Journal: Public Theater

Last Quarter 21.8 days, Aquarius – Air. Time 10:30, planet hours: Saturn

I am the center of my conscious universe and now it seems I have an audience. One particular experience with Salvia Divinorum, I had some time ago, hinted that I was being watched by some entities during a psychedelic session. I came out of the salvia realm and did something that was not appreciated by the entities that were present. I knew this because I distinctly heard (in my head, akin to audible hallucinations) a chorus of “Ewww” from what sounded like young female voices. That experience gave me the notion that I was being observed from an unseen level of consciousness. Because the experience did not happen too frequently I soon forgot about it.

Experiences of being observed from the unseen became more frequent during my time in Hawaii. Actually hearing the voices or thoughts of others, replying through psychic means, then receiving a response was unnerving; to the point of me questioning my sanity. The first significant attacks happened shortly after I replied, speaking the words, “I can hear you”, while in my apartment. There also was a young woman that worked at a sporting goods store in Honolulu. We were attracted to each other always acted pleasant toward each other and when I would come into the store she would seem to come out of the back and relieve the cashier. The last time I saw her was when she was helping me buy something and I had noticed that her breasts were small and I thought the words “no tits” (please excuse the vulgarity). Right after I thought those words she went cold, she would not look me in the eyes and she was curt in her goodbye. I almost thought I may have said the words out loud. I have had many other experiences since then that have changed my frame of reference enough to accept these experiences as my new para-normal.

After the gray jacket entity sashay’d passed the doorway. It has affected a profound change in the manner in which I frame my reality. Now, it seems that because I have become more aware of the unseen conscious realms and those that inhabit those realms my interactions are more frequent. It make senses that this is now happening. Imagine that you can enter a realm where the inhabitants are unaware of your presence. You try to interact with them but they do not respond. You might become surprised when they do respond and even increase your interaction to develop a relationship. It is possible that they now, also, believe that I am ready to accept their existence in my conscious reality, or…

For whatever reason that this is happening now, it feels like the next step in my evolution of acceptance. It has had some major changes in how I relate to the concept of privacy and, more importantly, how much influence these entities have on my conscious reality. I am currently attempting to establish trust and excusing my rather daft responses. I also seem to question my sanity more often than in the past, I hope to continue to do so.

I am starting to track the para-normal activity within the lunar cycles that influence so much in this physical realm; so far the new to full portion is most active. I see them in the periphery of my visual field. I dismiss most of what I see unless there is some kind of electrical (energetic – goose bump) response. I know when they are present, I seemingly robotic, walk towards them in the house. The electrical reaction increases as I get close. As unnerving as this may seem to some, it has taken a very long time to get here. I still wonder about what is still to come. What will I be able to experience then? Will I be ready?

I have to admit I’m feeling ‘a bit like Alice, tumbling down the rabbit hole’. There is no turning back once you have gone this far down. Unlike Alice, Dorothy found her way back to Kansas from Oz, for me their is no more Kansas, just an eternity of infinite possibilities. And, a lot of new friends, so to speak.

I am what I am. And, I thank the Gods that I am…

 

Journal: Gray Jacket

New Moon 0.5 days, Aries – Fire. Time 05:15, planet hours: Moon.

At 05:15 p.m., as I was preparing dinner I saw a Jinn, spirit, or entity standing in, or moving by, the doorway of the kitchen. I saw him out of the periphery of my vision. What struck me about this incident is that there was a lingering image of the entity still in my memory. I saw a distinct medium gray jacket and what looked like gold piping or a zipper. I could only see the right side of his body, pants color was faint, but I could not see his face.

What accompanied the incident was a hair raising level of energy. My skin felt like is was crackling. When I encounter these entities I usually get goosebumps, but this was another level of tactile excitement.

I still can still see the image in my memory. This was an unconscious dream level experience. I have this strange feeling that I have seen him before, maybe in one of my unconscious travels. I was definitely shaken by this event.


Update: 04.06.19 – I am still trying to interpret the encounter with the entity. What I find interesting, in that it seems difficult to understand, why was the gray jacket a significant remnant of the experience? Was the encounter accidental (did I catch him passing through) or intentional (he wanted me to see him)? Past experiences were mostly associated with orbs of light or something that resembles deep black smoke. and or a dark transparent object seemingly crawling (scampering) across the floor.

Although the incident was not negative, I did have some discomfort and fatigue later while cooking. The symptoms were familiar, but I never associated the symptoms with entities or thought they were associated with my antagonists.

Later that evening I did feel some hair raising sensations as I walked into one particular room. As I moved through the room the sensations increased and as I pressed toward the area of increased sensations, I asked them who they were and what they wanted? No response.

What was it? Why was it wearing modern clothing? Did I catch some kind of entity surveilling me? If yes then this would explain how my antagonist seem to have advanced knowledge of my plans when I go about my life.

Journal: Under Attack

Moon waxing crescent 7.7 days, Cancer – Water. Time 13:35, planet hours: Jupiter.

I am currently under a significant Dark Arts attack. I am having difficulty thinking and some motor functions are effected. I am allowing this to happen and not doing any attempt to protect myself. In fact I am getting ready to run an errand to completely expose myself to anything my antagonists can do to end this (me).

The energy is dark right now during the first quarter of the lunar cycle (March 14 12:25-13:21 March 15). This is the opportune time for them to attack. They usually do so during this window, but this is attack is fairly significant.

This is in response to some significant steps I have taken to restore my energy levels (life force). Before the attacks started, I never felt better and feel similar to when the attacks began in Hawaii in 2011. I have been defiant and provoking them since earlier in the day and yet I am still here. I am ready to test my beliefs and hoping that they will facilitate my transition.

Check back later for updates to this post to see if I survive this…

Spoiler Alert: Due to the inept abilities of my antagonists (Jinn), I am probably not going anywhere… 


Update: Nothing happened. The usual feckless suspects (minions) were out about keeping track of my coming and going, but nothing significant. I must admit I am a little disappointed.

Let me provide some info that has occurred in the past couple of days. I have been experimenting with a device that I revisited from some years ago. I did so after my intuition (subconscious or higher self) reminded me of something I did with a coil and sound files. I started to use the device and found that they were helpful. I began to use the device on my energy centers (meridians) and was able to improve the flow of energy within my body. With further work I found that my antagonists were causing a disruption in the flow of energy while I was unconscious (vulnerable), something that I have written about here in the past. I was able to use the device to counter the attacks while I was unconscious over the past couple of days using newly discovered frequencies.

As I was experimenting I discovered that my dreams were unobstructed and I was able to remember them the next morning. I was feeling better waking upon sunrise and I noticed that my antagonists were beginning to increase their attacks as I continued to gain energy. Yesterday, Wednesday, I woke up feeling as if I had a low energy partied all night kind of hangover. I was drained (part of their attempt to keep me from rising with the sun), but I was able to counter the effects with my device. Last night I deployed a set of frequencies (chord) to the device and used it throughout the night and morning. I had fun and enlightening dreams and when I woke up I was happy and energetic still in the glow of the dreams I experienced. It felt like I was on fire, so to speak, in a very good way. I used the frequencies on my energy meridians and the flow of energy increased. It felt like I unclogged a drain pipe. Later this morning, I was dancing for no reason (something they used to punish me for when I was in Hawaii).

Then the attacks began and they were of the type that feel like my life force was being drained. I recognized that feeling from when I was attacked in Southern California and then again in Hawaii. So, I decided to use the opportunity to see how far they would go, and began to provoke them to try harder. They did, but in the end it was ineffective. This is the second time I dared them to take my life and they backed off. I wanted them to facilitate my transition to another level of consciousness other than this one, and that did not happen. So, I am still here (wherever that is).

These parasites of consciousness are inept bullies. Once you figure out their modes of operation they are nothing but a pesky annoyance, constantly meddling in your life. I am preparing to present my latest experiences with the entities I now call Jinn and their feckless minions in the next post. I have a feeling they are enjoying this almost as much as I am.

Vibrational frequency is everything…

Time to level up.