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Journal: O.K.

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I have not posted anything here in almost a year. I stopped because my life seemed to have been trapped in a roundabout without any sense of direction or action. I can now see I was subservient to my vices in an attempt try to feel normal. I had stopped meditating because it offered little relief and became a part of the mundane life I was trying to escape. The difficulty was that I was unable to see my life from a fresh perspective or unwilling to see my life as it truly was. When you focus on the fight it sometimes become all you are able to see.

I had came across a video for a new breathing technique by a chiropractor Dr. Joe Dispenza. I was familiar with his research concerning the human mind and consciousness. Dispenza was studying a breathing technique that was facilitating the stimulation of the Pineal gland and the opening of the mind’s (third) eye. The technique was a more subtle method that I had learned from Warren Barigian a voice coach and healer. It was a method that involved contracting muscles along the spinal column and then holding the breath for as long as you can. The technique could be repeated until the desired results are achieved.

I noticed in early June my empathic abilities became more focused. I was getting used to the symptoms of lethargy and low level despondency, but I knew something was different. I began having thoughts or suggestions that would inspire me to do and see things differently. Although I was still indulging in my vices, there was an inner voice forcing me to take a look at myself and the path that I was on. My guardian angels were doing their best to aid in this evolution, but apparently things were not moving fast enough and my deceased godmother stepped in to take a more abrupt approach. She first appeared in an early morning dream to warn me of something that would be challenging later that day. I heeded her warning and was grateful for her efforts.

Mid June I was out on a errand. I saw my godmothers name on a fence, three characters stood out from the graffiti that surrounded it. The letters clearly spelled out her name. It hit me in a way that I could not ignore. A few minutes later I saw her name on a license plate of a nearby car. The license plate was from a Midwestern state where she used to live when I visited her as a child. After returning home I received a reply to a comment I left on YouTube early that morning, part of the user’s name had her name isolated by hyphens and all were capitalized. That definitely got my attention. She became a leading source of guidance for me in the following days.

The breathing technique began to increase my attention regarding the entities I was seeing, feeling, smelling and dreaming. But now, there were a lot more than before. It seemed that the more I acknowledged help from the entities the more they were willing to help, to the point that I was feeling overwhelmed. Song lyrics, feelings of love and gratitude were abundant in my life. I began to take an interest in a person I will refer to as O.K. I can now see that my interest was not a coincidence (matchmaking entities?). When I thought about the O.K. the entities would send me positive emotions and repetitive song lyrics letting me know that the person had a purpose in my life, but they did not tell me how or the why.

Dr. Joe’s technique and the opening of my mind’s eye was beginning to take on a strange and powerful mystical and biological changes. Several years ago I visited a healer by the name of Warren Barigian. Warren accidentally discovered a method to induce a para-conscious state of mind. The para-conscious state induced physiological and psychological changes in the subject, but his work did not center on the energy meridians and the mind’s eye. The work I did on my own neglected the meridians and there was limited effects on the Pineal gland.

I started to have instances when I would lose consciousness and experience para-conscious episodes. I would later find that during Dr. Joe’s workshops people were having these para-conscious experiences and were doing so deliberately. Since utilizing his breathing techniques and concentration of the movement of energy (kundalini) from the root to the Pineal I experienced a new or odd taste in my mouth or possible sensation from the roof of my mouth near the uvula. Disdpenza states that the stimulation of the Pineal via breathing exercises causes the excretion of a powerful antioxidant. This may be the source of the taste and or sensation. I began to see and feel the physical world around me like never before. Food tasted differently. I could feel the floor under my feet as if it was a new sensation. I was more relaxed and happier.

Angels

The presence of entities angels and non human sentient beings continued to increase. Where there were mostly negative entities that I experience and described in my book and this blog, now they were outnumbered. I continued to be overwhelmed but their presence was somewhat comforting. On one particular meditation and breathing session I felt a female presence next to me (still unidentified), seated on my left with her hand on my back as if she was offering support. I began the technique and fell into a para-conscious state more quickly than on an average session. I remember a significant energy release and hearing a crackling sound. I saw streams of blue-ish streaks of light fill my mind’s eye before losing consciousness like a massive electrical discharge. I woke slouched against the wall and extremely shocked, bewildered and speechless. I gathered myself and tried to resume meditation. I focused on my frontal lobe. The swirling white cloud like visual artifact that has been present during my meditation for many years, transformed into an eye, that stared right back at me. The first time I thought ‘come on, really’, but the many times it has happened since, it cannot be denied or ignored. The feeling of lethargy was significant. I saw a orb with a halo on the ceiling above me before it moved into the attic.

It has been a roller coaster ride since that time. I question my sanity on a daily basis. Much has been shown to me. I have been in communication with deceased relatives (grandfather – a significant presence – a rather manly man) and angels that associate themselves with O.K. I have been learning a new language (O.K.’s native tongue) and some of the entities send thoughts to me in that language. I have been having conversations with O.K. (this is where it begins to border feeling delusional again). I am wary of this. This is the sketchy nature of emerging psychic abilities and or psychosis. My thoughts and feelings concerning my sanity are well documented on this blog, but I cannot deny what I will now begin to describe.

Conversations with O.K.

I have daily conversations with O.K. I am not sure if the conversations are with her conscious or unconscious self. Right now there is no way of knowing. How does anyone prove a psychic communication? Normally we just deny they exist, unless it is in the context of religion, as it is still acceptable for a priest to talk to angels, saints and God. The first conversations with entities of unknown origins started in Hawaii and have been documented in my book and earlier journals on this site.

I usually start my conversations with O.K. during the morning, in O.K.’s location. It has been weirdly consistent. When O.K. wakes up I feel it. I look at the clock and I know O.K. is available. (Yeah, I know what your thinking… because I’m thinking it too.) and I start talking. I tell O.K. about my experiences, a sort of therapy for me. I tell O.K. what O.K.’s angels ask me to convey (warnings about people in O.K.’s life). O.K. usually does not respond much and when I do say something O.K. likes I feel an emotion that resembles love. And, I may say something that O.K. does not like it feels like a cold shoulder.

Yesterday when O.K. was waking, I began to talk. This time O.K. was very excited. I could not get a word or thought in. Communication was difficult and I also could feel some kind of interference. My mind’s eye was full of bubble like spheres rising to the surface. As O.K. was able to become calm, O.K. let me know that we are experiencing the same thing regarding negative entities. I then remembered that I told O.K. to visit this site the day before. I remember how that communication was also strained, and I suddenly told O.K. more about myself that I did not state in the past (because I do not share this side of myself with anyone else for obvious reasons). I sat in my office speechless. I was overcome with that feeling that resembles love. The guardians sent me the thoughts of “complete” or “accomplished”. All the song lyrics from a my angels suddenly made sense.

I seem to be caught between my angels helping me and those negative entities that have been a constant force of despair and challenge for over 20 years or more. I have been isolated and keeping this entire saga online, but never meeting anyone with similkar experiences. My angels may have a some kind of plan to bring us together, but it has only happened on a spiritual or mystical level. Things will be very different if and when it manifests in my physical conscious reality. I’ll let everyone know when that happens.

O.K. has become a source of inspiration and hope in ways I choose not to state at this time. The many entities have been suppressed as has my godmother’s presence. I believe my higher self has stepped in to make things easier for me. It has used my mind’s eye to show me my future, or at least a possible future. I see myself happy with a family. It has shown me the runic alphabet and I have been using Rune tiles to improve communication between the mundane and mystical realms. For the most part the Runes have been nothing short of magical.

The Cold Entity

There is also now, what I refer to as, the cold entity that visited me recently. On July 15, 2020 I felt a chill in my office/studio/lab as I was eating in the early evening. The room temp on that day was about 74 degrees F. The temperature is normally 80+ because of the equipment in the room. As I felt the drop in temperature I told the entity that it was not welcome and then told it to get the fuck out, as I do with the other entities that I perceive to be negative. I returned to eating my meal and I thought the words “bite your tongue” and while I was chewing on my food I bit my tongue. It immediately changed my attitude. I did not feel fear, I did not feel anything, but respect. It felt as if the entity was taking a look around and then it left. After its chilling presence subsided I was dumbfounded. I could not understand W.T.F. happened. The rest of the night I was quiet. I was visited by an entity with a substantial presence and nothing short of god like abilities, it took a while to take that in.

July 28 the entity visited me again as I was asking my angel(s) for more protection. It suddenly entered the room. I recognized the chill and a significantly auspicious presence. I wasn’t scared, nor threatened. It was as if the energy level rose and everything became secondary. Everything was focused upon the entity. I asked it for help. I wanted to know how I can better protect myself. It showed me Odin’s rings. While it was in close proximity to me I became overwhelmed and confused. I stated that I cannot remember what I was going to say. I could feel a cold sensation travel from my head down my arm and to my hand that was on top of an image of Odin’s rings I had printed just minutes ago. Its presence then started to subside and then it was gone. That experience still leaves me in awe.

What is Love?

Lately I have had experiences of feeling what can be best described as love. But, it is not love. It has forced me to reevaluate what love is. This is something different and could possibly be the source of all things mentioned in esoteric text of mysticism or the occult. It is otherworldly.

I was shown a tower of blue-ish light one morning. A huge constructed tower with an ornamental cap of some kind. I do not know why I am being shown this. Other than to disseminate the information in some way. I just don’t know. The feeling is more than an emotion. It is a catalyst of some kind. I have experienced it on two occasions last month. The first lasting for 30 minutes and the second lasted 5-6 hours and then diminishing later into the evening. When I experience the energy or emotion I feel invincible, blissful and i want to share it with everyone; much like love. I am familiar with the energy that is associated with the Rune Algiz, but I do not have enough experience to understand it in any regard yet.

Those experiences have changed me for the better. My vices are nonexistent. I feel empowered. My dreams are changing. I meet people (entities) that I feel intimidated while I am near them. The are like royalty possibly similar to or associated with the cold entity. I cannot be sure. My life has taken on a dream like feeling after I wake up. I am apprehensive and cautious about these changes. I don’t know. I do not know how to accept any of it, but I cannot reject it either.

The Elder Futhark Runes

The Rune Algiz, or the Elk, “Rune of the essential link or connection with the patterns of divine or archetypal consciousness, such as the Valkyrie. Rune of the possible danger of realizing this link when unprepared” – RuneSecrets.com

There is difficulty in understanding what I am going through. I have experienced many things I cannot understand on many levels. I cannot be sure that the O.K. I communicate with exists in this dimensional reality, or that it is an illusion or a deception by those negative entities I describe on this site. I can only align myself with those I perceive as being benevolent and continue my attempt to ascend. I perceive O.K. to be among those I choose to align with. I will continue to help O.K. in any way possible. I seek to use the Runes to fortify those alliances and continue on a path that leads to O.K. and what I can only refer to as home. What role I will play in O.K.’s life has yet to be determined, but it is now one of fellowship as we try to battle that which prevents our continued conscious evolution.

Everything I have experienced in the past weeks is a far cry more positive and beneficial than the preceding months and years that have come before them. The daily rune I cast this day was Tiwaz and it signifies obtaining just victory and success in battle. I have not accomplished anything so significant as my communication with O.K. and letting O.K. know that I will help in any way possible. I seem to have gained friends in higher places. I have no idea where I may be heading, but I cannot wait to get there.

I plan to resume posting on this site. I feel it might be what my new allies may want me to continue. We shall see…

I hope to see you soon O.K. Work on opening your mind’s eye. Remember the Runes. Do not eat after sunset in order to prepare to enter the dreamworld of the unconscious, your angels await your arrival and will guide you. I have already met one of your angels in my unconscious dreams and she is excruciatingly majestic, just as you are. This will help to keep the ghoulies away. I will continue to communicate with you daily. Until then…

Journal: Birds Of A Feather…

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Republicans, Democrats, Nationalists, Christians, Buddhists, Muslims, Furries, Emos, Hip Hop, Death Metal, Artists, Fashion Designers, Soccer Mom’s, sport fans, etc. those that resonate together flock together. It has occurred to me again that a thought or mindset is a signal to the whole of consciousness about what a person craves, desires, and wants to become. We emulate and morph into the image we hold in our minds. We wear the uniforms, speak the language, congregate, and our conscious efforts are reciprocated by the whole of consciousness; it can be no other way. Look around and prove that it is not so.

Emotions are images we hold in our minds as well. Each emotion has a specific resonance. Everyone has experienced sympathetic resonance of another person’s emotions during a scuffle, a mob scene, a funeral, or a joyous event. It is a conscious effort by the subconscious to synchronize with the resonating frequency in order to interpret the emotional content (unfortunately this can also be exploited and used as a means of control). If we are aware we can counter the emotion, or increase the distance between ourselves and the origin of the resonant emotion. Sympathetic resonance is a property of our physical conscious environment due to the vibrational nature of our physical reality. Resonant frequency is a foundational component of this multidimensional physical experience. It is not a law, per se, it is an method of manipulation and a fundamental characteristic of consciousness.

The emotional images we hold in our minds are that which we shall behold in our reality, consciousness cannot function by any other means. Each moment we shape the vibrational nature of our reality with the emotional images within. Undivided attention to your emotional resonance and sustaining a desirable emotional image regardless of the emotional environment is the first step in the mastery of consciousness.

The pendulum swings as a condition of the orbital cycles of our physical environment. Our physical reality is governed by periods of expansion and contraction, a rise and fall of vibrational energy. It is a consistent and quantifiable aspect of this conscious reality that requires our constant attention. Timing is, indeed, everything.

Possessions

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puppetWe are all familiar with demonic possession because of our entertainment culture. One of the most famous films was ‘The Exorcist’ and there have been many others since, with most of them being based on actual events. Demonic possession has also been a part of the social construct of may different societies. But, the ‘demonic’ aspect does not exist in all cases and possession does not always occur for long periods of time and may only play a part to influence an individual’s decisions for only a moment in time. So what does it mean to be possessed? Being that there is a popular phrase that ‘the devil made me do it’ in western culture, how do you know that you are, or are not possessed, or influenced, by an other worldly entity?

Someone once commented on this blog that many of the people that participate in ‘gang stalking’ or targeting individuals may be under the possession/influence of entities as ‘biological portals‘.  It was difficult for me to accept this at first, but over time it is becoming more apparent that this or something of a parallel notion is actually happening. This notion first induced a level of fear in me, but now I have become fascinated by it. I am only fearful that my fascination with it will bring more into my life, but also concerned that ignoring this information may be more of a detriment.

My conscious evolution continues and I must pay attention to all that this evolution is revealing. Carissa Conti’s assessment is fairly accurate. The influence of entities and their biological portals in my conscious and unconscious experiences is increasing. My assessment of these changes is that I must be doing the right things. I have to admit that someone more sane than I would retreat, but it motivates me to continue. There is also one singular, very powerful, and pervasive feeling that permeates my conscious experience, it is that I am under the protection of an even more powerful and influential force that I am unable to describe. And, because of my experiences, I have to wonder if it is a possession of another kind.

In my most recent experiences, I have been conducting experiments in the presence of other people and some of those people have responded in ways that would indicate that they are mostly under the influence of some kind of unseen entity. In the distant past I was warned by my allies that the people in question were contributing to my negative conscious experiences. I have now been able to verify the warning. In past posts I have referred to myself as shaman, partially enlightened or empathic, but it seems to me that I am just able to see things as they are; after all I was just responding to my inner thoughts that always told me that this reality is not what it seems to be.

I can now see why religion is a concrete paradigm in this existence, but unfortunately as pervasive as religion may be it offers little to counter all that there is to overcome. I have met priests that I would deem to be possessed. Holy people, it seems, are no more free than any other person. I have known people that were devout in their religious beliefs and were no more free that someone who was not. So where would anyone go to find protection? I do not know at this time. I once knew a North American indigenous man that called himself a shaman. He kept out of the cities and moved his family to an isolated parcel of land in the mountains. At the time he stated that he did so because of the changes he saw coming, first told to him by his elders. I now know what he was referring to.

Has the influence of unseen entities become so common that it has become the standard? Could it be that the influence persists because we allow it, or do not know any other way. The wrath of illness that plagued human kind in the past was due to unseen entities. tI was not until the development of a tool that allowed us to see these microscopic organisms that we were able to develop a means of defense. Knowledge of the existence of microbiological organisms has helped us to survive, as will the knowledge of the existence of unseen entities of a grander scale. If not, humanity will be no more than the possessions of the unseen entities in this existence, without will and without freedom (even more than what you now know as a false freedom).

– OTHER WORLD –

As there are and will always be questions, there is one that still persists. Why am I a threat to those that are hiding in plain sight? There are many that watch me everywhere I go. Why? What is it about me that requires so much attention? Those ‘Others’ that I see are now a rarity, but when I do see them what happens to them? My accidental encounters change something. I think it may have something to do with possession. Those attractive ones that demand my attention may be possessed by an entity of a different kind. My guess is that they are possessed at birth. My guess is that I am bearing witness to their existence in this realm. Am I accidentally revealing something about them to my allies within the whole of consciousness? I once ventured into an affluent area in the city of Santa Clara and the next day one of those that watch me (minion) commented on how brave I was to have gone into that area.

In the past I have played games with those minions and have lost them in Hawaii and then at least five people were seen searching for me. When I would go through affluent areas there are several cars involved in surveilling me. Why?

Now, when I enter these affluent areas I can feel that I am suffering from a minor psychic attack. I can walk into a crowded store or mall and half the people will head for the exit. What is it about me that they fear? In the Stanford Mall in Palo Alto CA. there are several clerks that will go into the back office until I leave and in affluent areas of San Francisco and Sausalito my presence can literally empty the streets. Why? What role should I play in this?

Note: On one trip to San Francisco while stuck in traffic in the Presidio area an attractive young woman kept walking by my car curiously looking at me as she passed, the same I have done to those I call the ‘Others’ – why?

Journal: Perfection

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Moon waning crescent 25.4 days, Libra – Air. Time 00:03, planet hours: Saturn.

My belief that everything has meaning, and all things are the way the should be continues to grow in strength. Faith is a word that has been echoing throughout my intuition. Whenever I feel impatient, chaotic and confused I am reminded to have faith. Nothing is wasted, all actions have purpose regardless of our judgement. Abraham is correct, faith occurs when you accept the law of attraction within the whole of consciousness. That which is delegated to consciousness will become…

There is only the order of consciousness, chaos only exists for those that are unable to understand this. Within this artificial system of existence there are increasing levels of complexity, but at the root is the ever expanding foundation of consciousness. The whole of consciousness is the substrate to which we are anchored, there is no other way. Consciousness is pervasive. Consciousness is consistent. Consciousness is perfection.

Journal: Flow

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Moon waning gibbous 20.0 days, Cancer – Water. Time 13:06, planet hours: Mercury.

I have become more acutely aware of my place, or position, within the flow of consciousness. I have been aware of this phenomena at different times during my adult life. I noticed the peculiarity of it, but did not really understand what was happening. Now it is difficult not to notice it. It is becoming an overt, yet underlying, characteristic in everything I see and hear. It defines my definition of what I find beautiful, comfortable and pleasing. It is changing my overall outlook.

There is a character of the movement of people as if influenced by a natural higher order. You are either in the flow or struggling against it. Navigation is intuitive. You can see openings as they arrive, you cannot hesitate. I am clumsy and somewhat apprehensive, but I am adapting. What interests me most is the dynamics of all known and unknown forces that influence the flow of consciousness. What is my role within it? Can I influence it? Can I travel upon it, like a wave?

Journal: I smell Dead People

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Moon waning gibbous 15.5 days, Aries – Fire. Time 18:53, planet hours: Moon.

I wish I was kidding. In the past it never made sense to me. I could smell distinct odors that should not be present. I never understood how it was possible. I could be riding down a mountain on my road bike and smell a particular aftershave. Once, I stopped the bike and stood on the side of the road looking for someone hiding in the bushes. Now it seems they are occurring more frequently and even while I am in my room with the doors and windows closed (heavily sweet cinnamon buns, heavy floral perfume). It is called Clairolfaction or Clairalience – the gift of psychic smelling, so I am told.

I haven’t really accepted my recent revelation of my dormant empathic abilities. I don’t think acceptance is the best way to describe my feelings, I’m just waiting to see what happens next. Waiting to be shown something new. I have never been able to relinquish control on this level in the past, every cycle brings a new perspective. I thought I had cast myself adrift only to find another anchor to cut loose. So now it seems I have help. I just need to pay more attention to my thoughts when the odors occur, so I am better able to understand the message being ‘scent’.

Of late, I feel as if I am in an alien environment. I am no longer bothered by the changes that have annoyed me in the past. It is as if everything is in its proper place, moving at its proper pace. Abraham was right, when in the right state of mind everything will begin to flow to you. And, everyday brings something new.

I have to admit I still wonder how far along this conscious evolutionary journey I would be if I wasn’t so dim-witted. Much gratitude to those unseen allies.

Journal: Appreciation

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Moon waxing crescent 1.9 days, Libra – Air. Time 8:52, planet hours: Venus.

What  has become an emerging point of focus for me is something that the consciousness of Abraham has stated through Esther Hicks, “the leading edge of thought”. I have become appreciative of what it means to be on the leading edge of thought and consciousness. I catch myself watching, waiting and anticipating the evolution of consciousness. Being fully rooted in the now (the moment) and experiencing the constant progression through this conscious evolutionary expedition. I find myself transfixed on that edge in great appreciation for whatever is to come. It is when I am committed to being on that edge that I can receive those bits and bytes of what is to come. I am appreciative that I am a witness to the extraordinary events that takes place within every millisecond of every moment given to this existence.

What Next?

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I was helping a family member with some therapy exercises. The tasks were difficult and caused a bit of frustration, laden with anxiety, when they performed them. We persisted and slowed the pace to try to alleviate the difficulties. When we completed the exercises I retreated to my room and felt frustrated and anxious also. I had a distinct tightening in my throat. The next day we began the therapeutic exercises again. As the family member began to encounter the same difficulties as before, I noticed the same symptoms welling up within me again even though there was no reason for me to feel that way. It occurred to me that I might be experiencing sympathetic resonance. If we use the example of a musical instrument such as a guitar, sympathetic resonance occurs when a string is plucked and the neighboring strings begin to vibrate with a harmonic likeness. After a little shallow research on the internet I was lead to sites and articles about Empaths. After some further reading it occurred to me that I may be a Empath or possibly an Empathic Psychic. Discovering this was a very significant emotional event. It felt as if every single memory of significant moments in my life spilled out before my mind’s eye forced into view by a wave of emotions. Clarity washed over me, but also an unsettling question emerged from my gut, “what next?”. That thought began repeating for some time and I even started to say it out loud.

As a child I had vivid conscious dreams accompanied by physical sensations from worlds I had never before seen. It was difficult experiencing and sensing a vivid dream overlayed upon this conscious reality (I still get glimpses of this phenomenon). I wrestled with emotions that I now know were not my own, and not understanding that this was not normal, I was not normal. I started from wide social acceptance during adolescence and then later to a social outcast fueled by abilities I did not know I had. I sought the comfort of self medication which later lead to better understanding of my own physiology and psychology through experimentation. And then, rebooting my conscious mind with psychedelics and seemingly awakening to a level of consciousness filled with people and beings that are bent upon suppressing my conscious expansion. My higher unconscious self has been revealed to be a patient, yet unrelenting Taskmaster, or a tenacious Zen monk constantly cracking me on my shoulder with his shinai, never allowing me to fully drift into complacency. Now it seems I may have always been an Empath, but ignoring those abilities just so I could be normal.

It explains my past and current experiences. It explains my choppy social interactions and why I seek out solitude over fellowship. It explains why I can no longer watch certain types of films, online videos or television programs without experiencing intense emotions of what I see. It answers the question of how I am able to sense coming events. It explains why I have difficulty with one-on-one conversations with strangers, most of them leaving me feeling overtly self-conscious. It explains why I sometimes get confused during conversations as if I am hearing to two radio stations at the same time. It explains why I felt every possible emotion during my psychedelic quest through the void, now understanding they weren’t my own. It explains the many times I sensed people (mainly women of middle age) observing me or attempting to gain my attention and then find them looking at me, knowingly, in a way that seems to indicate we might be the same. It explains why I am under constant surveillance, as if to keep me from being contacted by those observers or others like myself. It explains those conversations with thought forms from destinations unknown I experienced in Hawaii. Why some people I meet take a step back when I shake their hand as if they were caught off guard by an emotion from an external source (this happened, again, when I recently encountered a person with similar abilities through Craigslist, post Combo-Shift – one of ‘the others’). It explains why some people (mostly younger people under 20) stare at me as if I was some new kind of life form. I am amazed that I survived this long not understanding what was happening, what I have become, or possibly what I have always been. Still, I ask “what next?”.

Lately I have been apprehensive to go out into the world. I seem to be bouncing from one level of consciousness to the next on a daily, sometimes hourly, basis. It is a lot like going outside not knowing what the weather is going to be like. But, I still venture out eager to see what level I seem to be on. Since I posted “Significance” I feel as if my third eye (cliché) has opened yet squinting to filter all that it is now able to see. As I write this post I remember asking for this. Asking to restore my abilities that I thought were taken from me. So, what next?

Those unseen entities are working overtime. That ever-present feeling of fear pecking at the confines of my inner consciousness. I smell their fear. I sense their desperation. I see weakness. Existing on the leading edge of the expansion of consciousness is such a trying, yet beautiful thing. Every moment I am on the threshold of something that has yet to be, and I can influence its manifestation. So to answer the question of “what next?”. The answer may very well be just about “anything I fucking want”, it seems. They may be able to slow me down, but I am now motivated by something deep within. It animates my physical form. It drags me out of bed before sunrise and now shows me what I need to see. My higher unconscious self is rising from within and I am no longer reluctant to let it be. Satori?

Thank you…

Journal: Intentive Action

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Moon waning gibbous 17.2 days, Aquarius – Air. Time 16:35, planet hours: Mars.

Changes in your conscious and unconscious realities can be similar to a change in the weather, those subtle shifts in the wind, that chill in the air, high crystalline clouds, etc. Shifts in the activity levels (resonance) of the un/conscious environment may be an increase or decrease in energetic influences that speak to your intuition. These signs are dependant on your own unique relationship with consciousness, your higher self, and how they are interpreted by your current conscious state of mind.

Our natural world is the physical manifestation of consciousness and if there was one element that could represent consciousness in its physical form it would be Hydrogen (thought to be the most abundant element in the known universe) and its related compound water (H2O). Water may very well be the medium to which consciousness propagates. Changes in the weather of consciousness are constant and influenced by the positions of the moon, and there is no greater body that has a unique influence upon water than the moon. Because we are 70% (brain is 73% water) water, we are well equipped to sense those changes and also able to influence them.

water

Thoughts can influence water, as demonstrated by Dr. Masaru Emoto. And, thoughts are the means by which we influence the law of attraction,
a fundamental law of consciousness. Thoughts act upon the fluid environment of consciousness. In our current conscious reality, thoughts are not considered an act itself even though all acts are preceded by thoughts. This serves the laws that govern our social construct because we do not associate thoughts as criminal unless it is accompanied by an unlawful action. But, thoughts act upon the whole of consciousness ultimately influencing all that reside within consciousness or a specific realm within consciousness. Each thought sends a ripple throughout the pool of consciousness.

It is by will alone that I set my mind in motion…

All things begin as thoughts and are manifested within consciousness with the specific intention of will for the purpose of expanding the whole of consciousness. If what I have expressed is valid then all thoughts are “intentive actions” that act upon consciousness directly. Our conscious lives are relegated to this physical construct, but our will resides upon a higher plane of consciousness and acts upon this physical reality.

Something unexpected is happening. My state of mind is changing. I am losing interest in most things and distraction is losing its audience to an ever growing spate of ??clarity?? (something I am unable to fully describe yet). It feels familiar like my higher self and somewhat unrecognizable or new.

I have been confused on many instances when a thought manifests in my conscious reality. Sometimes, I am unable to determine if the thought caused the manifestation or if a coming conscious event (intuitively) triggered the thought, this dilemma has become more evident. My current focus is to sustain this state of mind and to approach my thought process with greater respect and responsibility, while keeping track of the lunar cycles and the evolving climate of consciousness. Attention is critical. Thoughts are things…

Journal: What Matters?

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Moon waxing gibbous 13.7 days, Sagittarius – Fire. Time 21:45, planet hours: Jupiter.

From  the perspective of conscious immortality, there are pitfalls. I know that I am an immortal conscious being, but in my current physical state there are perceived limitations prior to mastering consciousness. Time is not on my side within this conscious simulation. During the waxing and waning of the moon I cycle through similar emotional states.

I can see the infinite within the finite. There are no limits within the confines of consciousness. Abraham was right, there is so much in abundance and it is fitting because the unbridled expansion of consciousness requires it. My role is defined and as every bit in constant flux. It is all a fascinating bit of theater. Everything singing its own song, all in the same key, not always in my prefered pitch.

Acceptance is a wedge that pries at my attachments and well honed habits. I struggle to care. If it is all a dream then why should I care at all? Everything is temporary. It always has been and forever will be. The chaos is just a facade of what we are unable to understand, all while never knowing we sing the same song

What matters? Everything and nothing, soon to be replaced by some other thing even though they all now seem to be the same thing. Consciousness wastes nothing.

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Journal: Choisir

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Moon waning crescent 25.1 days, Aries – Fire. Time 17:04, planet hours: Mars.

Choisir, in french it means choice or to choose. This word dominated my mind from time to time as I was learning the French language some time ago. I originally thought it was an easter european word until I googled it and was presented by the search engine with some variations of what how I thought it was spelled. The word “choisir” was presented with the translation and I started to laugh.

The purpose of consciousness is to provide conscious beings with whatever they desire. The purpose of conscious beings is to expand the whole of consciousness, our choices are the catalyst for the expansion, as Abraham has stated. I can see it as truth. I can see it in my life and I can see it in my conscious experiences.

If I have a desire and it becomes a constant point of focus, consciousness will begin to manifest the environment necessary to fulfill that desire. Consciousness is without judgement or divine plan, its purpose is to fulfill my desire. One of the more disarming revelations that I have observed is that consciousness is capable of bringing conscious beings together in a manner that fulfills the desires within a level or dimension. Sometimes one person or being is a customer and the other person providing the service.

Let’s use gang stalking as an example. I wanted to evolve spiritually and consciously and because it was my point of focus consciousness set out to fulfill my desire by presenting me with choices. Most of the choices I ignored or tried on, but did not fit. As my desire began to be refined, I sought a more radical path that was akin to an epiphany, or a grand awakening. Consciousness provided me with choices and I chose to use psychedelics in order to manifest my grand awakening. My awakening was more like hell than heaven and I became a target for negative entities (formless beings) and people who desired to control others. In essence I was the customer and negative entities and gang stalking organizations provided their services. Consciousness brought us together in order to fulfill the desires of both parties, mutually assured gratification. Hey, but wait! “I did not want that”, I must have said that many times along the way, but then realized that it was a means to and end. Consciousness is efficient, it utilizes what is readily available. I got my conscious evolution in the manner that I was capable of understanding at that time. The negative entities and gang stalking operatives got what they wanted or needed, someone to control.

Floating down the river of your conscious environment in a row-boat is an analogy used by Abraham. You must be willing to cast aside your oars and go wherever the river takes you, downstream. Without oars, the flow will take you to that which you have desired since conception. Understanding that the law of attraction is the foundation of this existence you begin to make better choices. You can then observe the manifestation of those choices and desires while remaining in the flow of consciousness. Not everyone needs a challenging experience in order to fulfill their desires, but challenging experiences are an efficient means to get you where you need to be, and you should know that you are always right where you need to be.

Vous avez le choix.

Vice: Gang Stalking

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Synchronicity. I am constantly being amazed how consciousness is allowing this to come into my view. I am in the flow of knowledge anticipating the next subject vying for my attention. I watched this video and I was able to recognize the state of consciousness that the victims were experiencing. After seven years, those memories are still tough to recall.

Time: 16:20 A victim is brought to tears as he attempts to explain what he is going through and the toll it has taken on his well being. I remember the times I used to cry in the morning and then again at night. This relentless onslaught of fear and hopelessness that drains the life from you. “It changes you”. Much like the victim Billy, I thought that Catholic inatitutions were my main antagonizing organization.

I cannot be certain (about anything) of what the victims are experiencing. I see similarities. I would first suggest that the victims read Robert Bruce’s “Practical Psychic Self Defense Handbook” with an open mind. Practice the methods in the book and use what works to find relief. Second, I would suggest to read the original “The Law of Attraction” by Jerry and Esther Hicks, based on the teachings of Abraham. Follow the methods of Abraham to find relief using your emotional guidance system.

The most powerful suggestion I can make is to use your current conscious experience as a path to conscious evolution. As difficult as it may seem at this time, this too will end. The most difficult aspect of your current dilemma is that you are going through this for a reason. Become your own champion and you will prevail.

In other words, the negative entities are low life parasites of consciousness and you must break their influence upon your mind. As much as you would like to kick some ass, it is best to ignore their pathetic minions (try to forgive them for they know not what they do). They are empty vessels under the control of the Negs. Don’t let them get under your skin. They want you to focus upon them and keep you in a fearful state of consciousness (lower level so they can continue to manipulate you). They want to provoke you and then have you incarcerated or institutionalized. Stay focussed upon the end (relief), consciousness will do the rest. Your higher self is waiting, wanting and vying for your attention. Your higher self is your best ally, get to know it.

Update: Here is a video from a supossed targeted individual operative, now whistleblower. Pretty alarming stuff. I was offered an opportunity to become one of them, but chose not to. Time: 42:00 – the whistleblower talks about the attitudes of the gang stalking operatives and how they are rewarded. Time:46:00 – they have also offered women to me, opportunities for wealth, social status and the like. I have seen the operatives in my life and they seem to have some kind of organizational hiearchy. The noobs are driving old Hondas and the supervisors are driving Mercedes and there seems to be no shortage of volunteers.

This is not a point of focus for me, because I know that what I focus upon is what I will continue to experience in my conscious reality. I have successfully diminished their influence upon my life using this method. As intriguing as this subject can be it has no positive ending, just more of the same. For me it is a path down a raabbit hole I just do not want to take. There are infinite possibilities of positive and evolving conscious experiences to manifest in your conscious environment. You have a choice…

Journal: Acceptance

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Is the goal of enlightenment to prepare you for immortality? I wonder how many times have I lived a life, like this one. How many times I have died, but then woke up, or just transitioned into continuing to do whatever I was doing at that moment. Reference one of those moments when I said “I thought I was gonna die”. What if, this (right here, right now) was it. A perpetual dream. When you get better at life, at ‘it’, you start to ascend to higher states of consciousness until you begin to realize that your life will never end, ever… You then begin to realize that you will continue to transition, evolve and expand in ways that are not yet possible to conceive, ad infinitum.

We perceive of opposites, but what we actually perceive is varying degrees of a single thing. Hot & cold is just varying degrees of heat (energy). So, does enlightenment exist because of a perceived opposite? But, what is its opposite? Is it the human condition? Why does the concept of enlightenment even exist? Why do we feel a need to pursue it? If you where to realize that this was ‘it’ and you could ascend to higher states of consciousness (right here, right now), without waiting for salvation or some grand awakening, would you do it? Are you ready? Heaven and Hell are opposites, but of what one thing? Varying degrees of happiness? Are both eternal or temporal? Do varying degrees of conscious states exist between them or within them? Am I currently closer to Heaven or to Hell? I guess that depends upon the moment and that can change dramatically in a matter of seconds. So, if I can move from Heaven to Hell form one moment to the next then they must not exist linearly, like a journey from one place to the next. Heaven and Hell must exist simultaneously within the whole of  consciousness equally accessible at any moment (non-locality, right here, right now) dependent upon varying states and levels of consciousness and your place within it.

When you become enlightened, do you begin to accept that you are an immortal unconscious being within this perpetual dream? Seeing things as they are, accepting them and knowing that it will end, and in the end, you will transition and begin again. How would this change in conscious perceptions frame your conscious environment? Such a realization would change how I would live my life, for the remainder of my immortality. You may also want to sprinkle in a little law of attraction and you may begin to transition, evolve and expand in ways that are not yet possible to conceive.