Journal: In The Beginning…

Moon last quarter 22.1 days, Sagittarius – Fire. Time 06:45, planet hours: Mars.

As I try and wrap my head around the infinite, I find my intellect being drawn to it, focused upon it. I often tell myself that “in the beginning there was consciousness”, but as I stated this morning it I knew that it could no longer be correct. Within the entirety of an infinite consciousness a “beginning” cannot exist.

It forever is, it forever was, and forever will be…

Journal: Foreign Affairs

Moon waning crescent 28.3 days, Cancer – Water. Time 01:30, planet hours: Mars.

I am feeling a bit gnostic today. My conscious environment is starting to feel foreign to me, in a kind of artificial and somewhat superficial manner.

Something flittering in the distance just within the limits of sight and consciousness has my attention, but it won’t let me see what it is.

The Mandela Effect

The above video resonated with something within me. I have had many instances where I talked to a member of my family about an event that I thought happened and they stated that they could not remember anything related to my recollection.

I have stated here that I often wonder whether most of what I remember could be a memory from one of my unconscious dreams. Or, has the memory evolved in a way that is not recognizable to others involved, a possibility presented in the video. Robert Bruce states that false mental imagery can be implanted by negative entities, he refers to them as “core images”. There was a time in my life, about 2011, when I started to second guess my memories as well as my conscious experiences related to those memories. I wondered if I was beyond insane.

There is also a theory that the recollection is of an event that actually happened, but did not happen in this current reality, dimension, or parallel reality, but in another. Now this aspect is interesting to me because of my delusional relationship with this reality and my ongoing experiences that indicate that I may not belong here (wherever that may be).

Are we starting to see the true nature of this reality because of the internet (evolving library of shared conscious experiences). Or, are we evolving toward an understanding that multiple levels of consciousness exist (possibly parallel in nature) and that we readily shift into alternate states of consciousness and experience these states as the same one?

Infinite possible states of conscious experiences require that the observer remains unattached to any one reality. Is it our attachment to any aspect of our reality that confines our ability to venture beyond it? The only reality is the one you experience at the current moment. Memories define and confine one’s relationship with the self. It is an interesting notion that your memories may not be about you and your place within this reality, but more about your travels through changing states of consciousness within the whole of consciousness.

Journal: Just Two

I have always read that there were three key aspects to the human experience. They were often referred to as mind, body and spirit. The ‘mind’ together with consciousness, the physical ‘body’ and environment and lastly the ‘spiritual’ connection to everything we experience that we cannot yet understand.

I have whittled it down to two. There is consciousness within the mind and then then the physical body. This is something I have a direct connection with. Consciousness is the stage and I am a physical character upon the stage. There is a definite separation between the two. My current concept struggles with the physical environment as a projection of consciousness, but that is changing.

I find myself leaning more toward an all encompassing concept of consciousness, leaving only one (conscious dreamworld), but until that becomes my dominant mindset, I’ll have to wait. I am perceiving that there is something cast within the shadows and silence of my physical realm that my conscious mind cannot yet grasp. “Like a splinter in your mind”…

The reality that unfolds before me each day is as dynamic and unpredictable as the realities that I encounter while in an unconscious dream during sleep. There is a raw feeling of detachment from both the conscious (waking) and unconscious (sleeping) stages. I find that I am allowing the observer within me to dominate my perceptions more each cycle.

I am more interested in what I cannot see or experience at the moment. Everything else is a relentless constant distraction.