Journal: Birds Of A Feather…

Republicans, Democrats, Nationalists, Christians, Buddhists, Muslims, Furries, Emos, Hip Hop, Death Metal, Artists, Fashion Designers, Soccer Mom’s, sport fans, etc. those that resonate together flock together. It has occurred to me again that a thought or mindset is a signal to the whole of consciousness about what a person craves, desires, and wants to become. We emulate and morph into the image we hold in our minds. We wear the uniforms, speak the language, congregate, and our conscious efforts are reciprocated by the whole of consciousness; it can be no other way. Look around and prove that it is not so.

Emotions are images we hold in our minds as well. Each emotion has a specific resonance. Everyone has experienced sympathetic resonance of another person’s emotions during a scuffle, a mob scene, a funeral, or a joyous event. It is a conscious effort by the subconscious to synchronize with the resonating frequency in order to interpret the emotional content (unfortunately this can also be exploited and used as a means of control). If we are aware we can counter the emotion, or increase the distance between ourselves and the origin of the resonant emotion. Sympathetic resonance is a property of our physical conscious environment due to the vibrational nature of our physical reality. Resonant frequency is a foundational component of this multidimensional physical experience. It is not a law, per se, it is an method of manipulation and a fundamental characteristic of consciousness.

The emotional images we hold in our minds are that which we shall behold in our reality, consciousness cannot function by any other means. Each moment we shape the vibrational nature of our reality with the emotional images within. Undivided attention to your emotional resonance and sustaining a desirable emotional image regardless of the emotional environment is the first step in the mastery of consciousness.

The pendulum swings as a condition of the orbital cycles of our physical environment. Our physical reality is governed by periods of expansion and contraction, a rise and fall of vibrational energy. It is a consistent and quantifiable aspect of this conscious reality that requires our constant attention. Timing is, indeed, everything.

Possessions

puppetWe are all familiar with demonic possession because of our entertainment culture. One of the most famous films was ‘The Exorcist’ and there have been many others since, with most of them being based on actual events. Demonic possession has also been a part of the social construct of may different societies. But, the ‘demonic’ aspect does not exist in all cases and possession does not always occur for long periods of time and may only play a part to influence an individual’s decisions for only a moment in time. So what does it mean to be possessed? Being that there is a popular phrase that ‘the devil made me do it’ in western culture, how do you know that you are, or are not possessed, or influenced, by an other worldly entity?

Someone once commented on this blog that many of the people that participate in ‘gang stalking’ or targeting individuals may be under the possession/influence of entities as ‘biological portals‘.  It was difficult for me to accept this at first, but over time it is becoming more apparent that this or something of a parallel notion is actually happening. This notion first induced a level of fear in me, but now I have become fascinated by it. I am only fearful that my fascination with it will bring more into my life, but also concerned that ignoring this information may be more of a detriment.

My conscious evolution continues and I must pay attention to all that this evolution is revealing. Carissa Conti’s assessment is fairly accurate. The influence of entities and their biological portals in my conscious and unconscious experiences is increasing. My assessment of these changes is that I must be doing the right things. I have to admit that someone more sane than I would retreat, but it motivates me to continue. There is also one singular, very powerful, and pervasive feeling that permeates my conscious experience, it is that I am under the protection of an even more powerful and influential force that I am unable to describe. And, because of my experiences, I have to wonder if it is a possession of another kind.

In my most recent experiences, I have been conducting experiments in the presence of other people and some of those people have responded in ways that would indicate that they are mostly under the influence of some kind of unseen entity. In the distant past I was warned by my allies that the people in question were contributing to my negative conscious experiences. I have now been able to verify the warning. In past posts I have referred to myself as shaman, partially enlightened or empathic, but it seems to me that I am just able to see things as they are; after all I was just responding to my inner thoughts that always told me that this reality is not what it seems to be.

I can now see why religion is a concrete paradigm in this existence, but unfortunately as pervasive as religion may be it offers little to counter all that there is to overcome. I have met priests that I would deem to be possessed. Holy people, it seems, are no more free than any other person. I have known people that were devout in their religious beliefs and were no more free that someone who was not. So where would anyone go to find protection? I do not know at this time. I once knew a North American indigenous man that called himself a shaman. He kept out of the cities and moved his family to an isolated parcel of land in the mountains. At the time he stated that he did so because of the changes he saw coming, first told to him by his elders. I now know what he was referring to.

Has the influence of unseen entities become so common that it has become the standard? Could it be that the influence persists because we allow it, or do not know any other way. The wrath of illness that plagued human kind in the past was due to unseen entities. tI was not until the development of a tool that allowed us to see these microscopic organisms that we were able to develop a means of defense. Knowledge of the existence of microbiological organisms has helped us to survive, as will the knowledge of the existence of unseen entities of a grander scale. If not, humanity will be no more than the possessions of the unseen entities in this existence, without will and without freedom (even more than what you now know as a false freedom).

– OTHER WORLD –

As there are and will always be questions, there is one that still persists. Why am I a threat to those that are hiding in plain sight? There are many that watch me everywhere I go. Why? What is it about me that requires so much attention? Those ‘Others’ that I see are now a rarity, but when I do see them what happens to them? My accidental encounters change something. I think it may have something to do with possession. Those attractive ones that demand my attention may be possessed by an entity of a different kind. My guess is that they are possessed at birth. My guess is that I am bearing witness to their existence in this realm. Am I accidentally revealing something about them to my allies within the whole of consciousness? I once ventured into an affluent area in the city of Santa Clara and the next day one of those that watch me (minion) commented on how brave I was to have gone into that area.

In the past I have played games with those minions and have lost them in Hawaii and then at least five people were seen searching for me. When I would go through affluent areas there are several cars involved in surveilling me. Why?

Now, when I enter these affluent areas I can feel that I am suffering from a minor psychic attack. I can walk into a crowded store or mall and half the people will head for the exit. What is it about me that they fear? In the Stanford Mall in Palo Alto CA. there are several clerks that will go into the back office until I leave and in affluent areas of San Francisco and Sausalito my presence can literally empty the streets. Why? What role should I play in this?

Note: On one trip to San Francisco while stuck in traffic in the Presidio area an attractive young woman kept walking by my car curiously looking at me as she passed, the same I have done to those I call the ‘Others’ – why?

Journal: Perfection

Moon waning crescent 25.4 days, Libra – Air. Time 00:03, planet hours: Saturn.

My belief that everything has meaning, and all things are the way the should be continues to grow in strength. Faith is a word that has been echoing throughout my intuition. Whenever I feel impatient, chaotic and confused I am reminded to have faith. Nothing is wasted, all actions have purpose regardless of our judgement. Abraham is correct, faith occurs when you accept the law of attraction within the whole of consciousness. That which is delegated to consciousness will become…

There is only the order of consciousness, chaos only exists for those that are unable to understand this. Within this artificial system of existence there are increasing levels of complexity, but at the root is the ever expanding foundation of consciousness. The whole of consciousness is the substrate to which we are anchored, there is no other way. Consciousness is pervasive. Consciousness is consistent. Consciousness is perfection.

Journal: Flow

Moon waning gibbous 20.0 days, Cancer – Water. Time 13:06, planet hours: Mercury.

I have become more acutely aware of my place, or position, within the flow of consciousness. I have been aware of this phenomena at different times during my adult life. I noticed the peculiarity of it, but did not really understand what was happening. Now it is difficult not to notice it. It is becoming an overt, yet underlying, characteristic in everything I see and hear. It defines my definition of what I find beautiful, comfortable and pleasing. It is changing my overall outlook.

There is a character of the movement of people as if influenced by a natural higher order. You are either in the flow or struggling against it. Navigation is intuitive. You can see openings as they arrive, you cannot hesitate. I am clumsy and somewhat apprehensive, but I am adapting. What interests me most is the dynamics of all known and unknown forces that influence the flow of consciousness. What is my role within it? Can I influence it? Can I travel upon it, like a wave?

Journal: I smell Dead People

Moon waning gibbous 15.5 days, Aries – Fire. Time 18:53, planet hours: Moon.

I wish I was kidding. In the past it never made sense to me. I could smell distinct odors that should not be present. I never understood how it was possible. I could be riding down a mountain on my road bike and smell a particular aftershave. Once, I stopped the bike and stood on the side of the road looking for someone hiding in the bushes. Now it seems they are occurring more frequently and even while I am in my room with the doors and windows closed (heavily sweet cinnamon buns, heavy floral perfume). It is called Clairolfaction or Clairalience – the gift of psychic smelling, so I am told.

I haven’t really accepted my recent revelation of my dormant empathic abilities. I don’t think acceptance is the best way to describe my feelings, I’m just waiting to see what happens next. Waiting to be shown something new. I have never been able to relinquish control on this level in the past, every cycle brings a new perspective. I thought I had cast myself adrift only to find another anchor to cut loose. So now it seems I have help. I just need to pay more attention to my thoughts when the odors occur, so I am better able to understand the message being ‘scent’.

Of late, I feel as if I am in an alien environment. I am no longer bothered by the changes that have annoyed me in the past. It is as if everything is in its proper place, moving at its proper pace. Abraham was right, when in the right state of mind everything will begin to flow to you. And, everyday brings something new.

I have to admit I still wonder how far along this conscious evolutionary journey I would be if I wasn’t so dim-witted. Much gratitude to those unseen allies.

Journal: Appreciation

Moon waxing crescent 1.9 days, Libra – Air. Time 8:52, planet hours: Venus.

What  has become an emerging point of focus for me is something that the consciousness of Abraham has stated through Esther Hicks, “the leading edge of thought”. I have become appreciative of what it means to be on the leading edge of thought and consciousness. I catch myself watching, waiting and anticipating the evolution of consciousness. Being fully rooted in the now (the moment) and experiencing the constant progression through this conscious evolutionary expedition. I find myself transfixed on that edge in great appreciation for whatever is to come. It is when I am committed to being on that edge that I can receive those bits and bytes of what is to come. I am appreciative that I am a witness to the extraordinary events that takes place within every millisecond of every moment given to this existence.

What Next?

I was helping a family member with some therapy exercises. The tasks were difficult and caused a bit of frustration, laden with anxiety, when they performed them. We persisted and slowed the pace to try to alleviate the difficulties. When we completed the exercises I retreated to my room and felt frustrated and anxious also. I had a distinct tightening in my throat. The next day we began the therapeutic exercises again. As the family member began to encounter the same difficulties as before, I noticed the same symptoms welling up within me again even though there was no reason for me to feel that way. It occurred to me that I might be experiencing sympathetic resonance. If we use the example of a musical instrument such as a guitar, sympathetic resonance occurs when a string is plucked and the neighboring strings begin to vibrate with a harmonic likeness. After a little shallow research on the internet I was lead to sites and articles about Empaths. After some further reading it occurred to me that I may be a Empath or possibly an Empathic Psychic. Discovering this was a very significant emotional event. It felt as if every single memory of significant moments in my life spilled out before my mind’s eye forced into view by a wave of emotions. Clarity washed over me, but also an unsettling question emerged from my gut, “what next?”. That thought began repeating for some time and I even started to say it out loud.

As a child I had vivid conscious dreams accompanied by physical sensations from worlds I had never before seen. It was difficult experiencing and sensing a vivid dream overlayed upon this conscious reality (I still get glimpses of this phenomenon). I wrestled with emotions that I now know were not my own, and not understanding that this was not normal, I was not normal. I started from wide social acceptance during adolescence and then later to a social outcast fueled by abilities I did not know I had. I sought the comfort of self medication which later lead to better understanding of my own physiology and psychology through experimentation. And then, rebooting my conscious mind with psychedelics and seemingly awakening to a level of consciousness filled with people and beings that are bent upon suppressing my conscious expansion. My higher unconscious self has been revealed to be a patient, yet unrelenting Taskmaster, or a tenacious Zen monk constantly cracking me on my shoulder with his shinai, never allowing me to fully drift into complacency. Now it seems I may have always been an Empath, but ignoring those abilities just so I could be normal.

It explains my past and current experiences. It explains my choppy social interactions and why I seek out solitude over fellowship. It explains why I can no longer watch certain types of films, online videos or television programs without experiencing intense emotions of what I see. It answers the question of how I am able to sense coming events. It explains why I have difficulty with one-on-one conversations with strangers, most of them leaving me feeling overtly self-conscious. It explains why I sometimes get confused during conversations as if I am hearing to two radio stations at the same time. It explains why I felt every possible emotion during my psychedelic quest through the void, now understanding they weren’t my own. It explains the many times I sensed people (mainly women of middle age) observing me or attempting to gain my attention and then find them looking at me, knowingly, in a way that seems to indicate we might be the same. It explains why I am under constant surveillance, as if to keep me from being contacted by those observers or others like myself. It explains those conversations with thought forms from destinations unknown I experienced in Hawaii. Why some people I meet take a step back when I shake their hand as if they were caught off guard by an emotion from an external source (this happened, again, when I recently encountered a person with similar abilities through Craigslist, post Combo-Shift – one of ‘the others’). It explains why some people (mostly younger people under 20) stare at me as if I was some new kind of life form. I am amazed that I survived this long not understanding what was happening, what I have become, or possibly what I have always been. Still, I ask “what next?”.

Lately I have been apprehensive to go out into the world. I seem to be bouncing from one level of consciousness to the next on a daily, sometimes hourly, basis. It is a lot like going outside not knowing what the weather is going to be like. But, I still venture out eager to see what level I seem to be on. Since I posted “Significance” I feel as if my third eye (cliché) has opened yet squinting to filter all that it is now able to see. As I write this post I remember asking for this. Asking to restore my abilities that I thought were taken from me. So, what next?

Those unseen entities are working overtime. That ever-present feeling of fear pecking at the confines of my inner consciousness. I smell their fear. I sense their desperation. I see weakness. Existing on the leading edge of the expansion of consciousness is such a trying, yet beautiful thing. Every moment I am on the threshold of something that has yet to be, and I can influence its manifestation. So to answer the question of “what next?”. The answer may very well be just about “anything I fucking want”, it seems. They may be able to slow me down, but I am now motivated by something deep within. It animates my physical form. It drags me out of bed before sunrise and now shows me what I need to see. My higher unconscious self is rising from within and I am no longer reluctant to let it be. Satori?

Thank you…