puppetWe are all familiar with demonic possession because of our entertainment culture. One of the most famous films was ‘The Exorcist’ and there have been many others since, with most of them being based on actual events. Demonic possession has also been a part of the social construct of may different societies. But, the ‘demonic’ aspect does not exist in all cases and possession does not always occur for long periods of time and may only play a part to influence an individual’s decisions for only a moment in time. So what does it mean to be possessed? Being that there is a popular phrase that ‘the devil made me do it’ in western culture, how do you know that you are, or are not possessed, or influenced, by an other worldly entity?

Someone once commented on this blog that many of the people that participate in ‘gang stalking’ or targeting individuals may be under the possession/influence of entities as ‘biological portals‘.  It was difficult for me to accept this at first, but over time it is becoming more apparent that this or something of a parallel notion is actually happening. This notion first induced a level of fear in me, but now I have become fascinated by it. I am only fearful that my fascination with it will bring more into my life, but also concerned that ignoring this information may be more of a detriment.

My conscious evolution continues and I must pay attention to all that this evolution is revealing. Carissa Conti’s assessment is fairly accurate. The influence of entities and their biological portals in my conscious and unconscious experiences is increasing. My assessment of these changes is that I must be doing the right things. I have to admit that someone more sane than I would retreat, but it motivates me to continue. There is also one singular, very powerful, and pervasive feeling that permeates my conscious experience, it is that I am under the protection of an even more powerful and influential force that I am unable to describe. And, because of my experiences, I have to wonder if it is a possession of another kind.

In my most recent experiences, I have been conducting experiments in the presence of other people and some of those people have responded in ways that would indicate that they are mostly under the influence of some kind of unseen entity. In the distant past I was warned by my allies that the people in question were contributing to my negative conscious experiences. I have now been able to verify the warning. In past posts I have referred to myself as shaman, partially enlightened or empathic, but it seems to me that I am just able to see things as they are; after all I was just responding to my inner thoughts that always told me that this reality is not what it seems to be.

I can now see why religion is a concrete paradigm in this existence, but unfortunately as pervasive as religion may be it offers little to counter all that there is to overcome. I have met priests that I would deem to be possessed. Holy people, it seems, are no more free than any other person. I have known people that were devout in their religious beliefs and were no more free that someone who was not. So where would anyone go to find protection? I do not know at this time. I once knew a North American indigenous man that called himself a shaman. He kept out of the cities and moved his family to an isolated parcel of land in the mountains. At the time he stated that he did so because of the changes he saw coming, first told to him by his elders. I now know what he was referring to.

Has the influence of unseen entities become so common that it has become the standard? Could it be that the influence persists because we allow it, or do not know any other way. The wrath of illness that plagued human kind in the past was due to unseen entities. tI was not until the development of a tool that allowed us to see these microscopic organisms that we were able to develop a means of defense. Knowledge of the existence of microbiological organisms has helped us to survive, as will the knowledge of the existence of unseen entities of a grander scale. If not, humanity will be no more than the possessions of the unseen entities in this existence, without will and without freedom (even more than what you now know as a false freedom).


As there are and will always be questions, there is one that still persists. Why am I a threat to those that are hiding in plain sight? There are many that watch me everywhere I go. Why? What is it about me that requires so much attention? Those ‘Others’ that I see are now a rarity, but when I do see them what happens to them? My accidental encounters change something. I think it may have something to do with possession. Those attractive ones that demand my attention may be possessed by an entity of a different kind. My guess is that they are possessed at birth. My guess is that I am bearing witness to their existence in this realm. Am I accidentally revealing something about them to my allies within the whole of consciousness? I once ventured into an affluent area in the city of Santa Clara and the next day one of those that watch me (minion) commented on how brave I was to have gone into that area.

In the past I have played games with those minions and have lost them in Hawaii and then at least five people were seen searching for me. When I would go through affluent areas there are several cars involved in surveilling me. Why?

Now, when I enter these affluent areas I can feel that I am suffering from a minor psychic attack. I can walk into a crowded store or mall and half the people will head for the exit. What is it about me that they fear? In the Stanford Mall in Palo Alto CA. there are several clerks that will go into the back office until I leave and in affluent areas of San Francisco and Sausalito my presence can literally empty the streets. Why? What role should I play in this?

Note: On one trip to San Francisco while stuck in traffic in the Presidio area an attractive young woman kept walking by my car curiously looking at me as she passed, the same I have done to those I call the ‘Others’ – why?

Down The Rabbit Hole

When anyone attempts to describe this other level of consciousness you often run into the film “The Matrix”. I have used the film as an example because the film was a significant emotional event in my life, not entirely due to the film itself, but because if triggered something dormant within me that surfaced as an awakening of sort. After the viewing the film I was resonating on a higher level and perceived my conscious reality differently. I perceived time differently. Some thoughts were manifesting before me as if they were commanded to appear in real-time. It was one of those rare events where my unconscious self was screaming at me to pay more attention. This awakened state did not last very long and the following day, after sleeping, I was back to my normal mundane perceptions. This was prior to my use of Psilocybin and my harrowing session into the void.

David Icke has entered my conscious reality many times throughout my life. Most of the time I have taken what he stated with a few grains of salt. This time however David has reentered my life after a series of recent enlightening events and now some of (foundational views pertaining to artificial intelligence or conscious simulation) Davids’s views are starting to synchronize with my own, which is a bit unsettling, because David’s views were a bit out there even for me (reptilian and the like).

The reason why I watched and now post this video is because I am finding that my antagonists or those that are actively preventing my ascension are not of this physical dimension. I still must acknowledge that there are people (physical human entities) that continue to be obstacles in my conscious environment. These human entities are, as Carissa Conti has experienced, under the influence or possessed by these extradimensional (not extraterrestrial) beings. I have had experiences where I met a person familiar to my family and she was one of the people who I call “the others”. She and I could not stand next to each other without feeling anxious or agitated. After she left the house I suffered an attack, similar to having the life drained out of me. The next time I saw her all the adverse feelings were absent. Her behavior was completely different from our first encounter and I did not suffer an attack afterwards. I have had numerous experiences (some corroborated by family members) where strange behaviors from strangers have occurred, mostly waving at me and acting as if someone hit pause, leaving them with a blank stare as if looking into the distance, when I approached them.

There have been numerous experiences that I now interpret as some other kind of influence acting upon myself or someone in close proximity. I have been momentarily been taken over when I have been in immediate danger, like a failsafe being activated to ensure my safety. I have also had experiences that were interpreted to protect someone else. If for some reason I perceive a person as a threat, I will encounter a kind of psychic intervention that favors that person. If I engaged in an argument with a person (that I now know to be under the influence of dimensional entities) I will find my throat tighten and find it difficult to speak (Matrix movie scene: “what good is a phone call if you are unable to speak” Neo’s mouth seals shut). The last physical altercation I had found myself in during the late 90s (a man touching my girlfriend inappropriately), I was unable to land a punch and ended up with a black eye. And, when I attended the local sail boat show I was attacked psychically when I approached a particular salesperson.

These are just a few of the numerous anomalous experiences I have had to date. Now,  I am learning to protect myself from the daily attacks with incantations I learned from Robert Bruce. I cannot explain how it works other than that it provides relief from the perceived physical and psychic attacks I have endured for the past 11 years or more. I have stated that I am a shaman, but recent activity concerning mysticism has gone to another level entirely.  Since the use of these methods there has been a shift in my conscious experiences. The yo-yo (pendulum) effect has diminished. I am more capable of maintaining a kind of equilibrium or homeostasis consciously. My unconscious experiences have normalized and do not exhibit the chaotic swings toward fear and despair. The most recent attacks that have left me with sudden health problems and people stating that I look tired and rundown have ended.

I am finding my way through. The extensive amount of people who once watched me and that I encountered when I first discovered that I was a targeted individual has dropped significantly. These people were either possessed, paid or forced to do something they probably did not understand. The last two people that were overtly watching me looked very concerned that I was going about my business without being influenced negatively. The two men stood out as “the others” always do with a kind of matte finish in the way light reflects off of them (best interpretation of what I see and feel). They were not happy with what they saw.

The ancient Gnostics were correct in the way they interpreted consciousness. They used the current vocabulary to express what they were experiencing. There are a lot of people other than Ike that are using our current terminology to describe our conscious experiences, such as artificial intelligence and simulations. What is interesting is that after a several thousand years the fundamental aspects of consciousness are actually the same, we just have different ways of interpreting what we are seeing and feeling. The only thing that has evolved is the sophistication of the illusion or simulation. There are far too many points of distraction. Far too many people support, protect and insure the continuance of the program (System Matrix, etc.). We even have a desire to propagate this illusion to other parts of the solar system without knowing that there lies an infinite universe of possibilities right here before us, right here and now.

Time 22:55 – In the presentation David talks about the limitations of these entities that ht home. He talks about the inability of these entities to create or imagine and are robotic in nature.

My experience has been spot on. Attacks happen depending on the time of day, the position of the sun and moon as if on a schedule or using a window of opportunity. I have often felt that these entities are intellectually challenged, but they cannot be if they are able to manipulate this level of consciousness and our perceptions to a point. They are limited possibly because they have evolved to a point where creative imagination is unnecessary or they are not of this dimension and cannot perceive everything. Mind parasites or as I called them parasites of consciousness are dependent upon humanity for whatever purpose and this is a exploitable condition of our unwanted relationship with them. They need us. At this time I cannot imagine a scenario where humanity needs them. To be free of them would mean that humanity would ascend beyond their ability to limit, interphere and influence us.

Call them what you like and history has given them many names (Gods, Demigod, demon, angel, jinn, ghost, spirit, aliens, extraterestrials, etc.) They have been ‘here’ since the beginning, but it is up to each individual to realize the true nature of this conscious experience and push past the illusory veil of our corporeal conscious reality. At this time I do not believe that a savior will come and free us in mass. I do think that the savior narrative fits well into scheme of this reality. There are a vast amount of people who are willing to wait (a few more thousand years) to be rescued, I am not one of them.  I am willing to risk everything to find a way to conscious liberty right now.

The past few weeks have been enlightening in a strange way. My view of what would be my own personal narrative as I conquered any and all obstacles never entailed parasitic dimensional entities, demonic possession, gatekeepers to a false conscious reality or unknow negative entities. But, I did surprise myself when I just took it all in stride and said “whatever it takes” bring it on…

I do have (I beleive everyone has) a very powerfull ally, my unconscious formless self. I do not know much about it (yet, it has my attention), but I do know that it is happy that I have realized its presence and potential. At last, I have someone I can trust implicitly. It makes a difference when you have someone on the inside, so to speak. Ready or, not here I come.

“What a long strange trip it’s been…”

"Forgive them for they do not know what they do"


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Daily Journal

This is might be a valid reason for all that I am experiencing. I will have to take a look at what Carissa Conti has to say about my experiences and possibly be prepared for what might still be coming.

I have asked for guidance and it seems to have arrived. I did not expect it in this form and noting the date of Herr A’s comment it was presented to me almost a year ago. Obviously, I was not ready to hear nor heed its message. I will do some reading and research to see if this is what I am experiencing.

What lead to this has been noted in my Daily Journal. The strange and menacing behavior may be explained by the above comment. The character of these people are animated similar to a cartoon charter. Possession? I don’t know if I am now influenced by the comment, but it kind of makes sense.

More on this on the next post…