Journal: Perfection

Moon waning crescent 25.4 days, Libra – Air. Time 00:03, planet hours: Saturn.

My belief that everything has meaning, and all things are the way the should be continues to grow in strength. Faith is a word that has been echoing throughout my intuition. Whenever I feel impatient, chaotic and confused I am reminded to have faith. Nothing is wasted, all actions have purpose regardless of our judgement. Abraham is correct, faith occurs when you accept the law of attraction within the whole of consciousness. That which is delegated to consciousness will become…

There is only the order of consciousness, chaos only exists for those that are unable to understand this. Within this artificial system of existence there are increasing levels of complexity, but at the root is the ever expanding foundation of consciousness. The whole of consciousness is the substrate to which we are anchored, there is no other way. Consciousness is pervasive. Consciousness is consistent. Consciousness is perfection.

Journal: Sources

Moon waxing gibbous 3.1 days, Capricorn – Earth. Time 13:52, planet hours: Jupiter.

I encountered an attack recently. The manner in which I was able to defend against the attack is an important aspect of the experience. I am always torn between posting these descriptions of attacks because I do not want to reveal too much, but I do want to inform others of what they can do themselves.

I went to do something that my antagonists did not want me to do. I know this because of the attacks I endured in order to prepare for what I wanted to accomplish. The attack was familiar. I remember that it felt like other similar attacks from my past and assumed that it was from a physical device being used by someone nearby. I wondered if I should leave the area, but I thought to use defensive of dark art techniques from Robert Bruce’s book. After applying the defensive technique the attack ended.

The source of the attack was probably not a physical device. The source is something I do not yet understand, and for the most part, it seems like magic. I marveled at my new found ability to defend myself when out in public and because of the knowledge from Bruce’s book I was able to accomplished what I set out to do. When I returned home I was buzzing with a kind of artificial energy, and now I wonder about the source. Could it have been a physical weapon, but I was able to defend myself regardless of the source? Was the weapon still focused on me but, I was protected in some way? If so, it explains the curious onlooker that looked puzzled as to why I was still there.

This latest experience brings into question, again, the nature of this conscious physical reality. It speaks to the latent abilities we posses that allow us to do extraordinary things that are not so different from the extraordinary things we are able to accomplish in our unconscious dream reality.

There is so much I want to share in regards to my recent revelation, but I am withholding my experiences for now until I am better able to communicate them.

Journal: Foreign Affairs

Moon waning crescent 28.3 days, Cancer – Water. Time 01:30, planet hours: Mars.

I am feeling a bit gnostic today. My conscious environment is starting to feel foreign to me, in a kind of artificial and somewhat superficial manner.

Something flittering in the distance just within the limits of sight and consciousness has my attention, but it won’t let me see what it is.

Journal: Acceptance

Is the goal of enlightenment to prepare you for immortality? I wonder how many times have I lived a life, like this one. How many times I have died, but then woke up, or just transitioned into continuing to do whatever I was doing at that moment. Reference one of those moments when I said “I thought I was gonna die”. What if, this (right here, right now) was it. A perpetual dream. When you get better at life, at ‘it’, you start to ascend to higher states of consciousness until you begin to realize that your life will never end, ever… You then begin to realize that you will continue to transition, evolve and expand in ways that are not yet possible to conceive, ad infinitum.

We perceive of opposites, but what we actually perceive is varying degrees of a single thing. Hot & cold is just varying degrees of heat (energy). So, does enlightenment exist because of a perceived opposite? But, what is its opposite? Is it the human condition? Why does the concept of enlightenment even exist? Why do we feel a need to pursue it? If you where to realize that this was ‘it’ and you could ascend to higher states of consciousness (right here, right now), without waiting for salvation or some grand awakening, would you do it? Are you ready? Heaven and Hell are opposites, but of what one thing? Varying degrees of happiness? Are both eternal or temporal? Do varying degrees of conscious states exist between them or within them? Am I currently closer to Heaven or to Hell? I guess that depends upon the moment and that can change dramatically in a matter of seconds. So, if I can move from Heaven to Hell form one moment to the next then they must not exist linearly, like a journey from one place to the next. Heaven and Hell must exist simultaneously within the whole of  consciousness equally accessible at any moment (non-locality, right here, right now) dependent upon varying states and levels of consciousness and your place within it.

When you become enlightened, do you begin to accept that you are an immortal unconscious being within this perpetual dream? Seeing things as they are, accepting them and knowing that it will end, and in the end, you will transition and begin again. How would this change in conscious perceptions frame your conscious environment? Such a realization would change how I would live my life, for the remainder of my immortality. You may also want to sprinkle in a little law of attraction and you may begin to transition, evolve and expand in ways that are not yet possible to conceive.

The Banach–Tarski Paradox

Interesting video on a mathematical paradox. Give it a chance and try to understand what Michael Stevens – Vsauce is presenting. Videos (information) like this are a kind of mental exercise. Where concepts are thrown at your brain and the act of following and incorporating new information stimulates existing synapse and possibly creating new ones. The ’cause’ will present an unimaginable ‘effect’ some time in the not so distant future. Like planting a seed of unknown origin and waiting to see what will start to grow.

Consciousness is infinite. It forever was and it forever will be… If you want to grasp the concept of consciousness you may want to try to understand the infinite. And the above paradox may aid in that understanding. I think it is a healthy practice to poke a stick at the edges of your current understanding of this reality. Start by gently prodding before the first initial jab, works best.

Time: 20:41 – Our physical reality and our physical bodies (conscious selves) are finite. Our reality is subject to constant change, transformation and evolution. Our unconscious selves are just as infinite as the whole of consciousness. I agree with Michael in that the only weirdness is our current existence within our conscious universe. The gnostics would agree that our place here is unnatural. It helps us to understand why we feel separate from our (un)conscious reality and from one another. No worries, when it comes to the end of our finite existence we will once again be able to grasp the infinite.

That separation makes this reality seem like being locked in a cage (prison) sometimes. I remember how that used to feel.

Despite all my rage, I’m still just a rat in a cage.

Now it seems, it was a prison (cage) of my own making…

Journal: Underwhelmed

What is it I see? Too much of everything has become unimportant. Overwhelming exposure to so much that offers nothing in return. Where have those things that provide consciousness with sustenance gone to?

I see the motion driven by the system, but I struggle to find the purpose. Progress without purpose, with ever increasing complexity there is very little left to salvage.

I am underwhelmed by the chaos. I have pushed the noise of that which has little meaning, of this existence, deep into the overtly abundant cracks and recesses. And I now face something else entirely.

I now see something different in everything I see. It lies just beyond what my conscious mind can interpret, just beyond my reach. And, as this thought forms in my mind, I cannot tell if I am chasing it or it is chasing me.