Journal: Noisy

It seems as though a year has passed since my last post. After discovering that I am an introverted empath with the abilities to feel the emotions of others, feeling the physical maladies of people in close proximity to my conscious reality, smell odors from nonexistent sources (clairalience – usually associated with thoughts as if a response from a specific entity or possibly phantosmia), as well as the ability to see disembodied or dimensional entities (as shadows, orbs and transparent patterns specific to a particular entity), daydreams – when I close my eyes I enter a semi-dream like experience. All of the aforementioned experiences have taken on a rather noisy conscious atmosphere. I recently discovered I am also able to hear sounds from within my home that no one else can hear and sometimes I can go outside to confirm (that I am not delusional) the sound actually exists; I can hear it in the distance and find the source. I am also hearing sounds that I cannot confirm to be of this earthly plane; spooky actions at a distance (pounding on a wall or something hitting the floor).

I recently spent some time in the company of some elderly people and on that specific occasion I suffered from short term memory loss. I had difficulty remembering words and events that had just occurred. It was as if I had dementia, but after leaving the elderly the symptoms subsided. It seems to occur only at specific times with specific groups of people.

I have been spending a good deal of time attempting to remove entities from my home and conscious/unconscious realities. Most of my research has indicated that the entities are attracted to me because I am aware of their presence. I am, and have been overwhelmed to the point of exhaustion in this task because they are persistent, reluctant and mostly negative.

The closest experience that I am able to compare all the above to would be a psychedelic experience. It is when the filters that your mind uses to make our reality bearable are removed by a psychedelic drug and everything in your immediate environment can be sensed. This seems to be the uncomfortable part of the changes that I foresaw. I am beside myself, thinking about so many empaths that are unaware of their abilities and have been diagnosed as insane. The majority of my life I have thought that my experiences were typical human experiences in this reality, mine are not even close. I now have to consider if I am capable of projecting my thoughts and emotions to others around me. This would explain my perception that certain others can hear my thoughts, and or perceive my emotions (projection of emotional baggage, parasitic entities, etc, – as I have encountered in the past when someone enters my immediate environment and takes a step back as if they ran into my aura) and people become uncomfortable around me as I am am often uncomfortable around others (typical consequence of an introverted empath).

I am grateful that I am able to understand and adapt to my evolving empathic abilities. The only comfort I am able to salvage at this time is that there is a underlying feeling of peace and quiet. It is unshakable. It anchors my conscious and unconscious realities no matter how turbulent those realities are perceived on the surface. Much like gravity it is a constant force that is the foundation of my existence. I like to believe that it is my higher self anchored to the whole of consciousness within the eye of the storm that seems to be my reality at the moment.

More to come…

edited on 09.07.19

Journal: Gray Jacket

New Moon 0.5 days, Aries – Fire. Time 05:15, planet hours: Moon.

At 05:15 p.m., as I was preparing dinner I saw a Jinn, spirit, or entity standing in, or moving by, the doorway of the kitchen. I saw him out of the periphery of my vision. What struck me about this incident is that there was a lingering image of the entity still in my memory. I saw a distinct medium gray jacket and what looked like gold piping or a zipper. I could only see the right side of his body, pants color was faint, but I could not see his face.

What accompanied the incident was a hair raising level of energy. My skin felt like is was crackling. When I encounter these entities I usually get goosebumps, but this was another level of tactile excitement.

I still can still see the image in my memory. This was an unconscious dream level experience. I have this strange feeling that I have seen him before, maybe in one of my unconscious travels. I was definitely shaken by this event.


Update: 04.06.19 – I am still trying to interpret the encounter with the entity. What I find interesting, in that it seems difficult to understand, why was the gray jacket a significant remnant of the experience? Was the encounter accidental (did I catch him passing through) or intentional (he wanted me to see him)? Past experiences were mostly associated with orbs of light or something that resembles deep black smoke. and or a dark transparent object seemingly crawling (scampering) across the floor.

Although the incident was not negative, I did have some discomfort and fatigue later while cooking. The symptoms were familiar, but I never associated the symptoms with entities or thought they were associated with my antagonists.

Later that evening I did feel some hair raising sensations as I walked into one particular room. As I moved through the room the sensations increased and as I pressed toward the area of increased sensations, I asked them who they were and what they wanted? No response.

What was it? Why was it wearing modern clothing? Did I catch some kind of entity surveilling me? If yes then this would explain how my antagonist seem to have advanced knowledge of my plans when I go about my life.

Journal: Under Attack

Moon waxing crescent 7.7 days, Cancer – Water. Time 13:35, planet hours: Jupiter.

I am currently under a significant Dark Arts attack. I am having difficulty thinking and some motor functions are effected. I am allowing this to happen and not doing any attempt to protect myself. In fact I am getting ready to run an errand to completely expose myself to anything my antagonists can do to end this (me).

The energy is dark right now during the first quarter of the lunar cycle (March 14 12:25-13:21 March 15). This is the opportune time for them to attack. They usually do so during this window, but this is attack is fairly significant.

This is in response to some significant steps I have taken to restore my energy levels (life force). Before the attacks started, I never felt better and feel similar to when the attacks began in Hawaii in 2011. I have been defiant and provoking them since earlier in the day and yet I am still here. I am ready to test my beliefs and hoping that they will facilitate my transition.

Check back later for updates to this post to see if I survive this…

Spoiler Alert: Due to the inept abilities of my antagonists (Jinn), I am probably not going anywhere… 


Update: Nothing happened. The usual feckless suspects (minions) were out about keeping track of my coming and going, but nothing significant. I must admit I am a little disappointed.

Let me provide some info that has occurred in the past couple of days. I have been experimenting with a device that I revisited from some years ago. I did so after my intuition (subconscious or higher self) reminded me of something I did with a coil and sound files. I started to use the device and found that they were helpful. I began to use the device on my energy centers (meridians) and was able to improve the flow of energy within my body. With further work I found that my antagonists were causing a disruption in the flow of energy while I was unconscious (vulnerable), something that I have written about here in the past. I was able to use the device to counter the attacks while I was unconscious over the past couple of days using newly discovered frequencies.

As I was experimenting I discovered that my dreams were unobstructed and I was able to remember them the next morning. I was feeling better waking upon sunrise and I noticed that my antagonists were beginning to increase their attacks as I continued to gain energy. Yesterday, Wednesday, I woke up feeling as if I had a low energy partied all night kind of hangover. I was drained (part of their attempt to keep me from rising with the sun), but I was able to counter the effects with my device. Last night I deployed a set of frequencies (chord) to the device and used it throughout the night and morning. I had fun and enlightening dreams and when I woke up I was happy and energetic still in the glow of the dreams I experienced. It felt like I was on fire, so to speak, in a very good way. I used the frequencies on my energy meridians and the flow of energy increased. It felt like I unclogged a drain pipe. Later this morning, I was dancing for no reason (something they used to punish me for when I was in Hawaii).

Then the attacks began and they were of the type that feel like my life force was being drained. I recognized that feeling from when I was attacked in Southern California and then again in Hawaii. So, I decided to use the opportunity to see how far they would go, and began to provoke them to try harder. They did, but in the end it was ineffective. This is the second time I dared them to take my life and they backed off. I wanted them to facilitate my transition to another level of consciousness other than this one, and that did not happen. So, I am still here (wherever that is).

These parasites of consciousness are inept bullies. Once you figure out their modes of operation they are nothing but a pesky annoyance, constantly meddling in your life. I am preparing to present my latest experiences with the entities I now call Jinn and their feckless minions in the next post. I have a feeling they are enjoying this almost as much as I am.

Vibrational frequency is everything…

Time to level up.

Para Consciousness

Nothing exists (that is known) in isolation. Everything in existence either feeds upon something or something feeds upon it. In our physical reality it can be witnessed in our daily lives and actions. We refer to this as the circle of life, but there is much more afoot than we allow ourselves to realize. At the macro level we are at the top of the food chain and we are dependent upon plants and animals for our sustenance. We farm, hunt and process our food to be sold and distributed in order to sustain our life. It is the natural physical reality that offers evidence that we are able to witness how the natural world sustains itself and ourselves.

So if nothing exists in isolation, then what feeds upon us? At the micro level , thanks to technological advancements in microscopes, we know of the existence of bacteria and microscopic life that are important, if not, critical to our physical world. We are dependent upon bacteria living in our gastrointestinal tract to consume food that we consume. The bacteria consume soluble fiber, sugars and other substances then excrete chemicals that are essential to our biological processes. This symbiotic relationship exists in many forms throughout this physical existence.

We are also aware of detrimental biological processes that occur due to the existence of microorganisms that can bring about illness and death. I read an article in Wired magazine back in the late 90s where a microbiologist went into detail describing the war that we are waging against detrimental microorganisms. He stated that humanity has been engaged in this war throughout history and we dance along the very fine line of being overtaken by the microscopic creatures. In the eyes of a microbiologist bacteria are the dominant species of life in our physical reality. Microorganisms outnumber humans on an enormous scale as each human is host to billions of bacteria living on the exterior and interior of our bodies and even in our blood and lymphatic system.

In my life experience there has been one particular point of focus. I did not realize the importance of this conscious and unconscious focus until recently. Throughout my life the image of parasitic worms seemed to demand my attention and occurred often enough for me to maintain a subconscious attention that continues to help understand my conscious relationship with consciousness. There was a time when I thought that I might have some kind of infestation, but that never materialized. I was often puzzled why it continued to garner my attention, but I could not make the connection to why the imagery was important. Until I applied the physical paradigm of the conscious reality to the unconscious reality of our nonphysical existence.

As it is above so it is below, and as it is below so it is above. This axiom can be applied to heaven and earth, conscious and unconscious as well as the infinite levels in between; at any level of consciousness there is always a higher level and a lower level. We know people who are capable of feeding upon another person’s energy. There is a name that is given to those that are capable of doing this, some call them vampires. These people are capable of sucking the life out of another person whether it is intentional of otherwise. There are also people that are capable of providing energy to others in order to bring about a sense of well-being. The presence of certain individuals can manifest a higher level of existence to others in their orbit. We often refer to these people as spiritual or holy.

Where are we in the circle of the unconscious life and existence?  Physically we feed upon the material vibrational energy of plants and animals, but do we feed upon the nonphysical vibrational energy of entities that exist in our unseen orbit? Although I cannot provide any evidence of this yet, I would venture to say that this is so. I do know that nonphysical entities are capable of feeding upon my physical and nonphysical vibrational energies. The battle I wage on a daily basis is to keep these nonphysical, and possibly dimensional parasites from doing intentional, or possibly, unintentional harm. As with physical parasites there are natural and synthetic antibiotics and in the nonphysical realm there are means to provide protection from these creatures and entities of the nonphysical varieties as well.

– Environment –

All things exist in an environment. The bacteria in your gut exist and proliferate because of an environment that is conducive to their life. If the environment is hostile and the organism is capable of altering the environment, its activity will bring about an environment that is favorable to sustain its life or the life of its offspring. This can be both beneficial and detrimental to the host. We see this in parasitic organisms that alter the behavior of hosts in order to transfer the colony to, or infect, other potential hosts. We see this in the behavior of humans that change the environment to be conducive to their particular lifestyle and or culture. Historically we can find evidence that the activity of humanity has not always been beneficial for humanity itself or the host we inhabit called earth or Gia.

At the foundation of all environmental conditions we can point to its vibrational component. Rudimentary studies of plants and their environments have shown that particular types of music can affect plant growth. The vibrational signature of water can affect plants, animals and possibly other aspects of the unseen environment. There is even the orbit of planets and natural satellites that can affect the vibrational environment of this earth and its inhabitants; gravity as a vibration (research theory of Bumblebee using its wings to create a anti-gravitational vibration to manifest flight).

Our brain is an electrical instrument that is capable of detecting vibrations within and environment. We know this because we can interpret vibrational characteristics of an environment with our emotions. Walk into an ancient cathedral and you can feel, emotionally, the vibrational component of the architecture. Color vibration can alter the behavior of animals due to its vibrational component regardless of the ability to see colors. And, we know this because of how color is used, by plants and animals as a means of attraction and protection. Symbols are vibrational images, and constructs, that can transmit meaning; semiotics is the study of symbols. Words are symbols for sound. And, sound is a physical vibrational component that has far-reaching aspects that are often overlooked or remain undiscovered; such as Om..

As a targeted individual I have been subject to electromagnetic vibrations that have altered my state of well-being. I have survived these attacks by using counteractive electromagnetic vibrations and or using various shielding methods. I have endured psychic attacks and have employed various dark art defensive tactics that use sound and physical symbols and gestures as well as meditation. The most effective means of protection is in the creation of a vibrational environment that is beneficial for myself and detrimental to non-beneficial vibrations and entities. What I have recently discovered is when I leave my protected environment I am abruptly confronted with the vibrational environment of our suburbs and cities, and their detrimental affects on my well being.

What I am beginning to see is that our environment is being altered in a manner that seems to support characteristics that are a detriment not only physically (climate change), but possibly creating an opening for nonphysical entities that could be a detriment to the well-being of us all. If you would like to test this for yourself, go to an isolated natural environment, take off your shoes and stand barefoot on the earth or on the banks of a free-flowing river. You will begin to experience sympathetic resonance to the natural environment and you will recognize your natural state of being. Surfers are aware of the withdrawals they suffer when the surf is flat and they are unable to recharge , so to speak. It is not the act of surfing itself, it is the environmental vibrational component that they crave. It is why dolphins surf and why pelicans fly in front of a breaking wave. It is the vibrational energy that is being released and effecting all things within that environment.

Our cities and suburbs are unnatural environments. These man-made environments consist of a combination of beneficial and detrimental vibrational components. Electromagnetic vibrations from computer technology, electrical grids, wireless communications as well as the poorly devised infrastructure contribute to the detriment to our current human condition.

– Para Consciousness –

We must begin to realize that we are not only an inhabitant of this physical reality, but we also inhabit consciousness as a whole. As science begins to entertain the nature of our multidimensional universe, as the catch up to eastern philosophical interpretations of the infinite possible constructs of the whole of consciousness we will begin to see a connection between this physical reality and the nonphysical entities and realities that occupy the same space.

We have plenty of religious text that claim historical records of actual events regarding Gods, demigods, demons/angels and other spiritual entities that exist. And, while 80-90 percent of the world’s population believes in a God or Gods it is difficult to refute that these spiritual beings exist at all. Spiritual beings are so pervasive in our history that without them there would probably be very little need for our spiritual mythology.

As I continue down the rabbit hole of consciousness, I am finding that there exists a physical and nonphysical reality that exists beyond the periphery of our capable vision. I have seen people vanish around a corner without a doorway or exit in sight. I have seen the black smoke type apparitions associated with the demons or Jinn. I was tormented by a black shadowy figure with a hat in my dreams. I am in communication with entities on a daily basis and warned of particular detrimental choices. I have seen orbs and have received information or actual items presented to me in times of need. But, I have also discovered that the vibration of your current physical and nonphysical form can be manipulated to control your existence on a particular level of reality. What I have often referred to as a yo-yo affect of changing level of consciousness regards my attempt to ascend and the existence of other nonphysical entities to keep me from my quest for ascension.

My interpretation of what I experience begins to verify that there exist a para-conscious reality that exists between the conscious and unconscious realities that we inhabit. It may very well be that these entities are very much like us, but they have mastered their conscious and unconscious existence and have the ability to influence and control this existence and all those that inhabit it. What is at the crux of their control and influence is our sympathetic frequency that we share with them.

This reality is rife with depression, violence, conflict, and general dissatisfaction and it has been designed this way to continue the and increase the influence and control. I know this because that I am capable of elevating my vibrational signature and when I do so I experience a very different, somewhat peaceful, alternate conscious reality until that vibrational signature is countered. I have also recently determined that most of my aches and maladies are caused by unconscious entities from the para-conscious, and can be relieved by a thought or changing the vibrational frequency of the ailing part of my physical and nonphysical self with plant extracts via vaporization (smoke), direct application and ingestion.

I am confident in my methods that when I routinely experience these attempts at influence and control I can counter the effects and go about my life without worry. What is concerning is that my view is not shared with the majority of people who are part of my conscious experience. I see when people are under the influence of unseen entities. I can see when I am being influenced and when this happens the best defense is the realization that my actions are not my own. Once I turn my inner eye towards the source and focus my attention on the influence it will always subside. In a world full of unnecessary distractions remaining attentive to you thoughts and emotions is difficult and for some impossible.

This (our) reality is far more mysterious than we allow ourselves to experience and even when we experience something para-normal we dismiss it altogether, but when we experience a holy para-normal event people will travel vast distances to witness the mystery. There is so much happening right in front of us and when you allow yourself to acknowledge these para-normal events they will begin to become more abundant and very normal day-to-day events. And, as witness these para-conscious events and focus out attention on them benevolent events will increase and negative detrimental events will subside. I think I read a passage that said to have been written by Jesus (cannot find it now) where he stated that being attentive to you thoughts and actions was important in ones spiritual endeavors. That would be a great place to start in order to combat any influence and control from our unseen environment of the unconscious.

 

Lunatic Fringe

full_moon_over_fieldAfter logging the attacks (psychic and possibly electronic) that I endure on a daily basis I have discovered a pattern. I have in the past stated that the attacks seem to be on a computer automated system because they seem to occur at the same time during the day (while under attack in Hawaii I even thought they were associated with the setting sun). This notion was supported by bloggers and comments from people like myself trying to understand the attacks and their origin.

I have recently discovered that the automated nature of the attacks correlate with moon rise and moon set, for a given geographical location. The attacks begin slightly before moon rise and dissipate after the moon sets. Another noticeable aspect of the attacks is that the intensity increases during the new moon lunar phase. I cannot begin to speculate as to why this is the case. There is a deep rabbit hole one can go down regarding the earth’s only natural satellite, and of course the possibilities that it is a base for extraterrestrial entities is well disseminated online, but I just do not know. What I have observed is how lunar phases effect and even define my conscious environment and much of that is still under constant scrutiny. I can argue that the effects of lunar phases has been well documented throughout history and spans many different cultures in how they conduct business and also used in past and current agricultural practices, as well as, astrology and Magik. The moon’s energy has significant effects upon plant and animal life as well as the gravitational power to effect ocean tides, so there is a possibility that the energy could also be harnessed by those that have mastered consciousness.

This may or may not be associated with the kind of psychic attacks that are perpetrated, by close proximity to myself, by entities that physically inhabit this level of consciousness. I am not exposed to these beings or people on a daily basis, but I will need to log these seemingly random attacks to see if they are associated with any lunar activity. Although, there was one, more remarkable, attack that occurred on a day where the energy favored negative dark art activity (I ignored the warning), but I cannot remember the lunar phase for that event.

Information concerning the moon’s position, rise and set is readily available online and even on smartphone apps. The moon has been a significant element in my past life (a subject of a significant dream during childhood) and continues to become an important body as my current conscious (awake) experiences continue to evolve. I currently believe that most attacks are done to primarily diminish a target’s energy to disrupt their unconscious (sleep, dream) activity. Activity during our time in the unconscious realm may be more significant than we are currently able to understand. I have found that dreams that I have after sunrise are significantly different and affect my conscious environment in not so positive ways. Rising with the sun is an important and beneficial habit. Still more questions than answers.

Journal: Transition Transmission

Moon waning crescent 26.1 days, Virgo – Earth. Time 01:01, planet hours: Venus.

Just a quick post regarding this current transitional phase I seem to be going through.

There has been a good deal of paranormal activity around my home. One incident was witnessed by another family member. Other instances I am reluctant to explain at this time.

I seem to be in a state of flux, I feel as if I am between two different opposing states of being. It feels like being stuck between two radio stations, one playing new age music and the other playing death metal.

I am having dreams about funeral like gatherings. There seems to be a certain amount of contention between the people who are attending. The contention arises during prayer like activities. All are dressed in formal attire from a distant past, but also some that are dressed in more contemporary attire.

I cannot watch the news nor any movies. I am finding it difficult to be interested in anything right now.

Spooky actions at a distance are still evident. It feels as if a big ripple is coming. This transition feels ominous, but necessary.

Update: Concerning my realization of Empathic Psychic abilities, there has been an increase in experiences that I am having. At this time I do not know why there has been an increase in activity. It may be due to my new awareness, or that I am purposefully attempting to acknowledge those entities as I believe to encounter them. Or, because I am now more aware and accepting, these entities are being more active – I just can’t be sure. Some experiences give me pause, because they are well outside my current frame of reference, I struggle with what I think I am perceiving. I even struggle with describing what I think I see.

Journal: Glamor

I often stray away from political overtures because they are just as false as the reality we are all experiencing. I have been rereading Robert Bruce’s “The Practical Psychic Self Defense Handbook” and the following paragraph provided an explanation concerning the persona of a current notorious American politician.

Negs have the ability to shield their true energies and identities. This masking is like a glamor. Glamor is a field of intention energy that hides the truth. Glamor around a living human changes how they are perceived by others. Glamor can make an old and unattractive person look young and desirable. It can also cause nice, young, attractive persons to appear as being old and unattractive, or repulsive. Negs use glamor extensively to fool human psychics. A Neg spirit will often, for example, present itself as a sweet lost child. Psychics and clairvoyants will perceive the Neg as such and feel sympathetic towards the spirit. Negs are notorious deceivers and liars. People overshadowed or possessed by Negs will also often have a glamor around them. Negs also punish and isolate people by projecting around them a field of glamor that irritates and repels other people.

I often wonder how a person with such a uniquely despicable character have a following. I watch how people fall into a kind of trance once they spend time with them. I watch as people that were once critical suddenly change their mind and become an ally. The above paragraph provides an explanation to what I observe with this particular person especially the aspect of being “notorious deceivers and liars”. This politician behaves as if he has made a ‘deal’ with a negative entity.

What Negs can do to a person is limited by the level of permission they have obtained. Permission and agreements relate to the free will of individuals. The higher self will sometimes adjust a person’s natural shields and defenses to allow a Neg influence or invasion, if this has been requested by that person or is required by that person’s higher self.

The first quoted paragraph also explains what I have posted in the past. I refer to them as “the others” because I can sense them from a bout 300 feet, more or less, and they have an overtly attractive air about them even though they have average to below average physical characteristics.