Journal: The Water Within

I once stated that water is the substrate of consciousness. It is in all things on this physical plane. There is more of it than anything else. It consists of two very powerful elements, one of which can power a star.

While meditating I began to see the sand and shore of a beach I once visited. I could see the water in front of me and I opened my palms to face the water and I could feel an energetic rise in my relaxed state of mind as the water of consciousness began to expand through me. It had been a while since I was able to go to the beach, but then a thought entered my mind reminding me that I did not have to travel to the beach in order to receive what the oceans have to offer me. The water of the oceans flows within me wherever I am, and within it there is the whole of consciousness flowing to me.

Today is a day to which I can mark a point of departure and change. I have seen it coming for a few cycles and now it has arrived.  The day before I left Hawaii, I stood on the shore and already missed being able to go to the beach every day. Even though Hawaii had been a place of my own personal hell, it was also a point of departure and change. These milestones are infinite, even though I am unable to recall the many that have come before, but they are all still special nonetheless. And now, it seems, I am ready to create some more.

Thank you, Rose…

Journal: Today

I am defying the advice of my allies today. My forays into this virtual conscious collective may create ripples that may be detrimental to my ascension.

My antagonists, who I now refer to as Jinn, have been very active in my conscious and unconscious affairs (they are now, and may have always been, for-ever present). This physical conscious reality is nothing but a dream within a dream existing between the infinite layers of our collective conscious projections. I find myself poking at the collective conscious fabric of this physical reality and then wait for the reaction to manifest, much like I did soon after my excursion into the void, much of it now having predictable outcomes.

I spent the last eight years running away from them, trying to avoid that which is quickly becoming my fate, so it seems. I am still tying to surmise the role they play(ed) in my evolving conscious environment, friend or foe. I can see the direction they are pushing me toward. Back toward those I encountered after the void.

Over time I have lost my trust in everything and now it seems I can’t even trust myself. I may have to move toward that which I fear the most. Defiance eventually succumbs to acquiescence; after all it is the essence of conscious evolution.

At least for today it seems that way…

Journal: Public Theater

Last Quarter 21.8 days, Aquarius – Air. Time 10:30, planet hours: Saturn

I am the center of my conscious universe and now it seems I have an audience. One particular experience with Salvia Divinorum, I had some time ago, hinted that I was being watched by some entities during a psychedelic session. I came out of the salvia realm and did something that was not appreciated by the entities that were present. I knew this because I distinctly heard (in my head, akin to audible hallucinations) a chorus of “Ewww” from what sounded like young female voices. That experience gave me the notion that I was being observed from an unseen level of consciousness. Because the experience did not happen too frequently I soon forgot about it.

Experiences of being observed from the unseen became more frequent during my time in Hawaii. Actually hearing the voices or thoughts of others, replying through psychic means, then receiving a response was unnerving; to the point of me questioning my sanity. The first significant attacks happened shortly after I replied, speaking the words, “I can hear you”, while in my apartment. There also was a young woman that worked at a sporting goods store in Honolulu. We were attracted to each other always acted pleasant toward each other and when I would come into the store she would seem to come out of the back and relieve the cashier. The last time I saw her was when she was helping me buy something and I had noticed that her breasts were small and I thought the words “no tits” (please excuse the vulgarity). Right after I thought those words she went cold, she would not look me in the eyes and she was curt in her goodbye. I almost thought I may have said the words out loud. I have had many other experiences since then that have changed my frame of reference enough to accept these experiences as my new para-normal.

After the gray jacket entity sashay’d passed the doorway. It has affected a profound change in the manner in which I frame my reality. Now, it seems that because I have become more aware of the unseen conscious realms and those that inhabit those realms my interactions are more frequent. It make senses that this is now happening. Imagine that you can enter a realm where the inhabitants are unaware of your presence. You try to interact with them but they do not respond. You might become surprised when they do respond and even increase your interaction to develop a relationship. It is possible that they now, also, believe that I am ready to accept their existence in my conscious reality, or…

For whatever reason that this is happening now, it feels like the next step in my evolution of acceptance. It has had some major changes in how I relate to the concept of privacy and, more importantly, how much influence these entities have on my conscious reality. I am currently attempting to establish trust and excusing my rather daft responses. I also seem to question my sanity more often than in the past, I hope to continue to do so.

I am starting to track the para-normal activity within the lunar cycles that influence so much in this physical realm; so far the new to full portion is most active. I see them in the periphery of my visual field. I dismiss most of what I see unless there is some kind of electrical (energetic – goose bump) response. I know when they are present, I seemingly robotic, walk towards them in the house. The electrical reaction increases as I get close. As unnerving as this may seem to some, it has taken a very long time to get here. I still wonder about what is still to come. What will I be able to experience then? Will I be ready?

I have to admit I’m feeling ‘a bit like Alice, tumbling down the rabbit hole’. There is no turning back once you have gone this far down. Unlike Alice, Dorothy found her way back to Kansas from Oz, for me their is no more Kansas, just an eternity of infinite possibilities. And, a lot of new friends, so to speak.

I am what I am. And, I thank the Gods that I am…

 

Journal: Spatial Awareness

Moon waning crescent 27.8 days, Pisces – Water. Time 07:00, planet hours: Mercury.

Gravity provides us with a baseline, so to speak, that allows us to orient ourselves in space. Gravity allows an up and down to exist in our vocabulary the above and the below, heaven and earth. I sometimes try to imagine a conscious reality where gravity does not exist. Vast bodies of water floating through the air or rain that does not fall. In this conscious reality gravity is a fundamental physical law of this physical construct, a necessity in many ways.

My relationship and understanding of gravity is a detriment in the construct of the unconscious because it limits how I am able to orient myself in the spaces I travel within. It also carries with it a habit in the manner of how I project myself in the unconscious. I project a likeness that is appropriate for existing in this current conscious reality, but it is not necessary during my other worldly unconscious travel, as well as, projecting on the astral plane.

It is interesting to watch a sci-fi film and watch how two space ships meeting in outer space always seem to orient themselves as if they are on some artificial plane. All the battles in the Star Wars episodes are all fought in alignment with this artificial orientation. Everything lines up nicely for the scene and helps the viewer to orient themselves in the scene, but I would imagine that it would be a lot more chaotic in absence of the artificial orientation.

The spirits and sprites that are becoming a frequent experience in my conscious reality do not seem to be hindered, by the need to be spatially aware within this physical construct. I see them as balls of light and deep black smoky shadows, probably because I have no visual reference in order to see them as they may actually exist. They move at speeds that are difficult to measure and through objects as if they were mere projections. Or, see objects for what they are, projections of my conscious mind.

People that have used dissociative drugs like Ketamine and Salvia Divinorum become disconnected to their body, but their visual orientation remains oriented to the realms they visit. Why is that so? Why isn’t it upside down or backward as if reflected in a mirror? Salvia Divinorum allows the user to enter into a two-dimensional realm, but why does the orientation have an up and down? In the realm of Salvia you can see what is in front of you, limited side views and not what is behind you.

Why isn’t the Salvia realm an orientation where you can only look up? It may be boring and uneventful, but why is it an orientation that provides the user with a spatial awareness that the user can recognize? What governs our concepts of spacial awareness in other worldly realms?

Are we only allowed to travel to realm we are capable of understanding based on our cognitive or un/conscious limitations? Ketamine presents an out-of-body experience that is void of visuals and any kind of sensory orientation. Why is that so? Is it an called ‘out of body experience’, because we are incapable of understanding and perceiving the realm we have entered?

Journal: Asleep

Moon waning crescent 25.9 days, Aquarius – Air. Time 07:00, planet hours: Luna.

I have noticed that I enter into bouts of being unable to stay awake. While I am in my office, I find myself waking up, not remembering that I was dozing off. I have been paying attention to this phenomenon for a few weeks. When it occurs I am unable to stay awake, but each time it occurs I find myself waking up surprised that I could not remember when or how I dozed off again. If I get up and go to another room I am fully awake and stop dozing, but when I return to my office the dozing will continue even with espresso strength caffeine in my system. I have now discovered the reason why this is starting to happen on a more regular basis.

I have gotten past a very long period of being unable to get out of bed upon sunrise consistently. I have struggled with this for a very long time and even suffered some significant attacks when I was able to wake up and stay a awake for a few weeks. This simple task is essential for maintaining a particular level of consciousness. Since I have now established a long-term habit of waking before the sun rises, it appears my antagonists have found another way of influencing me (possibly evidence of a self-perpetuating delusion).

Acknowledging that vibrational energy determines a particular state of mind or state of consciousness, interfering, influencing or disrupting the vibrational energy of a target is key to controlling the target. There are certain times of the day when influence is easier to manifest it usually starts after the sun rises and gradually increasing toward 11:00 a.m., reaching a peak then diminishing toward 03:00 p.m., and later entering an interesting collective state of consciousness, what I call the “stupid time”, about 1-2 hours before sunset (there is a definite relationship between conscious vibrational states and the transit of the sun and its increasing and decreasing spectrum frequency of light; or during the night, the amount of light reflected by the lunar surface). Now that I am awake during the time of day, I am able to remain attentive to my thoughts and actions in the creation of my day, or my conscious experience.

I have mentioned in older posts that my antagonists (organized group of people, Jinn, aliens, gods or my higher self, take your pick…) have been infiltrating my unconscious. Since I have become aware of this, and coupled with my consistent habit of rising before the sun, I have become better able to combat the influence of others on my un/conscious experiences. My unconscious, dream world, is a place where I am still vulnerable (still evolving). As I have mentioned in other posts, I am realizing I am always in a state of dreaming, it may be better described as visual thoughts, or potential states of conscious existence. It seem as if my conscious and unconscious are rubbing up against each other in ways I do not yet understand.

My antagonists seem to have developed a way of forcing me to into an unconscious state. I am now seeing a pattern, and that after my dozing, I notice that I have fallen into a lower conscious vibrational state. I have a means of countering this effect, but timing seems to be everything, ultimately affecting my ability to maintain a particular emotional image (a visualization of an emotional state). I know that once I fall asleep things can change in drastic and subtle ways. Yes, its sounds a lot like a Freddy Kruger movie, but it is more about misdirection than anything else.

I now recognize, and can differentiate between, these particular conscious vibrational states. These states have a unique character to them, much like changing a channel on the television. Or, getting on a train and then ending up in a different, although familiar, destination when the ride has ended. This is fascinating, I am now consciously attempting to map and navigate shifting conscious vibrational states at will. My conscious experiences may very well be just as the Hindu describe Vishnu sustaining the universe, dreams within dreams. What I might be starting to see is that my conscious experience is a plane of existence where other beings come to when they are unconsciously asleep.

I see you…

Note: In a computer program, the code is a representation of an object (text file, image, etc.),ultimately a series of ones and zeros. In this conscious reality, vibrational frequency is the code that can best be described as sound or a series of tones (notes) like a song. We are actually musical instruments capable of creation.

Journal: Pointless Participation

Moon waning gibbous 15.2 days, Libra – Air. Time 09:20, planet hours: Sol.

I felt compelled to mark this point in my conscious experience as absurd, and pointless (contradiction noted).

I admit that I am too stupid to break free of the perpetual cycles I find myself in. Maybe it is the pointless nature of this existence that may ultimately be the point itself.

I am grateful, yet I cannot pinpoint that to which I am grateful for…

My delusions persist.

Point of concept: When incorporating the infinite, everything within this conscious construct, eventually, becomes pointless.

Journal: In The Beginning…

Moon last quarter 22.1 days, Sagittarius – Fire. Time 06:45, planet hours: Mars.

As I try and wrap my head around the infinite, I find my intellect being drawn to it, focused upon it. I often tell myself that “in the beginning there was consciousness”, but as I stated this morning it I knew that it could no longer be correct. Within the entirety of an infinite consciousness a “beginning” cannot exist.

It forever is, it forever was, and forever will be…

Para Consciousness

Nothing exists (that is known) in isolation. Everything in existence either feeds upon something or something feeds upon it. In our physical reality it can be witnessed in our daily lives and actions. We refer to this as the circle of life, but there is much more afoot than we allow ourselves to realize. At the macro level we are at the top of the food chain and we are dependent upon plants and animals for our sustenance. We farm, hunt and process our food to be sold and distributed in order to sustain our life. It is the natural physical reality that offers evidence that we are able to witness how the natural world sustains itself and ourselves.

So if nothing exists in isolation, then what feeds upon us? At the micro level , thanks to technological advancements in microscopes, we know of the existence of bacteria and microscopic life that are important, if not, critical to our physical world. We are dependent upon bacteria living in our gastrointestinal tract to consume food that we consume. The bacteria consume soluble fiber, sugars and other substances then excrete chemicals that are essential to our biological processes. This symbiotic relationship exists in many forms throughout this physical existence.

We are also aware of detrimental biological processes that occur due to the existence of microorganisms that can bring about illness and death. I read an article in Wired magazine back in the late 90s where a microbiologist went into detail describing the war that we are waging against detrimental microorganisms. He stated that humanity has been engaged in this war throughout history and we dance along the very fine line of being overtaken by the microscopic creatures. In the eyes of a microbiologist bacteria are the dominant species of life in our physical reality. Microorganisms outnumber humans on an enormous scale as each human is host to billions of bacteria living on the exterior and interior of our bodies and even in our blood and lymphatic system.

In my life experience there has been one particular point of focus. I did not realize the importance of this conscious and unconscious focus until recently. Throughout my life the image of parasitic worms seemed to demand my attention and occurred often enough for me to maintain a subconscious attention that continues to help understand my conscious relationship with consciousness. There was a time when I thought that I might have some kind of infestation, but that never materialized. I was often puzzled why it continued to garner my attention, but I could not make the connection to why the imagery was important. Until I applied the physical paradigm of the conscious reality to the unconscious reality of our nonphysical existence.

As it is above so it is below, and as it is below so it is above. This axiom can be applied to heaven and earth, conscious and unconscious as well as the infinite levels in between; at any level of consciousness there is always a higher level and a lower level. We know people who are capable of feeding upon another person’s energy. There is a name that is given to those that are capable of doing this, some call them vampires. These people are capable of sucking the life out of another person whether it is intentional of otherwise. There are also people that are capable of providing energy to others in order to bring about a sense of well-being. The presence of certain individuals can manifest a higher level of existence to others in their orbit. We often refer to these people as spiritual or holy.

Where are we in the circle of the unconscious life and existence?  Physically we feed upon the material vibrational energy of plants and animals, but do we feed upon the nonphysical vibrational energy of entities that exist in our unseen orbit? Although I cannot provide any evidence of this yet, I would venture to say that this is so. I do know that nonphysical entities are capable of feeding upon my physical and nonphysical vibrational energies. The battle I wage on a daily basis is to keep these nonphysical, and possibly dimensional parasites from doing intentional, or possibly, unintentional harm. As with physical parasites there are natural and synthetic antibiotics and in the nonphysical realm there are means to provide protection from these creatures and entities of the nonphysical varieties as well.

– Environment –

All things exist in an environment. The bacteria in your gut exist and proliferate because of an environment that is conducive to their life. If the environment is hostile and the organism is capable of altering the environment, its activity will bring about an environment that is favorable to sustain its life or the life of its offspring. This can be both beneficial and detrimental to the host. We see this in parasitic organisms that alter the behavior of hosts in order to transfer the colony to, or infect, other potential hosts. We see this in the behavior of humans that change the environment to be conducive to their particular lifestyle and or culture. Historically we can find evidence that the activity of humanity has not always been beneficial for humanity itself or the host we inhabit called earth or Gia.

At the foundation of all environmental conditions we can point to its vibrational component. Rudimentary studies of plants and their environments have shown that particular types of music can affect plant growth. The vibrational signature of water can affect plants, animals and possibly other aspects of the unseen environment. There is even the orbit of planets and natural satellites that can affect the vibrational environment of this earth and its inhabitants; gravity as a vibration (research theory of Bumblebee using its wings to create a anti-gravitational vibration to manifest flight).

Our brain is an electrical instrument that is capable of detecting vibrations within and environment. We know this because we can interpret vibrational characteristics of an environment with our emotions. Walk into an ancient cathedral and you can feel, emotionally, the vibrational component of the architecture. Color vibration can alter the behavior of animals due to its vibrational component regardless of the ability to see colors. And, we know this because of how color is used, by plants and animals as a means of attraction and protection. Symbols are vibrational images, and constructs, that can transmit meaning; semiotics is the study of symbols. Words are symbols for sound. And, sound is a physical vibrational component that has far-reaching aspects that are often overlooked or remain undiscovered; such as Om..

As a targeted individual I have been subject to electromagnetic vibrations that have altered my state of well-being. I have survived these attacks by using counteractive electromagnetic vibrations and or using various shielding methods. I have endured psychic attacks and have employed various dark art defensive tactics that use sound and physical symbols and gestures as well as meditation. The most effective means of protection is in the creation of a vibrational environment that is beneficial for myself and detrimental to non-beneficial vibrations and entities. What I have recently discovered is when I leave my protected environment I am abruptly confronted with the vibrational environment of our suburbs and cities, and their detrimental affects on my well being.

What I am beginning to see is that our environment is being altered in a manner that seems to support characteristics that are a detriment not only physically (climate change), but possibly creating an opening for nonphysical entities that could be a detriment to the well-being of us all. If you would like to test this for yourself, go to an isolated natural environment, take off your shoes and stand barefoot on the earth or on the banks of a free-flowing river. You will begin to experience sympathetic resonance to the natural environment and you will recognize your natural state of being. Surfers are aware of the withdrawals they suffer when the surf is flat and they are unable to recharge , so to speak. It is not the act of surfing itself, it is the environmental vibrational component that they crave. It is why dolphins surf and why pelicans fly in front of a breaking wave. It is the vibrational energy that is being released and effecting all things within that environment.

Our cities and suburbs are unnatural environments. These man-made environments consist of a combination of beneficial and detrimental vibrational components. Electromagnetic vibrations from computer technology, electrical grids, wireless communications as well as the poorly devised infrastructure contribute to the detriment to our current human condition.

– Para Consciousness –

We must begin to realize that we are not only an inhabitant of this physical reality, but we also inhabit consciousness as a whole. As science begins to entertain the nature of our multidimensional universe, as the catch up to eastern philosophical interpretations of the infinite possible constructs of the whole of consciousness we will begin to see a connection between this physical reality and the nonphysical entities and realities that occupy the same space.

We have plenty of religious text that claim historical records of actual events regarding Gods, demigods, demons/angels and other spiritual entities that exist. And, while 80-90 percent of the world’s population believes in a God or Gods it is difficult to refute that these spiritual beings exist at all. Spiritual beings are so pervasive in our history that without them there would probably be very little need for our spiritual mythology.

As I continue down the rabbit hole of consciousness, I am finding that there exists a physical and nonphysical reality that exists beyond the periphery of our capable vision. I have seen people vanish around a corner without a doorway or exit in sight. I have seen the black smoke type apparitions associated with the demons or Jinn. I was tormented by a black shadowy figure with a hat in my dreams. I am in communication with entities on a daily basis and warned of particular detrimental choices. I have seen orbs and have received information or actual items presented to me in times of need. But, I have also discovered that the vibration of your current physical and nonphysical form can be manipulated to control your existence on a particular level of reality. What I have often referred to as a yo-yo affect of changing level of consciousness regards my attempt to ascend and the existence of other nonphysical entities to keep me from my quest for ascension.

My interpretation of what I experience begins to verify that there exist a para-conscious reality that exists between the conscious and unconscious realities that we inhabit. It may very well be that these entities are very much like us, but they have mastered their conscious and unconscious existence and have the ability to influence and control this existence and all those that inhabit it. What is at the crux of their control and influence is our sympathetic frequency that we share with them.

This reality is rife with depression, violence, conflict, and general dissatisfaction and it has been designed this way to continue the and increase the influence and control. I know this because that I am capable of elevating my vibrational signature and when I do so I experience a very different, somewhat peaceful, alternate conscious reality until that vibrational signature is countered. I have also recently determined that most of my aches and maladies are caused by unconscious entities from the para-conscious, and can be relieved by a thought or changing the vibrational frequency of the ailing part of my physical and nonphysical self with plant extracts via vaporization (smoke), direct application and ingestion.

I am confident in my methods that when I routinely experience these attempts at influence and control I can counter the effects and go about my life without worry. What is concerning is that my view is not shared with the majority of people who are part of my conscious experience. I see when people are under the influence of unseen entities. I can see when I am being influenced and when this happens the best defense is the realization that my actions are not my own. Once I turn my inner eye towards the source and focus my attention on the influence it will always subside. In a world full of unnecessary distractions remaining attentive to you thoughts and emotions is difficult and for some impossible.

This (our) reality is far more mysterious than we allow ourselves to experience and even when we experience something para-normal we dismiss it altogether, but when we experience a holy para-normal event people will travel vast distances to witness the mystery. There is so much happening right in front of us and when you allow yourself to acknowledge these para-normal events they will begin to become more abundant and very normal day-to-day events. And, as witness these para-conscious events and focus out attention on them benevolent events will increase and negative detrimental events will subside. I think I read a passage that said to have been written by Jesus (cannot find it now) where he stated that being attentive to you thoughts and actions was important in ones spiritual endeavors. That would be a great place to start in order to combat any influence and control from our unseen environment of the unconscious.

 

Journal: Birds Of A Feather…

Republicans, Democrats, Nationalists, Christians, Buddhists, Muslims, Furries, Emos, Hip Hop, Death Metal, Artists, Fashion Designers, Soccer Mom’s, sport fans, etc. those that resonate together flock together. It has occurred to me again that a thought or mindset is a signal to the whole of consciousness about what a person craves, desires, and wants to become. We emulate and morph into the image we hold in our minds. We wear the uniforms, speak the language, congregate, and our conscious efforts are reciprocated by the whole of consciousness; it can be no other way. Look around and prove that it is not so.

Emotions are images we hold in our minds as well. Each emotion has a specific resonance. Everyone has experienced sympathetic resonance of another person’s emotions during a scuffle, a mob scene, a funeral, or a joyous event. It is a conscious effort by the subconscious to synchronize with the resonating frequency in order to interpret the emotional content (unfortunately this can also be exploited and used as a means of control). If we are aware we can counter the emotion, or increase the distance between ourselves and the origin of the resonant emotion. Sympathetic resonance is a property of our physical conscious environment due to the vibrational nature of our physical reality. Resonant frequency is a foundational component of this multidimensional physical experience. It is not a law, per se, it is an method of manipulation and a fundamental characteristic of consciousness.

The emotional images we hold in our minds are that which we shall behold in our reality, consciousness cannot function by any other means. Each moment we shape the vibrational nature of our reality with the emotional images within. Undivided attention to your emotional resonance and sustaining a desirable emotional image regardless of the emotional environment is the first step in the mastery of consciousness.

The pendulum swings as a condition of the orbital cycles of our physical environment. Our physical reality is governed by periods of expansion and contraction, a rise and fall of vibrational energy. It is a consistent and quantifiable aspect of this conscious reality that requires our constant attention. Timing is, indeed, everything.

Journal: Detachment

I am a traveler. This is the best explanation for what I perceive to be happening. My unconscious travels are often difficult to remember, but they are responsible for how my conscious reality currently manifests itself. The best way to describe this is to use the word residue. I carry residual memories or cognitive resonance with me no matter what my current state of mind experiences (conscious or unconscious). This did not exist prior to my use of psychedelic substances.

Throughout my life I learned to attach my identity to my conscious experiences. I identified with my inherited and evolving frame of reference, but it was typical in relation to my limited perceptions. After the use of psychedelic substances I began to question my reality and (slowly) loosen my attachment to that which was the foundation of my identity.

Where I once was tethered to a particular realm, I have become detached to wander into new and often foreign realms within the unconscious. The residual effects of this new freedom manifests itself in the whole of my consciousness. I can see it in both my dreams and my waking conscious reality. I dream when I am awake and I dream when I am asleep and those dreams are becoming very similar. I have a distinct feeling that they will become the same over time, possibly a combination of the two or a completely new realm of existence.

Journal: Chain Reaction

Moon waxing crescent 3.6 days, Pisces – Water. Time 21:45, planet hours: Luna.

“The Principle of Cause & Effect: Every cause has its effect; Every effect has its cause; Everything happens according to law’ Chance is but a name for law not recognized’ There are many planes of causation, but nothing escapes the law.”

It is important to understand that once you choose a path to accomplish something, and once you set upon that path, that choice sets in motion a wave through consciousness. I can see the changes in my conscious reality. I can see the beginnings of these changes and how they are evolving, for me.

I set upon a path to master consciousness and now I see that the wave I summoned has grown in size. I feel it has a mind of its own. I cannot determine the direction it has taken me, but it appears to be speeding up.

I remembered that I had forgotten that I cannot go back. There is no normal to go back to because normal does not exist as I once knew it.  I see that I am caught in a chain of events that have been set in motion by my actions. I am reminded of the time when I focused on nothing and desired nothing, and I saw my conscious reality grind to a halt. Up until now I have gone about this existence haphazardly, it might be better to take a more measured  and deliberate approach.

Possessions

puppetWe are all familiar with demonic possession because of our entertainment culture. One of the most famous films was ‘The Exorcist’ and there have been many others since, with most of them being based on actual events. Demonic possession has also been a part of the social construct of may different societies. But, the ‘demonic’ aspect does not exist in all cases and possession does not always occur for long periods of time and may only play a part to influence an individual’s decisions for only a moment in time. So what does it mean to be possessed? Being that there is a popular phrase that ‘the devil made me do it’ in western culture, how do you know that you are, or are not possessed, or influenced, by an other worldly entity?

Someone once commented on this blog that many of the people that participate in ‘gang stalking’ or targeting individuals may be under the possession/influence of entities as ‘biological portals‘.  It was difficult for me to accept this at first, but over time it is becoming more apparent that this or something of a parallel notion is actually happening. This notion first induced a level of fear in me, but now I have become fascinated by it. I am only fearful that my fascination with it will bring more into my life, but also concerned that ignoring this information may be more of a detriment.

My conscious evolution continues and I must pay attention to all that this evolution is revealing. Carissa Conti’s assessment is fairly accurate. The influence of entities and their biological portals in my conscious and unconscious experiences is increasing. My assessment of these changes is that I must be doing the right things. I have to admit that someone more sane than I would retreat, but it motivates me to continue. There is also one singular, very powerful, and pervasive feeling that permeates my conscious experience, it is that I am under the protection of an even more powerful and influential force that I am unable to describe. And, because of my experiences, I have to wonder if it is a possession of another kind.

In my most recent experiences, I have been conducting experiments in the presence of other people and some of those people have responded in ways that would indicate that they are mostly under the influence of some kind of unseen entity. In the distant past I was warned by my allies that the people in question were contributing to my negative conscious experiences. I have now been able to verify the warning. In past posts I have referred to myself as shaman, partially enlightened or empathic, but it seems to me that I am just able to see things as they are; after all I was just responding to my inner thoughts that always told me that this reality is not what it seems to be.

I can now see why religion is a concrete paradigm in this existence, but unfortunately as pervasive as religion may be it offers little to counter all that there is to overcome. I have met priests that I would deem to be possessed. Holy people, it seems, are no more free than any other person. I have known people that were devout in their religious beliefs and were no more free that someone who was not. So where would anyone go to find protection? I do not know at this time. I once knew a North American indigenous man that called himself a shaman. He kept out of the cities and moved his family to an isolated parcel of land in the mountains. At the time he stated that he did so because of the changes he saw coming, first told to him by his elders. I now know what he was referring to.

Has the influence of unseen entities become so common that it has become the standard? Could it be that the influence persists because we allow it, or do not know any other way. The wrath of illness that plagued human kind in the past was due to unseen entities. tI was not until the development of a tool that allowed us to see these microscopic organisms that we were able to develop a means of defense. Knowledge of the existence of microbiological organisms has helped us to survive, as will the knowledge of the existence of unseen entities of a grander scale. If not, humanity will be no more than the possessions of the unseen entities in this existence, without will and without freedom (even more than what you now know as a false freedom).

– OTHER WORLD –

As there are and will always be questions, there is one that still persists. Why am I a threat to those that are hiding in plain sight? There are many that watch me everywhere I go. Why? What is it about me that requires so much attention? Those ‘Others’ that I see are now a rarity, but when I do see them what happens to them? My accidental encounters change something. I think it may have something to do with possession. Those attractive ones that demand my attention may be possessed by an entity of a different kind. My guess is that they are possessed at birth. My guess is that I am bearing witness to their existence in this realm. Am I accidentally revealing something about them to my allies within the whole of consciousness? I once ventured into an affluent area in the city of Santa Clara and the next day one of those that watch me (minion) commented on how brave I was to have gone into that area.

In the past I have played games with those minions and have lost them in Hawaii and then at least five people were seen searching for me. When I would go through affluent areas there are several cars involved in surveilling me. Why?

Now, when I enter these affluent areas I can feel that I am suffering from a minor psychic attack. I can walk into a crowded store or mall and half the people will head for the exit. What is it about me that they fear? In the Stanford Mall in Palo Alto CA. there are several clerks that will go into the back office until I leave and in affluent areas of San Francisco and Sausalito my presence can literally empty the streets. Why? What role should I play in this?

Note: On one trip to San Francisco while stuck in traffic in the Presidio area an attractive young woman kept walking by my car curiously looking at me as she passed, the same I have done to those I call the ‘Others’ – why?

Lunatic Fringe

full_moon_over_fieldAfter logging the attacks (psychic and possibly electronic) that I endure on a daily basis I have discovered a pattern. I have in the past stated that the attacks seem to be on a computer automated system because they seem to occur at the same time during the day (while under attack in Hawaii I even thought they were associated with the setting sun). This notion was supported by bloggers and comments from people like myself trying to understand the attacks and their origin.

I have recently discovered that the automated nature of the attacks correlate with moon rise and moon set, for a given geographical location. The attacks begin slightly before moon rise and dissipate after the moon sets. Another noticeable aspect of the attacks is that the intensity increases during the new moon lunar phase. I cannot begin to speculate as to why this is the case. There is a deep rabbit hole one can go down regarding the earth’s only natural satellite, and of course the possibilities that it is a base for extraterrestrial entities is well disseminated online, but I just do not know. What I have observed is how lunar phases effect and even define my conscious environment and much of that is still under constant scrutiny. I can argue that the effects of lunar phases has been well documented throughout history and spans many different cultures in how they conduct business and also used in past and current agricultural practices, as well as, astrology and Magik. The moon’s energy has significant effects upon plant and animal life as well as the gravitational power to effect ocean tides, so there is a possibility that the energy could also be harnessed by those that have mastered consciousness.

This may or may not be associated with the kind of psychic attacks that are perpetrated, by close proximity to myself, by entities that physically inhabit this level of consciousness. I am not exposed to these beings or people on a daily basis, but I will need to log these seemingly random attacks to see if they are associated with any lunar activity. Although, there was one, more remarkable, attack that occurred on a day where the energy favored negative dark art activity (I ignored the warning), but I cannot remember the lunar phase for that event.

Information concerning the moon’s position, rise and set is readily available online and even on smartphone apps. The moon has been a significant element in my past life (a subject of a significant dream during childhood) and continues to become an important body as my current conscious (awake) experiences continue to evolve. I currently believe that most attacks are done to primarily diminish a target’s energy to disrupt their unconscious (sleep, dream) activity. Activity during our time in the unconscious realm may be more significant than we are currently able to understand. I have found that dreams that I have after sunrise are significantly different and affect my conscious environment in not so positive ways. Rising with the sun is an important and beneficial habit. Still more questions than answers.