscious experiences. I identified with my inherited and evolving frame of reference, but it was typical in relation to my limited perceptions. After the use of psychedelic substances I began to question my reality and (slowly) loosen my attachment to that which was the foundation of my identity.

Where I once was tethered to a particular realm, I have become detached to wander into new and often foreign realms within the unconscious. The residual effects of this new freedom manifests itself in the whole of my consciousness. I can see it in both my dreams and my waking conscious reality. I dream when I am awake and I dream when I am asleep and those dreams are becoming very similar. I have a distinct feeling that they will become the same over time, possibly a combination of the two or a completely new realm of existence.

Journal: Chain Reaction

Moon waxing crescent 3.6 days, Pisces – Water. Time 21:45, planet hours: Luna.

“The Principle of Cause & Effect: Every cause has its effect; Every effect has its cause; Everything happens according to law’ Chance is but a name for law not recognized’ There are many planes of causation, but nothing escapes the law.”

It is important to understand that once you choose a path to accomplish something, and once you set upon that path, that choice sets in motion a wave through consciousness. I can see the changes in my conscious reality. I can see the beginnings of these changes and how they are evolving, for me.

I set upon a path to master consciousness and now I see that the wave I summoned has grown in size. I feel it has a mind of its own. I cannot determine the direction it has taken me, but it appears to be speeding up.

I remembered that I had forgotten that I cannot go back. There is no normal to go back to because normal does not exist as I once knew it.  I see that I am caught in a chain of events that have been set in motion by my actions. I am reminded of the time when I focused on nothing and desired nothing, and I saw my conscious reality grind to a halt. Up until now I have gone about this existence haphazardly, it might be better to take a more measured  and deliberate approach.

Possessions

puppetWe are all familiar with demonic possession because of our entertainment culture. One of the most famous films was ‘The Exorcist’ and there have been many others since, with most of them being based on actual events. Demonic possession has also been a part of the social construct of may different societies. But, the ‘demonic’ aspect does not exist in all cases and possession does not always occur for long periods of time and may only play a part to influence an individual’s decisions for only a moment in time. So what does it mean to be possessed? Being that there is a popular phrase that ‘the devil made me do it’ in western culture, how do you know that you are, or are not possessed, or influenced, by an other worldly entity?

Someone once commented on this blog that many of the people that participate in ‘gang stalking’ or targeting individuals may be under the possession/influence of entities as ‘biological portals‘.  It was difficult for me to accept this at first, but over time it is becoming more apparent that this or something of a parallel notion is actually happening. This notion first induced a level of fear in me, but now I have become fascinated by it. I am only fearful that my fascination with it will bring more into my life, but also concerned that ignoring this information may be more of a detriment.

My conscious evolution continues and I must pay attention to all that this evolution is revealing. Carissa Conti’s assessment is fairly accurate. The influence of entities and their biological portals in my conscious and unconscious experiences is increasing. My assessment of these changes is that I must be doing the right things. I have to admit that someone more sane than I would retreat, but it motivates me to continue. There is also one singular, very powerful, and pervasive feeling that permeates my conscious experience, it is that I am under the protection of an even more powerful and influential force that I am unable to describe. And, because of my experiences, I have to wonder if it is a possession of another kind.

In my most recent experiences, I have been conducting experiments in the presence of other people and some of those people have responded in ways that would indicate that they are mostly under the influence of some kind of unseen entity. In the distant past I was warned by my allies that the people in question were contributing to my negative conscious experiences. I have now been able to verify the warning. In past posts I have referred to myself as shaman, partially enlightened or empathic, but it seems to me that I am just able to see things as they are; after all I was just responding to my inner thoughts that always told me that this reality is not what it seems to be.

I can now see why religion is a concrete paradigm in this existence, but unfortunately as pervasive as religion may be it offers little to counter all that there is to overcome. I have met priests that I would deem to be possessed. Holy people, it seems, are no more free than any other person. I have known people that were devout in their religious beliefs and were no more free that someone who was not. So where would anyone go to find protection? I do not know at this time. I once knew a North American indigenous man that called himself a shaman. He kept out of the cities and moved his family to an isolated parcel of land in the mountains. At the time he stated that he did so because of the changes he saw coming, first told to him by his elders. I now know what he was referring to.

Has the influence of unseen entities become so common that it has become the standard? Could it be that the influence persists because we allow it, or do not know any other way. The wrath of illness that plagued human kind in the past was due to unseen entities. tI was not until the development of a tool that allowed us to see these microscopic organisms that we were able to develop a means of defense. Knowledge of the existence of microbiological organisms has helped us to survive, as will the knowledge of the existence of unseen entities of a grander scale. If not, humanity will be no more than the possessions of the unseen entities in this existence, without will and without freedom (even more than what you now know as a false freedom).

– OTHER WORLD –

As there are and will always be questions, there is one that still persists. Why am I a threat to those that are hiding in plain sight? There are many that watch me everywhere I go. Why? What is it about me that requires so much attention? Those ‘Others’ that I see are now a rarity, but when I do see them what happens to them? My accidental encounters change something. I think it may have something to do with possession. Those attractive ones that demand my attention may be possessed by an entity of a different kind. My guess is that they are possessed at birth. My guess is that I am bearing witness to their existence in this realm. Am I accidentally revealing something about them to my allies within the whole of consciousness? I once ventured into an affluent area in the city of Santa Clara and the next day one of those that watch me (minion) commented on how brave I was to have gone into that area.

In the past I have played games with those minions and have lost them in Hawaii and then at least five people were seen searching for me. When I would go through affluent areas there are several cars involved in surveilling me. Why?

Now, when I enter these affluent areas I can feel that I am suffering from a minor psychic attack. I can walk into a crowded store or mall and half the people will head for the exit. What is it about me that they fear? In the Stanford Mall in Palo Alto CA. there are several clerks that will go into the back office until I leave and in affluent areas of San Francisco and Sausalito my presence can literally empty the streets. Why? What role should I play in this?

Note: On one trip to San Francisco while stuck in traffic in the Presidio area an attractive young woman kept walking by my car curiously looking at me as she passed, the same I have done to those I call the ‘Others’ – why?

Lunatic Fringe

full_moon_over_fieldAfter logging the attacks (psychic and possibly electronic) that I endure on a daily basis I have discovered a pattern. I have in the past stated that the attacks seem to be on a computer automated system because they seem to occur at the same time during the day (while under attack in Hawaii I even thought they were associated with the setting sun). This notion was supported by bloggers and comments from people like myself trying to understand the attacks and their origin.

I have recently discovered that the automated nature of the attacks correlate with moon rise and moon set, for a given geographical location. The attacks begin slightly before moon rise and dissipate after the moon sets. Another noticeable aspect of the attacks is that the intensity increases during the new moon lunar phase. I cannot begin to speculate as to why this is the case. There is a deep rabbit hole one can go down regarding the earth’s only natural satellite, and of course the possibilities that it is a base for extraterrestrial entities is well disseminated online, but I just do not know. What I have observed is how lunar phases effect and even define my conscious environment and much of that is still under constant scrutiny. I can argue that the effects of lunar phases has been well documented throughout history and spans many different cultures in how they conduct business and also used in past and current agricultural practices, as well as, astrology and Magik. The moon’s energy has significant effects upon plant and animal life as well as the gravitational power to effect ocean tides, so there is a possibility that the energy could also be harnessed by those that have mastered consciousness.

This may or may not be associated with the kind of psychic attacks that are perpetrated, by close proximity to myself, by entities that physically inhabit this level of consciousness. I am not exposed to these beings or people on a daily basis, but I will need to log these seemingly random attacks to see if they are associated with any lunar activity. Although, there was one, more remarkable, attack that occurred on a day where the energy favored negative dark art activity (I ignored the warning), but I cannot remember the lunar phase for that event.

Information concerning the moon’s position, rise and set is readily available online and even on smartphone apps. The moon has been a significant element in my past life (a subject of a significant dream during childhood) and continues to become an important body as my current conscious (awake) experiences continue to evolve. I currently believe that most attacks are done to primarily diminish a target’s energy to disrupt their unconscious (sleep, dream) activity. Activity during our time in the unconscious realm may be more significant than we are currently able to understand. I have found that dreams that I have after sunrise are significantly different and affect my conscious environment in not so positive ways. Rising with the sun is an important and beneficial habit. Still more questions than answers.

Journal: Perfection

Moon waning crescent 25.4 days, Libra – Air. Time 00:03, planet hours: Saturn.

My belief that everything has meaning, and all things are the way the should be continues to grow in strength. Faith is a word that has been echoing throughout my intuition. Whenever I feel impatient, chaotic and confused I am reminded to have faith. Nothing is wasted, all actions have purpose regardless of our judgement. Abraham is correct, faith occurs when you accept the law of attraction within the whole of consciousness. That which is delegated to consciousness will become…

There is only the order of consciousness, chaos only exists for those that are unable to understand this. Within this artificial system of existence there are increasing levels of complexity, but at the root is the ever expanding foundation of consciousness. The whole of consciousness is the substrate to which we are anchored, there is no other way. Consciousness is pervasive. Consciousness is consistent. Consciousness is perfection.

Journal: Flow

Moon waning gibbous 20.0 days, Cancer – Water. Time 13:06, planet hours: Mercury.

I have become more acutely aware of my place, or position, within the flow of consciousness. I have been aware of this phenomena at different times during my adult life. I noticed the peculiarity of it, but did not really understand what was happening. Now it is difficult not to notice it. It is becoming an overt, yet underlying, characteristic in everything I see and hear. It defines my definition of what I find beautiful, comfortable and pleasing. It is changing my overall outlook.

There is a character of the movement of people as if influenced by a natural higher order. You are either in the flow or struggling against it. Navigation is intuitive. You can see openings as they arrive, you cannot hesitate. I am clumsy and somewhat apprehensive, but I am adapting. What interests me most is the dynamics of all known and unknown forces that influence the flow of consciousness. What is my role within it? Can I influence it? Can I travel upon it, like a wave?

Without Time

I recently received a comment from a WordPress user Lander7 on a previous post: The Mandela Effect. I may or may not have replied to the comment in the same vein at which it was given, but it did trigger an interesting train of thought that I never considered before. I want to introduce it in this post and will elaborate on it in later posts as I continue to try and incorporate it into my current experiences and my evolving state of mind.

What if, what some of us are experiencing as premonitions, mis-remembered events or, parallel realities, are slices of a reality without time, or at least a concept of nonlinear time. Something so radical and inconceivable would be difficult to understand and possible bring into question their state of mind. Without linear time how would we be able to function within our current construct and concept of reality? What would happen if we perceived the past, present and future as the same thing? If it were to happen quickly we would lose our current frame of reference and cease to function. But, a gradual change would bring about a significant paradigm shift that we can adapt to.

For someone like myself I have learned to adjust to a changing frame of reference. If you have been following this blog you may know that I struggled with my experiences. I have since embraced that which has brought me so much grief, and because of it I have an evolving relationship with my conscious and unconscious realities that is still difficult for me to explain. For me, a nonlinear time based consciousness begins to make perfect sense right now. More to come…

Journal: Transition Transmission

Moon waning crescent 26.1 days, Virgo – Earth. Time 01:01, planet hours: Venus.

Just a quick post regarding this current transitional phase I seem to be going through.

There has been a good deal of paranormal activity around my home. One incident was witnessed by another family member. Other instances I am reluctant to explain at this time.

I seem to be in a state of flux, I feel as if I am between two different opposing states of being. It feels like being stuck between two radio stations, one playing new age music and the other playing death metal.

I am having dreams about funeral like gatherings. There seems to be a certain amount of contention between the people who are attending. The contention arises during prayer like activities. All are dressed in formal attire from a distant past, but also some that are dressed in more contemporary attire.

I cannot watch the news nor any movies. I am finding it difficult to be interested in anything right now.

Spooky actions at a distance are still evident. It feels as if a big ripple is coming. This transition feels ominous, but necessary.

Update: Concerning my realization of Empathic Psychic abilities, there has been an increase in experiences that I am having. At this time I do not know why there has been an increase in activity. It may be due to my new awareness, or that I am purposefully attempting to acknowledge those entities as I believe to encounter them. Or, because I am now more aware and accepting, these entities are being more active – I just can’t be sure. Some experiences give me pause, because they are well outside my current frame of reference, I struggle with what I think I am perceiving. I even struggle with describing what I think I see.

Journal: Spooky

Moon waning crescent 23.9 days, Leo – Fire. Time 22:30, planet hours: Moon.

Things have changed again. It is not always the actions you take that cause a specific, albeit, expected effect. It is the action that sets in motion a wave of infinite possible effects, or outcomes. A ripple through the whole of consciousness, synchronistic causation. I see what I have done, I made this spooky action at a distance. Now I understand. Now I wait for the ripple to return.