Tag: Conscious evolution

Possessions

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puppetWe are all familiar with demonic possession because of our entertainment culture. One of the most famous films was ‘The Exorcist’ and there have been many others since, with most of them being based on actual events. Demonic possession has also been a part of the social construct of may different societies. But, the ‘demonic’ aspect does not exist in all cases and possession does not always occur for long periods of time and may only play a part to influence an individual’s decisions for only a moment in time. So what does it mean to be possessed? Being that there is a popular phrase that ‘the devil made me do it’ in western culture, how do you know that you are, or are not possessed, or influenced, by an other worldly entity?

Someone once commented on this blog that many of the people that participate in ‘gang stalking’ or targeting individuals may be under the possession/influence of entities as ‘biological portals‘.  It was difficult for me to accept this at first, but over time it is becoming more apparent that this or something of a parallel notion is actually happening. This notion first induced a level of fear in me, but now I have become fascinated by it. I am only fearful that my fascination with it will bring more into my life, but also concerned that ignoring this information may be more of a detriment.

My conscious evolution continues and I must pay attention to all that this evolution is revealing. Carissa Conti’s assessment is fairly accurate. The influence of entities and their biological portals in my conscious and unconscious experiences is increasing. My assessment of these changes is that I must be doing the right things. I have to admit that someone more sane than I would retreat, but it motivates me to continue. There is also one singular, very powerful, and pervasive feeling that permeates my conscious experience, it is that I am under the protection of an even more powerful and influential force that I am unable to describe. And, because of my experiences, I have to wonder if it is a possession of another kind.

In my most recent experiences, I have been conducting experiments in the presence of other people and some of those people have responded in ways that would indicate that they are mostly under the influence of some kind of unseen entity. In the distant past I was warned by my allies that the people in question were contributing to my negative conscious experiences. I have now been able to verify the warning. In past posts I have referred to myself as shaman, partially enlightened or empathic, but it seems to me that I am just able to see things as they are; after all I was just responding to my inner thoughts that always told me that this reality is not what it seems to be.

I can now see why religion is a concrete paradigm in this existence, but unfortunately as pervasive as religion may be it offers little to counter all that there is to overcome. I have met priests that I would deem to be possessed. Holy people, it seems, are no more free than any other person. I have known people that were devout in their religious beliefs and were no more free that someone who was not. So where would anyone go to find protection? I do not know at this time. I once knew a North American indigenous man that called himself a shaman. He kept out of the cities and moved his family to an isolated parcel of land in the mountains. At the time he stated that he did so because of the changes he saw coming, first told to him by his elders. I now know what he was referring to.

Has the influence of unseen entities become so common that it has become the standard? Could it be that the influence persists because we allow it, or do not know any other way. The wrath of illness that plagued human kind in the past was due to unseen entities. tI was not until the development of a tool that allowed us to see these microscopic organisms that we were able to develop a means of defense. Knowledge of the existence of microbiological organisms has helped us to survive, as will the knowledge of the existence of unseen entities of a grander scale. If not, humanity will be no more than the possessions of the unseen entities in this existence, without will and without freedom (even more than what you now know as a false freedom).

– OTHER WORLD –

As there are and will always be questions, there is one that still persists. Why am I a threat to those that are hiding in plain sight? There are many that watch me everywhere I go. Why? What is it about me that requires so much attention? Those ‘Others’ that I see are now a rarity, but when I do see them what happens to them? My accidental encounters change something. I think it may have something to do with possession. Those attractive ones that demand my attention may be possessed by an entity of a different kind. My guess is that they are possessed at birth. My guess is that I am bearing witness to their existence in this realm. Am I accidentally revealing something about them to my allies within the whole of consciousness? I once ventured into an affluent area in the city of Santa Clara and the next day one of those that watch me (minion) commented on how brave I was to have gone into that area.

In the past I have played games with those minions and have lost them in Hawaii and then at least five people were seen searching for me. When I would go through affluent areas there are several cars involved in surveilling me. Why?

Now, when I enter these affluent areas I can feel that I am suffering from a minor psychic attack. I can walk into a crowded store or mall and half the people will head for the exit. What is it about me that they fear? In the Stanford Mall in Palo Alto CA. there are several clerks that will go into the back office until I leave and in affluent areas of San Francisco and Sausalito my presence can literally empty the streets. Why? What role should I play in this?

Note: On one trip to San Francisco while stuck in traffic in the Presidio area an attractive young woman kept walking by my car curiously looking at me as she passed, the same I have done to those I call the ‘Others’ – why?

Journal: Perfection

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Moon waning crescent 25.4 days, Libra – Air. Time 00:03, planet hours: Saturn.

My belief that everything has meaning, and all things are the way the should be continues to grow in strength. Faith is a word that has been echoing throughout my intuition. Whenever I feel impatient, chaotic and confused I am reminded to have faith. Nothing is wasted, all actions have purpose regardless of our judgement. Abraham is correct, faith occurs when you accept the law of attraction within the whole of consciousness. That which is delegated to consciousness will become…

There is only the order of consciousness, chaos only exists for those that are unable to understand this. Within this artificial system of existence there are increasing levels of complexity, but at the root is the ever expanding foundation of consciousness. The whole of consciousness is the substrate to which we are anchored, there is no other way. Consciousness is pervasive. Consciousness is consistent. Consciousness is perfection.

Journal: Repetition

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Moon waning crescent 23.0 days, Libra – Air. Time 01:07, planet hours: Mars.

I notice that the same stories are told over and over again. The actors may change, but the story is repeated many times. It is as if there little creativity left in the stories we tell today, for me. But someone younger may not realize this just yet. Before that realization happens everything is new and exciting until you begin to realize that everything is ruled by repetition.

Is the repetitive nature of this reality an obstruction of the expansion of consciousness? Is it artificially forced into stagnation by some conscious or unconscious entity? Does the cyclic nature of our conscious environment pose limitations upon us or are those perceived limitations something that must be overcome? There is far more than what we think we see. The Universe forever was and forever will be. There was no beginning and there is no end. This existence is just a place for us to gather the courage to leave the nest.

About Time, Again

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After the post Without Time, I spent a lot of time thinking about time and a seemingly abrupt transition, or shift, in my current paradigm concerning time. The shift started while thinking about artificial and natural systems and then abruptly changed after a comment from a reader. Since they are related it might be prudent to include it here.

– SYSTEMS –

Systems are important because they can provide order. In order to get something done it usually requires some kind of system to accomplish the task. Systems can also work together to create a complex hierarchy much like what we call The Internet and or Capitalism.

There are two kinds of systems in particular that I will focus upon and they are natural systems and artificial systems. To be brief, I describe artificial systems as human made and a natural system is one that is not dependent upon the presence or participation of humankind. An example of an artificial system would be social or cultural, as well as finance, politics, religion, etc. A natural system would be one where humanity did not have a role in the creation of the system much like our solar system, as well as natural systems found in plant and animal kingdoms on planet earth (as we now understand them). An artificial system can collapse without affecting the entire environment as a whole, while the collapse of a natural system could cause an extinction level event much like we now face concerning climate change. I use climate change specifically because I wanted to show how artificial systems and natural systems are connected, as our behavior in one system has an effect upon the other.

– CONSCIOUS LINEAR TIME –

Our solar system provides one thing in particular that provides us with a rather rigid concept of consciousness, and that thing is time. This physical reality is part of an instrument of time. The planet rotates on its axis in a period of 24 hours (providing a period of darkness and light called a day) and orbits a star in 365.25 days providing us a period of a year. I once thought that time was an artificial system. But, if I follow my now evolving description of time, as we currently understand it (seconds, days, years), would continue without us.

Time is a natural system. Humankind developed a system of measuring time that confines the physical processes that we witness everyday in our conscious physical reality. The problem with this is that we have become too reliant upon the clockwork of our solar system. We have forgotten that there exists an aspect of consciousness that is without time. I have found that there are two distinct aspects of consciousness. One relates to the physical realm that we experience when we are awake (conscious), the other relates to the nonphysical realm when we are asleep, incapacitated, or dead (unconscious).

Our conscious experiences are dependent upon time, but not in the way we have become accustomed to regarding day-to-day activities. We rely upon time to provide order. Time is that which enables us to exist in this constantly evolving conscious reality and without it there would be chaos regarding our time dependent psychological process that define our reality.

Currently we perceive time as linear. We know this because we are unable to experience the future in the same way as we experience the now; this precious present moment. I accept that time is linear. I feel that the only thing that exists in this conscious physical reality is the now simply because the past exists in memory and the future does not yet exist. But, if time is rigidly linear then how can I get a glimpse of the future? How does my intuition warn me of coming events? In an environment of linear time the future does not, and can not exist, because of its dependency upon the correct time to exist. So how does this happen?

– UNCONSCIOUS NONLINEAR TIME – 

The unconscious is the realm of non linear time. The unconscious may even be void of time. The only reason time may exist in the unconscious is because we carry it into the unconscious from our time based physical conscious reality. We know that the unconscious dream is void of time because our concept of time is skewed during sleep. Psychedelic drugs that enhance the unconscious while still being conscious will disrupt how we perceive time while under the influence of the drug. Jumping from one location in a dream to another, as well as reliving past and experiencing future events, are acts that are only capable if time did not exist.

My relationship with the unconscious is evolving. This evolution has diminished the gap between my conscious reality and my unconscious dream world. Prescience originates from the timeless unconscious. Subtle reminders of the intuitive mind are sourced from the unconscious. My means of extracting, or remembering, coming events is the process of existing between the two states of consciousness. This is what happens during meditation. Meditation is the act to which the active conscious mind is quieted enough to begin to perceive the unconscious. As I have stated in past posts, meditation is not something I do, it is something that comes over me. This has been increasing recently because the tools used by my adversaries no longer interfere with my brain wave states in the same way. I dream, I remember my dreams and the dreamer remembers my current conscious frame of mind. And, as this continues to evolve my conscious reality changes. Like climate change may be a result of one system influencing the other indirectly, the conscious and unconscious realities can affect one another indirectly in the beginning.

I seem to have been living half a life when I disregarded my unconscious experiences. In working to counter those negative energies and entities, I have opened a door to ways that I have long forgotten. I say this because it no longer feels new, it now feels to familiar to be new. In the past primitive humans that were able to prepare for the seasonal changes by utilizing the positions of the sun and moon survived. Those that were able to utilize the timeless nature of the unconscious within the construct of our conscious reality dominated, then and now. Some of them, I believe, are actively delaying my ascension.

– MEMORY –

Memories are snapshots of time. What would we call a recollection that is void of time? I remember that I lost the concept of time, and seemingly everything else, during my trip through the void when I had lost consciousness. When I regained consciousness I struggled to think and even form words. But, perhaps through regaining my time dependent conscious reality I remembered who I once was. And now, I am struggling with memories that I am unable to validate in any meaningful way. I cannot be sure whether some memories were formed in the conscious or unconscious. I even experience levels of consciousness that I have difficulty understanding because of how I now remember them.

Why is it so difficult to remember the experiences I have when I am unconscious? Why do I not remember my conscious experiences when I am unconscious? I am willing to say at this time that we do not remember because we don’t practice remembering. We have no training from our parents or from our educational systems. Memory is the true sign of intelligence. What wealth of information would we have if we could memorize all our unconscious experiences?

– FUTURE –

Existing in two dissimilar realities is a very unique experience. Just what was it that I came here to learn? What am I witnessing? Am I seeing what is to come? Convergence of conscious and unconscious realities or just how it has always been and forever will be?

I will continue to explore linear time within the multi-leveled conscious physical realm. It makes sense that linear time would be necessary to stitch together experiences on similar levels and, if possible, even travel within time. I see how linear time helps with how consciousness flows through this conscious reality but, what role does the unconscious play in all of this? If we are able to reside between the two known realms of consciousness then will we be able to see what is to come? I’m not sure how to feel about knowing the future. Most of my premonitions were presented to me without a time to which they would occur. I always remember the dream after witnessing the conscious event, which now calls into question the source and time of my recollection? Sometimes in order to evolve you must be willing to forget what you now know. How do I forget what I currently know about time?

One more question: Of the two conscious and unconscious realms, which one is the artificial system?

 

Journal: Flow

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Moon waning gibbous 20.0 days, Cancer – Water. Time 13:06, planet hours: Mercury.

I have become more acutely aware of my place, or position, within the flow of consciousness. I have been aware of this phenomena at different times during my adult life. I noticed the peculiarity of it, but did not really understand what was happening. Now it is difficult not to notice it. It is becoming an overt, yet underlying, characteristic in everything I see and hear. It defines my definition of what I find beautiful, comfortable and pleasing. It is changing my overall outlook.

There is a character of the movement of people as if influenced by a natural higher order. You are either in the flow or struggling against it. Navigation is intuitive. You can see openings as they arrive, you cannot hesitate. I am clumsy and somewhat apprehensive, but I am adapting. What interests me most is the dynamics of all known and unknown forces that influence the flow of consciousness. What is my role within it? Can I influence it? Can I travel upon it, like a wave?

Without Time

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I recently received a comment from a WordPress user Lander7 on a previous post: The Mandela Effect. I may or may not have replied to the comment in the same vein at which it was given, but it did trigger an interesting train of thought that I never considered before. I want to introduce it in this post and will elaborate on it in later posts as I continue to try and incorporate it into my current experiences and my evolving state of mind.

What if, what some of us are experiencing as premonitions, mis-remembered events or, parallel realities, are slices of a reality without time, or at least a concept of nonlinear time. Something so radical and inconceivable would be difficult to understand and possible bring into question their state of mind. Without linear time how would we be able to function within our current construct and concept of reality? What would happen if we perceived the past, present and future as the same thing? If it were to happen quickly we would lose our current frame of reference and cease to function. But, a gradual change would bring about a significant paradigm shift that we can adapt to.

For someone like myself I have learned to adjust to a changing frame of reference. If you have been following this blog you may know that I struggled with my experiences. I have since embraced that which has brought me so much grief, and because of it I have an evolving relationship with my conscious and unconscious realities that is still difficult for me to explain. For me, a nonlinear time based consciousness begins to make perfect sense right now. More to come…

Dreaming

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terracotta-armyWhen our ancient predecessors prepared for death, the tomb would contain items that they could use in the afterlife. In the past I have found that to be odd. I would often think upon hearing such things, “why would a dead person need material things?”. They knew what was to come, because they understood the unconscious. Death and resurrection is something that we experience every day.

If there is one thing that I have learned about dreaming, it is important that when you prepare to enter the unconscious (sleep), prepare as if you were preparing for a journey. Dress accordingly, gather the things you may need, or want to bring, and when you close your eyes, prepare to dream.

Thank you.

Journal: I smell Dead People

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Moon waning gibbous 15.5 days, Aries – Fire. Time 18:53, planet hours: Moon.

I wish I was kidding. In the past it never made sense to me. I could smell distinct odors that should not be present. I never understood how it was possible. I could be riding down a mountain on my road bike and smell a particular aftershave. Once, I stopped the bike and stood on the side of the road looking for someone hiding in the bushes. Now it seems they are occurring more frequently and even while I am in my room with the doors and windows closed (heavily sweet cinnamon buns, heavy floral perfume). It is called Clairolfaction or Clairalience – the gift of psychic smelling, so I am told.

I haven’t really accepted my recent revelation of my dormant empathic abilities. I don’t think acceptance is the best way to describe my feelings, I’m just waiting to see what happens next. Waiting to be shown something new. I have never been able to relinquish control on this level in the past, every cycle brings a new perspective. I thought I had cast myself adrift only to find another anchor to cut loose. So now it seems I have help. I just need to pay more attention to my thoughts when the odors occur, so I am better able to understand the message being ‘scent’.

Of late, I feel as if I am in an alien environment. I am no longer bothered by the changes that have annoyed me in the past. It is as if everything is in its proper place, moving at its proper pace. Abraham was right, when in the right state of mind everything will begin to flow to you. And, everyday brings something new.

I have to admit I still wonder how far along this conscious evolutionary journey I would be if I wasn’t so dim-witted. Much gratitude to those unseen allies.

Journal: Sources

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Moon waxing gibbous 3.1 days, Capricorn – Earth. Time 13:52, planet hours: Jupiter.

I encountered an attack recently. The manner in which I was able to defend against the attack is an important aspect of the experience. I am always torn between posting these descriptions of attacks because I do not want to reveal too much, but I do want to inform others of what they can do themselves.

I went to do something that my antagonists did not want me to do. I know this because of the attacks I endured in order to prepare for what I wanted to accomplish. The attack was familiar. I remember that it felt like other similar attacks from my past and assumed that it was from a physical device being used by someone nearby. I wondered if I should leave the area, but I thought to use defensive of dark art techniques from Robert Bruce’s book. After applying the defensive technique the attack ended.

The source of the attack was probably not a physical device. The source is something I do not yet understand, and for the most part, it seems like magic. I marveled at my new found ability to defend myself when out in public and because of the knowledge from Bruce’s book I was able to accomplished what I set out to do. When I returned home I was buzzing with a kind of artificial energy, and now I wonder about the source. Could it have been a physical weapon, but I was able to defend myself regardless of the source? Was the weapon still focused on me but, I was protected in some way? If so, it explains the curious onlooker that looked puzzled as to why I was still there.

This latest experience brings into question, again, the nature of this conscious physical reality. It speaks to the latent abilities we posses that allow us to do extraordinary things that are not so different from the extraordinary things we are able to accomplish in our unconscious dream reality.

There is so much I want to share in regards to my recent revelation, but I am withholding my experiences for now until I am better able to communicate them.

Journal: Appreciation

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Moon waxing crescent 1.9 days, Libra – Air. Time 8:52, planet hours: Venus.

What  has become an emerging point of focus for me is something that the consciousness of Abraham has stated through Esther Hicks, “the leading edge of thought”. I have become appreciative of what it means to be on the leading edge of thought and consciousness. I catch myself watching, waiting and anticipating the evolution of consciousness. Being fully rooted in the now (the moment) and experiencing the constant progression through this conscious evolutionary expedition. I find myself transfixed on that edge in great appreciation for whatever is to come. It is when I am committed to being on that edge that I can receive those bits and bytes of what is to come. I am appreciative that I am a witness to the extraordinary events that takes place within every millisecond of every moment given to this existence.

Journal: Time Of Day

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Moon waning crescent 23.8 days, Cancer – Water. Time 14:52, planet hours: Mars.

Why is it that on most days between the hours, on or around, !2:30 (sometimes earlier) to 03:00 p.m. there is an intensity of interference that I am able to perceive? This is somewhat hard to describe and is related to cognitive processes. The interference peaks at around 02:00 p.m. and then subsides just before 03:00 p.m. I am trying to track the source (hence the text in red above on journal posts) and feel that it is related to lunar and solar cycles. This was first noticed in Hawaii being related to position of the Sun (the intensity of the attacks at that time were far more sever, but always related, or correlated, to the position of the sun). In my current location I seem to feel better after 03:00 whether I believe I am under some kind of attack or not. Moon is setting at 15:45 today in my current location. I will need to be attentive to moonrise and moonset to try to flesh this out.

What Next?

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I was helping a family member with some therapy exercises. The tasks were difficult and caused a bit of frustration, laden with anxiety, when they performed them. We persisted and slowed the pace to try to alleviate the difficulties. When we completed the exercises I retreated to my room and felt frustrated and anxious also. I had a distinct tightening in my throat. The next day we began the therapeutic exercises again. As the family member began to encounter the same difficulties as before, I noticed the same symptoms welling up within me again even though there was no reason for me to feel that way. It occurred to me that I might be experiencing sympathetic resonance. If we use the example of a musical instrument such as a guitar, sympathetic resonance occurs when a string is plucked and the neighboring strings begin to vibrate with a harmonic likeness. After a little shallow research on the internet I was lead to sites and articles about Empaths. After some further reading it occurred to me that I may be a Empath or possibly an Empathic Psychic. Discovering this was a very significant emotional event. It felt as if every single memory of significant moments in my life spilled out before my mind’s eye forced into view by a wave of emotions. Clarity washed over me, but also an unsettling question emerged from my gut, “what next?”. That thought began repeating for some time and I even started to say it out loud.

As a child I had vivid conscious dreams accompanied by physical sensations from worlds I had never before seen. It was difficult experiencing and sensing a vivid dream overlayed upon this conscious reality (I still get glimpses of this phenomenon). I wrestled with emotions that I now know were not my own, and not understanding that this was not normal, I was not normal. I started from wide social acceptance during adolescence and then later to a social outcast fueled by abilities I did not know I had. I sought the comfort of self medication which later lead to better understanding of my own physiology and psychology through experimentation. And then, rebooting my conscious mind with psychedelics and seemingly awakening to a level of consciousness filled with people and beings that are bent upon suppressing my conscious expansion. My higher unconscious self has been revealed to be a patient, yet unrelenting Taskmaster, or a tenacious Zen monk constantly cracking me on my shoulder with his shinai, never allowing me to fully drift into complacency. Now it seems I may have always been an Empath, but ignoring those abilities just so I could be normal.

It explains my past and current experiences. It explains my choppy social interactions and why I seek out solitude over fellowship. It explains why I can no longer watch certain types of films, online videos or television programs without experiencing intense emotions of what I see. It answers the question of how I am able to sense coming events. It explains why I have difficulty with one-on-one conversations with strangers, most of them leaving me feeling overtly self-conscious. It explains why I sometimes get confused during conversations as if I am hearing to two radio stations at the same time. It explains why I felt every possible emotion during my psychedelic quest through the void, now understanding they weren’t my own. It explains the many times I sensed people (mainly women of middle age) observing me or attempting to gain my attention and then find them looking at me, knowingly, in a way that seems to indicate we might be the same. It explains why I am under constant surveillance, as if to keep me from being contacted by those observers or others like myself. It explains those conversations with thought forms from destinations unknown I experienced in Hawaii. Why some people I meet take a step back when I shake their hand as if they were caught off guard by an emotion from an external source (this happened, again, when I recently encountered a person with similar abilities through Craigslist, post Combo-Shift – one of ‘the others’). It explains why some people (mostly younger people under 20) stare at me as if I was some new kind of life form. I am amazed that I survived this long not understanding what was happening, what I have become, or possibly what I have always been. Still, I ask “what next?”.

Lately I have been apprehensive to go out into the world. I seem to be bouncing from one level of consciousness to the next on a daily, sometimes hourly, basis. It is a lot like going outside not knowing what the weather is going to be like. But, I still venture out eager to see what level I seem to be on. Since I posted “Significance” I feel as if my third eye (cliché) has opened yet squinting to filter all that it is now able to see. As I write this post I remember asking for this. Asking to restore my abilities that I thought were taken from me. So, what next?

Those unseen entities are working overtime. That ever-present feeling of fear pecking at the confines of my inner consciousness. I smell their fear. I sense their desperation. I see weakness. Existing on the leading edge of the expansion of consciousness is such a trying, yet beautiful thing. Every moment I am on the threshold of something that has yet to be, and I can influence its manifestation. So to answer the question of “what next?”. The answer may very well be just about “anything I fucking want”, it seems. They may be able to slow me down, but I am now motivated by something deep within. It animates my physical form. It drags me out of bed before sunrise and now shows me what I need to see. My higher unconscious self is rising from within and I am no longer reluctant to let it be. Satori?

Thank you…