Journal: Detachment

I am a traveler. This is the best explanation for what I perceive to be happening. My unconscious travels are often difficult to remember, but they are responsible for how my conscious reality currently manifests itself. The best way to describe this is to use the word residue. I carry residual memories or cognitive resonance with me no matter what my current state of mind experiences (conscious or unconscious). This did not exist prior to my use of psychedelic substances.

Throughout my life I learned to attach my identity to my conscious experiences. I identified with my inherited and evolving frame of reference, but it was typical in relation to my limited perceptions. After the use of psychedelic substances I began to question my reality and (slowly) loosen my attachment to that which was the foundation of my identity.

Where I once was tethered to a particular realm, I have become detached to wander into new and often foreign realms within the unconscious. The residual effects of this new freedom manifests itself in the whole of my consciousness. I can see it in both my dreams and my waking conscious reality. I dream when I am awake and I dream when I am asleep and those dreams are becoming very similar. I have a distinct feeling that they will become the same over time, possibly a combination of the two or a completely new realm of existence.

Journal: Chain Reaction

Moon waxing crescent 3.6 days, Pisces – Water. Time 21:45, planet hours: Luna.

“The Principle of Cause & Effect: Every cause has its effect; Every effect has its cause; Everything happens according to law’ Chance is but a name for law not recognized’ There are many planes of causation, but nothing escapes the law.”

It is important to understand that once you choose a path to accomplish something, and once you set upon that path, that choice sets in motion a wave through consciousness. I can see the changes in my conscious reality. I can see the beginnings of these changes and how they are evolving, for me.

I set upon a path to master consciousness and now I see that the wave I summoned has grown in size. I feel it has a mind of its own. I cannot determine the direction it has taken me, but it appears to be speeding up.

I remembered that I had forgotten that I cannot go back. There is no normal to go back to because normal does not exist as I once knew it.  I see that I am caught in a chain of events that have been set in motion by my actions. I am reminded of the time when I focused on nothing and desired nothing, and I saw my conscious reality grind to a halt. Up until now I have gone about this existence haphazardly, it might be better to take a more measured  and deliberate approach.

Of Interest

I found this video interesting. It presents a perspective on consciousness and the impact of social constructs on behavior and choices. I may not agree on some of the concepts presented, but it did cause a cascade of thoughts I probably would not have had, had I not watched it. Doing things that make you question your perspective and incorporate new knowledge can foster insights in completely new directions.

Lunatic Fringe

full_moon_over_fieldAfter logging the attacks (psychic and possibly electronic) that I endure on a daily basis I have discovered a pattern. I have in the past stated that the attacks seem to be on a computer automated system because they seem to occur at the same time during the day (while under attack in Hawaii I even thought they were associated with the setting sun). This notion was supported by bloggers and comments from people like myself trying to understand the attacks and their origin.

I have recently discovered that the automated nature of the attacks correlate with moon rise and moon set, for a given geographical location. The attacks begin slightly before moon rise and dissipate after the moon sets. Another noticeable aspect of the attacks is that the intensity increases during the new moon lunar phase. I cannot begin to speculate as to why this is the case. There is a deep rabbit hole one can go down regarding the earth’s only natural satellite, and of course the possibilities that it is a base for extraterrestrial entities is well disseminated online, but I just do not know. What I have observed is how lunar phases effect and even define my conscious environment and much of that is still under constant scrutiny. I can argue that the effects of lunar phases has been well documented throughout history and spans many different cultures in how they conduct business and also used in past and current agricultural practices, as well as, astrology and Magik. The moon’s energy has significant effects upon plant and animal life as well as the gravitational power to effect ocean tides, so there is a possibility that the energy could also be harnessed by those that have mastered consciousness.

This may or may not be associated with the kind of psychic attacks that are perpetrated, by close proximity to myself, by entities that physically inhabit this level of consciousness. I am not exposed to these beings or people on a daily basis, but I will need to log these seemingly random attacks to see if they are associated with any lunar activity. Although, there was one, more remarkable, attack that occurred on a day where the energy favored negative dark art activity (I ignored the warning), but I cannot remember the lunar phase for that event.

Information concerning the moon’s position, rise and set is readily available online and even on smartphone apps. The moon has been a significant element in my past life (a subject of a significant dream during childhood) and continues to become an important body as my current conscious (awake) experiences continue to evolve. I currently believe that most attacks are done to primarily diminish a target’s energy to disrupt their unconscious (sleep, dream) activity. Activity during our time in the unconscious realm may be more significant than we are currently able to understand. I have found that dreams that I have after sunrise are significantly different and affect my conscious environment in not so positive ways. Rising with the sun is an important and beneficial habit. Still more questions than answers.

Journal: Perfection

Moon waning crescent 25.4 days, Libra – Air. Time 00:03, planet hours: Saturn.

My belief that everything has meaning, and all things are the way the should be continues to grow in strength. Faith is a word that has been echoing throughout my intuition. Whenever I feel impatient, chaotic and confused I am reminded to have faith. Nothing is wasted, all actions have purpose regardless of our judgement. Abraham is correct, faith occurs when you accept the law of attraction within the whole of consciousness. That which is delegated to consciousness will become…

There is only the order of consciousness, chaos only exists for those that are unable to understand this. Within this artificial system of existence there are increasing levels of complexity, but at the root is the ever expanding foundation of consciousness. The whole of consciousness is the substrate to which we are anchored, there is no other way. Consciousness is pervasive. Consciousness is consistent. Consciousness is perfection.

Journal: Repetition

Moon waning crescent 23.0 days, Libra – Air. Time 01:07, planet hours: Mars.

I notice that the same stories are told over and over again. The actors may change, but the story is repeated many times. It is as if there little creativity left in the stories we tell today, for me. But someone younger may not realize this just yet. Before that realization happens everything is new and exciting until you begin to realize that everything is ruled by repetition.

Is the repetitive nature of this reality an obstruction of the expansion of consciousness? Is it artificially forced into stagnation by some conscious or unconscious entity? Does the cyclic nature of our conscious environment pose limitations upon us or are those perceived limitations something that must be overcome? There is far more than what we think we see. The Universe forever was and forever will be. There was no beginning and there is no end. This existence is just a place for us to gather the courage to leave the nest.

About Time, Again

After the post Without Time, I spent a lot of time thinking about time and a seemingly abrupt transition, or shift, in my current paradigm concerning time. The shift started while thinking about artificial and natural systems and then abruptly changed after a comment from a reader. Since they are related it might be prudent to include it here.

– SYSTEMS –

Systems are important because they can provide order. In order to get something done it usually requires some kind of system to accomplish the task. Systems can also work together to create a complex hierarchy much like what we call The Internet and or Capitalism.

There are two kinds of systems in particular that I will focus upon and they are natural systems and artificial systems. To be brief, I describe artificial systems as human made and a natural system is one that is not dependent upon the presence or participation of humankind. An example of an artificial system would be social or cultural, as well as finance, politics, religion, etc. A natural system would be one where humanity did not have a role in the creation of the system much like our solar system, as well as natural systems found in plant and animal kingdoms on planet earth (as we now understand them). An artificial system can collapse without affecting the entire environment as a whole, while the collapse of a natural system could cause an extinction level event much like we now face concerning climate change. I use climate change specifically because I wanted to show how artificial systems and natural systems are connected, as our behavior in one system has an effect upon the other.

– CONSCIOUS LINEAR TIME –

Our solar system provides one thing in particular that provides us with a rather rigid concept of consciousness, and that thing is time. This physical reality is part of an instrument of time. The planet rotates on its axis in a period of 24 hours (providing a period of darkness and light called a day) and orbits a star in 365.25 days providing us a period of a year. I once thought that time was an artificial system. But, if I follow my now evolving description of time, as we currently understand it (seconds, days, years), would continue without us.

Time is a natural system. Humankind developed a system of measuring time that confines the physical processes that we witness everyday in our conscious physical reality. The problem with this is that we have become too reliant upon the clockwork of our solar system. We have forgotten that there exists an aspect of consciousness that is without time. I have found that there are two distinct aspects of consciousness. One relates to the physical realm that we experience when we are awake (conscious), the other relates to the nonphysical realm when we are asleep, incapacitated, or dead (unconscious).

Our conscious experiences are dependent upon time, but not in the way we have become accustomed to regarding day-to-day activities. We rely upon time to provide order. Time is that which enables us to exist in this constantly evolving conscious reality and without it there would be chaos regarding our time dependent psychological process that define our reality.

Currently we perceive time as linear. We know this because we are unable to experience the future in the same way as we experience the now; this precious present moment. I accept that time is linear. I feel that the only thing that exists in this conscious physical reality is the now simply because the past exists in memory and the future does not yet exist. But, if time is rigidly linear then how can I get a glimpse of the future? How does my intuition warn me of coming events? In an environment of linear time the future does not, and can not exist, because of its dependency upon the correct time to exist. So how does this happen?

– UNCONSCIOUS NONLINEAR TIME – 

The unconscious is the realm of non linear time. The unconscious may even be void of time. The only reason time may exist in the unconscious is because we carry it into the unconscious from our time based physical conscious reality. We know that the unconscious dream is void of time because our concept of time is skewed during sleep. Psychedelic drugs that enhance the unconscious while still being conscious will disrupt how we perceive time while under the influence of the drug. Jumping from one location in a dream to another, as well as reliving past and experiencing future events, are acts that are only capable if time did not exist.

My relationship with the unconscious is evolving. This evolution has diminished the gap between my conscious reality and my unconscious dream world. Prescience originates from the timeless unconscious. Subtle reminders of the intuitive mind are sourced from the unconscious. My means of extracting, or remembering, coming events is the process of existing between the two states of consciousness. This is what happens during meditation. Meditation is the act to which the active conscious mind is quieted enough to begin to perceive the unconscious. As I have stated in past posts, meditation is not something I do, it is something that comes over me. This has been increasing recently because the tools used by my adversaries no longer interfere with my brain wave states in the same way. I dream, I remember my dreams and the dreamer remembers my current conscious frame of mind. And, as this continues to evolve my conscious reality changes. Like climate change may be a result of one system influencing the other indirectly, the conscious and unconscious realities can affect one another indirectly in the beginning.

I seem to have been living half a life when I disregarded my unconscious experiences. In working to counter those negative energies and entities, I have opened a door to ways that I have long forgotten. I say this because it no longer feels new, it now feels to familiar to be new. In the past primitive humans that were able to prepare for the seasonal changes by utilizing the positions of the sun and moon survived. Those that were able to utilize the timeless nature of the unconscious within the construct of our conscious reality dominated, then and now. Some of them, I believe, are actively delaying my ascension.

– MEMORY –

Memories are snapshots of time. What would we call a recollection that is void of time? I remember that I lost the concept of time, and seemingly everything else, during my trip through the void when I had lost consciousness. When I regained consciousness I struggled to think and even form words. But, perhaps through regaining my time dependent conscious reality I remembered who I once was. And now, I am struggling with memories that I am unable to validate in any meaningful way. I cannot be sure whether some memories were formed in the conscious or unconscious. I even experience levels of consciousness that I have difficulty understanding because of how I now remember them.

Why is it so difficult to remember the experiences I have when I am unconscious? Why do I not remember my conscious experiences when I am unconscious? I am willing to say at this time that we do not remember because we don’t practice remembering. We have no training from our parents or from our educational systems. Memory is the true sign of intelligence. What wealth of information would we have if we could memorize all our unconscious experiences?

– FUTURE –

Existing in two dissimilar realities is a very unique experience. Just what was it that I came here to learn? What am I witnessing? Am I seeing what is to come? Convergence of conscious and unconscious realities or just how it has always been and forever will be?

I will continue to explore linear time within the multi-leveled conscious physical realm. It makes sense that linear time would be necessary to stitch together experiences on similar levels and, if possible, even travel within time. I see how linear time helps with how consciousness flows through this conscious reality but, what role does the unconscious play in all of this? If we are able to reside between the two known realms of consciousness then will we be able to see what is to come? I’m not sure how to feel about knowing the future. Most of my premonitions were presented to me without a time to which they would occur. I always remember the dream after witnessing the conscious event, which now calls into question the source and time of my recollection? Sometimes in order to evolve you must be willing to forget what you now know. How do I forget what I currently know about time?

One more question: Of the two conscious and unconscious realms, which one is the artificial system?