Journal: Unconscious Reality

The differences between the reality of my unconscious dreams and my conscious reality are limited. One aspect that has become increasingly evident is that I am much happier in my unconscious realm.

There are instances where I may be challenged, but I often realize that I am unconscious and start laughing as I wake up. These occurrences are rare and often remind me that I need to apply the same reaction in my conscious reality.

I am convinced that the unconscious and conscious realms are one in the same. Events that occur in one realm affect the other. They are more closely intertwined than we allow ourselves to believe. The importance of remembering the events in the unconscious reality cannot be denied.

Characters within the unconscious reality exist either in a formless conscious state or in a corporeal existence within another level of consciousness where they are able to exist together in an unconscious dream state and also in the conscious waking state as apparitions and or extraordinary anomalous events.

What has become an interesting artifact of my unconscious reality is that verbal communication with other entities rarely occurs. I have had similar experiences within my conscious experiences. I do not always hear words, it is more like intercepting or receiving thoughts. It is similar to how thoughts present themselves coming from an external source; like a kind of divine intervention. The majority of these experiences are proximal. I sometimes have to walk around to find the source as if I was moving my cell phone around to be a better signal.

Recent experiences have caused me to question how I perceive my conscious reality. My attention is focused upon which thoughts are my own and which thoughts are due to crosstalk, interference and possible intentional psychic suggestion (not always positive).

I am reminded of my higher unconscious self that I encountered while under the influence of psilocybin in late 1999. I drew this picture after the session ended.

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My higher unconscious self is my protector, my big brother, my intuition, my sensei, guru and anything similar. What has become increasingly notable is that my unconscious self, being greater than my physical self, has evolved to a point where I (it) can reach back into my current conscious experience and influence and interfere when necessary. The ‘guardian angel’ may very well be a person’s higher unconscious self. I am now better able to differentiate between external (outside of the self) thoughts (thought forms) and those that occur from my greater unconscious self. One particular element is the emotional component of the thought form, coming from the greater unconscious, just feels better.

There are many views and beliefs regarding targeted individuals, mind control and alien agendas and the like. I have no physical evidence that may prove any theory regarding what I experience in my daily life. I can only try to explain the experiences themselves and what I have discovered to combat or understand these experiences. Recently I have been using ancient techniques to alleviate psychic attacks (I thought they were technologically derived). These counter techniques work very well to my surprise. I must admit that I am a bit dismayed. It seems that the topics of myth and folklore (temporal possession, demonic influence) may have a substantial foothold in this realm of consciousness. My past unexplainable experiences are now better understood with my new-found knowledge. My frame of reference has expanded and has given me greater insight into my daily conscious reality. This conscious reality is extraordinarily phenomenal. I wish I could show people how I see this reality.

Still far too many questions, but far less than a few weeks ago.

Event: I saw a Chinese woman standing next to two friends at a local market yesterday. She stood out from all the other customers. As I walked toward her I felt that familiar connection increase. I saw the expression on her face, she was experiencing the same thing I was and looked at me as if she was caught somewhere she should not be. As I walked past her she looked down. As I turned the corner I looked back at her, she was talking to her friends and her friends were looking at me. They then immediately left the store. I am still trying to understand what is happening during those events (clueless).

Expansion of Consciousness

As I watched this video I could not help thinking about the law of attraction. Aside from “The Secret” and their watered down version of the law of attraction, this video unwittingly does a good job to support the concept.

We are on the leading edge of thought and the expansion of consciousness is our only purpose. At this very moment we exist on the very edge of the now. If you pay attention you can bear witness to the future unfolding before you.

Journal: Enlightenment 1.1

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Meditation is not something that I do anymore, it is something that happens to me. Differing states of mind are natural whether they are induced or influenced by many different internal and external stimuli (built in comparative analysis of our conscious states). Sometimes I struggle to sustain a shallow state of mindlessness and sometimes deep meditative states wash over me at anytime or anyplace. And, when these deep states occur there is usually a message associated with that meditative occurrence.

Today was one of those days in which a deep meditative state occurred. The message concerned my relationship with the concept of enlightenment. Previous notions of enlightenment were overly simplified. One cannot understand what enlightenment is if they are not enlightened, just as people that are blind from birth are unable to understand the concept of color.

What I had hoped for was some sort of rapture. A definitive point in time when I would cross the threshold from the darkness into the light. I was hoping to have an Eckhart Tolle moment of realization, but for me that was not the case. Today I was given and opportunity to see where I was. I was given a snapshot of my relationship with enlightenment.

At this time enlightenment is a never ending process of conscious evolution. In a way enlightenment no longer exists as a definitive state of mind. The battles I fought in pursuit of enlightenment were part of the process. The process, as I now understand it, was never about attaining anything, but more about returning to my innate state of being. If one is seeking purpose then that purpose is the perpetual expansion of consciousness.

We have words that describe a concept of ‘no beginning’ and ‘no end’. One word is infinite. It is difficult to grasp the meaning of the infinite. Even our physicists purport that there exists a beginning to our universe, conceptualized as the “big bang”. In our materialistic world view we experience beginnings and endings, creation and decay, life and death so it is difficult to understand that which is infinite. Today I was given a snapshot of my life and what was a scarred and battered past I am now able to see an infinite expanse of possibilities (conscious immortality).

I have been frustrated and sometimes infuriated with those around me. How can you not see what is right in front of you? “I must be surrounded by idiots” (mostly thought, but rarely spoken). That frustration has prompted self isolation. Lately I have wanted to end my self imposed isolation, but do so gradually so that I won’t be perceived as bipolar. Enlightenment was once described to me as trying to swallow a red hot iron ball, but I never allowed myself to consider the psychological fortitude that was going to be necessary. The analogy of the iron ball was taken literally, not as a metaphor for the painful mental, and eventual, conscious transition(s).

I am certain that my current concept will not persist, it will continue to evolve and expand. The process of enlightenment is to set in motion that which is stagnant. Our existence is not about beginning and endings, it is about transitions. Perpetual conscious evolution awaits. Transient enlightened states are my new normal. My constant state of frustration is being undermined by happiness. I sometimes find myself pushing back against these persistent eruptions of happiness fearing that they may foretell an inevitable slide into insanity. I have been fighting so long that I have forgotten how to allow the very thing I have been fighting for.

I sit here now finding it hard to stop grinning, ready to take another step…

Sounds Familiar

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I was wondering when this sort of thing was going to make it to the mainstream headlines. I guess if you wait long enough all things will make their way into the mainstream, even for just a moment.

State Department spokeswoman Heather Nauert on Wednesday said that

“some US government personnel” working at the US embassy in Havana, Cuba on official duty reported some incidents that were causing “physical symptoms.”

But she could not elaborate on the nature or cause of the incidents.

I feel a bit of relief when I read this article. Although they refuse to elaborate on the character of the “physical symptoms” there are a lot of on-line sources that can better describe the symptoms of these acoustic and electromagnetic weapons.

Since I have been a target (and continue to be a target), I am all to familiar with the physical symptoms from both acoustic and electromagnetic attacks. But, the physical symptoms are not actually the purpose of the use of these weapons, they are primarily designed to disrupt the energy flow of the human body. Most of the energy centers, or meridians, used in Chinese medicine are targeted and changed somewhat like acupuncture can change energy flow in the body. Targeting these energy centers and disrupting the flow of energy to specific areas of the body has the ability to induce illness.

In my case they often target the heart chakra or heart meridian in order to induce a heart attack or stroke. I have recently observed a cell phone used to produce a frequency that could disrupt my heart meridian energy flow. The perpetrator was standing directly behind me holding a cell phone level with my heart. I could feel the effects, but it was not strong enough to cause any significant damage. I just moved away from the perpetrator and the effects subsided. I have also mentioned attacks that I speculate are psychic in nature, but I cannot be certain (that’s what makes these covert attacks impossible to prove).

The kind of attacks that I continue to endure are while I am sleeping. There seems to be a specific purpose to interfere with the nature or content of my unconscious dreams. I am finding ways to prevent this from occurring.


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The Others

I am wondering how this Cuban attack made into the media. This seems to be a rather uncharacteristic exposure and use of what has been a stealth weapon to control and influence targeted individuals. I think that these technologies have made it into the hands of perpetrators that are more like common criminals than intelligent operators.

The landscape of these beings I nave referred to as ‘the others’ has changed significantly. I have gone to certain cities where there were higher concentrations of these people and now I see a lot of empty stores and a lot of homes for sale. Any time I take a relative to the hospital the character of the personnel has changed significantly. I just do not come across them as much as I have in the past. It looks to me that they have left and left behind a tattered organization of incompetent subordinates.

So, where did they go? I have a feeling that they are still ‘here’. As I continue to influence this shared dream within the confines of my own conscious environment and continue to move throughout various levels of consciousness there will not be any level left to hide.

I still often speculate as to why they are afraid of me. It seems to have something more to do with the unconscious than the conscious dreamworld. As I continue to evolve, and disrupt the technologies used against me while I enter the unconscious dreamworld, my dreams have evolved in directions that still seem impossible. My greatest challenge is understanding and interpreting what I experience. The only pitfall of mastering consciousness is that it can be very overwhelming at times. I am grateful that my guides are still patient. It’s somewhat like being a primitive alien in an advanced civilization where everything you know no longer applies.

I am building a new frame of reference and it is interfering with my current one…

I am thankful that it is moving along slowly.

Journal: Notta Care in…

I don’t have a care in the world. This new state of being has been slowly invading my consciousness. I welcome it, but it is a bit unsettling at times.

I have been conditioned to work for what I want so I am a bit beside myself at times. I have to admit that it is difficult to drift in the flow of consciousness in the midst of those that view this conscious reality as finite and physical.

I seem to spend more time waiting for consciousness to respond than taking actions that seem to complicate the process. All things come to those that wait (didn’t mean much before).

Journal: On The Edge

awakeI am now realizing that consciousness is unfolding before me. Everything is happening on the edge of conscious thought. With each step I take conscious expansion accommodates my actions. My interaction is directly related to the choices provided by my conscious experience.

I now see that my current environment was manifested from previous and current thoughts. I can begin to interpret my conscious environment,and those characters within. If there is any question why something has happened, I can reference a particular previous thought or action responsible for that experience.

That which I focus upon is at the edge of my experiences. I am witnessing the whole of consciousness accommodating my thoughts and manifesting them in real time.

I am not good at directing my thoughts to obtain a certain outcome. I have a habit of focusing on undesirable outcomes. That is changing. Once you are able to observe this reality on the edge of thought everything begins to fall into place.

What has caught my attention, again, is the manner in which consciousness is able to accommodate everyone within my conscious reality. I am noticing how a family member can alter my conscious reality; in a way infecting it with their temperament, thoughts and perceptions.  It is overtly fascinating.

Journal: Surfs Up

As I continue to view life as a shared dream, there is this underlying knowing that puts everything into a wildly content perspective.

There are people that understand the true nature of this consciousness and there are varying levels of those that do not. I seem to be lost in between. I spend a lot of my time at, what can be best described as, trying to catch waves of consciousness. When I can catch a wave I cannot yet stay on it.

I can see two layers or levels in this conscious dream a.k.a. life. It looks a lot like a computer ( my frame of reference is saturated with tech ). I can see the operating system as consciousness and I can see individual applications. The applications are people and organizations ( hey, wait this is starting to sound like that Matrix movie ) running under the confines of the operating system. I see successful apps, failing apps and apps that seem to cause a lot of problems ( problems from my new perspective ).

What is beginning to fascinate me most is how they all play off one another. There is a level of dependence also. The classic battle of the opposites. Anarchists cannot exist without the systems of government and their acts are necessary because without it their would be no need for government, nor anarchy.

They all seem to be fighting for energy, but what they have not yet realized is that within consciousness there is an infinite abundance of this energy. I now know the difficulty of this particular blindness.

I hear the news and I am unsettled, I do not yet understand, nor care, why ( the influence of the subconscious observer ). There is this feeling of a guiding narrative influencing everything. This might be caused by my need for a narrative to make sense out of it, but it is a palpable feeling. The entire orchestration is deeply profound…

I guess these are the first steps to eventually surrendering unto consciousness. Kind of like learning to surf. Part of the learning process is knowing when to let go.

Journal: Now You See Me…

Part of the harassment that is employed by those that are called “gang stalkers” of “targeted individuals” is mainly psychological manipulation. This happens on many levels and almost every aspect of our conscious experience. Day to day conversations, mass media, urban and rural environmental experiences and even our unconscious experiences can influence our internal conversations and behavior. If you are unaware that people are manipulating you with casual conversations and utilizing the powers of suggestion they can manipulate your behavior and choices to a powerful degree.

Once you become aware of these tactics as well as some others you are able watch the entire process with a bit of a grin. The best you can do is to ignore these shenanigans and go about your life while watching these tactics being deployed as a form of entertainment. This shared conscious dream that we all are experiencing has much to do with various entities, beings, and organizations (political, marketing, religious) vying for your attention. I have learned that what you give most of your attention to becomes the narrative of your conscious dream experience.

We must also understand that the whole of consciousness is also vying for you attention and when you are aware of this it is easy to discern the influences of consciousness from the many charlatans, spooks and minions. It all comes down to choices. Give your attention to that which best suits your desires and ignore all the rest. If you do not see it, does it really exist?

Vous avez un choix…

Journal: Why?

I am failing to answer a simple question. Within the infinite possibilities of consciousness there is one human behaviour that I am unable to understand at this time. Why do we hurt one another?

I can see where this has occurred in the distant past that seemingly set off a chain reaction. Clearly we have evolved to a level of consciousness where we can put an end to this behavioural disorder, but it persists

When I focus on the question my mind falls silent, possibly because there aren’t any reasons that exist within consciousness for us to continue hurting one another, or the only reasons that exist are the ones we create…

Journal: Home

Most of my life I have lived a life of chaos searching for something or some kind of fulfilment. Physical, emotional or chemical means were futile attempts to fill the void within me. Feelings of satisfaction were mostly short lived eventually leading towards social dissatisfaction.

Meditation helped me to get used to solitude. Meditation also allowed that which I was searching for to come to me. Moments of bliss and contentment were without any known attachment. Those feelings were familiar to me and I wanted more.

My recent paradigm shift toward a conscious simulation, or shared dream has fostered an evolution or expansion of consciousness. This conscious dream now guides me toward understanding what I have been searching for.

Contentment, bliss and joy are my natural states of being. My dissatisfaction was an indication that I was lost. Now that I am aware that my emotional responses can be used to guide me, I can find my way back to the source of consciousness that is my true home.

I now know why I have never felt at home at any single time in my life. The closest place to home has always been on a mountain or deserted beach, but now I can summon that feeling of home, bliss and relief with a thought. I have finally realized that I am a conscious being in the midst of the whole of consciousness, how much closer to home can I be? This is what I have been searching for, a way back home, right here, right now.

The sleeper has finally awakened…

Journal: Just Two

I have always read that there were three key aspects to the human experience. They were often referred to as mind, body and spirit. The ‘mind’ together with consciousness, the physical ‘body’ and environment and lastly the ‘spiritual’ connection to everything we experience that we cannot yet understand.

I have whittled it down to two. There is consciousness within the mind and then then the physical body. This is something I have a direct connection with. Consciousness is the stage and I am a physical character upon the stage. There is a definite separation between the two. My current concept struggles with the physical environment as a projection of consciousness, but that is changing.

I find myself leaning more toward an all encompassing concept of consciousness, leaving only one (conscious dreamworld), but until that becomes my dominant mindset, I’ll have to wait. I am perceiving that there is something cast within the shadows and silence of my physical realm that my conscious mind cannot yet grasp. “Like a splinter in your mind”…

The reality that unfolds before me each day is as dynamic and unpredictable as the realities that I encounter while in an unconscious dream during sleep. There is a raw feeling of detachment from both the conscious (waking) and unconscious (sleeping) stages. I find that I am allowing the observer within me to dominate my perceptions more each cycle.

I am more interested in what I cannot see or experience at the moment. Everything else is a relentless constant distraction.

Journal: Underwhelmed

What is it I see? Too much of everything has become unimportant. Overwhelming exposure to so much that offers nothing in return. Where have those things that provide consciousness with sustenance gone to?

I see the motion driven by the system, but I struggle to find the purpose. Progress without purpose, with ever increasing complexity there is very little left to salvage.

I am underwhelmed by the chaos. I have pushed the noise of that which has little meaning, of this existence, deep into the overtly abundant cracks and recesses. And I now face something else entirely.

I now see something different in everything I see. It lies just beyond what my conscious mind can interpret, just beyond my reach. And, as this thought forms in my mind, I cannot tell if I am chasing it or it is chasing me.